Chapter twenty eight: Live with myself.

Alec knew about this. That's what I couldn't shake. He knew that Leah was carrying a kid, Jacob's kid none the less, and he wanted her to use it... As an excuse to get me not to fight?! That was low. Low on many levels, yet it was so Alec!

Of course he would do something like that! He was a Volturi member. He only thought about himself, his coven, and how it would benefit him. He didn't want me to fight because he thought I was incapable of doing so; and I'd slow him and his coven down. But surely he would be able to see that I could hold my own? That I was getting better?! Jane could vouch for me! Hell, they all could!

I could see why he wanted me to be there for Leah. Keeping her on her own wouldn't be a good thing; especially in her condition. She couldn't be that far along, for she wasn't showing in the slightest. Hell, I couldn't believe it when it first was said. It wasn't until I concentrated and listened to her heart that I heard the small murmur of another beat.

Despite the fact Leah and I wasn't what you'd call 'close' or relatively friends, at all, I would have been the best choice to stay with her... But I wasn't thinking like that. I was too caught up on the selfishness of Alec's beliefs. The fact that he was willing to use anything and anyone, an unborn child none the less, to get what he wanted!

"Renesmee, allow me to explain myself," Alec said as he sighed deeply through his nose.

I quickly crossed my arms. "Go ahead."

He crossed over the room and sat himself down opposite me. How could he be so calm about this? Didn't he have any moral as to what he was doing? What he had planned on doing? Using an unborn child was by no means the most selfish thing I had ever heard of Alec doing, and I'd heard some sick stories. I knew where my parents stood with me joining in on this, but at least they had the decency to allow me to make up my own mind. They stood back and let me choose what I wanted to do; for I was old enough to make my own decisions.

And yet here Alec was trying to force me into something... Getting Jacob and Leah to be pawns in his little manipulating game.

"You have to understand the logical side of things, Renesmee."

Logical side? I didn't see that in the slightest. In fact, I saw the total opposite. Alec's plan on using Leah and her baby wasn't 'logical' in the slightest. It was stupid, narrow minded and selfish.

"You are by no means ready to go into a battle," Alec explained. "It would put your families mind at ease if you were to stay behind. It would ease Jacob to know someone was there for Leah during her current situation."

"She can handle herself," I spat like acid. "And as for not being ready... I've gotten better."

Alec's lips quirked up in the smallest of ways. Ugh! Even now, when I am trying to be angry with him; he is still able to make my stomach flutter!

"Ask Jane, ask anyone. I've gotten good."

"I know." Alec nodded, the slight upturn to his lips still present. "You've done well, and I am immensely proud of you. But, you aren't up to our standards."

"But neither is my family!" I quickly shot back at him.

"They might not be, but they are closer than what you are."

He couldn't be serious, could he? I had gotten better! I was close enough to taking on Jane. Sure, maybe it would take a while longer to get to that stage; but she wasn't taking me down as easily had she had been. I could stand my own. All of them could see it, right?

But if it was true, and I wasn't up to 'their' standards - when really, I knew it was his own personal standards I evidently didn't make the cut of - I wasn't the only one. So I used that as the basis of my argument.

"Delilah isn't either."

Alec full blown smiled and tilted his head down. I was positive his chin was touching his chest. His shoulders raised and fell in gentle movements as he chuckled silently.

"It's not funny, Alec. It's true. If I'm not good enough, then neither is she. I've been a vampire longer than what she has. I know how to do more things than what she can."

Alec looked up through his dark lashes.

"Delilah is a fast learner. She can hold her own, even without our training provided."

I parted my lips to speak, but Alec cut in. "And she knows the immortals we will be going against. She will know their tactics, and how to avoid them. You on the other hand-"

No. No, this wasn't happening. I wasn't babysitting. I refused to sit here and do nothing while they ran off and fought. I didn't want to think it, but I couldn't help it. What would happen if I were to be here, with Leah, and something were to happen? What if one of them were to fall? My parents, my grandparents, Jacob, the pack... Or anyone of them?

What if he fell to her?

I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I were to have just... Sat here and done nothing. I wasn't going to do the same thing my mother done when her life was under threat due to newborns. She stood back with my father, and it had ended up in Jacob getting hurt.

"I'm not useless, Alec." I placed the glass of water on the table and quickly stood up. Alec followed me with his eyes, but otherwise made no attempt at moving. "I promise."

