I'm not entirely sure how long I held Candi but I know she feels the same way about me as I feel about her. I honestly could hold her in my arms forever and I think I would be just fine. I just love holding her just like how she loves me holding her. We just layed there until it was dinner time. And so from there we went to the dinning hall and ate dinner. We finished eating around 9:45 some time and the movie thing started around ten, and the whole reason I did this was to take Candi to see the movie with me.

"Hey Candi what are you doing in about fifteen minutes?" I asked her as we got off the elevator on our way back to my room.

"Ummm, I dunno but I hope it involves you kissing and holding me." She said cutely. It only made me smile and kiss her on the cheek.

"Well it could. I was wondering if you want to go to movie night with me tonight… sorta like a date? Because we haven't been on a first date, and so this could be our almost first date until we get outta here and I can take you out on a real first date." I asked hopefully. I already know she is most likely going to say yes because she is my girlfriend after all. But you can never be sure your guess is right.

"I don't know what do I get if I go?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well you get the honor of taking me on a date, but what do I get?" She said with a sultry smile. Is she really testing me right now in the middle of the hallway? Ok I can play too. So I just used her hand and twirled her into me, similar to the way they do it while dancing. I then wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her as close as possiable.

"Well maybe we can have a little after party, and the guest can just be me and you. We can do what ever you want." I purred. She put on a thinking face.

"M'kay but only because I think you're cute and I love you!" She smiled.

"You are so mean some times!" I whinned. She just giggled and wrapped her arms around my neck.

"Yea but you love it." She spoke with a cocky grin.

"Yea you're right I do love it, and I love you!" She just smiled. "Ergh you're so cute. Come on let's go get ready." I said as I let her go and walked back to my room where we grabbed our blankets, and changed into our pajamas. Then from there we left headed to the group room where they show the movie. When we got there it wasn't that crowded so me and Candi went to our normal spot which was at the back corner. After we set up our stuff we went to go get some snacks. On our way up there I scanned the room and saw Randy and Jamie sitting on the far side of the room.

"Hey Candi look!" I said as I poked her in the side and pointed towards them. "I did that."

"Well its about time! I swear when we still roomed together she would talk about him in her sleep. It was actually pretty weird sometimes because she would breathlessly moan his name… but thats none of my buisness though." She said nonschlantly as she turned back to the table. It took me a couple seconds to get what she just said to me. That's actually pretty funny if you ask me, but Candi is right thats none of our buisness. So I just grabbed my candy and a rootbeer and sat back down.

"What movie are they playing tonight?" Candi asked as she cuddled into me.

"Umm I think its called Enough. You know the one with Jennifer Lopez in it." I spoke nonschlantly as I opened my Swedish Fish.

"Oh… have you seen it before?"

"Yea like one time… it was alright." I shrugged.

"Ok, well I like J-Lo." She smiled before she kissed me so I kissed her back. And when we pulled apart I saw Ginger Snap standing across the room, and what do you know he is staring at us. And I did make a promise to kiss and make love to Candi. I already made love to her so now I get to kiss her some more. So I gave her another kiss with all the love and passion I could put into it. "You know I never get tired of kissing you?" Candi smiled.

"Yea I know thats why I do it. Besides I love it when you sometimes bite my lip when we kiss." I said honestly. It actually turns me on when she does that.

"Oh so like this?" She then kissed me again and nibbled on my bottem lip. Damn she really is a tease. When she pulled away she made sure to pull my lip with her teeth.

"Damn it you tease! You are so luck we are surrounded by people." I growled. She just smiled

"I love you too!" She grinned before she gave me a quick peck on the cheek and cuddled into my side. I decided I didn't want to sit like that, so I grabed her legs and put them across my lap and so that way she is closer to me. She didn't seem to mind infact she rested her head on my shoulder. Naturally I wrapped my arms around her as the movie started.

