Chapter Thirty Three

The feeling of his body pressing against hers. The heavy breathing and gasping coming from both of their bodies as his tongue ravashed her mouth, leaving her breathless. She could barely think much less say anything. This felt too good, damn it way too good but she also knew that this wouldnt lead to anything positive. She had been in this place before, she had been so lost with him and for what? Could she really put herself through this again. He must of noticed her change in demeanor, or maybe he was reading her mind again cause he pulled back..

"stop thinking, just feel" his voice rasped heavily as he began kissing down her neck..

"John we cant do this" she gasped as his tongue danced down her neck, leaving a trail of fire in its wake. She had to clear her head.."i cant" she used all the strength she had left to push his chest away from her..

He looked frustrated and annoyed as he breathed in deep and ran a hand through his hair.."you cant deny that you want this" he spoke low, his eyes hazing over once more..

"yeah well sometimes you cant always get what you want" she said with a heavy breath as she moved herself from the wall and he watched her..

"I know you want me Natalie, as bad as I want you" he said as she walked across the room, she couldnt face him because if she did she would get lost once more, she couldnt bear that pain again..This wasnt even the John she knew, this was a stand in and one capable of even more damage then the original..He let out a deep breath as she walked over to the window and looked out.."tell me what you want" he said hoarsly, the desire evident in his voice..

"I just want my daughter back, I need my head clear and I dont need complications" she forced the words out..

"and im a complication?" he asked almost perplexed.."weve slept together before"

"No...no we havent" she said honestly as she turned to face him.."i cant go down that road again"

"You still dont trust me" he said matter of factly..

"and you need to stop reading my thoughts ok, its not fair, they are private" she said defensively. Maybe if she got herself really mad at him then it would make this easier..

"well then you need to stop thinking so loudly, they practically scream at me" he said with a shake of his head as he began walking over to her.."I want you and I know you want me" he said in a low dangerous tone that made her heart race.."i can smell your desire Natalie, I can hear your heart racing, you cant deny what is right in front of you" he got closer to her, almost like a predator stalking its prey..

She moved away from him quickly.."i dont even know you ok, this isnt right regardless of how I feel"

"You barely knew me before" he said dryly as he watched her.."when was the last time you felt this much desire and want" his voice was deep and raspy, it made her swallow hard, she couldnt speak..

"stop talking like that ok" she said nervously as she crossed her arms over her chest and he smirked now, almost a knowing smirk..

"is it this place?" he raised an eyebrow..

"what? no... I told you I cant" she began to say and then he was right in front of her as she gasped.."stop doing that" she whispered..

"before I was weak and arrogant, I played games, im not like that anymore, I know what I want and I want you" he stood merely inches from her..

"I...I" she whispered breathlessly

He closed the distance between them.."you worry too much about what others will think"

"You have no soul" she blurted out quickly as he stared at her..

"so I was better with a soul?" he cocked his head at her..."when I use to play games with you and degrade you, humiliate you?"

"Your twisting things around" she swallowed hard..

"am I? Think about it Natalie, I did nothing but make your life miserable and what im offering now is" he smirked a little.."well, honesty"

"i need to stay focused" she side stepped him but he moved with her body.."i cant sleep with you"

"but you want to" he said quickly.."its seems like your the one playing games now" he raised an eyebrow at her..

"Games?" she couldnt help but laugh sarcastically.."i dont play games"

"your playing one now, a dangerous one" he spoke low.."I may not have a soul, but that doesnt mean im not human"

"well technically your not" she added nervously as she moved a bit more but he kept moving with her as if he anticipated the next step..

"that didnt stop you before" he said honestly..

"yeah well before was different ok, it was...and I" she began to get loud but he got right in front of her, his breath on her face..

"You what? You want to run, to hide, to act as if nothing is going on here, all because your obsessed with this soul business?" he said quickly..

"maybe you should be a bit more worried about it yourself" she quietly..

"tell me what you think will happen when I get my soul back" he said with almost a humerous tone.."do you think im going to rush into your arms, do you think im going to plead my undying love?" his tone was pissing her off now.."Im offering myself to you, offering ecstacy and im not beating around the bush, im telling you, right here and right now that I want you so bad that it hurts" he rasped.."did he ever do that?"

Natalie didnt know what the hell to think, hell he was practically begging her in a sick kind of way. What the hell was happening to her, she knew this was wrong on so many different levels and yet she wanted him, god did she want him..He studied her face, looking for an answer..

He reached out and touched the side of her face and she couldnt move, she wanted to atleast part of her wanted to but she stood there, just staring at him. It was almost like the John she knew was there even though he had never been so brutally honest with her like this..

