Warning: Bad grammar n tenses, so beware. Every mistake solely mine. Harry Potter not mines. Slash n m – preg. ;D
Late up date again. I kinda got frustrated here. has been banned by my provider. I dunno what to do anymore. I guess I got to stopped writting fanfiction. I do really don't want to rushed the story but I had to get this story a closure, don't I ?
Btw, here is the up date. Please bare with me. And sorry for the long waiting.
Day 1
"How could you gave me a detention just because I opened my mouth?" Harry grumbles at the man before him.
"Just because." Severus smirks widely as he looked over his shoulder at the boy who pout like five years old.
"That's so cruel. Really cruel, mate." Ron whispered softly beside him.
"You're my dad." Harry pout deeply as he glare at Severus.
"Well, no one know beside you and your friend. And I thought you forgot about it the moment you step outside my door." Severus snort loudly.
"About that, you're lying too. You said I'm only forget about what we talked at your chamber." Harry huffed loudly as the other two looked back and fro like a ping pong match.
"Well, kiddo, I hate to say this but that memories are too important to be shares with Dark Lord." Severus rolls his eyes. Harry's shrugged his thin shoulder lightly. He knows the answer but still he wish to have a beautiful memories about his parents.
"Besides, I thought seeing your parents had sex would terrified you." He grinned happily at his boy.
"Urgh! Don't remind me about that part! Merlin! It scars my pure, virgin brain. It damaged me." Harry moans as he grabs his messy hair tightly, wishing the now surfacing images away from his mind. Ron and Hermione wisely shut their mouth, not wanting to destroy dad and child bonding time. If you could say that bonding banter?
"You know what? I could never imagine that someday I would saw Severus Snape like this." Hermione whisper softly at Ron.
"I swear I would laughed so hard if someone said he's pretty or nice before this, but seeing him like this.." Ron shakes his head in disbelieve.
"I understand." Hermione grimaced lightly. "And.. we never felt the charm he used to covering his real face. We never knew he was using a glamour at all." Hermione says with awe.
"Yup. That's saying how powerful he was. No wonder Harry's own magical power're so great." Ron sighs.
"You're right, Ron. And now I know where did his stubborn trait came from." Ron grinned widely as he chuckles.
"You're right, 'Mione." They smiles widely as they continue to watch both dad and son walking side by side together in peace.
When they came into Severus' room, he walked straight to his book shelf. He took out some books and brought it to the table beside the couch.
"You better sit now and read this books carefully. This book will teach you about the basic and what to expect in learning Occlumency and Legimens." He says sternly. "Memorize it and when you could embrace the basic, I would train all of you by myself. I won't hold back the moment I cast this spell on you, so prepare yourself." He stood up after he warned them and gone to his office to grades some paper.
"Well, let's get start. The books won't finish itself if we didn't start to read it." Hermione says as she took the first book. Harry sighs loudly as he took the second.
"There's so many book." Ron gapped as he saw the mountain of book before him.
"Oh really, Ron. If you want to learn something you should find all of the reference you could get or you'll never know which are the real information and what not." Hermione scolded as she glare at the boy beside her.
"Yup. Like my dad said, grow up a bit. If you want someone to take you as SOME person you should learn to get a grip on yourself and learn to count on yourself, not letting anyone to clean up the mess for you or feed you everything." Harry grinned at him, his eyebrows wiggling playfully.
"Oh, come on mate. Just because he's your dad now you'll take anything he said as yours." Ron huffed loudly.
"HE made a good point." Hermione slap the back of his head hard. "You want to be heard by someone, make yourself useful first and that mean, Ronnikins, be resourceful." She says as she turn back on his book. Harry shrugged his shoulder as Ron look at him for support.
"Like you said, he's my dad, so I have to do what he asked me to do. And in this point, read this book for my sake to prevent Voldie into my mind. I hate it when he play soccer with my head." Harry grunted as he begin to read.
Severus stands in the shadow as he listening to what the trio Gryffindor said when they thought he was in his office. He smiles softly as he looks at his son. Warmth bloom at his chest everytime his son calls him dad and how he tries his best to make him proud of him.
'You'll always make me proud, Harry. Just being born already making me proud of you.' Severus shakes his head softly. 'Oh, James, if only you could see your son right now. You'll be so proud of him.' Severus sighs as he get back to his desk to start grading, leaving the now silent trio to their new responsibility.
Two hours latter
"Merlin, it seems so hard to do." Ron groan as he finished the second book.
"My head hurts." Harry moan pettily.
