A/N Klaus finds more about Hayley on their run. A serious of flash backs and confessions. I found it very sad to write but for people who dont like Hayley character, they need to think that she might have gone through something like that when she was on her own. what made her what she is today.
On a side note i would be heart broken if they show in TO that she actually went through incidences like these (As we are going to have some of the flashbacks about her too in season 2)
This story is based on "Save the last dance for me" when Klaus and Hayley ran to protect their daughter Hope.
Rate T because of the subject material.
The past three weeks ever since they have made a run for it were a bit tough with occasional troubles. This was their third hotel in the last three weeks but they didn't mind. They had realized that they could do anything for their daughter. Klaus couldn't believe it that he had a life before Hope.
He was loving his life on run with Hayley and Hope. Seeing them together was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen in these 1000 years. He loved it when she nursed him. Many times he would stare at that amazing sight with Hope in her lap and her tiny fist on her bare breast. Many times she didn't even notice that he was looking at her. The look on her face when she fed their daughter has always been amazing. The smile on her face, the smile that he last saw when they felt Hope's kick together for the first time in that nursery before she was born was starting to appear more and more and he realized that he loved seeing that warm smile.
He woke up in the middle of night and looked towards her and saw that she was sitting on the bed staring into the space. He propped himself up and said "Hayley what is it?"
"I cannot sleep" she said without looking at him
"Why?" he asked her
Suddenly she started crying. Klaus sat up in alarm and asked her "is hope okay? Are you okay?"
She nodded her head and said while wiping her tears "If I sleep someone will take her".
Klaus now sat up and said "Hayley no one will take her. Don't you trust me? I will never let that happen" and then on impulse he pulled her into a one arm hug. Hayley went willingly into his arm and said into his chest "I trust you but I am always so scared"
He rubbed her arm which he was holding with his fingers and said "I know but just a couple of more weeks and then we will find some place safe and all this fear will look like a dream" and then he moved his lips on her head and kissed her hair.
Even though he couldn't see her but he felt her smile and then he pulled her down on the bed with him in that one arm hug and closed his eyes and for the first time ever she slept in his arm. When he woke up she was still sleeping so he stayed there holding her in that position.
Some feelings have started to awaken in him, the feelings which have been there for a long time but he was burying them deep in this heart but now they were trying to come out with force that he had not known before.
After about 30 minutes, he heard Hope cry, she lifted her head from his chest and looked at him, smiled and then she got up and picked up the crying Hope and changed her diaper and sat on the sofa and started to nurse her. He stared at her face and even though she had the nursing cover over her, he could imagine her tiny fist on her breast and then suddenly she looked up and caught his eyes and smiled.
Next couple of days went uneventful. He had decided to stay in Portland for a few days. Hope was getting into a routine now. Hayley was becoming expert in handling her and Klaus was just loving holding his daughter and just staring into those brown eyes. They had been living in that hotel for four days now. On the fifth day she said to him "there is a party going on down there, I am going there for an hour. Will you be here for Hope?"
When he nodded without looking at her she left.
More than an hour went by, he was starting to get anxious about what will happen if Hope wakes up hungry so he took out his cell and called her but there was no reply so after a thought he picked up Hope and went down to check on her.
He looked around in the hall where people were dancing but couldn't find her and then out of nowhere a panicky feeling starting to come in his heart, he shifted Hope in his arms and strained his ears to listen to her and then he heard her voice saying "stop it".
He snuggled Hope closer to her and headed to that direction parting the crowd of people dancing and then stopped as he saw her walking towards her, her hair disheveled and her shirt apart slightly. She stopped when she saw him standing there in the middle of the people dancing crazily. His eyes went over her shoulder and landed on a man who was standing there holding his groins. Hayley wiped the tears that she didn't know was falling from her eyes and walked towards him and brushed past him and headed towards their room with Klaus following her.
When he entered the room she was not in their room and the bathroom door was closed and he could hear the shower running and something else too. He was shocked to realize that she was crying. He laid Hope who by some miracle slept through everything on the bed and stood there helplessly wondering what to do. His thousand year of experiences have taught him a thing or two and this was one of the things that he had understood immediately.
And then Hope woke up and started to cry. Klaus picked her up and put her against his shoulder and said "shhh" involuntarily and it worked, she got quiet.