"tell me" he asked as he brushed a piece of her long red hair back behind her ear..

"I dont know what to say" she finally said just above a whisper..

"then dont say anything at all" his face moved closer to hers.."just feel" he finished as his lips collided with hers in a heated kiss, one that she couldnt stop if she wanted..His hands went to her ass, pushing her against the length of his body. His erection was hard and pressing against her stomach as she moaned into his mouth. She couldnt even control herself..Her hands instinctively went into his long hair, pulling and grasping it as she deepened the kiss even further..

Slowly they moved backwards until her legs hit the bed and he finally pulled back from the punishing kiss. His eyes were on fire, literally like a deep shade of amber and what really freaked her out was that she wasnt scared, she was completely and utterly turned on by him..He pulled off his shirt in one swift move, tossing it across the room as her eyes landed on that muscular chest, the one she had seen before. God he was beautiful.. He stared at her as if he was starving and definitely not for food, it made her swallow the hard lump in her throat..

He slowly began unbuttoning his black slacks as her eyes locked on his body, she was absolutely frozen in that spot..His pants dropped at his feet, he stood in front of her naked and literally looking like a god..He glanced down his body and looked at his impressive erection as her eyes got wide. He moved his hand to the shaft of his penis and slowly began stroking himself as he stood there, his eyes now on hers.."see what you do to me, so how hard you make me" he licked his lips as he kept stroking, her eyes fixed on his cock and the way his hand move, it was by far the most erotic thing she had ever seen.."Touch me" he rasped at her as she quickly looked up and he grabbed her wrist quick as he pushed it against his cock, forcing her fingers to encircle it as he threw his head back and groaned.."show me" he left out a deep groan as he kept his head thrown back..Her hand tightened around his thickness as her breathing accelerated..She slid her hand slowly, deliberately up and down his length.."thats it, dont stop" he breathed heavy and then looked at her.. His eyes fixed on hers and then he was wrapping one hand into her hair as he pressed against her and his mouth collided with hers..

He held onto her hair tight as he kissed her almost bruisingly as her hand tightened even more against him, elicting a deep groan from him and before she could even know what was happening, he was pushing her down on the bed. His weight bearing down on her as she gasped.. She honestly couldnt believe this was happening and she couldnt stop herself but just as quickly he pulled his mouth from hers and before she could protest he was yanking her shirt up and over her head. Almost as quickly his hands were on her jeans and he was yanking them down her legs, panties included as she gasped out loud..

Laying there with just her bra on she began to tremble with anticipation..

He looked at her with so much desire that it made her stomach flip as she laid there not saying a word and then he was yanking her bra down and then quickly off of her body so fast that she couldnt even think..

His eyes grazed over her body slowly as she squirmed a bit uncomfortably as she looked up at him and then he was climbing over her body, his eyes darkening as he settled over her, he bared his weight on his arms as he looked down at her and then almost instantly his mouth was coming down on hers in a very heated kiss as his weight pressed her into the bed and she shifted her legs so that he fit between them..

The heaviness she felt between her legs from his massive thick length sent chills all over her body as he began rubbing himself against her, causing her to moan out as he continued his tortorous ways. This was all just too much to take, he just felt too good and then just as surprisingly he was pushing her hands above her head as his erection pressed against her entrance. He immediately removed his mouth from hers as she arched her neck and awaited the sweet thickness of his body but instead he spoke.."open your eyes, I want you to see me as I enter you" he groaned at her and she couldnt help but obey as her eyes opened and met his.."dont take them off of me" he rasped as he began pushing himself into her slowly, his body deliberately taking its time as it filled her..

The feeling was out of this world, she honestly thought she saw stars, his eyes never left hers as he grunted and pushed past her trembling walls..A deep moan left her mouth as he filled her.. My god is this what she had been missing? She didnt even remember it being this good, or was it? She couldnt think as he continued to enter her..

His body moved like a machine as his tongue mimiked the movements. He took her to a high she never thought exsisted and then even higher. His mouth muffled her moans of pleasure as he pushed her to the very depths and then back again. Just when she thought she could take no more, that the pleasure of it all may just kill her, he moved her legs as he pulled his mouth from hers. He placed them up on his shoulders as he looked down at her, his eyes darkening as sweat glistened over his body. My god he really did know how to move..

"Just let go and feel" he groaned at her as he drove into her deliberately..

"Oh god" she gasped as wave after wave of pleasure rocked her body, she was literally trembling..