Alec scoffed, but it wasn't the 'chuckling' kind of scoff. He was no longer mocking me in a humorful way. This was just downright mocking me.

"You can't promise that." Alec said. "You have no idea what awaits us out there."

"You don't either!" I ran both my hands into my hair. I felt as though my head was going to explode. How could we have this conversation? I had made it clear to him already. I was going to fight whether he liked it or not. "You know just as much as I do of what might be out there."

"I have a better intuition, actually." Alec shrugged his shoulders while clasping his hands together. His elbows rested against his knees as he leant forward. "I've been in situations like this before."

Oh, he was no doing this! He was not using his past experiences in 'battles' on me. That was besides the point. Those battles were a thing of the past. Who was to say something could happen?! He had been against countless immortals that he could over power; and yet this one... She was a mirror. He wouldn't be able to overpower her in a way that came natural to him. He was going to have to rely solely on his physical skills and not use his greatest weapon.

"Not with her you haven't." I snapped right back at him. "This is different Alec. This is a lot more dangerous."

"Precisely why I don't want you to be there!" Alec's hands ripped away from one another and bolted up in a hand gesture as if to say 'exactly! You've finally got the point.'

"But I can keep my own! I can."

"I know you can," Alec sighed deeply and pinched the bridge of his nose. His head shook side to side in what I'd presume as exhaustion. Be it exhaustion of this fight, or this subject, or me... I don't know. But he was exasperated for some reason. "I know you can, but you can't go out there."

"And why not?" I stood my ground and put my hands onto my hips; just to sell the statement a little bit more.

"Your inexperience, Renesmee. That's why. I know you've been doing good in training, believe me. I know. I got a few looks of disapproval from Demetri and Felix, who usually stand by me when I have made a decision about something. They believe in you, and I want too.. But training isn't the real thing, Renesmee. Training is anything but the real thing. At the end of training, what do you do?"

He turned his eyes up to look at me, and I could see the raw truth behind them. He wasn't sugar coating anything more. He was telling me how it was; and how he saw it. Alec was a stubborn one, but then again, I was too. I supposed this was one of our clashing persona's. Both of us wanting our own way... Doing whatever it takes to get it.

He wasn't so much as chip off the ole' block after all.

"... I come home?" I whispered, for he made no attempt to go on until I answered.

"Exactly." He swallowed hard. "You come home, you're surrounded by people you love. With the real thing... There is always that possibility that won't happen. Lives can be lost. Sure, we will do all we can do to prevent that, but it can still happen... And judging by the way her abilities and her newborns work... That percentage is rather high."

He was just telling me everything I knew already. Some of us, our 'team' if you like, could die. I didn't want that to happen. Over the past few days, I had made bonds with people I'd never have believed I could. Demetri and Felix were as hilarious as ever. Felix had especially gotten along with Emmett, which is surprising to say the least. Sure, Demetri tended to stay by Janes side; but he socialized with me... My mom, and I had walked in on him having a full blown conversation with Esme about types of flowers.

And Jane... Jane spoke more than what I had ever witnessed her doing. She engaged in brief conversation with my father, and often... I'd see her actually reply to Seth trying to speak to her. For this little battle, this terrible circumstance, the two covens that had once been at odds with one another were finally coming together. They were seeing that we weren't so different after all. Despite our obvious food preference, were the same. Alec and I...

"Which is why I wanna help..."

"You'll be more of a burden than a help, Renesmee."

Why did everyone keep saying that?! Leah had said the same thing, more or less. And now him too? Were they talking in secret? Conspiring against me, and trying to insult me into not going along? It wouldn't work. If anything, it would make me more interested in wanting to help; just to prove them wrong.

"Alec..."

He was looking directly at me, and I could see the determination within his eyes. He wasn't going to give up on this as easily as I would have hoped he would. I once believed that in whatever kind of relationship Alec and I had, despite how stubborn we both could be, he was the head of it all; his decisions always went through. But I... I was the neck, and I had the ability to turn him anyway I wanted to. But now... Now I wasn't so sure. The look in Alec's eyes gave me the warning, the belief that no matter how hard I tried, there would be little chance of me changing his mind. Little chance... Still a small smidgen of hope there, and I would cling onto it for as long as I could.

