A/N: Ok so I know ive been gone for a long time so ive basically put two chapters in one, bc im feeling very jolly seeing as though its Christmas where I am, I know you guys don't care why I haven't been updating bc we all know life gets hectic sometimes, but my new years resolution is to try and write more , I wanna have this story finished by the time the series is over… but yeah thanks for reading (if you have anything you wanna see in future chapters feel free to let me know) Happy holidays
Lauren woke up late… well it was late for her, it was around 9:30 when she finally stirred awake. She also couldn't move yet without Tamsin possibly waking up and popping the sweet little bubble they were in right now. Tamsin was still stretched out and laying on Laurens her arms wrapped around her in a warm embrace that Lauren didn't want to ever get up from.
Lauren wasn't completely sure how Tamsin was going to react once she woke up and everything from last night instantly came flooding back into her mind. Lauren didn't know what to expect from Tamsin. The blonde had surprised her all through the night…. But that wasn't the case anymore. It was now morning and that scared the hell out of Lauren.
What if it was all a fluke? What if she never saw that sweet and fragile side of Tamsin again? What if Tamsin woke up in her arms and began to freak out… Where would that leave them then? Where were they right now was an even better question. Did all of this mean that they were together now? What if they weren't? What if it didn't work out?
There were just too many different variables of how things could work out this morning and the mere thought of that scared Lauren immensely.
So she stayed still, well as possibly still as she could as she looked down again at Tamsins peaceful sleeping face… She looked so beautiful even with the various cuts and bruises on her, they did nothing to dispel her beauty or make her anything less than stunning.
. It made Lauren only want Tamsin even more, made her want to kiss and hold Tamsin as tight as possible and never let her out of her sight so something like this never happens again. But then Lauren remembered how Tamsin got that way, she remembered who made Tamsin all bruised and vulnerable.
And instantly all those wonderful sweet feelings stopped and her wonderful little bubble was officially popped . Lauren could feel her own body tense up, the action caused Tamsin to shift slightly. Lauren hoped that she wasn't waking up yet, she wasn't ready for it.
Lauren let out a "calming " breath even though it did nothing to dispel her nerves in an attempt to untense herself. Lauren waited a few moments before she allowed herself to think again. Thinking about Bo hurting Tamsin pissed her off so much.
How could Bo do that to her?
Bo supposedly "cared" about Lauren and was "trying" to make her way back into her heart… But this was the absolute worse way possible to accomplish that, And it did basically the opposite. And Lauren wanted desperately to atleast talk to Bo about this even if only to tell her there was no chance of them getting back together after the stunt she pulled last night. But Lauren knew she was too angry for that , so angry she would probably end up doing something that wouldn't exactly help the situation.
Just seeing Tamsin so hurt…. And fragile… It made Lauren want her even more and she didn't know yet is she was ready to face what that meant for her exactly.
Was she ready to love Tamsin? Was it just lasts nights events and Lauren being pissed at Bo maker her think like this?
Questions kept pounding into her head one after another each one even worse than the last. She needed to get up immediately . Lauren quickly calculated what would be the best way to untangle herself from a very warm sleeping Tamsin.
A few moments later a plan was devised and Lauren felt it was ok to proceed. She slowly began to disentangle herself from Tamsin and surprisingly Lauren successfully got out of bed without waking the sleeping blonde.
Now out of bed Lauren looked down back at Tamsin and couldn't help but smile at how adorable she looked. It seemed she looked even better when Lauren was standing up and she didn't know if that was even really possible. She continued to stare at the sleeping blonde for several more moments before stopping and realizing how creepy it would be for Tamsin to wake up right now with Lauren standing over her watching her sleep.
This was creepy… like really creepy, and Lauren knew that but she couldn't move yet because she knew she may never see Tamsin like this again and she wanted to cherish this. Lauren secretly wished that she had her phone right now so she could take a picture of this rare beauty of Tamsin sleeping.
OK this was way beyond creepy now and was borderline psychotic stalker behavior , Lauren needed to get out of here.