"thats it... cum for me natalie" he threw his head back as his own pleasure began to ripple through his muscular body.. Just the sight of him did things to her and the pure rawness of it all had her gasping and moaning as she crashed into ecstacy..

Unbeknowst to either of them Cris stood in the doorway peeking through the slightly open door. He was red with rage and anger. He couldnt believe she would do this to him and after everything he had done for her, everything he had done for Victoria..

He turned quickly from the sight before him. It was amazing how quickly his infatution for her turned into hatred. How could she possibly sleep with that monster? He stormed his way down the hall, nearly knocking down Rex as he turned a corner..

"Hey I was looking for you" Rex began but Cris just kept storming away like a wounded puppy or something.. "hey.. Cris" Rex ran up to him as Cris spun and looked at him, the sight before him was shocking, Cris looked absolutely pissed, even more pissed then Rex had ever seen him..

"not now Rex" Cris snapped angrily as he spun for the stairs..

"hey hold up, whats going on" Rex said with concern, even though at times Cris would really get on his nerves, well, they were best friends..

"Im not in the mood rex, I need some air" Cris continued to storm off as Rex chased after him..

"whats wrong man" Rex pushed on as he followed him..

"absolutely fucking nothing" Cris said sarcastically as they got to the bottom of the stairs and then darted for the door as Rex stood there completely bewildered..

Johns body crushed into Natalie's as they breathed heavy and panted..After a second he rolled off of her and stretched out onto his back as she stared up at the ceiling. Holy shit that was amazing, she thought to herself as John rolled his head to the side and smirked at her and she immediately looked back up at the ceiling, she really did need to learn to keep her thoughts to herself..

A few moments had passed as they laid there, neither of them speaking.."it wasnt a mistake if that is what your thinking" John finally said surprisingly as he glanced at her..

"I wasnt going to say that" she said truthfully and then she looked away.

"so?" he kept looking at her and she honestly didnt know what to say.."are you speechless?" he said with a bit of humor...He finally moved up onto his side so that his head was resting on his shoulder as he looked at her..

"why are you staring" she said with a sudden embarrassment..

"why not, your amazing" he said honestly as she looked at him.

"are you trying to have like pillow talk?" she said with a bright red face, hell everytime her and John had slept together in the past he always made sure to either get up right away or be gone by the time she awoke, this was, well...odd to say the least and this was from a man with no soul?

"maybe, does that bother you?" he asked quickly as she laughed a little.."what?"

"Nothing its just... never mind" she shook her head as she began to sit up, suddenly she wanted nothing more than to have her clothes on but he reached out and grabbed her arm lightly..

"No ...continue" he said seriously as she looked over at him..

"its just strange, thats all" she swallowed hard as she tried not to look at his body, and what a body he had, she quickly looked away..

"You know its ok to look, I know I am" he sat up now and looked over her body.."Would you feel better if I got up and left you here by yourself" he raised an eyebrow at her..

"well that would be rude" she said quickly as she rolled her eyes..

"Look at me Natalie" he moved his hand to her face and slowly turned it so that she was face to face with him.."tell me what your thinking"

"why dont you just read my mind" she rolled her eyes at him..

"You know the only time I can read it is when your practically screaming it at me" he said quickly.."i dont think I have appreciated you nearly enough and especially not back then, do you still want him back?" he raised an eyebrow and It brought up a very valid issue in her head, did she want the original john back or did she want this souless stand in that was brutally honest and completely driven albeit partly evil.."i may not have a soul Natalie but im not a monster, I did stop the apocalypse, remember"

"that may be so but why, why the sudden change in behaviour" she said honestly..

" I dont know actually" he shook his head and then dropped his hand from her face.."Maybe your growing on me" he looked away from her, now he was the confused one..

"maybe that is a good thing" she swallowed hard..

"maybe" he said as he looked at her and his eyes darkened with lust once more.."or maybe.." he moved his face to hers.."maybe we should see what round two brings" he grinned as he pulled her mouth to his and kissed her hard, quickly spinning them around so that she was straddling his hard body..

Cris drove his car like a mad man as he sped up and down the streets. He was absolutely livid and all he kept seeing in his head was Natalie and how she let that monster touch her and yet she never gave him a second glance. He continued to speed as he yelled out obscenities in the car. He would of done anything for her, given her anything and yet she choose that souless prick over him..

He wanted to hurt someone or something and when he made a quick turn on the wheel down a secluded block he saw his target. The glowing red eyes in the distance, it was one of those damn demons, he sped his car even closer as he watched the monster walk the streets without a care in the world.