The movie focuses on the harsher side of being married to men in some cases. Really it demonstrates that you never know who you are in a relationship with. Also it shows how some guys have absolutly no respect for women, and that since men are seen as the superior gender that they can rough up their wives or girlfriends and its ok. Really it doesn't work that way in my opinion. Men may be faster, more physically fit, and have more responsibilities, but if you think about it women are always going to be one step ahead of the men. Us women in a way are stronger and tougher then any man. Men don't bleed uncontroably once every month, they don't get taken advantage of, they don't have to worry about possiably getting raped everytime they go out, they don't have to give birth. Hell without women there would be no man, men need women more than woman need men. So for a guy to beat up a women is pretty much the same as him beating up his mom. I mean why do some guys beat women? Are they too scared to fight someone their own size? We're they not loved enough as a kid? Do they do it to feel superior? There is no good reason for a guy to ever beat a women unless its self defence. It's hard being a girl in all honesty, but this movie shows how strong women could be when it comes down to it.

We were about maybe thirty minutes into the movie when I felt some sort of clear warm liquid hit my arm. Well I know it isn't raining inside, and I didn't say anything and neither did Candi… maybe I'm just imagining things. No I'm not there it is again! Wait a second that is coming from Candi.

"Candi are you ok?" I asked very concerned. She looked and me… and she was crying.

"No! I don't want to watch this anymore." She quietly sobbed.

"Wait why? What happened?"

"Can we just go?" She cried. I hate seeing her cry.

"Ok lets go." I spoke as we got up and I lead her to the hallway back to my room. And she just broke down. I'm not going to lie I panicked about what to do. So I just did what came naturally and wrapped her up in a tight hug. "Shh its ok Candi I got you let it out." I cooed as I picked her up bridal style and sat in the chair next to my bed, letting Candi sit in my lap. She just wrapped her arms around my neck and burried her head in my neck. She just cried and cried. But the whole time I held her I kept replaying the events that just happened. And I don't remember doing or saying anything that would up set her, so why is she crying? I guess I have to wait and ask her.

I just held her and ran my hand through her hair. She did eventually stop crying so now she is just sniffling on my now very wet shoulder.

"Are you okay beautiful?" I whispered softly. She didn't respond but she just shook her head no. "Do you want to talk about it?" She just shook her head no again. "Candice how am I suspose to help you if I don't know whats wrong?"

"It brought back all the bad memories." She sobbed into my shoulder. Okay well I don't know what she means by it and I don't know what she is talking about by bad memories.

"Candi what do you mean?"

"Can we talk about it later? I want to go to bed." She murmered. As much as I want to know what she was talking about I decided to just do what she wanted.

"Alright but if you want to do that we have to go back to West wing." I spoke remembering that they only said she could spend the day over here, and I don't want to get in trouble. She just nodded her head. "Did you want me to carry you or do you want to walk?"

"I think I can walk." She sniffled. So I let her go and she got up and I stood up with her. I then pulled her into a hug.

"I love you Candice." I said looking down at her. She gave me a slight smile. I don't need her to say it back I know she loves me too. So I gave her a quick kiss and pulled her hood over her head making sure to pull her hair to the sides of her face so it could go on all they way. I then grabed her hand and started towards the elevator making sure to try to avoid any of the others. When we got in the elevator I held her until we got to the right floor, then from there I lead her back to her room. She just went to the bed and layed down on her side. I really do hate it when I know she is hurting and I don't know why so I walked over to the bed. "Is there any room for your Squishy?" I lightly asked. She didn't say anything she just moved over enough so I could get in. I took off my shirt because it was wet from her tears and because I know she loves it when I don't have one on.

"I'm sorry I ruined our date." She said softly as she cuddled into me.

"Its ok you didn't ruin it we are still here together aren't we. So how about you get rid of this hoodie while I find us something to watch." I suggested.

"If its ok with you I don't really want to watch TV anymore. I just want you to hold me." She spoke as she took off her hoodie.

