I ignored Chris's knocking, unsure of how to react.

"Clarisse!" He called again. Clarissa slipped out of my arms and jumped out of bed, touching the door with her little hands.

"Daddy" She smiled at me, and tried to open the door.

I wiped my face, and smiled at Clarissa, i walked up to the door with a smile, for her sake.

I opened it.

"Daddy" She hugged Chris's leg, i giggled at her.

"Clarisse, look, let me just spea-" He took my hand.

I looked down at Clarissa, and gulped down my rage, "There's nothing to talk about, Chris. There's nothing wrong." I smiled, I knew he knew It was fake.

I held his hand for a brief moment and then turned around, trying not to cry or scream at him, thinking of the possibility of him being with Bella. I didn't want to fight in front of Clarissa.

"We're going for a walk." I said briskly, putting a coat on Clarissa, some gloves and mittens and combed her chocolate brown hair, that was starting to grow now, almost touching her shoulders.

"I'll go with you." He said.

"Ugh, no thanks. I'm needing some time alone, no offense." I turned around putting on a coat and taking Clarissa's hand.

I stepped on the snow, as i headed out.

"Are you cold?" I asked Clarissa, bending down.

"No" She smiled at me, showing me her little teeth, they were so cute.

"Hahahaa, you're funny, you know." I told her, caressing her hair.

"Hihi" She giggled, showing me her front teeth again.

I sat down on the ground, after i was several feet away from my house. I watched Clarissa play in the snow as i thought about everything that was going on.

I didn't think Chris was cheating on me, but i had to suspect. It all made sense actually. I was spending so much time with Clarissa, we hadn't had some time for us in a while. And you know what people say, if a man can't find the attention he needs at home, he'll go look for it elsewhere. And Bella was incredibly beautiful, seductive, hot. But she was a very good friend too, its hard to believe she could be doing something like that. But it seemed like when they were next to each other, something just was there, a presence, chemistry. I don't know, maybe i was just being paranoid. How could he? He wouldn't. I'm his wife, the mother of his child.

A scene started coming in my head. As i left with Clarissa to play in the snow, Chris and Bella were glad they finally had a moment alone. Their passion was uncontrollable as they ripped each other's clothes off, exposing Bella's perfect body. Her breasts, her butt, her perfect silhouette, being covered in kisses. Their bodies sweating as their juices start blending together. As i heard her imaginary moans in my mind, the tears started falling, he was mine. I felt my hand wet with something. I looked down, getting rid of my illusion. My blood was smeared across my hand, the illusion was so intense, i hadn't noticed that my blood was tinting the snow with red, i had been squeezing a rock and it cut my hand.

"Aw shit." I wiped the blood on my jeans, and wrapped my scarf around my hand, to stop the bleeding.

"Shit." Clarissa repeated.

I tried not to laugh, "No, no, no, thats a really bad word." I told her, smiling but trying to be strict, i forget that she imitates everything i do and say.

She shrugged, "Snowman" She grabbed a ball of snow and put it in my free hand.

"Thats beautiful" I told her, holding the ball of snow. "Here let me help." I hugged her, and kissed her cheek. I helped her build a small snowman, I loved that sparkle in her eyes, my baby.

She grabbed something from the ground and handed it to me.

"Whats this?" I asked her.

It was that stupid pamphlet thing for the Christmas party.

"What this?" She said with her soft voice.

"Its an invitation for a party, a Christmas party." I tried explaining it.

"Party!" She exclaimed and rolled on the snow.

"I think someone wants to go to the party." A shadow formed over Clarissa, it was Bella.

I shrugged, i didn't want to fight with her in front of Clarissa, but I also didn't want to act like nothings been happening.

"Are you and Chris coming?" She asked me.

I couldn't help it, "Is Chris going?" I said sarcastically, "I don't know, you tell me. You're the one who's spending time with him."

There was a startled look on her face, "Clarisse, what?"

"Please, don't act like you don't know."

"Huh, excuse me?" She made a bitchy face.

"You and Chris, come on, you can feel the sexual tension." I told her, trying to watch my language.

"Clarisse, no, what?" She seemed confused, "You don't think Chris and I are…?"

"Daddy" Clarissa said when she heard Chris's name.

"Look, just leave it alone." I noticed that Clarissa was paying attention. I picked her up and headed home.

"Clarisse! Clarisse, wait!" Bella tried but I didn't pay attention.

I opened the door to my house.

"Hey" Chris greeted me.

