Chapter 19

Note: I know that Jon moved to Las Vegas after the European Tour that November but for story telling purposes he still lives in Florida as well as Colby and Joe.

I arrived in Tampa on the 21st of December and took a taxi to Jon's place. He would get back home on the 23rd he had to work two houseshows before his Christmas holidays. He had to be back on the road at Jan, 3rd which meant to we could spent almost two weeks together.

Jon's place was still the same little apartment I had spent my holidays at a year ago. But he was leaving Florida soon. We had talked and he wanted to leave the sunshine state. And he had picked a place I would have never picked myself. Las Vegas, Nevada of all places. You didn't have to pay taxes there and it was warm all year round which was important to him. We were looking for apartments right now. Yes, we, because he was still determined to get me here. To marry me of all things!

But I was still undecided. I had the promotion at work and beside my good friend, three other women were pregnant in our department and it was hell back there. If I would leave now I knew it would cause bad blood with my employer who just had given me the promotion so generously. Jon was right when he told me that I would never see those people again, but I wanted to leave that backdoor open. Maybe I would have to come back in five years and maybe I would need a job at my company then. Maybe. Maybe not. One too many maybe's for Jon's liking.

It felt a bit weird being in Jon's place without him. He had given me a key and told me I could go wild shopping groceries and stuff for the holidays. One thing he didn't want were Christmas decorations. So I felt I little bit guilty for the little bag in my suitcase. I didn't like overwhelming Christmas decorations as well but I wanted a small tree and I brought some stuff from Germany to decorate it.

After leaving my suitcase in the bedroom I went into the kitchen looking for something to eat. On the fridge I found a little sticky note: Buy groceries but bring something HEALTHY back! J.

I looked into the fridge and it was almost empty just some long lasting stuff was inside. In a glass inside were a couple hundred dollars, titled food money.

Smiling I took the money out and counted 500 $. How much food was I supposed to get?

I pulled my phone out dialing Jon's number.

"SAM!" shouted someone on the other end and I smiled. "No...No...don't!" I heard Jon's voice in the background. "COLBY!" I answered my friend and Jon was in the background again. "I hate it when you do that. It is creepy. Stop." Colby had answered Jon's phone on speaker and I had to laugh. "You guys are crazy. I just wanted to let you know that I am at Jon's place. Everything is fine."

"Glad to hear that. You can take the car if you want. You found my note?" Jon asked. He was obviously driving.

"In the fridge? Yes. I am just figuring out how many Big Macs one can buy with that money."

"How much did he leave you?" Colby asked and Jon mumbled "Not your problem."

"Enough. I will do the grocery shopping but if I miss something I am afraid we have to go together once you are here."

"That's fine. I left you a list on the kitchen table with stuff I would like to have. When you can't find everything on it it's fine and we pick it up together later. Feel at home and do anything you like. It's your place as well." "Will do. Tell me, is Joe there is well?" "Yeah baby girl I am here. Just woke up because of the douche bag in the front shouting. Hi Sam." He sounded still sleepy his voice was deep and raspy.

"You could answer a phone sex hotline right now Joe." I teased and Jon said. "Stop it. I am driving here on a snowy road. Sam I will call you later. I have to reign in the boys after that comment. I love you. Colby hang up." Colby was still snickering over my remark and it took about a minute until the line went finally dead.

Sighing I hung up as well and decided that now was as good as any time to go shopping. I was not tired at all so I grabbed the money, my bag and went out.

I took Jon's car even if I was a bit afraid on these foreign roads but it had a gps and I would be fine I told myself.

I punched in the coordinates of a nearby grocery store and off I went.

The store was huge and I browsed through it for over an hour, finding almost everything on Jon's list and then some.

Once done I went outside where they sold Christmas tree. It was risky, Jon had been pretty clear about the whole Christmas deal. But he had to overcome the demons of the past, right? We had to build our own memories, our own traditions.

So I drove home with a little tree of about 3 feet. It was cute. Maybe he would not even notice it.

I woke up on Monday really early. Jon would be here around ten am if his flight was on time. It was now only 7 am and the apartment was squeaky clean, the tree was decorated and stood in the corner where the dining table had been before.

I had enough food in the house and there was nothing for me to do but to wait.

The hours dragged on slowly and zapping though the TV was entertaining only for so long. I didn't even notice that I fell asleep on the couch...

"What the fuck?!" I was wide awake in an instant, rolled and landed on my back in front of the couch with a loud thump.

I groaned and glanced at Jon who was staring at the Christmas tree with disgust. Then his eyes landed on me, still laying on the floor.

"I specifically told you no Christmas decorations." he told me and came over to me. Oh oh, maybe it had been a stupid idea all along.

He reached me, put his arms under my butt and legs and lifted me up with ease. "You okay?" he asked gently and I was weighing my options. If he was pissed because of the tree he would be gentler with me if I told him I was hurt...