"When you say I'm not up to the Volturi standards, I can't help but feel as though I'm not up to yours." I huffed out a small breath. "I know that you think this is dangerous, and it most likely will be... But I can't sit back and do nothing while my family... While you are out there risking your lives for us... For me."

Alec looked down to his feet and sighed. "It's my job, Renesmee."

"No." I shook my head. "This has nothing to do with your job, or your responsibilities as a Volturi guard or anything like that. This is to do with something you have against me. Whatever it is, I'm sorry. Whatever it is, I want to prove that I can handle myself."

Alec looked up, and frowned at me. "Re-"

I shook my head yet again and quickly interrupted. "Let me finish."

Alec's lips fell to a close and he bowed his head gently. He had his say, now it was my turn. If a speech was what was needed to change his mind, I'd rake one up from the darkest part of my mind. I'd find the words that could hopefully change his mind. I'd do whatever it takes to make him believe in me.

"You won't have to look over your shoulder to protect me. No one will, because I will be right there; holding my own just as good as you will."

Alec was so silent, I was positive a drop of a pin could be heard. If he was breathing, he was doing it discreetly. There was no gentle rustle of the fabric against his skin, or the sound of air passing his lips. Just complete and utter silence.

Whoever said silence was bliss was terribly wrong. The silence just fueled the uneasy feeling I had within the pit of my gut. Anything could be going through that mind of his, anything at all; and I hadn't the slightest clue as to what it was. He was impassive as ever, keeping all traces of thought or emotion from his face.

When he did move, it was to smile and bow his head. Probably to hide his amusement from me, or the fact he was silently laughing at my obvious failed attempt. I automatically put my hands onto my hips.

"This isn't funny, Alec!"

"Oh, but it is." He commented back with a free flowing chuckle. "I believed I had you all figured out... That you wouldn't wish to harm a fly and innocence was just your nature. And yet here you are, trying to convince me to go into a battle where you will be expected to execute someone. Are you telling me that you are willing to do such a thing, Renesmee?"

My eyes widened a little. I hadn't... I hadn't really thought of it like that. I knew what this battle meant... To save my families existence, to save Alec's - not that I wanted to believe he was in any real danger - but when he said it the way he had... Worded it the way he did; that's when it finally sunk in.

It wasn't 'newborns' or an 'army.'

These were once people, still were people.

People just like my family. Just like Alec and his family. They went through everything that Alec, Jane, my parents and every single vampire out there had gone through to become what they were; and although they were being used for a malicious act, that didn't make them malicious people; did it?

I could look at Delilah and use her for an example, and those who wanted to help her no matter what. They still all had feelings... They all had someone that cared about them, be it human life or not. Bonds were always made in covens, even without realizing it. It must have taken everything Delilah had to betray her family like that, because that is what they were at the end of the day. Sure, a delusional, messed up family... But a family none the less.

"I didn't think so." He said as he stood himself up. He moved around the coffee table and placed his hands onto my shoulders. I stared up into his eyes with mixed emotions.

"Stay with Leah. If not for us, then for yourself. Aro will most likely leave behind a few of our guards to watch over both of you, and you know full well how Leah feels towards our kind."

Was it best if I stayed back? Away from the danger, away from the threat of death? Alec had said... It would give them all a piece of mind. It would make them feel at ease to know I was at home, safe. But was I really? I didn't want to think of this outcome, but what if they were to fail? A few Volturi guards, although being highly trained, wouldn't be able to take down Lilianna's numbers, even if most of them were to be disposed of; right?

If that were to happen... Leah and I... No, Leah, the baby and I won't be safe at all.

Hell, could she even phase in the state she was in? I'd never asked what it was like when a shapeshifter phased; but if it was anything like I'd seen on the movies - a quick snapping of bones - then surely it would harm the kid? Leah wouldn't be able to defend herself... Would I really be able to defend her, alongside the baby and myself if it was just me?

I didn't think I would be able too.

But standing by them... The Volturi, the most feared coven in all the world, walking into battle as one of their own beside my family, I had a better chance.

"Alec, wait."

Alec stopped, for he had taken his hands off my shoulder and walked to the door. Probably to tell those who had stayed behind from hunting - since I was sure they were going to take it in turns - that they could come in now. He turned and arched an eyebrow at me curiously.

"Yes?"