NOW
Lauren gave herself one more short glance at Tamsin before beginning to move again. She quickly made her way to the bathroom where she then brushed her teeth and washed her face before heading downstairs to fix the largest cup of coffee imaginable
Lauren slowly crept down the stairs as quiet as possible just in case. Finally reaching the bottom of the stairs she moved to the kitchen, Quickly Lauren began moving actively around. Making coffee and taking out the ingredients for a breakfast. And she hoped and prayed that the whole breakfast thing didn't freak Tamsin out too much.
There was still a reasonably large chance of last night being a fluke that would result in Tamsin bolting out of Laurens apartment as soon as she saw the breakfast and realized what her revelation from last night meant.
Lauren didn't even really know what last night actually meant for them, which was the scariest thing of it all. Like seriously… What did Tamsin Loving her even mean? Were they like dating now? Or were they still tuck in that cycle of occasional se whenever they were near each other. And while having occasional sex with Tamsin was fun and all but it wasn't actually very fulfilling emotionally
And Lauren would be lying to say that she didn't want something more from Tamsin. But was Tamsin ready for all of that…. Well she has to be some semblance of ready seeing as though she had just professed her love for Lauren just the night before.
Right?
Right , Lauren was just going to go with that because any other option was just going to make her feel bad. So with that thought in mind she began to get breakfast underway even though she had no clue what Tamsin liked to eat or if the blonde even ate breakfast. She took one last sip of her coffee before heading to her fridge, pulling out almost all of its contents. She was going to wing it and hope for the best.
Tamsin woke to streams of light coming through the window in Laurens windows and the faint smell of bacon in the air. Tamsin noted how soft and warm the bed was as she snuggled deeper into the covers. She wouldn't dare think of getting up from such a comfortable bed.
That is until a shot of pain coursed through her obviously still bruised abdomen from her movements from only a moment before. Tamsin then remembered exactly how she came to be so warm in this overly comfy bed.
All the events from the night came flooding back to her in an instant causing her to shoot up into a sitting position. Tamsin instantly regretted the action as another even more intense pain shot through every nerve ending in her body. She felt like she'd just been hit by a truck, everything hurt.
And now along with the pain she was also pissed and wanted nothing more than to find Bo and make her regret every decision she'd ever made I n her pathetic life. Tamsin flopped back down with frustration and a grunt at the pain that kept taking her body by surprise every time she moved.
Lying back down slowly this time, the smell of Lauren hit her full force. She hadn't realized how wonderful Laurens bed smelled. The first time she's laid in it she only briefly got to acknowledge how it smelt but now that she had the opportunity to take it all in Tamsin had a newfound appreciation for it.
Tamsin let out a contented sigh.
Then inwardly cursed herself for thinking such sweet bullshit.
"God what is happening to me" Tamsin said outloud this time. She sat up once again, slowly this time around since she actually remembered the state her body was in right now. She swung her legs off the bed so she was now sitting on the edge of it.
How the hell did she get here? Well Tamsin knew how she got here in the physical sense but emotionally….. She had no clue whatsoever. At what point did she actually realize she was falling for Lauren Lewis? And why was she so powerless to stop it from happening. How did she get to this point… sitting in bed, battered and bruised because of her love for Lauren, wearing her clothes and sighing and smiling like a idiot every time Lauren crossed her mind.
Why Lauren of all people? What was so special about Lauren that she couldn't help but fall for her.
Why Lauren?
There were so many reasons why Tamsin shouldn't have fallen for Lauren… First of all she was dark fae and Lauren was a human associated with the light fae. And even though she may not be a slave any more due to recent events they were still on different sides. Theres the whole Bo situation which already blew up in flames and is the reason for her body feeling like complete trash right now , And on top of that they had nothing in common, they barely even talked.
All these very logical reasons not to fall for Lauren Lewis and for some unknown reason all of Tamsins walls she had built up over the years just came crashing down all at once. But not even all her warnings to herself couldn't stop it. And Tamsin wasn't sure if this entire experience was a good thing or not. And she didn't know how to go about the whole talking thing with Lauren without sounding like a complete idiot because she had never done any of this EVER.
