Confession 28
I do not own miraculous ladybug
''Marinette'' Chat Noir whispers. Marinette looks unsure for a second but then her eyes turn determined. '' When I first met you I mistook your action and thought you put gum on my seat. I didn't want to listen to your explanation. I acted mean towards you. '' She starts slowly walking towards him. '' But even then you acted nice to me, even lend me your umbrella. '' Marinette takes a deep breath. ''Even when people act mean towards you, even when things don't go the way you want them you always act kind and friendly. You try to be there for your friends. When I see your smile I feel all warm in side. '' She stops standing still a few meters from him. '' That feeling in my chest only grew the more I got to know you. All those times we spend together as Marinette and Adrien, was that not you?''
''That's that's not it...'' Chat noir grimaces.
''But I must be honest. I never gave Chat Noir a chance, in my head Adrien was the only one. I was so focused on you I sometimes got detached from reality or acted to impulsive. I should have been honest to you from the start but I hadn't yet the courage to confess to you as Adrien. And I was afraid that I would reveal my identity if I told Chat that I was in love with Adrien. I said I didn't want to reveal my identity because it is dangerous, and it is dangerous but that was not the only reason. I was afraid that if you found out it was me, That Marinette was ladybug that you would somehow lose faith in me. When I had just become ladybug I was not sure if I was the right person for it. But as time went on I got more confident and realised that ladybug is really a part of me. ''
''I would have never lost faith in you my lady.'' Chat says.
'' I know, but even when I know I just couldn't get the thought what if... out of my head.'' Marinette says. ´´ I want to apologize to you..about what I said last night. I shouldn´t have said that. Maybe I thought about you wrong, maybe you didn't show your all and I didn't show you mine. But Adrien I don't want you to be hurt and I'm really sorry if I hurt you. Sometimes I just get angry and think I'm always right even when I´m not. But I do care about you.´´ She takes another step closer. ´´Was the boy I spend time together with not real, is that not a part of you?´´
''When I am Chat Noir I can be whoever I want to be. I can do whatever I want, say whatever I want. But when I'm just Adrien I always have to listen, be perfect, make no mistakes.´´ Chat says as he looks at the ground.
´´Even when you´re around friends?´´ Marinette responds.
´´...´´
´´With Nino?´´
´´N..no..when I was around you guys I was my real self I think..I I just don´t know. Everything has just gotten ..feels so.. complicated. I just don´t know who the real me is anymore.´´ Chat puts his face into his hands.
´´Do you have to be just Chat or just Adrien? Can´t both be a part of you? Aren´t both just different sides of you?´´
´´Because I don't want to hurt them! Because I want to please them all because I don´t want them to leave me! I don't want to leave Chloe alone because I know how being alone feels!''
''O Adrien.'' Marinette takes a step forward. ''You are not alone, not anymore. Even if you do not like me back I will always be your friend. You have Nino to and the others and... people can change maybe...maybe if you talk to Chloe she will change? Maybe she will do it. If you want to change yourself then try but only because you want to for yourself. Not for your father, Chloe or anyone else.''
Chat noir lets his hands fall to his side and looks into Marinette's eyes.
''Do you Remember when I confessed and we decided we should get to know each other better?'' Chat noir nods. '' let's do that again. Let's take our time and get to know each other...all sides of each other again...let's find our true real selves... together If you want. I want to help you.´´ Marinette says as she holds out her hand for Chat/Adrien to take.
Author´s note
Ugh...this took sooooo long but was soooo hard to write. I hope you guys are not disappointed. I did my best. I rewrote it like 3 times. This fanfic was never supposed to be so long and the more I wrote the more complicater it got. So I hope this chapter doesn´t feel to forced. I would like to know your thoughts about this chapter. If you have questions ask them. Sorry if it all seems confusing. This is not the last chapter by the way. There is still the issue with Adrien´s dad that need solving so I think that there will be 3 to 6 more chapters. But I also thought this fanfic would have 14 in total. We will just have to wait and see. Please review. Next chapter will probably also take a while since it is also one of the hardest to write.