It was then that I realized... Despite these newborns being people just like Alec and myself, they were still dangerous... And they were still created to kill my family and those I love.

It didn't matter what you were, or who you were... I would do anything for the people I loved.

"I am willing to do it."

Alec frowned at me. He didn't react right away, but when he did; I was sure my heart skipped a little beat. His eyes flared with a mixture of irritation and anger. It looked as though Alec thought he had won this little quarrel we had been having. How sweet. He of all people should know I wouldn't give up so easily, even though he had practically almost 'won.'

"Think this through, Ren-"

"I have, and I want to help."

"You won't be able to turn back," he quickly said within one breath. Probably so I wouldn't interrupt him again. "Once you've taken a life, that's it. On your conscience forever."

"You're not going to change my mind." I crossed my arms to make it a little more effective. It worked. He gritted his teeth and slowly emerged back into the room.

The last time I saw his eyes this engulfed in rage, I had been pinned up against the wall...

"Fine," Alec said through clenched teeth. "If I cannot change your mind and have you sit back willingly, I will have no choice but to force you to stay behind."

My mouth flew open in defiance. "What! You can't do that!"

"Oh, but I can." He retorted back. "And I will."

"That isn't fair!"

"Life isn't fair."

He was being cold with me again. He was trying to use this to... Scare me into submission? I wasn't sure; but it wasn't going to work. I wasn't going to sit back and go by his orders. Everyone else was getting the chance to prove themselves; so why couldn't I?!

"I'm going whether you like it or not."

"No, you're not. If I have to have someone hold you here captive, I will."

I felt like a child. A child being disciplined; or not getting their own way. Either way, I wanted to scream and shout. I wanted to throw a tantrum. Something I had never done in my life... I think. I wasn't too sure if I had ever thrown a tantrum before; for I'd always gotten what I wanted. It made me sound spoiled, I know; but it was true. My family made sure I wanted for nothing. Perhaps that was why I was so stubborn nowadays? Because I was so used to getting what I wanted, that not getting it my way... Irritated me.

But this was the first time I ever recall wanting to throw my hands up and scream at him.

"Why not?! Everyone else is expected to go along! Why do I have to stay here?!"

"Because I don't care about them, God damnit!" He hissed back while his hand slammed itself against a table. I was sure I saw a few cracks emerging through the surface of where he hit. "I can't lose you more than what I already have."

All the air that was within my lungs vanished.

"What?" I eventually managed to breathe out.

Alec's cold hard expression never once changed. The only thing that did, was his lips twisting from the firm line as they parted to speak.

"They can handle themselves. They know what they are getting themselves into. We've given the offer not to accompany us, but they are the ones consistent in wishing to do so." Alec explained, rather simply.

"But... You're family-"

"We know the dangerous as to what might come, Renesmee. We face them every time we get into something like this. Our paths are not set in stone. Our fates aren't for certain; and we know how to handle it when one of our own pass."

I couldn't help but wonder if it had happened before. Had Alec's coven suffered a loss in the field of battle before? Someone that the coven was preferably fond of? Of course, there was Didyme; but she was a known loss to the Volturi. The beloved wife of Marcus, and the cherished sister of Aro. Her loss was probably most known about the Volturi - but any others... Were like myths. The Volturi never lost a member through death. Hell, I hadn't even heard of them ever losing a member after Eleazar.

"Even as a vampire, we are not one hundred percent indestructible. The possibility of one of us dying is just as much as it is for a simple nomad - perhaps slimmer due to the training. However it's still there, and of course losing one of my own may affect us in different ways... Despite that, we will get over it and move on. But with you..."

I could feel my heart beginning to hammer rather frantically in my chest.

"Renesmee, I-" Alec cut himself off and let out a larger sigh. His hand that lay flat on the surface he had slammed it against clenched into a fist as he looked to the floor. "I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something were to happen to you."

Bringing up the past seemed to have become a good cliche of mine, for it was all I seemed to ever be doing when it came to Alec. It was as if there was a part of me that just couldn't let any of that go... And perhaps that was because if I did; it would be like finally letting him go. Something I knew I would have to do eventually, but never wanted to fully accept.

To me, despite how stupid it might sound - since we weren't really together anymore - giving up Alec would be like a human giving up air. Simply impossible to do. In order to live, I needed to have Alec.

