HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY – McNya

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Kagami placed Kuroko on his bed with him right on top of him, never letting the kiss waver. It was too intense, pleasurable and he was far too cute. That and if I do stop it I'll have to explain myself and no that is too embarrassing to even think about right now.

His hand went up and down his slender features that were silky to touch for at least 3 more minutes but it felt like seconds. Time flies when you're having fun? The more he touched the more frustrated he got and his handling was a little bit too rough for the much smaller boy. Not in a bad way though his little moans were becoming big ones but it was all anticipating to… nothing.

Kagami had to break this kiss and move away from Kuroko just sitting there, straight faced but both panting. He never showed any emotion but he knew he liked it as much as he did. He must have, he started the whole thing.

"I'm – uh – I'm really sorry" Kagami said hastily but just as he was about to quickly rush out the bright red Kuroko pulled him back by his sleeve.

"I know it's really weird but we both participated to that and even though I was prepared for you to reject me but you've lead me on now and I cannot ignore that." Kuroko sounded so calm and unwavering. Kagami didn't want to feel embarrassed but he did.

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Kuroko felt every touch that Kagami placed on him tenfold. Every time their tongues touched, every time his hand caressed his body or pressed against him. In such a short time he had been more turned on than Momoi-san had ever gotten him if not at all, despite being an attractive female which men gawk over. She lacked what Kagami had but he never knew what. Whatever it was it was enough to turn down a 'model' status female whom he'd gone to middle school with for a guy he knew little about and had only played Basketball with for a few weeks.

Kuroko opened his eyes for a few short seconds and saw how bright red Kagami was himself. Which made him even more confused, questions bubbled around his head. Does he like this or is he taking pity? Why's he so embarrassed he must have had women before? Am I a test run?

In the moments he thought his ecstasy ended. He panted along with him trying to regain his thought and get himself to stop thinking such, well, dirty and cringey things. I've got to think of something to say he's clearly uncomfor-

"I'm – uh – I'm really sorry" For what? No, don't leave.

"I know it's really weird but we both participated from that and even though I was prepared for you to reject me but you've lead me on now and I cannot ignore that." I didn't think that through I don't want to blackmail him.

"I know this is knew to you but it is to me too so if you say you don't want this then I am okay. I'll never mention it again" Maybe blackmailing him for a little while isn't so bad…

"I wouldn't say I don't like this, Kuroko, I just don't know what to do. I'm confused if anything. I like you a lot, and I mean that in a romantic way, I know that for sure now but what if we did get like this again, I cannot do anything. You're a guy, I wouldn't know what to do… Also, friends and family, what would they say? Our relationship has already changed. There's nothing we can do."

"I'm sorry." Is that all I can muster?

"For what?"

"Putting you through all this, if I had just kept my mouth shut and let it be I-"

From there Kagami just hugged him, tight. The best thing about taller people is that they're cuddles are the warmest and most satisfying. Like you're being protected. Kuroko could do nothing but cling to him for a little while. Kagami didn't say a word. He didn't even need to.

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The rest of the night happened in a blur. Real fluffy stuff which to Kogami's surprise he actually liked. He didn't read Shoujo manga or anything but all the 'cute, fluff' he'd seen in films he actually wanted to be a part of but this is a little different. He looked across at the softly sleeping Kuroko on the other bed. Just as delicate as he imagined. Also, pale, very pale. He was also slender but no one ever took note on how toned and defined his muscles really were so mistake him for being weak.

After the long embrace Kagami was a little reluctant to let go. Kuroko shuffled away from him slightly.

"I'm sorry, I don't know if I can hug you anymore knowing that we have all these obstacles to overcome and we'll most likely end up breaking up or falling out. That would be bad not only for me especially but for our team. With Hyuga-senpai working so hard and all the upperclassmen I don't think it'd be right"

"You're right." Kagami said coldly.

"It wouldn't be fair" he added. Kuroko lowered his head and when he did Kagami felt the urge to grab his chin and hold him to his own face causing a deep red for the both of their cheeks to take.

"However," he continued "I think from this point it would affect me too. After this I don't think I can see you as anything other than a romantic interest if you want me to put it bluntly. So, it wouldn't hurt just you but me and I can't have that any more than you can."