Slamming on his brakes and coming to a screeching halt, the demon turned and looked at him amusingly as he got out of the car.."You got a problem buddy?" the demon laughed as Cris pulled out a long knife and almost instantly the demons body shifted and the amused looked changed quickly..

"yeah actually I do" Cris snapped as he ran up to the demon and lunged his knife but the demon had been expecting it and he moved right before Cris could cut into him..

"awww is that all you got kid" the demon laughed as his eyes grew dark now and Cris yelled out as he lunged for him again but once more the demon moved, this time Cris landed flat on his face as the demon laughed loudly.."Holy shit Rick, you gotta check this kid out, look at him" the demon laughed as he summoned yet another demon over to Cris who was now trying to get up off the ground but the demon grabbed him and slammed him back into the ground, making the knife fly from his hands..

"well will you look at that, fresh meat" Rick laughed as the one monster held him down and Rick leaned over his body..

"You son of a bitch, I will kill you" Cris yelled out as he tried to struggle but the demon was just too strong..

"Oh I dont think so kiddo, looks like today really isnt your day" the demon that held him laughed..

"come on Tommy, lets tear this fucker apart" Rick laughed loudly..

"dont mind if I do" Tommy grinned as they both grabbed at his extremities and began to pull..

Cris yelled out in excruiating pain as they pulled on his limbs with enormous strength, he was going to die, he knew it but just as he was sure his arms were about to be torn from him, the bigger demon Tommy yelled out as his body fell limp across Cris and then another yell was heard as well as a thud on the ground. Cris finally opened his eyes as he stared up at a man standing there..

"You look like you could use a little help there buddy" the man said as he wiped the knife off on his pants and Cris quickly shoved the dead demon off of him as he began to get up..The man held his hand out to cris and he wearily took it as he was pulled up.."I think this is yours" the man said as Cris looked at him suspiciously.."Im Miles by the way, and you are?"

"cris" he said quickly as he took the knife.."who are you" he said quickly as he looked at Miles..

"well I think I just told you my name" Miles smiled..."what are you doing out wandering the streets, you know its dangerous at night"

"I could ask you the same thing" Cris stood guarded as he looked at Miles.. "are you like a hunter or something"

"or something" Miles smiled.."let me get you a drink, you look like you could use one Cris"

"Nah, im good" Cris stepped back some, there was something about this guy, something that rubbed him the wrong way but he was definitely human..He stood at about five foot six, his hair was dark and combed to the side. He was dressed in a very expensive suit. He looked like someone from wallstreet but what the hell was he doing walking around at night?

"Fine, suit yourself" Miles said as he turned from him.."you know the girl isnt worth it Cris" he said as he began walking away..

"what? What did you say" Cris called out as Miles stopped and slowly faced him..

"Im just saying that if this is over a girl then she isnt worth it" Miles said matter of factly.."it is about a girl, isnt it?" he raised an eyebrow..

"Thanks for the help but no thanks" Cris spun from him and began heading to the car, that guy was seriously weird...

"what if I told you that I could give you any girl that you want and that she would fall to her knees before you" Miles called out as Cris got to his car and stopped, quickly turning to face him..

"Listen I dont know what your selling buddy but im not interested" Cris said quickly as he spun once more..

"i could make her love you, more than anyone ever has" Miles said as Cris slowly turned and faced him. Was this guy on drugs or what?

"Listen, I dont know what your.." Cris began as Miles cut him off..

"Ive been there before Cris, I can help you" Miles smiled at him..

"no thanks, maybe you should lay off the alcohol" Cris laughed sarcastically and spun around but Miles was surprisingly in front of him now as Cris let out a gasp..."what the, how did you" Cris said with shock and fear.. He was sure the guy was human..

"why dont you let me get you that drink and I can explain everything" Miles smiled as he put his hand on Cris's shoulder and suddenly Cris felt a strange sensation, almost as if he had drank a ton of shots..

"what the hell" Cris wobbiled some as he stood there, he tried to move back from Miles but he couldnt seem to move..

"You know you look like you really should sit down, are you feeling ok cris" Miles grinned slightly at him..

"I dont um..." Cris couldnt even think straight as he stood there..

"come with me, you'll feel better with a drink" Miles smiled..

"I think I just need to...to.." Cris shook his head as everything looked blurry, his mind was all bits and pieces..

"come on, we have a lot to talk about Cris" Miles put Cris's arm over his as he began to lead him across the road..

"My car... I cant..." Cris began to protest..

"Oh your car will be fine, you'll be fine, trust me, im here to help you" Miles said as they continued to walk..