Slowly, I was beginning to see that this could be the reasoning behind Alec's wishes for me to stay behind too. He could survive not being around me; but knowing I was alive. Just like I had proved I'd been able too. However, he wouldn't be able to live with himself if something were to happen to me.

Alec needed to know I was safe in order to go on...

"But-but what about... Your life ending the moment I came into it?"

Alec let his eyes rise from the floor to land on me.

"I never meant it. I'm sorry, Reny." Alec said gently. I could see the resent he had for himself in them. That he truly didn't mean anything he had said during our most... Harsh argument. Alec wasn't one to apologise, and only did it when it was truly; truly needed. Even then, it was a mere 'I apologize.' It was never a... Heartfelt one either; but this time; I could feel the sincerity from his words.

Reny.

My heart was bursting all over again; though I wasn't entirely sure as to why or what reason or what emotion. I had the severe temptation to start crying; and I didn't know why! In fact, I believed that my tear ducts had already moved on without my knowledge; for a freshly brewed tear streamed its way down my face, leaving a stream of salt water.

I'm not sure what moved quicker. The tear rolling down my face, or Alec; for the next thing I knew I was in his arms. His arm wrapped around me, while he secured a hand on the back of my head and held me to his chest.

His sweet, intoxicating smell of cinnamon filled my insides, but only made the urge to cry greater. I had a reason behind letting this boy, this man even, go. I did it because I loved him, and I was sure that he might've been able to move on because of who he was, and the rumors as to how he had been.

But none of them knew Alec. When Alec loved, he loved with mind, body, heart and soul. I had given up something that people spent their lifetime searching for; and it had brought nothing but pain and torture to us both. I had done it so that he would live, and even then... Lilianna was still threatening his life; both our lives.

I had let him go... For nothing.

"Shh, shh," Alec brushed his hand through my hair. "It wasn't for nothing. I know why you did it and I forgive you for it."

Alec's hand around me was pressed against my arm; so obviously he was hearing everything. It made it easier, because I wasn't sure if I'd be able to get my words out. Alec held me closer to his chest with his cheek pressed against my head. I could feel him breathing in my ear, I could feel his hand gently stroking my hair, I could just feel him.

"My life began the moment you stepped into it, Renesmee. No matter what you may think, or what I have said or anyone else has said. I am grateful for having met you. You are my life."

"You were my life, Reny."

Hearing that nickname again, after so long, killed me inside. It was then that I realized just how much I had screwed things up. Perhaps I should have gone to him, sawt out some sort of help, gave Alec more credit than what I thought. But in the position I had been in, I had only been thinking about Alec's safety. I wanted nothing more than for him to live on, no matter what.

And if that meant he was to live without me, then so be it.

"And you were mine..."

"Alec..." I whispered, letting my own eyes fall to a close.

"Yes?" He replied back, just as silently.

"Are you going to kiss me?"

There was a long pause. Each second that ticked by made my insides twist.

"I want too.." He admitted, his eyes slowly opening once again. The solid red peered right into mine, and I could see the truth lying there beside the pain and sorrow this conversation brought him. "I want too... So much." He repeated again. Perhaps to reassure me in some way?

"Then do it..."

His thumb brushed under my eye for what felt like the first time all over again. His eyes never once moved from mine.

"I wish I could," he sighed. "But I can't."

I pulled myself away from him, just so that I could look up to his perfectly structured face. His hand that was on the back of my head moved to cup my cheek and wipe away the trails the tears had left. His crimson eyes danced with mine, and only reflected everything I was currently feeling.

"And you are mine."

He smiled sadly and leant his head forward. His forehead met with mine, and his eyes brushed to a close. I wasn't an idiot, so to speak. I know what he was doing. He was trying to think of something as to where we could go from here...

But where was there to go? Alec and I were on a carousel. Constantly spinning, never ending. No matter how hard we tried to get off; we would always find ourselves on the same ride over and over. Just like a carousel, we had our ups and downs. And this was just a little break down; but the option was there to fix it. We could be fixed, because we were meant to spin on for eternity.

Whatever he was thinking came to an end the moment I spoke.

"Alec..."

"Yes?"

Bite the bullet. "Are you going to kiss me?"

His lips twitched into a gentle smile, but his eyes never once opened. I must've seen my little remembrance of things, but he never said anything. Instead, he played along.