"I am fine." I ensured him instead. He nodded. "You are a brave one aren't you?" "No but the moment I start to lie to you about such benign stuff in order to safe me from your wrath over the cute tree I will call this thing off."

Jon studied me, still holding me in his arms. "Thanks. I love you Sam and I will now enact my wrath upon you. Be afraid!" he warned and carried me to the bedroom.

I woke up several hours later alone. I dressed in some jeans and a shirt and went looking for Jon.

He sat on a chair in front of the tree studying it. "It is kinda cute, but if you ever quote me on that I will deny everything." he said thoughtfully and I grabbed my phone from the table and pouted:"but I just wanted to tweet that."

With one raised eyebrow in the best Rock imitation he got up and walked over to me. "You don't. And thank you for doing this against my wishes you brave little girl. Does your back hurt from the fall? Because gosh that was epic. If I wouldn't have been so annoyed over the tree I would still be laughing." He kissed my to avoid my anger and we ended up on the couch together naked.

On Tuesday night Jon and me had dinner at a nice Italian place. In Germany we would celebrate Christmas tonight so we agreed and the dinner on the 24th and tomorrow we would cook or try to cook at least.

The evening was really nice and we had a wonderful meal and a great time.

On Christmas morning we exchanged gifts. Yes, the gifts we had agreed on not to get each other. I had some cute socks for Jon and myself, couple socks with a Christmas motive and yes they were cheesy but I had got them for a reason.

So we tried them on, sitting on the couch and putting our feet together on the table.

"Tell me again why I am wearing these?" he asked wiggling his toes.

"Because..." I grabbed my phone and made a picture, pressed a couple of buttons and shoved it in his hands.

"Press send if you want to quit playing hide and seek with your fans. Press delete if you want to keep it up."

I had attached the pic in a tweet and the caption was:

Merry Christmas Shield fans from my girl and me. Always believe! wwerollins wweomanreigns

(see a picture of the fake tweet at the story website, look at my profile for the link! )

"You are a sassy little shit Sam. You will ruin their Christmases you grinch." I grinned. "I like Christmas. You would be the grinch. But I am ready when you are. It is ultimately your decision and I will support it either way." I looked him in the eyes. I would really be okay with whatever he did. No hard feelings if he decided to keep me a secret.

He pressed the touchscreen and gave me back the phone. I stared at it for a while finally saying:

"Shit they will hate us for ruining their Christmas." Jon shrugged. "Don't care. They need to get a life if they are really upset about you. And when they start to bitch about it they can go screw themselves. And if they talk shit about you they have a problem. They can talk shit about me all they want but they will respect you."

I sniffed and had to brush a tear away. No one had ever been that loyal towards me.

"Hey hey no tears." He brushed them away with his thumb. "You and me, we are together fuck what everybody else thinks." he stated again and was interrupted by my phone beeping.

I looked at the screen. "Colby! He retweeted our post: TY and to you two, too." I grinned.

"What? I spill out my heart to you and make you cry and he can make you smile with 6 words?" Jon complained playfully. "You words meant the world to me Jonathan Good." I whispered and kissed him.

"They were the truth."

Tweets and retweets of our post came in every second now, mostly wishing merry Christmas back to us, sneaky bastard -congrats ones, but of course also some hate. I switched the phone off after 10 minutes.

"Finally because I have something for you as well." Jon pulled out an envelope out of his jeans and gave it to me.

Inside was no piece of paper but something heavier and smaller.

"So I am shitty at wrapping stuff and this is merely a symbol but I hope you like it."

Opening the envelope I was a bit nervous and shook out carefully whatever was inside into my lap. It was a key. An old fashioned key.

"What is it for?"

"Not to my heart because you have that already. We got the place in Vegas, the apartment we talked about. I put the leasing contract in both our names."

Little did I know at that moment what that meant and how much foresight Jon had. It was part of a plan he had put into motion behind my back.

"Wow, that's wow I don't know what to say. The place was perfect but so expensive."

"I don't care. Money is really the least of our problems."

"Well then I am very happy we got the place!"

Two days later social media sites were buzzing with the news of Dean Ambrose revealing his girlfriend. Tumblr was in uproar, divided into two groups pro me and against me, with the pro me fraction growing.

I decided to do something that would help me gain the support of the fan girls in the future and formed a good friendship.

Jon and me took a picture and it felt weird because I knew it would end up online everywhere. And I wrote an email to dean ambrose dot net telling them about me, about Jon and about us. They would get the exclusive. If they had questions in the future, they could come to me. It was a good deal for them, making the website the no 1 spot of reliable news about Dean.

Tumblr was a different matter. I had a blog there, about 70 followers and only ever reblogged stuff, never ever mentioning the fact that I knew Jon less alone dating him.

I put the same picture up there and wrote about the fact that I understood them. That I was one of them. That I knew what it meant to be a fan and that I would try my hardest to keep them in the loop and that they would profit from me because I would handle Dean's social media stuff from now on.

It really didn't change the opinion of the haters. Haters gonna hate. That's the bottom line.