*McGee's Point of View*
"On it Boss," I said walking out of the room.
Walking out of the room I realized that the only reason I was sent out was because J.D. and I liked each other. Thinking about it I realized that everyone knew we liked each other, but we never did anything because it would give people even more of a reason to talk to the director even more then they do.
"Hey," I said when I finally spotted J.D.
"What's up Gee?" she asked smiling softly.
"I just wanted to see how you were," I said sitting next to her.
"It's sort of over whelming knowing that I hurt the people I loved the most," she said tears filling her eyes.
"Oh," I said pulling her into a hug, "It will be okay."
"How will it be okay if I feel guilty because I put my family through so much just so I could write?" she asked cuddling into me.
"You left to do the thing you love," I said rubbing her back, "Everyone understands that. You can't blame yourself."
"If I hadn't left things would be fine," she said tears steaming down her face, "If I hadn't left Daddy wouldn't be crying and Dad wouldn't have looked so sad."
"And if you hadn't left then you would still be depressed because you couldn't do anything you liked without being pushed on the back burner," I said wiping her tears away.
"Thank you Gee," she said hugging me tightly.
"What am I here for?" I said kissing her forehead.
"Well, besides looking so goddamn sexy?" J.D. said grinning like a madman.
"So we're going back to what we did before you left?" I asked smiling with her.
"Depends on what we were doing," she said cuddling into me again.
"Flirting with each other," I said laying my head on hers, "And then saying that we can't do anything because of your parents."
"Well," she said sighing, "I really like you, but I know how much you love this job, and by dating your job is at risk."
"I know," I said kissing her head again.
"I love you," she said tears falling heavily.
"I love you too," I said rocking her in hoping that she would calm down.
"We can't keep doing this," she said turning to me and sobbing, "It hurts too much."
"I know," I said running a hand through my hair, "I know we can't."
"We can't even be friends," she said looking away, "I can't deal with that. I love you so much and seeing you everyday like I would is going to break my heart."
"I know that too," I said standing up, "I'm going to go talk to Gibbs and everyone. I'll send someone else."
"Thank you," she said not looking back up.
I walked back into Abby's lab and sighed. Everyone turned to me, but all I could do was run a hand through my hair and shake my head. Abby and Ziva quickly stood up and walked out of the room.
"I thought you were going to tell her that you loved her," Tony said sadly.
"She already knows that we love each other," I said shaking my head, "But we also are irrationally rational."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Gibbs asked glaring at me.
"We both know what will happen if everyone finds out that we are dating and I get a promotion," I said angrily.
"That's why you won't get together?" Tony asked seriously, "Because you're both afraid of your work?"
"No," I said sadly, "She's worried about my job. I'm worried about her."
"Why are you worried about her?" Gibbs asked cocking his eyebrow.
"Because she's trying really hard to be someone that everyone will be proud of," I started to explain, "But while doing this she forgets all about herself."
"But we are proud of her," Tony said quietly, "We always have been."
"I know that," I said calmly, "But she still doesn't believe it. Hell when she was here I had to remind her to eat, and that was days after not eating."
"Then we'll just have to make it so that she believes us," Gibbs said easily, "And we're going to get you and her together."