"I want too. I want too so much."

"Then do it."

He took a quick inhale of breath, and brushed his thumb across my cheek once more.

With nothing more, Alec did. His lips pressed to mine, and I was surrounded in everything that was familiar. I wasn't the wiser as to where we were on the 'battle' anymore, nor on what we currently were, but I no longer cared for that. Either of it. All that mattered now was that Alec was kissing me, and he meant it.

We were correcting the kiss that should have happened. To me, it felt as though we were finally giving in to our fate, the fate that had us destined to be together one way or another. Throughout the odds, I always seemed to end up in his arms, and truthfully; I wouldn't have it any other way.

Alec was the one who pulled away and stared endlessly into my eyes. A soft, genuine smile took over his face as he ran his thumb across my cheek a final time. I'd never grow old of the sensation. Despite his hands being mildly cold to me; the places where his skin had touched left a trail of fire and warmth.

"You're blushing..." He smirked.

Well, that could also be the reason behind the warmth in my face. I automatically tried to look down and hide my face and sheepish smile. Alec prevented that by holding my chin firmly in place; so that he could look deeper into my eyes.

"I've always liked it when you blush," he admitted. "It was one of the many things I missed about you."

One of the many... I knew what he meant there. I could sit for days and list what I missed most of Alec. From his sick and twisted sense of humor, to his almost bipolar mood swings, his logical yet rational decisions on things... To his smile, his laugh, his view on life. Everything about Alec, to me, was perfection. His flaws included. They made him who he was today, and I wouldn't change any of it in the slightest.

Well, perhaps I'd change this almost-crazy-ex of his.

But other than that, there was nothing I wanted more than him. He saw himself as a monster, as undeserving of love and kindness, he had said so himself. But he deserved better than all that. He deserved the world - hell, he deserved everything he wanted me to have.

And I wanted to be the one who gave it too him...

Alec let out a weak excuse for a laugh; but it sounded like a choke for air. He was smiling, though; so that was a good sign, wasn't it?

"Such a way with words inside your head, miss Cullen." He commented humorously. "You make it hard to compete with."

I rolled my eyes. He had to be kidding right? I mean, these sort of things weren't... Poetry. It was innocent truths on how I felt about him. How I would always feel about him.

"Alec," I finally spoke after the daunting aroma of silence. "I need to be there tomorrow... For me. I want to see her face one last time, and let her know that she hasn't broke me."

His eyes seemed to reflect delight due to that statement.

Although Lilianna had caused me great pain in having to let Alec go, I wanted her to see that I still stood strong. That I would forever stand strong, and there was nothing she could do about it. Even if she were to end my life, I would die having received the love off Alec willingly; rather than forcibly - like she was trying to do.

She would never see me cry; because there was no need too. I was better than that, and I wouldn't give her the satisfaction of letting her see me weak.

"You are a stubborn one, hm?" Alec answered back with a question.

I parted my lips into a beaming smile and shrugged my shoulders gently.

"I'm not happy about this, Renesmee..." the cuteness and sentimental edge from Alec's voice was gone; and it was back to his professional, hard working tone. "But I cannot stop you if you chose this. I can advise you, but cannot stop you."

He couldn't? Wait, yeah... He couldn't. No matter how hard he tried, I would end up coming to this battle. I would stand by their side, and I would let them see just how good of an asset I would be to them. I'd prove them all wrong; especially Alec.

I couldn't help the smile that broke out across my face.

"I just hope you realize what you are getting yourself into."

A battle that would change the ways we viewed each other as a coven. Where I would be able to prove myself as a dangerous half-immortal child, who could look after herself and no longer wanted to be the damsel. The Volturi, the Cullen's and the pack; side by side - readying themselves to fight to the death for what was right.

We were in this together, and we would come out of this together.

"I do." I said firmly. "I'm ready."

A/N:

Hey guys, hows it hanging?

So, for once; I'm actually on time with my update! First time in a while, huh?

Anyway, what d'you think of what has happened so far? He finally corrected the wrong he made a few chapters back, huh? Better late than never, Alec. Better late than never.

Leave a review. They make my day.

Also, KatasaurRAWR says hi! If any of you follow that Paul/Leah oneshot we wrote a while back; its under debate on weither we will continue with it. What d'you guys think? ;3

Take it easy. I love you all.

-C.H