"Okay your wish is my command." I said as I pulled her close to me and just wrapped my arms around her like she asked. But I still want to know why she started to cry during the movie so I got to thinking. After about ten or fifteen minutes of playing different scenarios in my head and only one of my thought patterns actually kind of makes sense. The movie was about a lady who was on the run from her abusive husband. And then it made me think of all the crazy bar fights I've been in where I beat down bitches like no tomorrow then ran from the cops. Which lead me to remember doing that is what landed me in here, then I thought about how I fought the guards before I even stepped foot in this building. And from there I remembered how I almost broke Joe's nose, and how he tried to get with my Candi. Only in return made me accidentally knock down Candice, and when I did that she said 'God I hate you Ryan'. And then I thought back to the movies how the husband would knock down his wife when he beat her. So then I guess when I knocked her down it was kind of abuse but I didn't do it on purpose. So I assume that the movie reminded Candi of that, and when she yelled I hate you Ryan… she must have thought I was Ryan. So that could only mean one thing… He must have… But why? Candice is one of the most kind hearted people I've ever met, she couldn't even hurt a fly.

As much as I want to try and imagine that that isn't even plausible everything makes sense now. Why she is insecure about her body, why she was hesitant to say I love you back, why she thought I was just using her when she saw me kiss Ginger Snap, why she thought I only loved her for her looks. And so when I knocked her over… what she did must have been her normal responce when things like that happened. How could I have been so blind to see it. All the pieces were there even when me and Candi had our very first conversation when she said that guys were the reason she is even in this place. Jeeze I feel like such a bonehead. I think I may have just figured her out completely, but like I said before don't count your chickens before they hatch. So I guess I gotta wait until tomorrow to find out for sure.

Candice already fell asleep poor thing must have tired herself out from all the crying. So I just pulled the blanket over us and fell asleep myself.

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When I woke up the next morning Candi wasn't in bed with me. Oh no not again I don't want what happened happen again. So I got up and checked the bathroom she wasn't in there. Then she must have left the room, so I put on my shirt and walked out the door and headed down the hall maybe she is talking to one of the nurses. No she isn't down here. Where the fuck did she go!? I swear if she is doing something she shouldn't, I'm going to be very upset with her.

"Looking for someone?" I heard the beautiful voice call out from behind me, so I turned and saw Candi standing down the hall holding what appears to be breakfast. I let out a sigh of relief as I walked over to her.

"You know you shouldn't do that to me I thought you were doing something you shouldn't be doing." I pouted

"I know I'm sorry but I wanted us to eat breakfast together." She said innocently. Sometimes she just does the dumbest of things but I can never stay mad at her, she's so cute and I love her. So I just smiled and took the tray from her before I started to walk back to the room.

"You know you could have just woke me up and we could have went together." I said as I set the tray on the bedside table.

"I know but you looked so peaceful sleeping. Besides you always do alot for me so I figured I would return the favor." She smiled.

"You're so cute you know that!?" I grinned before I kissed her.

"Yea you tell me everyday!"

"Good and don't forget it because its true." I said honestly. After that we sat and ate breakfast together. When we finished eating we laid back down and we decided to watch TV. Candice was laying at the top of the bed I decided to lay my head on her stomach. Yea we just do weird things like that, but its normal in our relationship. I'm not sure how long we laid there but what happened last night is still eating away at me I have to know. So I flipped my position so that I was looking up at her.

"Hey Candi?" I asked

"Yea?"

"Umm do you remember when that guard was hitting on you and I lost my cool and stormed off... And then I accidentally knocked you down?" She hesitated before she nodded her head yes. "After you fell do you remember what happened after that? Well more like what you said to me after that?"

"No I just remember chasing after you and then the next thing I know Randy is holding me." She said in a causious voice.

"Like you really don't remember the in between?" She just shook he r head no. "Well after you.. hit the floor you gave me a look like I was some sort of monster." I paused to gauge her reaction to it she seemed really confused. But that isn't important right now."and then you said 'God I hate you Ryan' and then you got up and ran inside. So I was kind of wondering ummm… is he the reason why you didn't want to watch the movie last night?" I asked softly. She didn't say anything but her eyes got really glossy like she was about to cry. So I moved up and pulled her into me. "I'm sorry Candi I didn't mean to upset you or anything. We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." I cooed as I held her but she looked up at me.

"He is my ex back in Milwaukee. The main reason I moved down here is because of him."

"Candi we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to. Its just-"

"No I feel like you should know. I want you to know, I eventually would have to tell you. Just promise me you won't ignore me I know some people don't really want to hear these kinds of stories." She trailed off.

