I'm Tris Prior. Although my real name is Beatrice I go by Tris because 'Beatrice' is way too formal.

I'm currently at Zeke's house playing Never Have I Ever with my friends.

I'm sitting in between Four and Christina who is sitting next to Will, like all the other couples. Before you assume me and Four are couples, we aren't. Someone like him wouldn't like someone like me.

"Never have I ever, kissed a guy" Will says

Everyone but me Uriah and Will drink. I eye Four.

"Dare" he whispers

"Never have I ever, kissed a girl" Christina says.

Everyone but me Christina and Four drink

My turn.

"Never have I ever, had sex"

Everyone but Marlene and me drink.

Of course Four has. He is a player.

WAIT. He hasn't kissed a girl.

That's weird. I'll ask him later.

"Never have I ever, been loved" Four says

Everyone but me and him drink, my parents never liked me. I was always the stupid child.

"Never have I ever, cut myself purposely or thought about it" Shauna says.

I drink.

Everyone looks at me with wide eyes.

Now, before you think I cut myself, I don't. But I have considered doing it a couple of times.

I get really uncomfortable sitting with all of them staring at me.

I hate attention.

I get up and leave tears threatening to spill.

I hear someone get up and follow me.

I just continue walking down the street to my house.

I slam my door loudly.

I walk into the kitchen and hear knocking on my door.

I go and open the door.

Four stands there

"What?!" I ask annoyed

"You ran out after admitting you cut yourself" he says

"I don't cut myself" I say through gritted teeth

"But you drank–" I cut him off

"Because Shauna said 'or thought about it' I've thought about it. I've considered it. But I'VE NEVER DONE IT" I scream

"I'm sorry Tris" he says.

"WHAT ABOUT YOU FOUR. HAD SEX AND NEVER KISSED A GIRL? WHAT ARE YOU A PLAYER?!" I scream crying.

"Tris, I've had one of the worst lives, I used to have sex to take away my anger. I never kissed a girl because I thought that only one girl should deserve it. I haven't had sex in a year. I've changed Tris. I have to go" he left.

He left me.

I head up to my bathroom and get into the shower.

I sit in there crying. Looking at my razor.

I will not do it.

I can't.

I'm stronger than this.

I say, when I can I stand up turn off the shower and get out.

When I lie down on my bed I fall fast asleep.

When I wake up I hear something crash down in my kitchen.

I quickly go downstairs hoping my cat didn't break any glass.

When I enter my kitchen I feel several shards of something enter my foot.

I sit down and notice its glass

My foot is bleeding really badly now.

I call the first person I can find.

Four.

Oh we'll.

he picks up on the second ring

"Hello?" He says

"Hey, Four its me Tris, um I stepped on glass and my foot is bleeding really badly and I can't walk can you come over?" I ask

"Yeah, I'll be there in a minute" I hang up

I look down at my foot. I pull it up onto my other leg. It's soaking my sweatpants in blood.

Oh well.

I hear the door open and Four comes into my living room

"First aid kit is in the bathroom in my room" I say.

He knows his way around my house. He's been here before.

He returns shortly.

I feel dizzy from the blood loss.

I feel him starting to remove the glass.

I decide it won't hurt to just fall asleep.

So I do.

I wake up to Four's voice

"Good afternoon" he says

"Mmm-ughh" I make a weird noise with my mouth

"Does your foot hurt?" He asks

"No, it feels like a fairy wrapped it in a rainbow" I say sarcastically

"No need for the sass missy" he says

"Why'd you even bother staying with me?" I ask

"Because you were unconscious and wounded" he says adverting his eyes from me

"What are you not saying" I ask

"Listen Tris, I like you" he said

I look down at my lap. He changed me pants.

"I didn't try anything Tris. I only changed your pants because they were soaked with blood" he defends himself

"I trust you Four. You wouldn't do that; well at least while I'm still conscious" I say

"I wouldn't do it unless you wanted it Tris" he says

He leans in and kisses me

"You should go now Four"

"Okay" he looks disappointed

He leaves.

I don't know why I told him to leave.

He kissed me!

I was his first kiss

I felt a spark.

I'm not ready for a relationship.

I may never be ready.

Thank you so much for reading. This is a oneshot. I may turn it into a story if you guys want if to be. If it's short I'm sorry I was busy all today with school and decided to write it. Please review!