A/N: Thanks for all the reviews guys. Hope you enjoy this chapter.
"Billie I know you're awake, you're going to have to talk to me sooner or later y'know?" Phoebe said in an exasperated tone, this would be the fifth time that she tried to talk to Billie since her attempted suicide but each time Billie had faked sleep, but this time, this time Phoebe wasn't leaving until she talked to the blonde.
"I don't want to talk." Billie told her, although it was muffled due to the pillow Billie had hid her face in.
"I know Billie, I'd rather not have this talk either but we need it, you need it."
"I don't I get it I was stupid, it won't happen again. Now can you leave me alone?" Billie asked with a hint of desperation in her voice.
"No Billie I won't! Yesterday you tried to commit suicide. Suicide Billie, you tried to kill yourself. Then we see that you carved worthless into your skin. I'm not leaving you alone, I can't."
"What do you want me to say huh?" Billie asked climbing off the bed and looking furious. "That every time I close my eyes, zone out, smell or hear something that could be as simple as burning food or a door slam I go back there. I'm being tortured again. Or that I can still hear their voices ringing in my head, still feel his hands roaming over my body, his hot, sticky breath on my skin! That I can't look at myself in the mirror without feeling completely and utterly disgusted! Or how about the fact that I wish you hadn't found me I wish I died last night, no I wish I died the moment I murdered my sister! Why are you trying to help me?! I don't deserve it. I deserve death! I should've stayed down there, I deserve to be tortured but I was too pathetic to handle the pain. I should've died, I want to die!" Billie practically screeched not realising those few words broke Phoebes' heart.
"No you don't. Billie please don't ever think that. You deserve to live, after everything you've been through you deserve happiness, a life, a wonderful life. Please believe me on this."
"No." Billie said stubbornly. She knew the truth she deserved hell. Or did she?
"Yes Billie yes. You can't want to die, I know things look bleak now and like nothing can get better but it can, it will. You may never fully get over it, you may find that on some days you still jump when something bangs or still dream about it but it won't hurt as much. One day you'll wake up and smile and it will be a real smile. One day you'll be fine. Please please hold on for that day." Tears were shining in Phoebes eyes as she gave her little speech but Billies' eyes never looked up.
Finally after what seemed like an eternity. Billie nodded. Phoebe sighed with relief, Billie would hold on, eventually she would be fine, Phoebe would make sure of it.
A/N: I know another short chapter but life is really hectic GCSE results are coming into it now and College basically I'm busy and it sucks. Review please I love hearing from all of you.