Confession 32

I do not own Miraculous Ladybug

''Adrien what is going on with you?'' His father says. '' Go to your room.''

''No.'' Adrien responds.

''What?'' His father says now anger seeping in his voice.

''No father I am not going to my room.''

''How dare you disrespect me Adrien I am your father.''

''Well it doesn't feel that way.'' Adrien exclaims and he can see the shock on his father's face and he knows those words hurt him but this is how it feels to him.

''Wh-What do you mean?'' His father says. The anger is gone in his voice and he sounds a little bit lost.

''I almost never see you father. We don't even eat together. At the times I do see you it is through an Ipad most of the time. I have to make an appointment with you to talk with you about something. You are just so distant ever since mom disappeared. Do you even care about me? Don't you want me to be happy?'' Adrien is getting upset and with every sentence he speaks his voice gets louder so that at the end he is screaming. He has never screamed to his father before.

''Ofcourse I care about you and ofoucrse I want you to be happy!'' His father screams back but then sighs as he tries to calm himself.

''Then why do you spend so little time with me? Am I not worth it? ''

Gabriel begins stepping down the stair again and reaches a hand out to Adrien.

''Of course you are worth my time I just...have other things to do.'' He isn't looking Adrien in the eyes.

''That is the problem!'' Adrien moves his father's hand away from him. '' You have other things to do that apparently are more important than your own son. Hell your career is more important than your own son! Did you know that no one in my class has so little free time then me? Do you know they eat together with their family? Do you know that their parents don't control every little thing of their lives?''

''I though you enjoyed those activities? And they are good for your future. Adrien in order to be happy you have to have a secure future. I want you to be prepared.''

''I do like modelling and playing the piano and fencing but they are not the only things I want to do in my live. I want to spend time with my friends too or just doing nothing. I want to spend time with you.'' Adrien finishes softly.

''Adrien listen all I-''

''No!'' Adrien screams. ''For once in your life you should listen to me.'' He points his finger at his father. ''I am done I feel so done right now. I can't even explain it. I don't feel like you care about me. I don't feel like you want me to be happy all I feel is like you are using me for your own goals. I feel like a puppet, a doll. I feel like I have to put on a mask and pretend to be this perfect being with the perfect smile all the time so that my image and your image won't get tarnished. '' Tears leave Adrien's eyes. ''I don't even know what the real me is anymore.'' His fingers are digging into his hair.

''Adrien.'' His father begins and takes a hold of Adrien's hands to get them away from his head. He swipes some tears away from his son's face and his eyes are full of worry. He sits on his knees so that he can looks better at his son's face who looks broken.

''Adrien I want..I need you to look at me. It was never my intention to hurt you with my actions. All I want is to protect you, I do not want to lose you like I lost your mother.''

''But we are losing each other.'' Adrien responds. ''Sometimes I wonder if I even know you.''

''Adrien I care about you. I love you so much. You are very important to me and because you are so important I want you to have secure future. I protect you.. I act this way because this is in your best interest Adrien. ''

Adrien sighs.

In the end talking didn't help at all.

''At least that is what I thought.'' His father continues and Adrien looks up, surprised. ''But seeing you in so much distress makes me think It didn't work out the way I planned.''

''Adrien you are not my doll or puppet you are my son. I love you.'' He hugs Adrien.

''I love you to father but...I still feel the way I feel..lost.''

''Why didn't you tell me this before Adrien?''

''Because you never have time for me or listen to me!'' Adrien screams in frustration trying to get out of the hug.

''I am listening now.'' Gabriel tightens the grip he has on his son. ''When you were missing I was scared out of my mind. It thought I had lost you like how I lost your mother. I realise I have not been a good father to you and I know whatever I say won't be a good enough excuse. I shouldn't have been ignoring you but It is very hard for me to... be emotional and act on emotion that was more your mother's virtue and after she went missing...''

''I know.'' Adrien responds as he stops fighting the hug.

''But Adrien how could I have failed so much for you to think that... I don't know how to make you see that you are important to me. '' He looks his son in the eye.

''I don't know either but I am willing to try if you are.'' Adrien says as his father stops hugging him but returns to holding his hands.

''Ofcourse I am willing to try, son.'' Gabriel answers. ''But I am not sure if we can do it alone. Maybe we should try that therapy thing out.''

''I though you thought that was unnecessary and pointless?'' Adrien says confused.

''Maybe it is not so unnecessary and pointless as I believed, maybe it is what we need. Do you want to try it?''

Adrien nods.

Author's note

This was so hard to write. I have no idea what is going on in Gabriel's mind so if this feels OOC I am sorry but I wanted the story to go in this direction so it does. Now just having one conversation won't solve all their problems and they need to work on that and I thought therapy would be a good suggestion so I put that in it at the end. It might feel a little out of place and at first I wanted to put it in the epilogue but decided to put it here instead. So this was one of a hard chapter and it still feels... I don't know it feels not perfect but nothing really is is it? They will need to talk more, even need the help of a professional maybe to help them figuring out their issues and help them forward. But this fanfic was never supposed to be so deep and going so much in dept. From the start it was supposed to be solved with a good talk. Adrien finally standing up for himself and Gabriel finally realising he has to talk to his son instead of just doing things and he has to listen to his son. For now this is the end chapter. Well there is an epilogue on the way to tie the last pieces and it is even longer than this chapter but I have a little trouble with writing the last part of it. Also I never even thought about the whole issue with Gabriel being hawkmoth in this fanfic. So that was never supposed to be in this. If I were to say what I would hope for in this universe/ fanfic series I would say I hope that since he will be talking and listening more to Adrien he will reveal that he is hawkmoth and his goals. Adrien would then talk with his friends about it and will talk his father out of it and it will be a happy ending. Because as you noticed this fanfic is all about talking and I like happy endings . Please review and tell me what you think.