A/N :Hey guys soo remember when I said i was going to update this like 2 weeks ago, as you can see by this update that didn't happen but I did also make a promise to myself to atleast try on updating more and quicker for both of my stories , and maybe even write some new ones so hopefully that actually happens but don't get like pissed at me if it doesn't happen because senior year is hella hectic and is only going to get worse. But still I hope you all enjoy this chapter

Unfortunately I still don't own lost girl I just like to write about them

"I love you"

The words hung in the air for several moments as Lauren froze completely. Her mouth slightly agape and her eyes still locked on Tamsin.

Neither of them moved.

Lauren honestly didn't know what to say, she hadn't had the time to completely hash out all her emotions for Tamsin yet. Well she knew they were there but she didn't know yet to what extent. She'd only just figured out that she wasn't interested in Bo anymore…well other than being friends.

And now here comes Tamsin coming in telling her how she felt, And even worse Lauren didn't even get a chance to respond to Tamsins words before Tamsin was standing up and taking a step away from her before speaking

"Listen doc, I don't expect you to say it back or anything…" She trailed off, obviously nervous. Tamsin tried to take a deep breath but ended up letting out a wince at the pain in her ribs. This caused the doctor in Lauren to actually move for the first time in what seemed like hours. Lauren got up and took a step towards Tamsin then ushered her back into her sitting position where she continued to tend to her wounds.

They sat in silence again for a couple minutes, Lauren desperately wanted to say something to Tamsin, but what could she really say to the blonde in front of her who was apparently in love with her. Lauren didn't even know that Tamsin was capable of having actual feelings for her let alone actually be in love with her and admit that to Lauren also.

Lauren had never seen Tamsin so vulnerable she'd only seen the smallest glimpse of vulnerability from Tamsin after they had sex and even then it was only the slightest amount possible. Lauren really was worried, she didn't want to say " I love you" when she didn't know for sure yet, but she also didn't want to say something that would completely dispel the idea completely when in reality Lauren could see herself falling hard for Tamsin and fast.

Why couldn't Tamsin just wait a couple more weeks before deciding to tell Lauren how she felt? So then Lauren could actually say that without a doubt she genuinely loved Tamsin back. Lauren thought that she must be making some sort of face because she was immediately brought out of her deep thoughts by the sound of Tamsins voice

"Look I'm sorry I had to tell you all sudden and stuff " Tamsin trailed off again looking down and avoiding Laurens searching and concerned eyes "but some stuff happened and I had to tell you before Bo got to you"

Lauren looked directly at Tamsin who was still desperately avoiding eye contact with her. She began working on the cuts on Tamsins face before responding

"Bo?"

"Yeah Bo" Tamsin said not indicating or giving a reason

"What does Bo have to do with you saying you love me?" Lauren asked

"Tamsin…" Lauren said in a stern tone, the tone she used when she had to pry more information from a patient. It caused Tamsin to immediately bring her attention Lauren, who was still staring at her waiting for a response

"Ugh don't look at me like that …It was nothing" Tamsin tried

"If it was nothing then why won't you tell me?" Lauren continued her staring until she could finally see Tamsins resolve beginning to break

"Ugh it was nothing we just had a little scuffle" Tamsin said trying to downplay the situation

" About what?" Lauren asked obliviously. Tamsin rolled her eyes because it was obvious. It took Lauren a couple moments to think about it when it finally clicked inside her brain.

"Me?"

"Yup"

"So you're telling me that Bo did this to you?" Tamsin nodded her answer

"You should see the other guy" Tamsin said with that a smug smile that at any other time Lauren would have found adorable but now it just pissed her off. Those words made Laurens hands slip and touch a very sensitive place on Tamsins face while trying to clean her up

Lauren got up, now furious, no furious didn't cover the half of it.

Lauren was royally pissed.