He turned around when the door opened and saw her coming out. Her eyes were somewhat red and her hair were dripping wet. She avoided making an eye contact with him and took Hope from him and went to the chair and sat down to feed her. Klaus looked at her as she pulled the nursing cover over her and started to nurse her without taking eyes off of her. He didn't know what to do so he went to the bathroom to wash off the dried blood on his clothes. When he came out she was changing her diaper and Hope's eyes were drooping. She put her in the middle of the bed and turned when bumped into him. He held her arms and asked "Hayley, are you okay?"
She jerked his arms away and said "yes"
Suddenly he got angry and pulled her towards him and hissed "stop it. I don't know what you are going through but don't do that" and then as she pushed him away from her he dived into her memories involuntarily.
Flash back
She slowly got up and then to her shock she realized that she was naked. She looked around to see something to cover herself but in the dirty abandoned alley there was nothing and then she saw a dumpster. She walked to it and looked inside and saw a card box. She took it out and wrapped it around her naked body to cover herself and then she pushed her hair out of her eyes and stood there in confusion and then as if a tape ran through her mind and she realized what had happened last night. An image of her body changing into a wolf, the pain she felt when those bones broke, the humiliation when she saw her clothes tearing up with her body changing and her father kicking her out of their home.
It was still not dawn so she shook her head and after wiping her tears she walked towards the road. As she was walking down the road in bare feet with only this cardboard wrapped around her a man approached her and said "hey are you okay?"
She looked into the eyes of an elderly man and nodded. The man took off his jacket and gave it to her. Hayley took it with gratitude and put her across her body and threw the cardboard to one side and said "Thank you".
She started walking again thinking 'what is she going to do?' when she heard his voice again "hey do you need any help?"
She said "I need to …"
He said "come with me, I will take you a police station"
She said "no, I am fine"
He said with a kind smile "come now. I can help you"
She stared at him for a second and then nodded. She sat in his car feeling self-conscious and startled out of her thoughts when he stopped the car. She looked around and saw that there were no building around, just a train track and nothing else as far as she could see. She turned towards him and asked him "Where are we?"
He looked at her and all the kindness was gone from his face as he leaned over and ran his hands over her naked thigh and before she could do anything or scream he was on top of her and ignoring her screams and crying and tears he was rapping her brutally without realizing that he was stealing her virginity from her too. When he was done, he opened the door of the car and pushed her outside. Hayley fell on the unpaved road with a scream. He threw his coat on her and drove away. She stayed there in that fetal position aching all over. After what seemed like an eternity she gathered herself and put his coat on her and stood up and cleaned her bleeding lip with the back of her bruised hand and massaged her hurting thighs"
End flash back
Klaus looked into her eyes and asked in almost a whisper "how old were you?"
She said softly "sixteen" and then winced as she felt his fingers digging into her arms. She said "that was the first time I had turned to a wolf."
He didn't know what to do but he instinctively pulled her into a hug which broke her and she started to cry.
As he was lying down on his bed, he knew she was not sleeping. He looked at her for a second and then he picked up Hope from the center of the bed and put her on her other side and said to her "don't hit me or anything. I am not going to do anything inappropriate" while pulling her towards him. She wiped her tears and let him hold her.
That night Klaus held her throughout the night when she slept with difficulty after crying a lot. He only let her go when she got up to nurse Hope during which he just laid with eyes open listening to both of them. She has started to talk to her while nursing her telling her stories from a book which she had bought on impulse from a book store last week.
He turned his side and looked at them when he noticed quiet and saw her looking down at her. He asked her "is she sleeping?" startling her. Hayley looked at him with swollen eyes and said "I thought you were sleeping!"
Klaus shook his head and said "if she is done, why don't you come and lie down"
She got up and put her on the bed and started to change her diaper under her scrutinizing glare. Klaus suddenly realized with shock that he felt like killing that man making him realize that he too has been reeling in that memory of hers.
He turned his body and started to stare the ceiling thinking 'what else does he not know about her? What else did she have to go through after being kicked out at that age?'
He looked at her when she laid next to him with her back towards him and Hope on her other side, he pulled her towards him and when she didn't protest he smiled and turned his face towards her back.