The sex Tamsin could do…very well actually, but the talking.. she'd never been in a situations that involved feelings so therefore she was never required to do much talking. But now everything was different, knowing Lauren and her reaction to the whole sleeping together situation she probably found it cute to see Tamsin all nervous and flustered
And Tamsin truly hated when people thought she was fragile, It pissed her off really. Especially Lauren and she may be new at this whole thing but she sure as hell was fragile. And she would show Laure just that. Just because she loved Lauren didn't mean she had to be this fragile scared little girl who was scared of shit like this… Even though she was kind of scared shitless about the whole thing. But Lauren didn't need to know that.
Tamsin could still be the same bad ass, snarky and entertaining asshole she always was…. Well maybe she wouldn't be full on asshole with Lauren, but anyone else… Hell yeah. She was still Tamsin after all. Just a Tamsin who loved the doc. Simple as that.
And now that she was done internally rationalizing everything going on, the smell of breakfast intensified and Tamsin could feel her stomach growl as she could feel how hungry she actually was. There was also no point in just sitting here avoiding everything. So now with what seemed like a new sense of purpose Tamsin got up from her sitting position at the edge of the bed . As slowly as possible she stretched her arms over her head, bracing through the tiny stabs of pain that went up her arms as she moved. She ran her hands through her unruly blonde tresses.
Tamsin quickly spotted the bathroom and began to make her way to it immediately upon entering her eyes went to her reflection and it was proven to Tamsin that she looked even worse than she felt. Her hair was a mess and was everywhere on her head , she had bruises everywhere and that stupid cut on her lip. But there was nothing she could do about that right now, and Tamsin knew that being pissed at Bo at this very moment wasn't going to help anything. So Tamsin just located a spare toothbrush on the sink , probably left there by Lauren and brushed her teeth after splashing some water on her face.
As she exited the bathroom Tamsin began heading to the door of the bedroom when she looked over to the shorts Lauren had given her last night. Tamsin contemplated briefly whether or not she was going to put them on before going downstairs. She chuckled quickly at the thought…..of course she wasn't going to put the shorts on, why should she and plus she needed as much of an advantage in the situation as she could possibly get.
Lauren knew Tamsin had gotten up from bed around four minutes ago. Lauren heard the water running in the bathroom but had no possible way of knowing how long Tamsin had been awake before actually making her way to the bathroom. And since Tamsin hadn't bolted out of Laurens apartment (yet) that had to be a good sign right? Again Lauren was going to go with the better option.
Lauren continued to make breakfast ,but now 7 minutes later she was flipping the last slice of French toast when Lauren heard footsteps descending form the stairs and a sense of panic welled in her. Everything boiled down to this, Lauren didn't turn around to greet Tamsin as soon as she heard her reach the last step. She needed to seem as normal as possible and not like she had been waiting while tracking her movements and watching her sleep for an extended period of time.
Lauren waited a couple more seconds till she knew for sure that Tamsin was in the kitchen before she turned around to actually say something to her. Lauren took the French toast out of the pan then turned toward Tamsin every word she had practiced along with every coherent thought left Laurens mind as soon as her eyes hit her. Tamsins hair was still unruly and all over her head in the most adorable way possible, her face even though still bruised was still angelic and was also sporting a smirk. Tamsin was also still wearing the shirt Lauren gave her to sleep in , still without pants. Lauren could feel herself begin to salivate…
This was not how this morning was supposed to play out. But once again Tamsin has rendered her speechless. On the bright side Tamsin was looking at Lauren too, probably not as speechless as she was but from the way Tamsin was looking at her with that smirk plastered on her face Lauren knew the thoughts were far from innocent.
It took Lauren a couple of moments of raking her eyes over Tamsin quite obviously to actually remember that they hadn't yet spoken to each other. It seemed Tamsin was thinking the same thing because only moments later she broke the silence between.
"Morning Doc" Tamsin said with a voice Lauren could tell she was trying to keep under control. But to no avail…
"Good morning Tamsin" Lauren responded after a couple seconds of trying to find her voice. It was somewhat shaky but atleast it didn't expose the nature of her thoughts.
Which was good, this was good, this was progress.