Bo hurt Tamsin, Tamsin hurt Bo. And Lauren didn't know which one of those she was pissed more at. Lauren was pacing now

"What the hell Tamsin?! A little scuffle?, fucking look at you " Lauren basically screamed. Tamsin was slightly taken aback by Laurens language it was rare for her to ever use really

"Like I said you should see the other guy" Tamsin said sounding proud

"That doesn't make any of this better" Lauren said still angry

"She started it though" Tamsin defended

"That's still no excuse for this Tamsin"

Tamsin raised her voice also "For what me fighting or telling you I love you"

"Ugh Tamsin you know that's not what I mean"

"Then what did you mean "Tamsin said angrily

"I mean you saying " she started it" is not a sufficient excuse for having a fucking pissing match with Bo that ended up in fucking blows and have both of you hurt like this especially when you're saying things like "you should see the other guy" Lauren yelled

Tamsin opened her mouth to retort but quickly must have thought better of it. Tamsin looked down while Lauren was still pacing. Still pissed

"Ugh can you atleast quit the fucking pacing you're stressing me out"

"I can't yet, I haven't quite wrapped my head around how and why this happened"

"Doc you're a smart girl there isn't much not to understand"

"Then explain it all to me because I can't for the life of me understand how the hell you two ended up in a fight so severe that you ended up showing up at my house at 2 am looking like you got hit by a truck accompanied with the sudden realization that you love me" Lauren said finally stopping her pacing

"Actually I loved you before I got into the scuffle with Bo… I just hadn't admitted it to myself or you until after" Tamsin stated. Her words caused Lauren to blush slightly, it took Tamsin a couple of seconds to realize that her words came out more sweet than she intended. "God what is fucking happening to me" Tamsin said scolding herself at that outburst of sweetness that just came from her.

Lauren chuckled at Tamsin before sitting down in her original space where she continued to clean Tamsins cuts on her face.

"So are you going to tell me what happened or….?" Lauren trailed off and then looked at Tamsin with that same look she used on her earlier.

"Ugh ok.. just stop staring at me like that whenever you want something" Tamsin said. She then explained how she was at home punching away at her bag when Bo showed up, how Bo threw the first punch and she made sure to use the exact words she and Bo used to start and end the fight. When she finished her retelling of the events from earlier that night Lauren sat there stunned with her face unreadable for several minutes before Tamsin couldn't take it anymore

"Doc fucking say something" Lauren opened her mouth to say something but the words didn't actually come out for several moments later

"This is all my fault" Lauren finally said with her voice full of sadness mixed with something else Tamsin didn't recognize

"This is not your fault Lauren" Tamsin said trying to sound supportive

"It is completely my fault, you two would have never fought if it werent for me"

"She's a hotheaded and untrained succubus it was to be expected"

"But I don't know why I didn't expect this to happen like this" Lauren said while putting her head in her hand and letting out a long frustrated sigh "She said she was going to fight for me.. I didn't think she meant it literally" Lauren said more to herself than to Tamsin but she heard anyway.

"Wait what!?" Tamsin said loudly causing Laurens head to snap up and out of her hands , slightly startled

"What Tamsin?"

"You just said Bo told you she was going to fight for you?"Tamsin asked

"Yeah"

"When the hell did this happen?"

"Earlier today," Tamsin made a face when she said this "Look I had no idea she even knew about us until just now"

"Why didn't you tell me this earlier" Tamsin said obviously upset

"It wasn't relevant earlier, and also earlier today when this happened we weren't telling each other stuff" Lauren said

"But still Lauren you could've given me some type of heads up that your crazy ex succubus was back in the picture"

"But she isn't in the picture though"

Now it was Tamsins turn to pace while Lauren sat watching her, She was obviously still in a lot of pain but fighting through it, it hadn't yet registered to Tamsin what Lauren had said until several moments after she immediately stopped her pacing across the floor and turned directly towards Lauren

"She's not?" Tamsin asked

"She's not " Lauren said reassuringly. Tamsin squinted her eyes skeptically

"Since when?"

"A while now" After this they continued to stare at each other for several minutes.

"You still should've told me" Tamsin said while crossing her arms

Lauren stood before responding " Ugh I didn't think it mattered whether or not she was in the picture"

"And why is that" Tamsin said voice dripping with attitude waiting for Laurens answer

"Because up until you showed up here I had no idea that you thought of me as more than just an occasional fuck" Lauren answered truthfully

Tamsin seemed completely appalled that Lauren could even think such a foolish thing.

"Well you're not" Tamsin said and then looked away. She could almost feel the rejection about to escape Laurens mouth so she looked away like somehow not looking at her would lessen the way she was about to feel .