If I want us to be together then I might as well.

Kagami landed an ever so delicate kiss on Kuroko lips making his eyes widen. Kagami smiled lightly and stood up straight.

"If that doesn't prove it I don't know what will." He turned around quickly to hide his embarrassment.

"I'm hungry again, I'll make some snacks for us to eat."

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Kuroko turned round to find a particular red head he liked in the bed opposite reading his usual sport magazine that he ordered from America. No idea what it says, English was the worst subject he had and any mention of the language leads him to complete silence to become invisible. He watched him for a while. He knew he was so good at hiding his presence he would never notice but he looked towards him more often than not leading him to having to close his eyes. Just a little bit longer, let me stare a little bit more. He recalled last night for what Kagami really was, a giant softy who's obviously read one too many Shoujo manga. His heart pounded a little faster while he pressed in his lips together and the mere thought. Oh that's, right, I pulled away from that amazing hug.

I feel so happy in his arms but- "I'm sorry, I don't know if I can hug you anymore knowing that we have all these obstacles to overcome and we'll most likely end up breaking up or falling out. That would be bad not only for me especially but for our team. With Hyuga-senpai working so hard and all the upperclassmen I don't think it'd be right"

He can't be mine, he's got too much to lose if he was.

"You're right." He was surprised Kagami was agreeing so, easily? He wanted a little bit of fight there. Like in movies where he protests to him and takes him off his feet declaring love. Not quite so dramatic of course but more if a fight nonetheless.

"It wouldn't be fair" I knew it. Kuroko sighed and lowed his head, he knew he'd cry and he'd barely ever done that in his life. In that moment Kagami took his eyes upon him forcefully to stare at him but lightly touching his chin. His eyes widened in a burst of admiration, he was so handsome? Most would say that but beautiful was more fitting to him. I hope this isn't some sort of dream.

"However," what? If he had dogs ears they would prick up in hope.

"I think from this point it would affect me too. After this I don't think I can see you as anything other than a romantic interest if you want me to put it bluntly. So, it wouldn't hurt just you but me and I can't have that any more than you can." I- I am his romantic interest above all? If Kuroko was any other male he'd jump up in joy but he didn't. He would embrace him but he didn't. He was shocked if anything. In a way just buffering and processing the information. He didn't know what to say really.

Then as suddenly as he was thinking a light kiss came his way shaking his entire body in a chill of pleasure. Kagami stood up again. I don't know what I did to deserve that but I should do it more often.

"I'm hungry again, I'll make some snacks for us to eat." When he walked away a smile unlike Kuroko appeared, one big and as happy as he'd even believed himself. His words were not poetry he knew that, he said little and he knew that too but his emotions had to spill over at some point, he barely ever let people see him like that. He hoped he could show this happiness to Kagami, maybe to show him how happy he is?

"Okay" he responded late. Too much on his mind.

As he watched Kagami cook he had that sense of admiration again which in the spur of the moment lead him to do what got him in to the in the first place. Spinning Kagami round again he kissed him but he kissed back. Wrapping his arms around him and pulling him in. Compared to Kagami he had little strength but his body was just as anticipated and numb from their kiss as he was or at least enough to control him. Kagami tried to speak while Kuroko gets a little too carried away.

"Ku-Kuro-Kuroko t-the food." He pulled away to get his masterpiece off just in time and still roll out the rice.

"Sorry" Kuroko said quietly.

"I don't mind" Kagami said in surprise. He couldn't see him but Kuroko could sense a smile on his face making him fell 100 times happier and 200 times less likely to show it.

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The rest of the night for Kagami at least lead to a movie, food and being a bit intimate. They both decided they needed to take this slow and that any more than what they had done was a little too fast for two guys who believed themselves straight for most of their lives. So in the mist of hand holding to which was all Kuroko he smiled. When he even fell asleep in the middle of the movie he smiled again and again and again. He seemed to like this small person's antics. He didn't say much, that was true and no, he didn't show much emotion on his face but it was all in his actions. His leaning in to kiss, his taking Kogami's hand which is what Kagami loved.

I think he does this because he knows his emotion are little and he's a man of even fewer words. I like it too much, I may even grow to love it.