I Lived

It was funny how life worked out sometimes I thought as I stared at the photo frame in my hand, one minute your life is going miserable and all you have to do is your school work; but then something changes. Something in your life changes, I wondered if it was an overnight thing or someone had just turned the page to a brand new chapter of the characters life was beginning to start. Or maybe you meet someone new, different to you but yet you instantly click and just want to know every single detail of their life like, who their first grade teacher was or what they're favourite season was and why that was their favourite and having an hourly length conversation/debate about it.

"Spence!" I hear a voice snapping me out of my thoughts and looking up from the photo frame to see my older sister Melissa standing there.

Melissa said "Finally, what are you looking at?" she enters the room and looks at the photo frame.

"I'm sorry, I was just thinking about how funny life can be."

"Yeah life is certainly funny at times," Melissa said while resting a hand upon her pregnant belly. Never would I have thought my sister Melissa would want to become a mother without being settle into a career but again life is a very funny thing.

I asked "Do you need me to get you something?"

Melissa replied with "Yes, I can't reach the chocolate in the kitchen cupboard and I've tried but I keep hitting my stomach against the cupboard; which isn't good for the baby. I would ask someone else but you're the only one in the house," with the pregnancy Melissa and I had started to have an actual loving sibling relationship.

Smiling, I say "It's fine; I'll come help you." Standing up from my sofa, I place the photo frame back on the cupboard it belongs and I stared at it one more time. In the photo was Hanna, Aria, Emily and I, I was the one taking the photo and when I had taken the photo Emily had been looking directly at me. I never realised back then how much she truly loved me, as more than just her best friend but in I want a relationship with you way.

My proudest moment I've ever felt for Emily was when she admitted to all of us that she was gay, it was before this photo that she told us. Emily had sat us all down in the brew late one night after she had finished up and had to close-up, the rest of had kept her company while studying and it was clear to us from the minute we walked in there was something different about Emily. After a refill of coffee for each of us and a hot chocolate for herself, she sat down and stared at us. I've never figured it out but Emily has this way of making others feel her emotions without even looking at her and we could all feel this worry, concern and sacredness coming from Emily.

Looking up at Emily we all saw her nervousness and I noticed her digging her nails into the pams of her hands, something was different with our friend. Emily took one final deep breath with her eyes closed and whispered out 'I'm gay,' we all watched as this massive burden lift off Emily's shoulders and just left her body completely; it was a truly beautiful sight to see. Aria, Hanna and I all looked at each other with blank faces but we could read each other's eyes and the next minute we all jumped up off our seats and crushed Emily in a big hug. We loved Emily no matter what and we took this photo to symbolise the love we shared for our friend Emily, we'd never stop being Emily's friend; it just wasn't possible.

"Spence!" I heard a voice shout behind me and I look to see Melissa was now standing in front of me with an inpatient look.

"Sorry, I just got lost in the photo," I say while holding the picture frame out for Melissa to take.

Melissa asked "You never told me what so special about this photo?"

I replied with "It was the day I finally knew."

"Knew what?" Melissa asked while becoming enhanced with the magic of the picture frame.

I went to reply, when another voice spoke "It was the day she knew she had a chance with me," looking around Melissa I smile when I see Emily standing there leaning against the door frame all calm and collective.

Melissa asked "How did you know on that day you had chance with Emily?"

"That photo was taken the day Emily came out, she came out to the girls and I," I smile at the end remembering the proud and happy feelings I had that day. Emily walked more into my room she was wearing her blue sharks track suit with one of my black shirts, her sharks swim bag was hanging on her shoulder and looking at her hair I smiled at Emily's soaked hair.

When the girls or anyone else would ask me what my favourite thing about Emily was, I would always reply with running my fingers through her wet hair. Hearing a giggling sound I looked up to see Emily had drop her bag to the ground and moved to wrap her arms around Melissa from behind, she had placed her head on Melissa shoulder and she causally looked at the photo.

When Melissa found out I was dating Emily, she knew before my parents and two months after we told the girls. Melissa was truly happy for us, she was excited about me being with Emily, I never truly understood but Melissa would say we were perfect for each other. I did agree with her that it seemed like Emily and I were destine to be together, we've known each other for years and never not gone a day longer without speaking. When Emily held me in her arms I fit perfectly like I was meant to in her arms and when Emily's is having a rough day which she never let on to me before we began dating, I found ways in calming her down. The most affective away of calming Emily down was by standing behind her, wrapping my arms around her and kiss in between her shoulder blade, continuing upwards to the neck.

"Spence," I heard a concern filled Emily's voice say.

I replied with "Sorry, I keep marvelling in the joys of being with you and having you in my life." I smiled at Emily's blush but what made me smile even bigger was Emily's smile, her smile was very catchy; it's hard not to smile around Emily.

Emily said "What's the plan for today?"

I replied with "Nothing really, I thought we could just hung in here and just enjoy being in each other's presents."

