Chapter 7: The Final Night of My Blindness
(Jake's POV)
"Cough, cough," someone said.
I wanted to tear my gaze off of the beautiful creature still standing in front of me, but I couldn't. Then my body went into overdrive while my mind went dead. I dropped my fork from my mouth and stood up, muscles ridged, sending messages to my brain, but all going to the trash bin. One message did get through though and it told me to tear my gaze away, look towards Sam, nod, and run out the house. I just need to breathe and clear my mind before I start going back there and my wolf instincts take over.
(Kat's POV)
He just sat there, staring with unreadable eyes, at ME. Me, myself, and I. Honestly, I don't get it. I just came down the stairs and he saw me, turned all stiff, and stared at me for a good couple of seconds. Then he got up, dropped his fork, and ran out the door. What in fricking Hades did I do to him? I thought. I also thought I saw anger in his eyes when he ran out. I didn't anger him did I? I look over myself to make sure I didn't have a stain on my shirt. Nope. My other prediction was that he was crazy but I wouldn't think with a face like that that he's crazy. I can't think of any other possibilities.
Embry and Jared ran after him saying "sorry" and "don't worry about him, Kat."
"Umm, what the hell happened with him?" I asked, confused off of my mind.
"It's nothing. Just come and sit next to me, Kat." Damien said, gesturing to the chair. Although I didn't believe it wasn't anything, I followed what he said.
"Alright, I'm starving anyway for sleeping so long. I feel like Sleeping Beauty." Everyone laughed a weary laugh except Emily who laughed a good, hearty laugh. God, what's wrong with these tribal men? They are so emotional all the time and worrying about nothing. Always angered by the slightest thing when really it's not a big deal.
I walked over to my seat at the table when I felt an unfamiliar pain in my chest. I tried to push it away into a corner in my torso but it wouldn't so I just let it be and sat down, trying to enjoy the festivities.
(Jake's POV)
Why am I running from this? I'm running away from the house and out of town when in reality I can go back and suck it up like a real man.
I can hear Embry and Jared following behind me, telling me to go back or to stop. Still weighing my options, I stop in a meadow. It had flowers everywhere. In the very center was a very comfortable looking patch of grass enough for a werewolf to lay on. Hmm, this is very convenient and a good spot to rest, I thought. I went over to the spot of grass, still knowing that Embry and Jared were watching. Laying down would probably help me have time to think since I had nothing to do today. Surprisingly, Embry and Jared didn't stop me. I guess they know the feeling when you need some alone time to think because at the moment, they started to retreat back to Emily's house, probably to tell Sam where I'm at.
I stayed still, watching the animals in the forest and hearing the bird's songs until I eventually fell asleep with Kat's face behind my eyelids, waiting for me to come back to her.
(Kat's POV)
If you ever found how important it is to fall in love with someone, you know what I feel right now. No one notices though because they are having a special meeting while I'm stuck in the living room. Embry and Jared came back a little while ago with recognition all over their face. Apparently, they found Jake after he was running away from them. That was all I got to hear because then Emily chased me into the living room. So here I am, sitting on the couch, watching "Gone with the Wind" which I don't really like anyway. Instead of paying attention to the TV, I'm zoning out, thinking about Jake. My heart and left wrist hurts as if it hurts to be away from him. My wrist hurts like I broke it or something but I never really used my left wrist much during dinner. My heart, however, yearns to be with him even though I saw him for a second. That one second that I saw him, he looked like he saw light for the first time in 20 years, which turned into anger. Now even as I'm sitting, it feels like I want to follow him out to the forest. I finally couldn't take it anymore, so I went to see Emily in the kitchen.
When I got to the kitchen, I was surprised when everyone was in there. I thought some people went home already since the "party" was over by now.
"Hey Em? Can I talk to you?" I pointed to my wrist but I doubt that she understood what I meant.
"Yea...Hold on guys. I'll be right back." She walked with me to the hall. "What's up?"
"My wrist hurts really bad and my heart too but I was just wondering if my wrist was broken." She nodded and took my wrist. She bent it and felt around a little bit.
"No it's fine. Are you ok? Emotionally I mean."
"Umm, yea I think so. I just have this bad feeling like something's going to happen to me."
"Well, feel better ok?" She gave me a hug and a worried but knowing expression. It's almost like she knew what I was going through but she couldn't tell me.
