Cruel insanity (Izaya)

A/N:- Thank you for the reviews. This one takes place before the last chapter, during Shizuo's breakdown. If you don't want to read this one, skip to the next chapter. Enjoy.

Still no answer. As soon as he had finished with his meetings, he had tried the blond's phone. No answer. At first he had thought it was because the protozoan had listened to the signs, plastered all over the walls at the doctor's surgery. He tried again and again, becoming increasingly worried. He shouldn't have left him alone, Izaya knew he should've cancelled his meetings and never left his fiance's side. As soon as he had shown the first signs of being sick, there had been a nagging feeling in the back of his mind.

The raven slammed the car door, quickly locking it and hurrying to the lift. "Come on Shizu-chan, pick up." He was met by yet another message, saying he wasn't available. Resisting the urge to throw the phone against the wall, he dropped it back in his pocket. His steps quickened, forcing the key into the lock. After all his years as an informant, he had learnt to listen to his instincts. And right now they where screaming in his head, warning bells ringing loudly.

"Shizu-chan? You home?" The living room and kitchen were clear. The next place would be the bathroom. Izaya took the stairs two at a time, his heart stopping at the sight in front of him. His fiancé was laying unconscious, by the bath. "Shizu-chan!" He moved to see if he was okay, his foot stopping before he stepped on plastic? Crouching down, he picked up one up, turning it over. The small screen flickered with one word. Pregnant. With quick fingers he turned every single one over. They all said the same.

"Izaya, you idiot!" Digging his palm into his forehead, he swept the tests out of the way. He had watched his mother go through morning sickness with the twins. How could he forget the blond could get pregnant? They had sex, it was the first thing he should have checked. "Shizu-chan? Wake up." He gently nudged him, waiting for a response. Not getting one, he tried harder to wake him, hand slipping behind his head, he felt himself pale as his hand came away damp. "Shit. Shizu-chan!" Digging his phone out, he called for Shinra. Sorry, Shizu-chan.

Izaya had no choice, Shinra had to know. After checking him over. The pair carried the blond into the bedroom lifting him onto the bed. "It doesn't look like any serious damage. It's a small knock on the head." The raven nodded, knowing his fiancé wouldn't have passed out from such a small thing. His lover was fine physically, but it was his mental state he was worrying about. In the past he would have to pin the runaway blond down. When everything got too much his lover would run or his alter ego would take over. Now that both of those options were gone, it was just Shizu-chan.

He knew everything about the blond, every secret, every detail. So he knew that his lover's biggest fear other than rejection, was becoming pregnant. He had helped create his fiancé's own personal hell. Pregnant. He was going to be a father."Intersex? Shizuo?" He nodded his head. "Wow, I had no idea. The blood test confirms it. Congratulations." Now he just needed to wait for the blond to wake up and hope everything would be okay. From past experiences of their relationship, he knew it only got worse.

And when the blond woke, it was the calm before the storm. He stood anxiously next to Shinra, his usual mask up. "Go away." Instant rejection, straight away he was ready, knowing exactly how this would go. "Go away!" He was expecting his lover's temper. "Get out. Please." No, he would never walk away. Shizu-chan was his. "Shizu-chan. I saw the tests." His lover shrank away from him, becoming violent. "Shizuo no! No lifting in your condition. Izaya, stop him." Letting out a sigh, he dived for the blond.

Although the blond was stronger, he was faster and it didn't take him long to have his lover pinned underneath him on the bed, blade reluctantly at his throat. "Don't make me use this, Shizu-chan. Calm down." I promised Kasuka-kun I would protect you. He watched the needle go into his lover's neck and still the blond struggled. "Shizu-chan." Izaya held on until he was completely out. "You can get off him now." Slowly he climbed off the bed, manoeuvring his lover around, he tucked him back in, laying a kiss where his blade had cut.

Shinra seemed to think it was a one off, that he was just I'm shock. He didn't believe that for a second. He had asked the illegal doctor to stay and his friend had refused. "Izaya, Shizuo will be fine. If anything happens, call me." He should never have left. He never left the bedroom, so he saw when the blond first woke up, well his body. He knew instantly his lover was gone. Shizu-chan sat up slowly, looking around the room. That gaze was devoid of anything, there was no one there.

His lover didn't acknowledge he was in the room, instead looked straight past him. "Shizu-chan?" Even though he loved ootoro he hated dead fish eyes, they stared back at him unseeing, full of nothing. At first Kasuka had unnerved him. Never before he had seen a mask so perfect. It was nothing compared to the blank eyes, he was staring into now. "Shizu-chan? How are you feeling?" He didn't recieve an answer. And then they fixed onto him. The blond lunged forward, making him jump from the bed. The bedroom door was closed, leaving only the two of them. "Shizu-chan."

He dodged the first punch, the second, all six, the last one just clipping his side. "Come on, protozoan." He couldn't stop him as he picked up the wardrobe. It slammed into the wall beside him, shattering to pieces. "Shizu-chan." The contents of their wardrobe spilled out on the floor, crouching quickly, his fingers hooked through the silver handcuffs. "Protozoan, over here." Izaya hopped onto the bed, already dialling for Shinra. The blond went for him. He hated hurting his lover, but this was necessary. Lashing out, he kicked the blond in the throat, feeling guilty as he collapsed on the bed.

