Hello everybody! Hope you like it
xoxo Leviosa
Hey Albus.
Just so you know, I will never leave you again. If you can forgive me
Yours, Gellert.
There were so many letters Gellert wrote, every day. And he sended none of them.
Every time he looked out of the window, he told himself that he was not a psychopath. When he stared at the white ceiling wall of his room, he wanted to believe that he was not a narcissist. He never wanted to kill anyone, did he? He never wanted to see anyone bleed, or anyone to stop breathing. 'I want to see you dead ' was a completely overused phrase, Gellert knew that he had never wanted any of this. He wouldn't be crying if he would have wanted. Death was not something to wish for. Maybe Arianas death had been a sign, something to show him that he should go. He left, and he regretted it already. If it was right, it shouldn't matter how much it hurt him. But it wasn't right, His head was telling him that life wanted him to suffer, that there was someone out there who wanted to see him in that much pain. That it was life, that he should have to accept that everybody he loved got taken from him and that there was nothing he could do about it. And still, in his heart he knew that it was his own fault and that he should've stayed and explained. Explained that he did not know if he had killed Ariana and that even if he had, it would have been an accident.
"Are you okay?", the stranger who just sat down on the table in front of him asked, but he just ignored him. His feelings were no ones concern except himself's. "Hey, I'm asking you something. Don't you think you can ignore me. Especially if you look this miserable. So, what happened to you? I am not letting you leave this place until you tell me why you're almost crying", the person in the dark cloak on the chair next to him demanded. Grindelwald turned around and looked through the restaurant. No one seemed to notice the strange man, except him. His inner alarm went on faster as he could blink. He went through shield spells in his mind, he would have to prepared to be attacked. Unexpected kindness was almost always a trap. And just the fact that he was thinking this, could tell a lot about Gellerts life. No one would hug him, no one ever did. He was alone, and being alone scared him more than anything. Most people were scared of death, of spiders or anything that seemed scary to them. But Gellert hated over everything that he had to be alone every day. Even though he knew that he should be able to be on his own, that he was strong and that he could rule the world alone. But life had taught him that the worst thing had never been, being punished for something, pain wasn't the worst, tears weren't the worst. But it was the worst to be here, without anyone who could understand him. So many ideas, but too insecure. He knew that it was wrong to still hold onto his brain, to his ideology. All his life, he had known that there was a piece of him missing. He had been desperately searching for something, for someone who wouldn't leave him, someone he wouldn't destroy by accident, someone he wouldn't push away because he was scared of love, specifically being hurt, being lost because he had lost everything he ever had. It was strange that he craved for something so bad, the two opposites fighting inside his heart. He knew that he had the talent to rule the world, he knew that he shouldn't cry, that he shouldn't be sensitive, that holding on, that fighting even more would get him what he wanted, like always. Because humans were the only thing Gellert Grindelwald lost in life, but maybe that was the prize of being able to manipulate life in other areas. There were days when Gellert did not want to stand up and fight anymore. Because he was constantly thinking back, to what he had done wrong. It was all his fault, his fault that he had lost the only person that had ever made him feel like a whole human. "I've made a mistake. And I'm probably never going to be able to fix it. But there are more important things in my life than that. Anyway, what led you here, my fellow cloak loving human. But I must say that I prefer white to black. It brings my eyes out a little. Don't you think so?" Gellert couldn't really see the face of the stranger, because the only cause of light in the whole restaurant were a few candles. He was trying to pull him closer, so he could finally find out if he was talking to a terrorist or not. But the stranger pulled him away a little, as he was saying: "I knew you would talk around the question. I know what game you're playing and you know that your eyes always look beautiful" Gellert concentrated, he remembered that he had the elder wand in his pocket, but knew that he would have to find another solution. He had practiced wandless magic way too often, he wouldn't fail now. The person in the cloak did not even hear the whisper of Lumos on Gellerts lips, as his hands lighted up the face of the person in front of him. Gellert couldn't keep a wide smile from appearing on his face, even though his mind told him to leave, to distract him and rule the world. His mind told him that he did not need Albus Dumbledore. But his heart knew so much better. With the light on Grindelwalds fingertips, the candles fire went out. "I won't leave you. I won't leave you ever again", Albus said, smiling at him. And for these moments, Gellert felt whole again. For the time when Albus had come to comfort him, when he felt sad. And now, every time he felt sad again, he thought of Albus. Oh, there really was nothing Gellert Grindelwald wished more for than to no longer be alone.