We walked back into the kitchen and I was immediately pulled to the side by Damien.
"Are you ok? Do you feel any different than this morning?"
"I think I'm ok but my wrist hurts really badly but Em doesn't think it's broken." He looked towards Sam and shook his head.
"Just go upstairs and lay down .You'll be fine later." He pushed me lightly towards the stairs. Sticking my tongue out at him, I followed his direction.
I awoke with a start. My wrist burns now. He lied! It hurts worse. Like A LOT worse. It's almost like someone set fire to my wrist while I was sleeping and it's still scorching.
I guess I'll get up then. I changed and then went into the bathroom and got a very cold drink of water. Standing in front of the mirror, I realize in my zombie state, the cold water might help the scorching burn in my wrist. Turning the shower on extremely cold, I stuck my wrist under the water and almost jumped back. It was so cold against my very hot wrist that it felt like it was defying the elements or something. I kept it there though but it seemed that it made it worse. Now, my wrist burns and hurts so bad, I wouldn't mind chopping it off and losing a hand. It was about 6:30 in the morning and I knew that Emily would be awake and in the kitchen making breakfast for everyone. I went downstairs and found Emily at the table with Sam.
"Hey. Where's Damien?" I asked, seeing that he wasn't there and his door to his bedroom was open.
"He left this morning to talk to Jake." Sam shrugged.
My breath quickened. Maybe he knew that I liked Jake and was going to tell him or force him to leave me alone. If he did, I would definitely confront him about it. How would Jake respond to me liking him? Would he be disgusted or surprised. It feels like he likes me too but I can't get my hopes up or else it will hurt me to know that he doesn't like me.
"I'm going to go now then I guess." I didn't tell them that my heart was forcing me to leave.
"Ok. Have fun." Emily said with a little hope in her voice like she's hoping I find something.
I left, letting my heart tug me in whatever direction it needs to. It headed to the forest and through some shrubs, giving me small tears in my jeans. At one point, it lead me to cross a road and I almost got ran over. If the person in the car didn't stop, I probably would have but I'm thankful that the driver saw me in time. I traveled for what seemed like miles and miles, never knowing where I'm going but begging my heart to tell me. To no prevail, it still lead on, beating faster because we must be getting closer. I was actually excited too even though I don't know La Push that well, which added onto the anticipation. Eventually, we stopped in front of a clearing. I couldn't see into the clearing because the sun was shining through the shrub hole. I guess this is where my heart knows what's waiting for me yet I don't which is frustrating even though I'm standing here, dumbfounded, not knowing what to do next. I guess you have to know what's on the other side sometime right? I tried pep-talking to get me going. Nothing. Not even a budge. Can you help out a little bit? I thought to my heart. Nothing from it either. I guess it thinks that if it got me here, it doesn't need to help. Mentally sighing, I tried to gain the courage to walk through the opening. Finally, I mustered enough courage to walk through the small opening, getting cut a couple of times along the way, but finally able to see the meadow ahead.
The meadow was beautiful. It had flowers everywhere! All the basic flowers that would usually be in a meadow but they all worked together that it would be a beautiful painting. In the very middle was a patch of what looks like soft grass and- Wait... Is that a wolf? There is literally a wolf in the middle of the grass. It's sleeping but I still don't feel safe because if it wakes up, I don't want to be wolf chew. As I start backing up, the wolf stirs. Oh no... I stopped moving, hoping the wolf is still sleeping. Unfortunately, my wrist feels like it's falling off with no morphine and the pain spread throughout my body. I'm trying to stay still while I feel it's safe to move but the pain is too much. I collapse onto the ground, landing on my hands and knees. Shaking, I'm trying to stay quiet but the pain is too much. At this point, I don't care if I become wolf bait. I scream and try to bring my head up to see if the wolf is stalking towards me but I only lowered my head to the ground as if the pain was weighing me down. Suddenly, I was lifted and brought to the grass, though the softness didn't help much. I was put on my back, wanting to curl up and roll to my side, there were two hands trying to help me. I slightly opened my eyes to see many people around me. Then I realized I knew them: There was Embry, Jared, Seth, Paul, Sam, Damien, and Jake right in front of me who is helping me. I can see that they are talking but I can't hear them because my ears are pounding with pain. I scream again and all of their faces wince. I don't know what's happening to me but I need it to stop before I die of pain...