"I see you've made enough to feed the entire light and dark fae " Tamsin said still wearing that shit eating smirk. Lauren truthfully didn't know if she liked Tamsin better when she was like this or when she was extremely vulnerable. Honestly both sides were pretty sexy.
Lauren laughed nervously "Well I didn't know what you ate for breakfast"
Tamsin let out a small laugh , this situation just reminded her too much of their first time together, for some reason this was just entertaining to her. Lauren was wearing the exact same expression she had been then. Soon Tamsin small chuckles stop being chuckles and turned into full on laughter. It was so funny to her how they had come full circle in such a way.
Lauren could do nothing but stand there utterly confused "And what's so funny?" Lauren asked crossing her arms and cocking her head to the side. At those words Tamsin finally looked up at Lauren, her loud laughter turning back into small chuckles once Tamsin saw how clueless Lauren looked standing across the kitchen. Tamsin stayed looking at Lauren as she walked across the kitchen floor to over where Lauren was standing. She invaded her personal space, standing directly in front of Lauren.
In walking over here Tamsin had planned to say some type of reference to their first time in an attempt to be snarky and to have the upper hand on Lauren in this situation. She must have made some sort of tactical error because as soon as she was close enough to Lauren all words died on her tongue and she was left staring like an idiot at the woman she had somehow fell head over heels for.
Lauren was still waiting for an answer to her question, but she realized with Tamsin walking over to her and staring at her like this that she want going to receive one. She didn't know what to do honestly, Tamsin was staring at her so intensely, her eyes kept fleeting from Laurens eyes down to her mouth and then they would fully rake over her body. No one had ever stared at her like this. And it was making it extremely hard for Lauren to stay in control.
Tamsin was just staring at her with so much… Lauren didn't even know how to describe the look that was in Tamsin eyes….Admiration? love? Lust?... A mixture of all three of those options. Lauren had no choice but to stare back in the same fashion as Tamsin. But Lauren wouldn't dare to think she was staring back at Tamsin with love in her eyes… she still hadn't hashed out exactly what her complicated feelings for Tamsin actually were and it still confused the shit out of her but yet here she was…
Neither one of them had moved Tamsin was still inside of Laurens personal space practically pinning her to the counter without even actually touching her. Lauren couldn't move, she didn't want to anyway. Their breathing somehow synched with each others… It was only a matter of time before either one of them broke from this spell. Lauren consciously felt them somehow moving closer, she didn't know how or who was moving nor did she care really. All she really wanted was Tamsins lips on hers. But it was just taking sooooo long. Lauren just couldn't take it anymore. She broke quickly cupping Tamsins still slightly bruised face while her other hand went to grip Tamsins hair. She closed the small amount of space that was between them. As their lips met finally met in a wild kiss where neither of them were in control of. Tamsin melted into the kiss quickly gripping Laurens hips bringing her as close as possible.
Tamsin was slightly aware of the small shots of pain coursing through her body as Lauren kissed her, but she honestly didn't care about that. It's not like she was going to stop her. She hadn't expected Lauren to pounce on her how she did, but Tamsin wasn't complaining. Laurens kisses were doing things to Tamsin that she couldn't even comprehend she was struggling to keep herself under control. Tamsin tightened her grip on Laurens waist before deciding to switch up their positions just a bit.
Tamsin quickly lifted Lauren onto the countertop with ease, causing Lauren to let out a mixture of a gasp and a moan. Lauren tightened her grip on Tamsins hair , somehow now kissing her with more fever than before while wrapping her legs around Tamsin pulling her as close as possible. Their bodies were now flush against each other.
Lauren knew exactly where they were headed if they didn't stop soon. But she just simply couldn't find the strength to stop it. She knew Tamsin was still hurting, but having Tamsins hands and mouth on her the way it was right now was clouding all of her good judgement. How was she supposed to be the rational thinking one when Tamsin had this type of effect on her after only touching her for only a few short minutes.
She should stop….No, she needed to stop, all she had to do was pull away and give Tamsin a little push away from her, even if it was just to try and breathe properly so Lauren could actually form a coherent thought.