"I admit, it makes my head want to explode. I never know that every book has their own way to learn Legimens and Occlumency." She exhales deeply. "But I cross some clue from this book with that one," she point the book from his right with the one she held, "we need to clear and organized our mind first. That's mean – " she said in vigor as the other counterpart listening intensively to what their genius friend saying. "we should find a way to help us to control our mind." Ron and Harry quirks their brow expectantly for her to continue. "and unfortunately I haven't found the way." Her lips tightened in distaste. "So, what did you both got from the book you read?" she asked to both of the boy before her.
"I forgot." Ron said sheepishly.
"How can you forgot, Ron?" she glares at him. "You JUST read the book." She groans in disbelieve.
"Hey, it's so thick – " Ron tried to say.
"Yes, but unfortunately your head thicker that anything in the book never got into your head. What about you, Harry?" she rolls her eyes.
"Well, what I could get from this book, which I just read half of it, 'Mione, just like what you said before we had to control our mind." Harry waves his hand lightly, "But in this book, it specified that in some point you got to divided your mind into some little sub section which you could label it which the important one and which one are not. You could hide the important one behind or even scrambles it with the unimportant one so.. if someone tries to invaded your mind, they would got confused which one the important information, which one the real information and which one the false one. BUT.. I haven't got a clue how to divided it." Harry sighs in desperation. "We got to read all of this book." Harry groan as he put his head on the top of the book his holding on.
"Well, at least we know how to done it but we haven't found a way to make it work." She murmured softly. Her mind railing as her mind absorbs every new information for her future use.
"You could begin with meditation." Soft and melodic voice suddenly chimed before them, making the three of them jump in surprise.
"Dad, a warning please. I'm gonna get a heart attack if you done it everytime you got into the room unnoticed." Harry moan loudly. His heart beats so hard from the shock. Severus rolls his eyes as he sit on the loveseat.
"Meditation just clearing your mind but didn't teach you how to organized your mind." Hermione says as she asked an explanation from the man before her.
"What the first thing the book says to learn this spells?" He quirk his slim eyebrow lightly.
"Clear and organize your mind." She says confidently.
"Yes, Ms. Granger. With meditation it would help you to clear and control your mind. The better you get in meditation, the better you could control your mind. With a good control of your mind, you could control your emotion such a panic or fright. When you get better hold of your control, you'll learn how easy your mind can create an illusion or invincible wall for something you hold dear in your mind so noone could take it from you. Everything in this spells are about control." He says as he cares his lips with his long finger.
The three students listening to every word he's saying. "So, all we have to do are meditating?" Ron asked in disbelieve.
"Don't underestimating it." He smiles sardonically. "Meditation needs patience and effort. Not everyone could done it perfectly, especially a child like all of you whose full of emotion and impatience. It would take a lot of effort from you." He sighs loudly before he rose from his seat. "Now, you know about the basic." He smiles sweetly. "Off you go and take the books with you. I expect it to get back with the same condition I lend it to you. It's time for you to get back to your commonroom and don't let anybody see the book. And don't forget to start practicing meditation." He says as he ushered the three students out of his door back to his lab.
Harry sagged as he was send to the door. It's not enough. He haven't had a moment with his dad. Just a little moment for both of them. He looked back before he's out of the dungeon. He glance at Ron and Hermione whose bickering about what they would do before they get to bed tonight.
Severus quirk his eyebrow lightly as he saw Harry hesitating at the front door. "Please don't send me back, not right now." He whispers softly to Severus. It stabbed his heart to hear his son pleas for him. "Please let me stay for another hour, say you gave me another detention for mouthing you off at my detention or – or – just anything but don't send me off now, please." Tears glistening on his emerald eyes.
Severus' face pinched in sorrow as he listening at what his son said. No son should asked for his father's time or attention and he's just depriving his own son with the most basic need. He gulped loudly as he opened his arms, beckoning his son into his embrace. Harry flung himself back into his dad's arm as he hug him fiercely, hoping he would never leave his arms anymore. Severus kisses his head softly as he looked at Harry's friend who stays at the front door.
They nodded and smiles at him in understanding before they closed the door softly behind them, giving the little family for their own time. A time for a reunion as a father and a son.
Severus stirred the still clinging son into his bedchamber. He sits down and brought his son beside him. Harry curls beside him, his head pillowed his dad's chest and his hand gripped his dad's front robe in death grips, scares that if he let it go, his dad would be gone from him.
Severus cares the silky hair lovingly, savoring the time he could get with his son. Harry nuzzles and inhales his scents softly, he loves his spicy and slight minty scent on his nose. "Why did you sent me to the Dursley?" he whispers softly.