Pinning him down, the raven used the handcuffs. Hello, Izaya? "Shinra, get over here now. Bring plenty of sleeping drugs." He hung up the phone before Shinra could ask anything else. Jumping from the bed, he took a seat next to the unconscious blond. "Still so unpredictable."

When Shinra arrived, me made sure the door was closed, pushing the cabinet across, to block him in. "What's wrong?" Izaya let him in closing the door. "Shizu-chan woke up. He's lost his mind." The doctor laughed. "Wha-" thunder filled his home, followed by a series of thuds.

"Looks like he's awake." The pair of them hurried upstairs, moving the cabinet away from the door. Carefully he opened the door, Shizu-chan was repeatedly punching the wall, his wrist bleeding. "Shit. Shinra hand me the syringe." The doctor was shaking as he took it, rushing into the room. "Shizu-chan. You're going to hurt yourself." The blond ignored him, barely flinching as he pressed the sedative into his neck.

Once he was out cold, they moved him back onto the bed, Shinra watching warily in case the protozoan woke up. Izaya threw the broken handcuffs to one side, digging out something else to use. "Izaya, maybe you should take him to a hospital? They're better equipped for this." Crimson eyes narrowed as he glared at him. "I can take care of Shizu-chan."

He found another two pairs of handcuffs, lifting each wrist and chaining his lover to the bed. "You've seen for yourself, he's dangerous." Izaya glanced down at his lover, using the back of his thumb to wipe the tears away. "Shizu-chan isn't dangerous. I know him better than anyone Shinra." is lover was a big softy, who hated violence and had an unhealthy addiction to sugary treats. "I hope you know what you're doing."

Shinra came and went, often coming back with more drugs or more likely because Celty sent him. He had acquired box of handcuffs from Shiki, although he didn't tell them what they were for. It meant that he now owed a favour too. More information he would have to retrieve for the yakuza. But not just yet, he couldn't leave the volatile blond alone.

The nights were the worst, he didn't set foot in the room, instead he sat outside the closed door, leaning back against it. He could hear the sound of the handcuffs rattling against the bed, it would always be followed by an inhuman scream, that pierced his ears and tore at his heart. He was partly to blame for this. His lover hadn't been anywhere near ready and this was the result.

It usually went two ways, the screaming would eventually stop, the blond returning to his fitful sleep or the screaming would stop, followed by the scraping of metal and bounding. It meant that his lover had once again torn out of the handcuffs again, creating yet another wound. The sedatives were in a box next to him, ready for him to use. This was his responsibility.

The room was a mess, the picture that had been above the bed, was on the floor ripped from its frame, torn into shreds, the bedside table and wardrobe had already been destroyed, leaving only the bed left in the room. Thick gouges dug into the walls, where the protozoan had punched the wall, dragging his hand along it. On the other side by the door, there were cracks in the plaster, it was only a matter of time before the blond punched his way out.

Another pair of handcuffs were useless. Even so, he left food on the floor by the bed that was always left untouched, the plate broken. His pregnant fiancé wasn't eating and sleeping fitfully. Shinra had already said it was bad for him to use his strength. Sitting outside the door, he listened to the pained screams, unable do anything, he didn't fall asleep once.

It was a stupid idea, but he hoped it would work. He was running out of handcuffs to use, the cuts across the blond's arms increasing. Still he tried it anyway, Trusting that his lover was in there somewhere. Avoiding the handcuffs, he settled on the bed next to the blond, resting his head on his chest. "Hurry up and come back, Shizu-chan." For both his and the baby's sake.

Izaya groaned as he felt himself fly through the air, his back hitting the wall. He couldn't stop himself from crying out. Pain shot through him as he attempted to get up. "Really protozoan? You've gone soft." His body wouldn't co-operate, finding himself being picked up and hurled into the cracked wall. He barely dodged the fist that aimed for him, smashing into the plaster. Forcing his arm to move, he pulled out the syringe, injecting into the blond. "Goodnight, Shizu-chan."

It was Shinra that found him, barely able to move and coughing up blood. Needless to say he wasn't too happy. "What were you thinking? He needs professional help, Izaya." Still he shook his head. "He'll get better. Help me up." Izaya coughed again, letting his blood fall onto the carpet, everything would need to be replaced anyway. "You need a hospital, you might have internal bleeding."He disagreed. "No, get Shizu-chan back on the bed."

There was silence upstairs, the blond once again unconscious. Shinra was scolding him, looking over his wounds. "Izaya, he could kill you." The raven shook his head. "Shizu-chan can't kill me. You should go back Shinra." The doctor sighed. "What are you going to do?" He stayed where he was, since moving caused too much pain. "I'm going to get that protozoan back, he's running away again."

"I think its too late for that. I need to check whether, he's still pregnant or not." Izaya laughed. "He is, you think he would hurt our baby? I haven't seen him punch his stomach once. He wouldn't hit a child, even an unborn one." Shinra shook his head. "Then you need to calm him down. He isn't eating. If this carries on his life will be in danger." Yeah, he knew that.