Hayley felt his arm on her waist and relaxed a bit. She could feel it in her bones that things have started to change between them. She knew that there was nothing romantic abut that hold but it felt nice and warm and gave her a feeling of protection that she had been craving for unconsciously since that horrible rape. She startled when she heard his voice in her ear "tune your mind off that and go to sleep before she wakes up again". She unconsciously put her hand on his hand on her stomach and closed her eyes.
Next time when she opened them, he was still holding her and it was morning. She realized to her shock that Hope had slept for five hours in a stretch. Thinking about that brought a smile to her lips but that was short lived as Hope decided to wake up. She scooted up but stopped as she realized that he was still holding her. She gently said "Klaus, I have to feed her".
He had just gone to sleep after being awake listening to her breathing and thinking about her memory and what she went through so he opened his eyes with difficulty and nodded and then closed them again to Hayley's amusement and then she realized to her dismay that he was still holding her so she sighed and scooted in a sitting position making his hand slide to her thighs and picked up Hope and put her against her. Klaus was fast asleep when she looked at his peaceful face.
She sat there with her in her lap nursing and got lost in thoughts and startled when she felt the weight of his arm being lifted from her thighs. She looked towards him and saw that he was awake and was looking at her. He scooted himself in a sitting position and asked her "do you want to tell me what happed yesterday?"
Hayley looked at him and said "I don't know one minute I was dancing and the next he was all over me. I feel like an idiot. I am a hybrid and …"
Klaus said "You are not an idiot. You have to understand that apart from our supernatural abilities to heal, hearing, speed, special body fluid, underlying we are same as any regular human."
He then said "we will have to move from here. I don't want him meeting you again and if I see him before you, I might kill him so let's move from here".
He got out of bed and didn't notice the smile that had appeared on her face at that sentence and went to the bathroom to take a shower but he couldn't shake off the anger that was apparently still bubbling in him seeing her so broken and cowering on that unpaved street. He wished he could find that guy and …he stopped himself from finishing that thought. By the time he came out she was ready, packed with Hope's clothes changed and freshen up. She brushed past him to change her own clothes while Klaus gathered the remaining things. He suddenly stopped and started to laugh when he realized the smooth routine they both had going on between them. He was still smiling when he heard her "what are you smiling about?" as she picked up Hope.
Klaus said "just wondering about the symmetry we have found in our lives and it took a month old baby to make us find it!"
Hayley smiled even though his sentence brought surprise to her as she realized he was right
They were on the road within thirty minutes. Klaus chanced a glance at her. Last night ordeal's traces were almost gone from her face but she still looked lost so he took a breath and said "I am thinking we should move towards Seattle, what you say?"
Hayley looked at him and asked him "how many hours' drive is it?"
He said "a few hours"
She replied "not bad" and looked behind to see Hope and said "she seems to be taking longer sleeping stretches, which is good."
She then turned to him when he didn't say anything and asked "have you talked to anyone of them?"
Klaus said "no. I will give a few more weeks and then try to contact them."
They drove in silence for a few hours. Hayley suddenly realized that the silence was not uncomfortable anymore, in fact she was starting to like that silence where there is no expectation to make a small talk.
They checked in a hotel after reaching Seattle. Klaus looked at her as she was changing hope who was looking at mother intently and said "let's go"
She looked at him and asked "where?"
Klaus took Hope from her hands said "to eat something"
She nodded and picked up her diaper bag.
During the dinner Hayley suddenly realized a couple of girls across their table looking at them and snickering. She looked at Klaus who was oblivious to it and was eating his fries. She didn't know from where but she felt an annoyance at those girls. She was still thinking about that when he asked her "what?!"
Hayley sighed and said "are you used to girls gawking at you?"
Klaus looked around and smiled at those girls and waved his hand at them making them snicker more loudly and annoying her further. He turned back towards her and said "yes, is that bothering you?"
Hayley looked at his smiling face and snapped "no, why should it bother me?"
Klaus said with a smirk "well that hurt my feelings you know, we are supposed to be together so it would be nice if you pretend to like me at least"
Before she could answer back he said "lets go".
As they were walking down the street, when a young girl around 16 or 17 held his arm and said "I need something to eat, anything will help".
Before Klaus could do anything she looked at that girl and gave her the packet of fries she was holding. And started walking again. Klaus caught up with her and held her arm and dove into her memory again.
