After Four dropped me off at the gym I decided to go to the mall and get a few new pairs of shoes seeing as my sneakers are falling apart.

When I get to the mall I head straight to the Nike outlet.

I try on numerous shoes until I find two pairs I really like.

One is a pair of black and white running shoes.

The other pair are pink and blue and to be honest they look like they are made from Play-dough.

"You ready to check out?" A guy asks

I nod.

"Good because I'm checking you out" he winks.

God, is he creeping.

"Your total is $164.64" he says

I swipe my card, grab my bags then leave.

I go to the food court because I'm oddly hungry.

I'm glad Christina isn't here.

While I'm eating I start to think about dying my hair.

Getting a tattoo.

Changing my clothes.

Would any of that change the fact that I'm not ready?

Probably not.

After I finish I go and get my haircut.

I get it cut to my rib cage and then my hair ombréd so that the bottom is turquoise and the top is my natural hair.

When its done I go and get some new outfits; besides just jeans and T-Shirts.

By the time I'm done shopping. Yes shopping.

It's about 8:30 so I just go home and sleep.

MY DREAM~~

So I was with Four and we were on a Ferris wheel.

"Four are you scared of heights?" I asked grabbing his hand.

"Everyone's afraid of something." He said looking at his shoes.

"Hey" I say making him look at me

"I'm scared of many things– heights may not be one but I'm scared of things" I say looking into his eyes

"What are you afraid of?" He asks

"In a way intimacy but more towards falling in love and giving it to the wrong person"I say then look down

Four grabs my chin gently and lifts my lips to his and softly kisses me

"You're so beautiful" he says when we pull away

I wake up to my phone ringing

"Hello" I say

"Hey Tris" it's Lucas

"Hey Lucas" I say

"I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today" he says, sounding kinda nervous

"I can't today, me and Christina are going to the mall, which knowing her it'll take a while" I say

"Oh, well I'll let you go then" he says

"Bye" I say then hang up

To be honest I don't have any plans today.

I just don't want to hang out with him.

I don't really like him.

Sure he's cute.

He's tall, he has dirty blonde hair, blue eyes and a stunning smile.

But beyond his blue eyes he doesn't really seem like a nice guy.

Four is though.

If I was ready I'd date Four.

Am I ready?

I have no idea.

I decide to invite Four over.

I text him and he tells me he'll be over here soon.

By soon he meant 5 minutes.

"I thought you had to go shopping with Christina?" He asks

"I lied to Lucas because if I'm being honest he doesn't seem like a good guy. His eyes show mischief" I say plopping down on my couch grabbing my two Xbox controllers.

"Your hair is different" he says

After about three hours of us playing video games we decide to go to the gym and swim.

After I pack my bag we head out to his car.

When we get there we agree to meet by the pool.

I quickly change into my monokini because I find tankinis uncomfortable, same with one pieces, and bikinis too revealing.

When I walk out to the pool I see a girl flirting with Four.

He sees me and looks at me with pleading eyes

I decide to annoy him a little.

I walk over him and sit on his lap

"Who is she?" The girl asks Four

"I'm his friend" I say before he can say anything else.

She continues to flirt with Four until he decides we should go swimming and he throws me over his shoulder and into the pool.

Next he jumps in right next to me.

He swims underwater and hugs my waist then stands up so only my knees and feet are submerged in the water.

He suddenly drops me underwater and swims away.

Suddenly I see someone enter the pool area.

Shit.

It's Lucas.

"Four, Lucas is here, help me hide" I say

"Best way I can do that is making out with you" he says

"Just come on" I say

He comes up to me and kisses me.

He kissed me very softly while very slowly deepening the kiss.

He ran his tongue along my bottom lip but I decided to not let this go too far.

Every kiss had a spark to it.

He pulled away.

"I'm gonna give you a piggy back ride to the locker rooms and you're going to run and get changed and go to my car. I'll be out in 5 minutes." He says

FOUR POV:

Tris gets on my back and digs her head into the crook of my neck.