"I love hearing your stories. Even if it is one of the stories people don't want to hear. Besides I love hearing your voice, so whatever you have say I will listen." She blushed at the last part.

"Well it started off great. He would take me out, buy me random gifts for no reason, surprise dates in the middle of the day, it was every girls dream relationship. Then the next thing I know we moved in together all in the span of a year. Then soon after that is when my modeling career took off, I got calls from fashion magazines, make-up companies wanted my to be in their commercials, different chlothing companies, I was getting calls left and right. At first he was really happy for me but then I started to get calls from Victoria's Secret, Playboy, different bikini swimsuit companies and he seemed to get a little jealous when ever I did the shoots. As crazy as it seemed I've always wanted to be a Playboy bunny so of coarse I jumped at the chance. But Ryan didn't approve of me posing for Playboy, I didn't care I do what I want and so I did it without him knowing. He never read those kinds of magazine anyways so I thought everything would be fine." She pause for a few seconds before starting again.

"It was fine until one night he comes home drunk and slams down the Playboy magazine that had me on the cover. I've never seen him so mad, then he start to yell about how now all his friends know what I look like naked and that it should be for his eyes only. And about how I embarrassed him and that I'm a slut, a whore and that now nobody would ever want to be with a girl like me. Before my mom died I remember she told me never let someone call you something you're not. So I yelled right back at him to defend my self. He didn't like that to much and then the next thing I know he slapped me and he never did that to me before so I left and spent the night in a hotel. Then the next morning I guess he sobered up and realized he fucked up, because he called and texted me over and over begging me to come back home. I didn't answer any of them, but after a couple of hours I decided to go back home with every intention to break up with him. He apologized and promised to not do it again so naturally I forgave him and took him back. And everything was okay again. But that only lasted for a month before he lost his job... And that is when everything started to go south..." She spoke teary eyed.

"Oh Candi you don't have to finish if you don't want to. Its ok I understand." I said not really wanting to know what happens next.

"No we're in to deep I have to finish it now. So he lost his job, so for a while we just lived off of the money I made from modeling. While I was working I guess he must have found a job or something because every night he would come home with money , but he always smelled like weed and beer. Then he would go off about how it was my fault he lost his job, and that if I didn't pose for Playboy or that I didn't do any of the modeling that I did he would still have his job. Then he'd call me every mean name in the book, and he made me feel worthless. This would go on every other week then I found comfort in razor blades and alcohol. It it happened in a vicious cycle. He'd come home drunk and high then yell at me and sometimes he would hit me. I'd go get drunk and then cut. Then the next day he would sober up and apologize. And this went on for about a year because when he apologized I really believed he would change next time but it never did. Then one day while he was gone I got a phone call because he got arrested because apparently he was a drug dealer. I didn't care though I just packed up my stuff and left. My aunt lives down here in Miami, and she let me stay with her and her husband until I got back on my feet. But that was a mistake because I would get hit on, then they would get all freaked out by the scars and then leave. Then I'd just drink some more and cut. It happened so often that my aunt insisted that I come here before I did serious harm to myself." Ijust kissed her with all the love I could.

"Candice I want you to know I promise to never hurt you like that. I don't know who would want to hurt you like that you're so beautiful flaws and all. I love you too much to ever do something crazy like that to you. And you know after hearing that story it made me realize that you are a lot stronger than I thought and for that you are my hero." I spoke honestly as I tightened my grip on her and gave her a hug. I could hear her start to cry again so I just held her even closer. I guess there really is a story behind every smile. Some are good some are bad but everybody has a story.

Well that was quite some date huh? Now we know Candi's story. Things can only go up from here right? I hope you don't feel like I half-assed this chapter. I recently got a huge bag of Swedish Fish so the sugar high has been real the past few days and is kinda affecting my writing, I'm barley halfway through the bag. But yea sugar is fun. Just remember when there is a lightning storm make sure you put on as much metal as you can and play outside. Jk don't do that cuz then you can't read my stories.

Anywhore if you don't know by now you should go check out MistressDaisy94 because she is a writer of the fine arts of Femslash and it is just the best thing ever. Vagina -Joz