"Sounds good to me," Emily said while stepping away from Melissa and moving to flop down onto my bed. Standing up from my sofa chair, I move across to sit down on the bed and I sit above Emily's head. Emily understand what I want to do, she wriggles more upwards to me and lays her head in my lap. Running my hands through Emily's chlorine soaked hair is an amazing feeling, and I wouldn't give it up for anything. Staring down into Emily's eyes as she stared back up into mine, I don't think she quite understood my enjoyment in running my fingers through her hair but she saw or knew how happy it made me.

"Argh! You two are no help to me!" I hear Melissa say before walking out of the room and closing the door, but I can't remove my eyes from looking down at Emily because I don't want to miss a single second with her.

"I love your eyes, I love your nose, I love your mouth, I love the freckles on your forehead you try to hide from the world and I love your hair. I love the dimples that appear when you smile, I love your neck, I love peppering your neck with feather light kisses and I love you running your fingers through my hairs," Emily spoke while looking up at me.

"I love everything about you Spencer Hastings, your personality, your everything Spencer and the only thing I would change about you would be changing your last name to Fields," Emily said with a smile on her face.

"What do you mean by changing my last name?" I asked I knew what she meant but at the same time I had no clue what she was meaning.

Emily rolled over so she was now sitting one her knees in front of me, Emily smiled and said "I mean this Spencer," confused I squint my eyes at Emily and I watch as she reaches into her pocket for something but I don't know what it is.

"I've asked your sister Melissa, I've asked you're soon to be brother-in-law Ian, I've asked your Mum Mrs Hastings and I've asked your Dad Mr Hastings. I've asked them all, I've explain to all of them what I wanted to do and what I want their permission for. Some of them not naming names but your Dad, took a while in coming around to the idea and I had to prove myself more than once without your knowledge," Emily said all of this and I tried to stop myself from gasping but I couldn't help it because I thought I worked out what was happening. Suddenly my bedroom door opens and in walks Aria, holding a purple card with different photos of Emily and I together over the years.

"You have been the number one constant person in my life, with my parents always flying way you opened your family and more importantly your heart to me and allowed me inside," as Emily spoke she shuffled of the bed and held her hand outwards to me. I placed my hand carefully inside Emily's and she pulled me to sit on the edge of the bed. Then in walks Hanna carrying a red card with word or sayings Emily I have had, the inside jokes that no one knows and just the things that built us to form this loving relationship we have today.

"You are the only person I've ever want to be with Spence, there's never been anyone else and I don't want there to be. You are my first true love and I'm hoping you'll be my last true love," as Emily spoke Ian walked in holding a yellow card with the word 'I Do' written in big block letters.
Emily clears her throat and said "Will you Spencer Hastings, my one true love, my best friend in this whole entire world do me the proud honour in becoming my wife?" Emily brought out a black velvet box and opening the lip revealed a three crate diamond ring. As tears of joy rolled down my cheek, Melissa and my parents walked in carrying a different coloured sign each. Melissa sign was blue with the words 'Emily+' my Mum's sign was green and had the words 'Spencer=' and lastly Dads sign was orange and have the words 'The Fields.' Smiling at everyone in the room at least once before looking down at nervous Emily on one knee holding out this beautiful diamond ring, it was moments like these that I lived for.

"Yes, of course I'll marry you and become a Fields; I would be honoured," I breathed out as everyone in the room scream and shouted in joy for us. Emily's focus remained on me the whole entire time, I watch her with shaky hands remove the ring from the box, to slip onto my left ring finger which I held out for her. Once the ring was on my finger this big bubbly smile came upon Emily's face, it was a beautiful smile to see and her eyes sparkled.

"She said yes!" Emily shouts as she jumps up from the ground to stand, she starts fist pumping the air. When Emily finishes her celebration she brings me into her arms, we share a kiss filled with passion, love, emotion, heart and just everything that we felt for each other was brought into the kiss.

"And that kids is how the life of my life proposed to me, I had no idea she was going to proposed to me which made it such a surprise." Looking out in front of as I come out of haze, everyone in the room is paying attention to but her, she's not she's asleep and has completely forgotten who I am. My Emily, my beautiful Emily Fields, my wife, the love of my life was diagnosed with Alzheimer when she was sixty-six; it was hard on me because she didn't know what was going on because the disease was already taking her away from me.

We got given a couple of good months but Emily got too bad, I had to put her in a home where she could be looked after and I was able to get a job at the nursing home to help look after her. It pained me to see my Emily going through this, forgetting who I am, forgetting that I am her wife and seeing her flirt with other women in the nursing home. It was all very hard but that's what you do for the life of your life, you stick with them through sicken and in health, in good times and bed and you never give up on each other; not for a second. I was given the chance to have this incredible person in my life and I wouldn't change it for the world, yes the time was short but that's what life is; very short and you need to live every moment like it's your last.

The End.