I waved and set Clarissa on the floor, she ran to Chris's arms.

I filled her tub with hot water since the temperature was so cold outside, I didn't want her to catch a cold.

She ran towards the bathroom already naked, i laughed.

"Mommy!" She hugged me, i picked her up and put her inside the tub and started bathing her.

I gave her dinner and put her in her crib, i stayed with her until she fell asleep, she was so sweet, i mean, if you did something she didn't like, she'd cry and bite. But with me, she was an angel, my baby.

Chris was doing the dishes, i went back to our bedroom and showered.

I was feeling like crap. I opened the closet and just pulled out the biggest sweatshirt that belonged to Chris that I could find. I put my hair into a ponytail and sat in bed. I collapsed, i cried. And cried. And cried. I cried because i thought Chris was cheating. I cried because I thought he didn't love me. I cried because my father was never what I wanted him to be. I cried because I worried about Chris making Clarissa feel like Ares made me feel. I cried because I was soon going to get my period and i was PMSing. I cried because i never felt like i was good enough. I cried because Chris and I hadn't been having sex for the last two weeks. I cried because…because… I don't even know why. I just smelled his sweatshirt and oh how I loved that smell, I loved him, I didn't want him to be with another, he was mine. He belonged with me.

I cried for about an hour, and then Chris knocked on the door.

"Babe, open up."

"NO!" I screamed.

"Clarisse, open this door. Whats going on?" He asked me.

"I DON'T WANT TO OPEN THE DOOR!" I blubbered.

"Why not?"

"I DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL ME ABOUT THE HOT SEX YOU HAD THIS AFTERNOON!" I looked down at my scar.

"What the hell" He said, "We didn't have sex this evening."

"We didn't." I opened the door, "But you did."

"What the fuck Clarisse?" He stared at me and suddenly started laughing.

"WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING, YOU FUCKHEAD?" I punched him on the nose.

"Owwww" He held his nose, "I'm laughing because i don't understand whats happening. What are you doing wearing my sweatshirt and judging by your face, you've been crying for hours."

"I'm having a nervous breakdown. Being a mother, being a wife, having you and Bella now, its overwhelming me." I curled up into a ball in the corner of my bed.

"OKAY, QUIT THE FUCK OUT OF IT. I'M NOT FUCKING CHEATING ON YOU, WOMAN. I LOVE YOU, I'M MARRIED TO YOU. I'M THE FATHER OF YOUR CHILD! IT ACTUALLY REALLY PISSES ME THAT YOU THINK THAT I AM CHEATING ON YOU, OKAY? I'M NOT. PUT THIS IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD, CLARISSE. I AM NOT FUCKING CHEATING ON YOU. MOTHER FUCK." He screamed, and I started crying again.

"You two have been spending so much time together, and you keep flirting with her." I wet his sweatshirt with my tears.

"Come here." He wrapped his arms around me. "I will be forever and only yours, I've always been." I felt a feeling of relief entered my body, I was so glad he was mine. "I can't believe you thought i would do that to you." His voice was mad.

"I can't believe you yelled at me like that." I laughed.

"Never doubt me again, I'd never do anything to hurt you, Clarisse. I'd rather die than do something like that to you."

"But, she's so beautiful." I gulped.

"But she's not you." He hugged me.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

He kissed me, "You look very cute like this."

I hit him with a pillow.

"I need to say sorry to Bella." I told him.

"Okay, I wasn't cheating on you, but" My heart started racing, but what? "But, i was flirting with her, yes, because I was trying to get your attention. You haven't been giving me any attention lately. We haven't had sex or even cuddled or barely kissed lately."

"You were flirting with my best friend to get me jealous basically?" I asked him.

"Yeah." He looked down.

"We're both so stupid." I let myself fall onto my bed, Chris lied beside me.

"Almost five years, Claire."

"We've never had such a crisis."

"We've never had a baby before."

"Don't blame this on her."

"Shhhh…" He kissed my lips.

I kissed him back and we started making out soon.

"Yeah…" He groaned as I felt his erection on my stomach.

"Sex" I whispered in his ear.

And well, I think you know what happened after that. ;)

That night, when I went to sleep I started feeling a little weird, like I had to barf. I hate being sick, I hoped I wasn't sick.

"I think I'm starting to get sick." I told Chris.

A/N: I'd like to thank my friend, Reyna G. Daughter of Bellona, for always reviewing all of my stories! And please review guys! REVIEWWWWWWW