Flash back
She looked around and wondered 'what to do? She has not eaten anything for the past two days – anything substantial. Digging out edibles from dumpsters was not eating regular food. She needed food'
She looked at the pastries from the window and heard the sound from her stomach and
After a thought she went inside and asked the person behind the counter "do you have a job that I can do?"
He looked at her from top to bottom and said "yes, I have one. Go back and clean up the kitchen"
He then called someone to take her back.
She nodded and followed that person to the kitchen. She was handed the things to clean up. As she was cleaning up, her eyes fell on some pastries. She looked around and grabbed one and started to gobble them up when suddenly the door opened and the person who had showed her the back came inside. He looked at her face smeared with the cream and smiled. He asked her "are you hungry?"
She nodded. He said "hmm. You cannot eat that one. I will have to report you if you do that"
She said pleadingly "no, please don't. I will do anything for you not to tell them. I need this job"
He showed her his dirty teeth and said "you will do anything?!"
Hayley looked at him in confusion and then to her shock she realized what he was saying. She shook her head and said "please don't"
As she started to walk towards the door, he stopped her by grabbing her arm and said "well then I will have to report you"
She said "no, please no"
He said "then you will do what I will ask you to do" and he was pulling her towards him.
When he was done with her, she was crying silently. He pushed her away and threw a box of pastries towards her and said "now don't utter a word to anyone" and left.
She dashed to the bathroom and started throwing up, gagging at the thought of what he had made her do. She then gathered herself up and looked at that box of pastries and then walked out without picking them up.
Flash back ended
Hayley looked at him and with a sad smile said "I decided that day that I will not let anyone use me ever again. And that is how I survived afterwards. I never let anyone use me again. I was sixteen and I started to see the world as a pack of hungry wolves. If I had to go through that to eat something then I would rather steal things and that I did."
She took Hope from him and said "I think we should get a stroller for her."
Klaus who was still shaken up by that memory looked at her and said "hmm."
After a couple of steps he held her arm and said as she looked towards him "I am sorry for what you had to go through at such an age."
She smiled at his concern and said "I have never told anyone about it except for you. I don't know why I am letting you see them."
Klaus said "I am glad that you are telling me all those things."
He opened the car door for her to settle Hope in the car seat and went to the other side to the driver's side.
As he was opening the door, he heard someone say "Hayley, is that you?"
He turned just in time to see a young man walking towards the car and the next moment he had picked Hayley and said "it has been so long. Where have you been?"
She said with a smile "first put me down and I will tell you."
He put her down and then saw Klaus looking at them. Hayley at once realized Klaus noticing them. She felt flustered. She wondered 'why?' and then said "Klaus, this is Jamis Evans. We were in college together."
Klaus nodded and extended his hand to him when Hayley said feeling flustered "Klaus and I are together". She could feel Klaus's eyes on her but decided not to look in his direction.
Jamis said "Oh".
She asked him hastily to take the attention away from her "what have you been up to?"
He said "I went to art school like we planned."
This time her eyes went to Klaus involuntarily who was staring at her.
She wished that they could leave now and as if on cue Hope started to cry. She looked towards her and said to Jamis "I think we should be going now. It was nice seeing you again."
He asked her "is that your daughter?"
Hayley said with a smile "yes, she is ours"
Jamis said "Can I have you number?"
Klaus decided to step in and took one step towards him to Hayley's discomfort and said looking into his eyes "lad, leave and forget about us"
Jamis blinked and then he walked away.
Klaus gave Hayley a look who sighed and went to the other side of the car and sat next to Hope. She took her out and started to nurse her whereas Klaus started the car. He looked at her from the rare view mirror after a couple of minutes and said "is he the same Jamis you were telling me about a couple of weeks ago"
She didn't say anything and then said after a while when Klaus thought that she does not want to talk about it "you compelled him to forget about me?"
Klaus looked at her in the rare view mirror and didn't say anything. He knew what she was thinking. Her one connection to her life before triggering her gene was gone. He said "I had to. What if he had told someone about you? We are on the run after all"
She nodded wondering 'I know but still…'
She shifted Hope in her lap and said "lets go to the Hotel, I am dead tired, you must be too with all this driving. Why don't you let me drive?"
Klaus said to her "don't worry you will get a chance when I start to break down."
Hayley laughed and said "I would love to see that happen. The big hybrid breaking down of tiredness"
He said after a while "so you liked art?"