"I never intended to." He answers after a long pause. "You were gone the moment I came into our home. The headmaster sent you off without giving me information where did he send you. He just said you'll be safe there." He says as he put his cheek at the soft hair of his son. "I asked him about you multiple times but he brushed me off. He banned me to search for you."
"And you just let it go like that?" Harry look up, his eyes shone hurt at his dad confession.
"I wish I could disobey his command." He laughs flatly. "You know that I made a bad choice, Harry, for joining the deatheater. He never trust me and unfortunately I don't really trust him either." He sigh tiredly. "When your father r – got me at my six year as you saw it on my pensieve, one thing he force me to do was joining the light side.
James asked me to gone to Dumbledore to got into the light side but, it was never been that easy. He wants me to spy the dark lord movement and to make sure that I'm truthfully and loyal to him, he asked me an Unbroken Vow." He says softly, his hand cares Harry's cheek again and again as if he tried to brand it into his mind.
"But, if you don't want to join the light side you could refused it right ?" Harry asked in confusion. Everything makes no sense as if he miss something important.
"When your father took me for the first time," he gulped softly, "did you saw his hand movement in the end of his conquest?" he asked nervously. He's uncomfortable to talk about his first night to anybody, and now he has to explain it to his son, it terrified him. It was one of the reason he store the memory into the pensieve.
"Uh – huh. He draw and chanted something with y-your, um, cum." He whispers when he said the last word. His face reddened as he squirms at his seat. Severus chuckles softly.
"You're a teenager, it's time for you to be comfortable to say that word." He says to lighten the moment. Harry groan as he burrowed his face into his dad neck. Severus smiles widely at his son's embarrassment and hug him tightly.
"I've never been kissed, so it's my right to get uncomfortable enough to say THAT word." He grumbles softly.
"Of course, kiddo." He chuckles again as Harry jabbed his side lightly in annoyance but his heart beat faster when his dad called him a pet name. Nobody ever calls him pet name before, especially from a love ones.
"So, what's that?" he questioning him, making his dad focusing back to the problem.
"It was an old spell, only old family knew about that spell. Our people hardly using it anymore. It was one of the oldest bonding spell. The spells would make sure the person whose been cast would be loyal and faithful to the person who casted it, just like a good house wife. They would obey your husband words and would never cheat on him." Severus grimace as he remembering it.
"In another word, he's controlling your every moves." Harry says in annoyance.
"You could says that, I can fummed and throwing tantrum but I can't disobey his words. His word was law in my body and magic. I got my own opinion and way to think but once he made a decision, I couldn't disobey him." He shrugged lightly. "He doesn't like it when I associate myself with 'them'. Though I knew that he was right, I'm not one to obey anybody. My father and the Dark Lord made sure it ingrained into my head. So, I fought tooth and nail to refuse him." he smiles sheepishly. Harry snorted as he rolls his eyes.
"Yeah, sound like yourself." He grinned at the older man.
"Imagined my surprised, the moment he growled and demanded me to met Dumbledore to joined the light side, my mouth snapped shut and I felt something in my soul cower from his anger. I immediately agree to come to the old coat and made an unbreakable vow with your father approval." He rolls his eyes but his arms never left Harrys' shoulder.
"When did you know about the bonding spell?" he asked softly.
"Truthfully, I found out about a month after the bonding happened. With your father massive libido, classes and assignment and not to forget attending deatheater gathering and my new job as a spy." He scrunched his nose in distaste, "it's a wonder I could found it in a month."
Harry gapped at his dad hectic activities, no wonder he was so skinny with an awful job he'd done everyday. He closed his mouth shut and clears his throat loudly. "So, how did you turn form hating him into – well liking him?" He asked in hopeful tone.
"Well, just says that his dick crept into my heart?" He grinned widely as he peered at his son wound face after hearing their sex live turn into love. Harry moan in surrender with his dad somehow awful sense of humor.
"Really, dad, Really?" He groan loudly as he's hiding his face into the crook of his dad's shoulder. Severus' body shakes as he tried his best to stifles his laughter for his son's misery.
"Really really, sonny boy." He grinned widely. "Trust me, he's great in that department and a possessive bastard that somehow, which I don't even know how too, he crept into my heart and having you just cemented our bonding and my feeling for him." he says as he kiss Harry's temple lovingly. "You're the best gift he ever gave me, never doubted it, little hope." Harry smiles widely as he hugs the older man chest tightly as he closes his eyes tightly. He's wishing so hard that this moment would never end.
"Come on, it's time for you to go back to your common room." Severus said as he scratch Harry's scalp lightly.
"Just a little bit, please." He murmured, still don't wanna let his dad go even just for tonight.
"Ok then." He conceded.
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