"Come on Lewis, you got this..just pull away" Lauren was having trouble making her thoughts form into actions, she gave herself a few more moments to revel in having Tamsins lips on hers while her hands were roaming her body.
"okay….1…2…3-" just as Lauren finally mustered up enough control to actually pull away Tamsin got the bright idea to start roughly kissing her neck causing all those thoughts about stopping what was happening to fly right out of Laurens head as she let out a moan at the action. Now Lauren was back where she started and there was no hope of them stopping now. And she wasn't completely sure if she wanted it too or not.
Tamsins mouth had now switched tactics once more, digging her teeth into Laurens neck and anywhere else on her chest that she could reach really. Lauren couldn't think about topping Tamsin even if she tried now. She was now officially too far gone, her head was spinning and Tamsin was now tugging on the waistband of her pants.
Lauren felt like she was going to pass out if Tamsin didn't hurry, she was getting impatient now. Lauren helped Tamsin pull down of her pajama pants. Finally Tamsin was giving her attention where she desperately needed her clit in slow circles while her mouth continued its onslaught on Laurens body. Lauren barely heard the faint ringing sound from across the kitchen. But she did but just barely.
It took her a couple seconds to realize it was her work cell phone that was ringing, and that it was probably important. Again Lauren was having trouble making her thoughts into actions. She pulled away slightly.
"Tamsin the phone…." Lauren managed to gasp out
"Yeah I hear it" Tamsin replied never once stopping her assault on Laurens body.
"i….should answ…ohh god… " Lauren struggled to say as Tamsins hands started to rub harder circles over her. The incessant ringing came to a stop only a moment later
"They'll call back if its really important" Tamsin said quickly before going back to work on Laurens body this time moving her underwear out of the way ,Lauren gasped at the direct contact. Tamsin felt herself grin smugly knowing she caused Lauren to get like this because of her. They carried on like this for several moments until that stupid ringing happened again.
Tamsin let out a frustrated groan. She knew that it must be somewhat important for them to call twice. Even though she wanted to keep Lauren here with her for the entirety of the day she knew she couldn't. Tamsin stepped aside reluctantly and helped Lauren down from the counter.
Lauren stood on shaky legs not really sure that if without Tamsin helping her stand she would have been able to. She walked over to the phone trying to regain her composure and balance as she picked up the phone. Tamsin listened to the one sided conversation while looking at Lauren knowing already that she was going to be leaving.
Lauren gave her a face that had "I'm sorry" written all over it . Tamsin understood and went to go sit on the couch in the next room while Lauren finished her call, now without Lauren to distract her from her injuries she felt every burst of pain that went through her body. She was actually genuinely disappointed she wasn't going to be able to spend the day with Lauren, even if she would never openly admit it.
About a minute later Lauren came in the room
"Tamsin im sooo sorry, a fae elder got sick with something and even though my staff could probably handle this, they want me to come in to make sure but I should be back in about two hours" Lauren said
Tamsin shrugged "its cool doc" She tried being nonchalant about it "could you give me some actual clothes so I can drive home though"
"why would you be going home" Lauren asked genuinely confused
"Because doc… you're leaving" Tamsin stated like it was obvious Lauren began walking over to where Tamsin was sitting on the couch standing behind her and leaning down so that her lips were barely just ghosting over Tamsins ear.
"I was actually very serious about what I said last night… you're staying here" Lauren said in a assertive tone
"And if I decide otherwise" Tamsin asked, pushing her boundaries just a bit
"That's not an option, you're staying here today atleast, I want you to eat something and ice your bruises, Im also going to call and check in , in about an hour so you better still be here and when I get back I was thinking I could make us lunch where we could maybe continue…" Lauren trailed off leaving a trail of kisses up Tamsins neck to her ear.
Tamsin was in no position to argue she didn't want to leave anyway, she was a bit speechless so she just simply nodded to which lauren responded
"Great I'll see you then" With one last kiss on her cheek she was gone rushing upstairs to get ready and was back downstairs in less than 10 minutes, fully dressed and looking very professional. As she headed out the door she walked by the couch bending over to give Tamsin one last chaste kiss on the lips before she left .
Leaving Tamsin wondering how she could've possibly gotten this lucky.