"Neither are you" Tamsins eyes shot up locking on Laurens immediately

"really?" Tamsin said, and Lauren could feel the insecurity inside Tamsins voice

"Really Lauren said reassuring Tamsin for the second time tonight. Tamsin then walked back over to where Lauren was standing before saying a soft "ok". She sat down, as did Lauren and let the doctor continue. Lauren worked on Tamsin for several more minutes in a somewhat comfortable silence. As she finished tending to all of Tamsin wounds Lauren found herself simply staring at the woman in front of her just admiring every part of her.

Even all wounded like this Tamsin still found a way to be stunning in Laurens eyes. Tamsin noticed Laurens staring at her. She waved her hands in front of Laurens face to snap her out of her trance.

"Earth to Lauren"

Lauren instantly came to, blushing slightly she began to pack up her medical bag. While she was turned away from Tamsin she began to speak

"Lucky for you , you didn't need stiches but I highly recommend that you try and take it easy for atleast a couple days" Lauren said in the most doctor like tone she could muster up at the moment. When Lauren turned back around Tamsin was standing also with her arms crossed with that damn smirk plastered on her face.

Lauren could tell the dynamic of the situation had changed so drastically in just a few short seconds. She hadn't encountered that stupid smirk the entirety of the night but now it was back and was in full effect. Lauren started to feel that familiar urge she got whenever Tamsin looked at her like that. She wanted so desperately to knock that damn smirk off her face. But Tamsin was still hurt though, even though that fact did nothing to stop Lauren from thinking about it.

Lauren began to have a battle within herself about how she should do next and her thoughts were going crazy as her eyes raked up and down Tamsins body. Tamsins shirt had been discarded long ago, so that just left her standing in her blue sports bra and those ridiculously tight jeans. Lauren unconsciously licked her lips. Her thoughts going even crazier than before

"shit Lewis get a fucking grip Tamsin is still hurt she doesn't need you looking at her like you want to ravage her.

"ugh but she looks so good … maybe I could just be really gentle with her"

Laurens eyes raked up Tamsins body one more time "nope, I wouldnt want to be gentle with her"

Tamsin began to move and Laurens eye followed her , Tamsin walked over to her discarded shirt picking it up and slipping it on slowly. As she did this Lauren came out of whatever spell Tamsin just had her under

"So um thanks doc for patching me and stuff" Tamsin said now not even remotely sounding like the woman who showed up here earlier professing her love for Lauren. But now unlike all their other times together Lauren had almost full advantage of the situation.

"Um Tamsin where do you think you're going?"

Tamsin turned around to face back where Lauren was still standing "Um home doc" Tamsin said like it was obvious

"No you're not" Lauren said simply. Tamsin began walking slowly back to her, plastering that stupid smirk

"oh really…an why is that?" As Tamsin uttered that last word she was now fully standing in front of Lauren only inches away from her. Lauren looked up at the somewhat taller blonde

"Because its late and you're hurt and shouldn't be driving right now"

"Are you saying this as my doctor or as my girlfr-" Tamsin stopped herself immediately as she realized what she was saying. She took a step back but Lauren quickly closed the small Gap Tamsin had created . Lauren thought for a moment before answering

"Mmm both"

"Lauren you know I don't do sleepovers" Now it was Laurens was the one smirking

"You did the first time we were together" Lauren said slightly. Tamsin was slightly taken aback by Laurens words. Tamsin tried to defend herself

"That was a completely different"

"How so?" Laurens asked quickly

"Because that time you put me in a very difficult situation" Tamsin answered.

"Well anyway.. you're staying here" Lauren said dissing Tamsins shitty excuse. She could also tell that Tamsin was about to make another bullshit reason as to why she couldn't spend the night but Lauren was having none of it , She put her hand up to silence her

"just stop, you aren't going anywhere tonight because I'm pretty sure that if I do in fact let you go that you will do the complete opposite of what I told you, knowing you you'd probably try and go to work tomorrow and make things worse for yourself"

Tamsin saw she didn't have any choice in the matter, Lauren was probably going to keep her here so that she can watch her in her injured state. Tamsin didn't even really want to go home anyway, she'd much rather stay here under the care of Lauren for a day or two. What could it really hurt now anyway Lauren already knew how Tamsin felt about her.

"Ok" Tamsin replied

"Ok?" Lauren said disbelievingly she didn't think Tamsin would just agree that easily.

"Ugh yeah, next time you want me to spend the night just ask me regularly instead of making up some bullshit excuse" Again it was Laurens turn to get flustered, she looked down. Tamsin began to smirk again along with a small chuckle.

