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Characters: Kotone. Inspired by ColourfulShippersUnite's requests, which all had Lyra in them. It got me thinking. (By the way, I hope this counts as me fulfilling your requests, because I couldn't think of any good fic ideas…)
Summary: Drabble.
Patron Saint
~She's been skipping days, spilling her drinks in the sink
And you know she's never coming home, never coming home again~
Kotone tells her mother that she's going on a journey. Her mother just smiles her wilted smile and tells her to be home for dinner.
Kotone stares at her. Her mother stares back with dead eyes.
Then Kotone kisses her on the cheek and leaves.
000
When Kotone meets Falkner, she feels a paroxysm. His smile is brimming over with vitality and his arms are like wings, catching her as she falls off the transparent beams of his gym.
Little does he know she keeps on falling.
She falls in almost-love with him at 12: 00 in the afternoon, and falls out of almost-love with him at 2: 30.
It turns out he's already almost-in-love with someone that will never know, and that there's no place for her in his heart.
She smiles sadly and leaves when he breaks the news to her, knowing that there's nothing else she can do.
000
When Kotone meets Proton, she feels a spasm. His hands roam and his teeth flash like razors, and she gets goosebumps when he comes too close.
He breathes empty threats into her ear, and the arm that is looped around her neck is too gentle to be a stranglehold. She doesn't try to resist; she just stands and watches to see what he'll do, because she's a curious girl and he's a fascinating man.
He doesn't do anything. He lets her go. He lets her go just like that.
He lets her go and tells her never to come back, just like her father did.
She doesn't understand why this makes her eyes fill.
000
When Kotone meets Morty, she feels a pang. His eyes are as violet as the sky at dusk, or at least that's what her romance novels say; what she compares them to is the scarf at his throat, and tells him so. He flicks his golden hair off his forehead in reply, and his smug smile is enough to kill a grown woman with one shot.
She finds that smugness is unbecoming, but he's all sparkle and flash and she's always been dazzled by expensive things.
They dance the night away in a run-down club at the edge of town. She lets her hair down and her hips grind, and her smile is confident because she's a child that's never felt so grown-up before.
Still, when they part ways all she gets is her hair ruffled and a warning not to talk to strangers.
She glares at him, hurt, and wills him to take it back. He never does.
000
~Lies, lies, lies~
There's an interlude, and Kotone thinks of her mother: of how she used to be a maneater, and of how love broke her in the end.
She shakes her head, knowing she won't end up that way.
After all, she can't be a heartbreaker if she's not given any hearts to break.
(But maybe, just maybe, she's the one with her heart getting broken.)
000
~She's the kind of girl who'll smash herself down in the night,
She's the kind of girl who'll fracture her mind until it's light~
When Kotone meets Eusine, she feels a wrench. He has a peculiar expression and extravagant clothing, and his magician's eyes are looking out across a faraway land.
She is charmed by his parlor tricks, and smiles as she is handed an array of ribbons and daffodils. He grins tightly and continues to gaze in that distant way, and she wonders aloud what he's looking at.
He tells her that he's in love with someone that disappeared ages ago, and that he's wondering where she is now.
She gives him a reassuring pat on the arm, because she's a patron saint and comfort is what she's best at.
But as soon as he disappears from sight she burns the flowers, and hurls the ribbons into a lake.
000
When Kotone meets Will, she feels a pain. He's oh-so-mysterious and oh-so-powerful, and his eyes are deep-set and alluring behind the mask he wears.
He teaches her new battle techniques, and takes her hand oh-so-gently in his as he tells her that her palms speak of interesting things to come.
She bats her lashes in the way that magazines have taught her and asks what sort of things.
His cheeks remain pale and his voice remains steady when he answers that love is in her future, but not with him.
She wants to claw at his oh-so-perfect face.
000
When Kotone meets Lance, she feels a cramp. He's her knight in shining armor, and she lets herself be the damsel in distress time and time again just to be rescued by him.
He cleans her cuts and steadies her when she's unbalanced, but nothing more than that. She smiles up at him with all the radiance that she can conjure, but never once gets a smile in return.
One day he tells her to stop trying. She asks him what she means, even though she knows.
He tells her that he's not right for her, that she needs someone that can grow up with her. And he tells her that it's better if they stop being friends.
So she smiles up at him with all the radiance she can conjure, even though behind her teeth it feels as if she's inhaling glass every time she swallows.
He apologizes and walks away. She watches him go.
Then she goes to her room and stares at her reflection for hours, wondering what the hell is so wrong with her.
000
When Kotone meets Silver, she feels a tug. She's read about beautiful boys like him, about rebels that love will turn into princes. So she does exactly what all the main characters do: she coddles him and wipes away his tears and tries to melt his ice with smiles, but when he asks her why she's doing it she can't find the answer within herself.
She writes it off as love, and even though she knows it's not what she's feeling she pretends that it is because he's the only one that hasn't left her yet. In return she gets her first kiss: a chaste collision of lips that taste like blood and cigarette butts.
He disappears for days afterwards, and she wonders when he will return.
Then she gets the phone call- the phone call telling her that her beautiful boy will be returning to her in a body bag.
She drops the phone and cries herself sick.
000
When Kotone meets Green, she feels an ache. She likes his devil-may-care smile and the effect it has on her heart, even if she knows that she's just another girl to him. She flirts with desperate abandon and tries to get lost in his eyes, although they are much too one-dimensional to do so.
She feels his hands tug down her clothing to reveal parts of her body that she has vowed never to reveal to anybody, because she's a patron saint and her virtue is all she has going for her.
He steals it despite that, and she finds that she isn't fighting against him because it's nice to be disconnected from her body for a while.
In the morning, when she's back in her body and she remembers what has happened, she hunts through her sheets just to find that he has already left.
She bangs her head against the wall until she can't see straight.
000
When Kotone meets Red, she feels a flutter. She adores the simplicity of his companionship and the depth of his eyes, and always makes sure to bring him a gift whenever she scales Mt. Silver to visit him.
When she tries to embrace him, though, he shakes his head, and his first and last words to her are that he's sworn off love forever.
She nods like she understands.
Then she goes down to the base of the mountain and collapses to the ground, screaming her heart out.
She hopes he hears.
000
When Kotone meets Steven, she feels a twinge. He's handsome and kind and has a halo of silver around his head, but whenever they're talking his eyes mist over and he glances down at the small sapphire he wears around a chain around his neck, and she knows that there's no chance.
She doesn't try to kiss him, doesn't try to give him a hug, and instead settles for holding his hand as she asks what's wrong.
His voice cracks when he admits that he's running away from the person he's in love with, because he's afraid that he's no good for her.
She tells him to just go for it, and places a hand against her chest as he gives her a wave of thanks and walks off.
She wonders why she doesn't feel heartbroken until she remembers that she doesn't have a heart left to break.
000
When Kotone meets Gold, she doesn't feel anything. And she likes it better that way.
He tells her that he'll always be there for her. She just smiles her wilted smile and tells him that she doesn't need anybody.
Gold stares at her. Kotone stares back with dead eyes.
Then Gold kisses her on the cheek and stays.
~Her patron saint, broken and lame,
And absolutely insane,
For learning that true love exists.
(So darling, let go of her hand,
So darling, let go of her hand)
You'll be to blame for playing this game,
And learning that true love exists.
Broken and lame,
And learning that true love exists~