"I only have one more sedative left. Can you bring more?" The doctor didn't look happy. "You're both idiots, the pair of you. I'll be back later. You should get some sleep." Waving him away, he lay back on the sofa, his back agony. On the table was the last syringe, Shinra had better be back soon. The sleepless nights finally caught up with him, forcing his eyes shut.

He was woken up by a loud crash, the wall had gone through, debris lay across the stairs. Shizu-chan had got out of the room. There was no sign of the blond though. Izaya bit his lip as he moved, pain shooting through him. He got to the stairs just in time, to see their bed, go through the destroyed bedroom wall and straight into the bathroom one.

Making his way up the stairs slowly, he held his breath, trying not to let the pain distract him. In his hand he held on tightly to the syringe. Already he could hear his lover scream, eyes blank. What affected him the most were the streams of tears, continuously running down his cheeks. "Ne, You're in pain, aren't you? You need to stop Shizu-chan."

The raven messed up. His movements were slowed by his injury, unable to dodge quick enough. Izaya kicked out as his lover's usually gentle hand, wrapped around his throat picking him up. The blond was still crying, but his eyes were blank. Shizu-chan would never hurt him, not on purpose. Panic set in when the hand squeezed, cutting off his air supply. "Shi...zu-ch...an."

He was held up, hanging limply as he fought to escape, clawing at his lover's hand. The syringe was knocked from his hand, along with his knife, his last means of getting out of there gone. He winced as the container was crushed by the protozoan's foot, the sedative making a small puddle on the carpet. "...zu-ch..." It was getting harder to breathe, his vision blurring. Are you going to kill me? Shizu-chan.

Faintly he heard voices, other than the blood rushing in his ears. "It isn't safe. Stay there. Whoa, what happened to the wall." Ah, that was Shinra wasn't it? "Izaya! Shizuo let go of him." The blond ignored him. He was sure his face was turning blue now. "I brought more – ow! You can't come in here." Through hazy eyes he could see someone else, that shoved past Shinra.

His lover froze, releasing his grip. He landed on the floor, rolling on his side to cough, trying to get that precious air back into his lungs. "Izaya!" Shinra was there, trying to help him sit up, his hand massaging his throat. Forcing himself to stay awake, his eyes widened as the blond remained frozen and unmoving. "What's wrong with him?" Ignoring Shinra's question, he glanced at the other person in the room.

He watched as an angry looking Celty, strode forward, standing right in front of the blond. Raising her hand, she slapped him straight across the face. There was no response from his lover. Wailing filled the room, it wasn't Shizu-chan this time. It was the little girl in Celty's arms. He had been saved by Aiko-chan. "Uh, my beloved? Its really not safe."

She turned away from Shinra, still looking angry. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Shizuo, I didn't want you to worry. Celty!" So she hadn't known. He tried to talk, but was interrupted by a coughing fit. You and Shizuo can stay at our house. Izaya raised an eyebrow, Shinra spluttered. "Its not safe, Shizuo is-" Fine, he just needs to time to rest. He didn't hurt me or Aiko. He's staying with us.

Taking his unresponsive lover's hand, he pulled him from their broken bedroom, following after Shinra, Celty and Aiko. His earlier words coming back to him. "He wouldn't hit a child, even an unborn one. I should have called Celty from the start." Opening the door, he lead the blond out, not knowing when they would return home again.

The sedative wasn't needed, but Shinra did the injection anyway, connecting a drip straight away. Just in case they handcuffed him to the bed, the doctor was adamant about it and it was the only way to shut him up. Celty seemed to think he would be fine now, sitting on the bed next to him with Aiko in her arms. Now all they could do was wait until the blond woke up.

I have an idea. Shinra won't like it. Shinra had been grumbling, until Celty had sent him to get medical supplies. Going by his fiancé's reactions when he was previously awake, he deemed it safe to get some sleep and a shower. If Shizu-chan were to see the damage he had done, it would only make him feel worse. His back was a dark purple colour, patchy in places, covered in cuts. He could hide that easily enough.

His throat looked fine, but he knew it would bruise, he would have to bandage it, to stop the blond seeing what would be underneath. It wasn't his fault. Izaya? Izaya raised an eyebrow. "Something Shinra wouldn't like?" The woman nodded. I want you and Shizuo to look after Aiko for a week. It would be best for him.

"Why? Shizu-chan should be worrying about his own pr- oh!" Now he knew what she was up to. It was a good idea. "How are you going to convince, Shinra?" The grin said she would have no problems doing it. Masking his pain, he got up, heading for the guest room. Stay by him, Izaya. He planned to.

After arranging the decorators for the bedroom and a few changes to his office, he sat cross legged on the end of the bed, scrolling through information about morning sickness and anything else he needed to know concerning his lover. A small movement alerted him that the blond was awake. "Why am I chained to a bed?" He held back a grin, confused coffee eyes staring at him, instead of the lifeless ones he had seen all week. It had been so long since he had heard his voice. Welcome back, Shizu-chan.

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