Hayley said with a sigh "that was ages ago" and got quiet.
Klaus asked her looking in the rearview mirror "what are you thinking?"
She said "I don't get why Lenore would want to kill Hope. I can understand your mother's motive but what is hers? Do you think Sabine slash Celeste prediction is right?"
Klaus looked at her and asked her "you understand my mother's motive?!"
She looked his confused expressions and said "well yes, I know it is twisted but I understand it. She hates her kids; of what they have become and by extension she hates everything associated with them."
He stopped the car outside their hotel. Both of them sat there in silence for a while, her waiting for his response and him lost in his thoughts. He then opened the door and got out.
She also took a deep breath and got out holding her in her lap and diaper bag over her shoulder.
Klaus took Hope from her and they went towards their room.
As he was lying down in the bed she asked him "have you ever been to Seattle before?"
Klaus looked at her and said "yes. Back in 1970's".
She tied her hair and got into the bed with him.
Next day when she woke up he was still sleeping with Hope next to him and it melted her heart when she saw his hand on her tiny body and rising up and down with her breathing. She quietly went to the bathroom and changed and when came back he was still sleeping so she picked up the book he had been reading past few days and started to read it. She was so lost in her thoughts that she only startled when she heard Hope crying waking Klaus up too. She went to her and picked her up and fed her while Klaus went to change his clothes. When he came out Hayley said to him "I will be back in a minute".
Klaus looked at her questioningly but didn't ask anything. Hayley left their room.
He laid next to sleeping Hope and was flipping through channel wondering 'what should he do next? They cannot spend their lives like this' when the door opened. He said "you came back early!" and then jumped when he saw a stranger standing there with a gun in his hand. Before Klaus could recover from the shock at how he entered their room he fired the gun. Klaus whooshed out of spot but the bullet entered in his arm and he realized that it was a wooden one laced with wolfsbane. He knew who he was. After one look at sleeping Hope, he whooshed to him and punched him hard. He then held him by his throat and lifted him in the air with one hand and asked him "who send you here?"
The man said "you are a dead meat."
Klaus pulled him towards him and sunk his teeth into his neck just for a few seconds and then threw him away. The man got up and took out a stake as his eyes darted to Hope. Klaus at once realized that it was not just him who was target so he moved a bit and stood between him and Hope. He said "I will get her. She cannot survive".
And then his facial expressions started to change to pain. Klaus saw Hayley standing behind him and he yelled "Hayley no".
She looked at him in shock. The man took advantage of that and elbowed her and ran off. Hayley turned towards him angrily and said "what the hell Klaus?"
He went to Hope and checked her and took a sigh of relief when he was turned around forcibly. he looked into her eyes and said "he was a hunter"
"what?!" she said.
"A hunter" Klaus said prying his arms free of her grasp "you know about hunters curse."
She shouted "I don't care about hunters curse. He could have hurt Hope and you."
He said shouting too now "well I do. I wouldn't let him hurt Hope and if I had to then I will kill him, not you. Now we have to move from here"
He turned around and started putting his clothes in the bag. Hayley turned him around and said "Klaus, I want to know that if he attacks again then you will let me or yourself take care of him"
he looked at her and said "yes I will take care of him, not you"
she said "why not me"
Klaus yelled "because I know what a hunters curse can do to someone and I don't want that to …" he stopped and then turned and started to go the bathroom when she pulled her towards him and before he could say anything she pulled his shirt off his arm and stared at the bullet hole. She looked around and then closed her eyes and pushed her finger in his arm.
Klaus looked at her closed eyes and suddenly all anger was replaced by amusement and he said softly with a hint of smile in his voice "be careful it has wolf bane on it". That made her open her eyes and caught him looking at her, she flushed and at the same time took it out. She went to the bathroom and wrapped it in a Kleenex and threw it in the bin. When she came back he was looking at Hope and his arm was healed with just dry blood on there. He said without looking at her "we need to move again from here right now. You ready?"
Hayley said casually "I think this was the shortest stay right?"
Klaus looked at her to see if she was joking or not but smiled when he saw a smile on her face. He walked to her and said "I promise, we will settle down soon" he was quiet for a moment and then said with a smile "before her first birthday" which made her laugh and said "sure then we have one year".