After she's at the locker rooms I go back in the pool

"Hey Four, got a new girlfriend?" Lucas asks coming up next to me

"Something like that" I say.

I honestly want us to be more than friends but she doesn't want a relationship and I respect it. But I'm not going to stop trying.

"I got to go" I say getting out of the pool

"Okay, bye Four" Lucas says.

After I change I go out and see Tris talking with some guy.

"Just go away Caleb" she says

"Is there a problem here?" I ask once I'm next to Tris.

"I would like to talk to my sister" 'Caleb' says.

"Well she needs to go home and I have a feeling she doesn't want to talk to you" I say opening the door for her.

When we are a few minutes away I decide to ask her what that was about

"What was that about?" I ask

"Well when I was younger my parents didn't really care about me because Caleb was their main concern because he was smart." She pauses.

"They would tell me that I'm not good for anyone and my 'mom' and 'dad' would say that I will never get a boyfriend and that I will end up being a slut" she says

"Tris, you are not a slut. No where near one. You won't even go out with me. I'm trying to get you to be my girlfriend. I'd be an amazing boyfriend to you. You were mentally abused and I was physically. I like you Tris Prior. I think you are beautiful." I look over to her once we are in her driveway.

A single tear goes down her cheek so I wipe it away.

"Bye, Four" she says stepping out of my car

"Bye Tris" I say.

I don't understand how people can just do that to someone as amazing as her.

I'm falling hard Tris Prior.

TRIS POV:

Four pulls out of my driveway.

I have a pounding headache from all this stress.

I actually told Four about my mental abuse.

Tomorrows my birthday but I bet only Christina will remember.

No one else usually does.

I start think about Four.

That kiss we shared was actually kinda amazing.

I actually enjoyed it.

But I really don't want to go too fast.

But do I even want to be his girlfriend?

Yes.

Am I ready?

I'm not sure.

Will he treat me good?

Apparently.

Will he ever love me?

Will he remember my birthday?

And the last thought I get makes me lean towards the not ready side.

Will he break my heart?

I really need someone's help.

Christina.

Tris~ hey Chris, can you come over fast?

Christina~ yeah Give me a few minutes.

In the next 3 minutes I just sit and think.

I hear the door open which means Christina is here.

"What's up?" She asks sitting next to me

"Four likes me and we've kissed like four times and he really wants to date me but I'm not sure if I'm ready." I say

"Four hasn't liked anyone before so you have to believe that he does. He cares about you Tris. If he was dating you there would be a .01% chance that he'd leave you" she says.

She's probably right.

She still didn't notice my hair.

"Don't think I didn't notice your hair by the way Tris. It looks good." She says.

"Uriah is having a movie night with our gang tonight so I'm gonna dress you because you look crappy." She says.

"Actually Christina, I'm going to dress myself and do my own hair and makeup but if you don't approve you can change it all" I say

She smirks thinking she'll be able to dress me like a Barbie.

I go to my room and grab a white crop top with my turquoise high-to-low skirt.

For my makeup I do a natural smokey eye with some brown eyeliner and black mascara.

Lastly I put on my nude heels I bought.

I walk downstairs

"WHERE DID YOU GET ALL THAT STUFF?!" Christina asks

"From my closet, I bought them when I got my hair done." I say.

"Come on let's go" she says

When we get to Uriah's house I notice Four is here.

When we walk in Four comes over to me

"Christina did good on your outfit and makeup" he says

"I didn't pick it out she did" Christina says passing by us

"Really?" Four asks clearly amazed

"Really." I say.

"But you always choose a shirt and jeans." He says

"I decided to change a little" I say then head into the living room

"What movie should we watch?" Uriah asks

We end up arguing for five minutes till we decided on The Hunger Games.

Half way through the movie I start to get tired so I lie my head down on Four's lap.

He starts twirling my hair which is actually calming.

I end up falling asleep dreaming about Four and I.

I wake up with cold water being poured on my face.

"ZEKE YOU ARE GOING TO DIE" I scream running after Zeke

"FOUR SHE'S GONNA KILL ME" he screams

I finally catch up to him and slap him.

I got a good idea for revenge.

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