"Oh shut up"

"What I say doc?" Tamsin said voice full of innocence

"Nothing just forget it, just come on" Lauren said grabbing Tamsins arm

"Um Lauren where we goin?"

To get you something to sleep in , then to bed" Lauren answered dragging Tamsin up the stairs.

As they ascended up the stairs Tamsin couldn't help but check Lauren out from behind. She thought quickly how the hell she ended up in this situation in the first place. She's never done this before, the whole sleepover thing, and the whole being in love thing. It was all very weird and unnerving … She was suddenly nervous at what all this meant

"what happens once I lay down?"

"does she expect us to cuddle because I have always hated that… well not that last time with her though, that was ok… actually it was better than ok"

What did that even fucking mean?"

They reached Laurens bedroom finally after all these thoughts had already invaded Tamsins brain, Lauren let go of her hand and went over to the drawer on the left and pulled out shorts and a shirt for Tamsin to sleep in.

Tamsin was completely frozen though she had no idea what happened now was she supposed to change right here? Lauren could see that weird terrified look on Tamsins face, she thought it was actually quite adorable. Lauren had seen the woman vulnerable before but tonight was a whole new level. It was obvious that Tamsin was going to have to be eased into this. Lauren began to speak

"I can leave out for a minute so you can change, or you can change in the bathroom " she gestured her hand towards the bathroom. But before Tamsin could answer Lauren backed out of the room to give her some privacy.

Now completely alone Tamsins thoughts seemed to get more and more scary. It actually took her about a minute to actually take off her clothes and put on the shirt that Lauren gave her. Not the shorts though, Tamsin could never sleep in pants of any kind. She hoped that was okay.

Lauren had given her a navy blue Star Trek shirt that was only slightly too big on her. It also smelled like Lauren too, the whole room did. Tamsin inhaled deeply taking it all in, she always loved how Lauren smelled. Like vanilla and hand sanitizer.

She stood there for a few more moment standing awkwardly at the Side of Laurens bed, not really sure of what to do next. Until she heard Laurens voice on the other side of the door along with a faint knock

"Hey Tamsin can I come in?" Lauren asked

"Yeah" Lauren opened the door slowly immediately spotting Tamsin standing awkwardly on the side of her bed.

"Um I cant sleep in pants" Tamsin said her nervousness evident in her voice. Lauren smiled innocently

"That's fine Tamsin"

Um.. ok" Tamsin paused "so what happens now?"

"Now you get in the covers on that side, and me on this side, I turn off the lamp then we lay until we fall asleep"

"Do we have to cuddle because I don't know if I like that?"

"You think" Lauren asked

"yeah I mean I never really liked it other than that one time with you" Tamsin said avoiding Laurens eyes.

"We don't have to if you don't want to." These words making Tamsin feel somewhat better about the situation Tamsin got into bed finally , getting under the covers she shuffled slightly to get more comfortable she then looked over at Lauren who was still hesitantly still standing by the door

Lauren began moving towards the bed, slipping in on the other side while turning off the lamp as she did so.. They now lay in complete silence and darkness only a couple of inches away from each other , the only things on them that were touching were there feet and that couldn't even be considered a touch, it was more of a graze.

A couple minutes passed before Tamsin spoke

"Ive never done anything like this before"

"Like what?"

"Like all of this" Tamsin said while putting emphasis on the "this" Lauren turned her head while still on her back to look at Tamsin, who even in the dark still looked scared and timid. Words that no one would ever associate with the strong Valkyrie laying next to her.

"That's ok"

"Ok" Tamsin said

She laid there like that on her side looking at Lauren for what seemed like a long time before shuffling closer to Lauren, laying her head on her chest and wrapping her arms around Lauren and intertwining their feet..

Laying on her chest Tamsin listened to Laurens heartbeat and found it to be beating sporadically much like her own. And then she knew that Lauren was just putting on that level-headedness as a front when she was actually just as nervous and scared as herself. Tamsin found a weird sort of comfort in that. She relaxed more into the embrace with Lauren before saying

"If you tell anyone about this I will kill you"

But Lauren couldn't take the threat seriously with Tamsin cuddled against her like this and plus Tamsin yawned while delivering it so it only made Lauren smile and let out a soft chuckle as she kissed her forehead.

"Goodnight Tamsin"

TBC….. ( Remember that review ,suggestions favs and follows are always welcome and are the most encouraging thing ever)