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Here it is, Chapter 16.

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Chapter 16

What lit up around her was not a room, not a street but a long pebble beach that guarded a giant lake. She looked out at the water for a moment, 'I think I've been her... I'm sure of it... Lake Lyn?' She looked along the beach to see a figure sitting down, looking out at the water, 'Sebastian!' She started to walk over to him, she wasn't sure how he was going to react after what she did to him.

She slowly sat down next to him; hesitating for a moment, "I'm sorry, I didn't know what else to do."

A half smile crept onto his face, "Don't be, you did what you had to do, it was beautifully evil. They still trust you when you know they shouldn't but yet you didn't tell them what we were actually doing, that you came willingly," he was now leaning over her, running hand up her leg, "that you wanted me." he placed a soft kiss on her neck.

She was trying to remain focused, guilt still coursing through her, "But now they're coming after you and they're even more determined than before."

He looked at her with a sly grin, he brushed a few strands of fiery hair off her face, "What, don't you have faith in your big brother?"

For some reason the words 'big brother' made her want him more, it would have been a very different reaction a week ago. She pulled him down into a passionate kiss. This is what she wanted, she wanted to stay in this moment forever, but unfortunately the need for air came to strong handle, Sebastian pulled away first to catch his breath, they stared into each other's eyes for a moment and then a single tear rolled down Clary's cheek.

Sebastian grew concerned, "What's wrong?"

She wiped it away, "What am I going to do? I mean it's hard enough lying to them, what am I going to do if they do find you? How am I going to watch them kill you? I know you've done a lot of evil things and probably still do, but I honestly don't care anymore, I just... I just need you, I CAN'T lose you!"

A smile, a genuine human smile spread across Sebastian's face, he leaned down and brushed his lips against hers ever so lightly, "I'll never leave you."

She smiled back at him, playing with a bit of his hair, "So, your in Idris?"

He rolled off and sat next to her, "No actually, just like you I'm only here mentally."

Clary raised herself up on her elbows, "Really? Then, where are you?"

"Nowhere you would have heard of."

"But how am I gonna get to see you?"

The corner of his mouth went up into a half smile, "Like this. Just bite your lip and we'll be together."

She huffed in frustration, "It's not the same!"

He leaned over and kissed her again, "I know it's not the same but we have to be more careful from now on."

He started kissing her neck, "Fffffiiiinnnneee. But what am I supposed to when I get back home."

He was still trailing kisses down her neck, a little moan escaped her, "Just. Keep doing. What your doing. Keep. Playing. This facade. Until I figure out what my next move is."

She sighed in annoyance, "OK."

Sebastian kissed her once again on the lips, cupping her cheek in his hand, "You should go back now." He leaned over and whispered in her ear, "Close your eyes Clary."

She obeyed and closed them, opening them when she sensed she was back in her room. She rolled over in annoyance to see Jace sitting in the corner, leaning on the wall, fast asleep. She looked at him, tears starting to form, 'How could I have done this to you? I don't deserve you? I shouldn't be falling for him, I should be with you? How can I do what I'm doing? After all we've been through...' She rolled over so she wasn't looking at Jace anymore, she started sobbing quietly. She suddenly felt strong arms wrap around her and a familiar warmth hit her, 'Sebastian?' She suddenly heard a soothing voice, "Shhh, shhh, I'm here, I'll protect you..." '...Jace.' She started crying even more, she had thought it was Sebastian and a small part of her wanted it to be, she hated herself for thinking that. She rolled around and buried her face in his chest, trying to make the tears stop. He pulled her closer in an attempt to comfort her. The tears eventually stopped falling, and the sobbing quieted. Just before slumber took her she thought 'this is how it should be. This is what's right.'

She fell asleep with Jace's arms wrapped around her and her head buried against his chest, listening to his steady heartbeat. This was right, was peaceful.

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Clary sleepily opened her eyes, she snuggled into the warm body that was wrapped around her, she loved this feeling, she loved the feeling of comfort and security, she loved being with... 'Jace?' She moved away slightly so she could see his face, he was so peaceful, a few strands of his golden locks hung in his face, her hand, without consent, reached up and gently brushed them off his face. He made a little noise at her touch and started to open his eyes sleepily.

Clary wrapped her arm around his waist, a smile crept onto his face, "Good morning."

She smiled weakly, "Morning."

Jace leaned down and brushed his lips against hers, she felt her stomach twist as their lips touched, it felt wrong but it also felt wrong that it felt wrong.

She persevered and put on a smile, "You have morning breath."

He raised an eyebrow at her, he was still half asleep, "You're one to talk."

His comment reminded her of Sebastian, 'Sebastian...' She hated herself for what she was doing, for lying here with Jace, for lying to his face, acting like everything was fine, like she still felt the same, but she did, she did love Jace just not as much anymore, she would always love Jace he was her first love. When she used to think about her future all she saw was Jace, but now she did still see Jace but there was also Sebastian. She felt her eyes start to water but tried her best to push it away; she buried her head back into Jace's warm, familiar chest.

She mumbled to him, "Stay. Let's just stay like this."

He knew she was hurting, so he just pulled her closer to him; he kissed the top of her head, and simply answered with, "Ok."

She inhaled his scent, his comforting scent, she embraced his warmth, his familiar warmth, she melted at his touch, his tender touch. She let the whole world around her disappear; all that mattered right now was that she was with Jace. Clary was still exhausted from the last few days so she let slumber take her, once again she fell asleep with Jace's arms wrapped around her and her head buried against his chest, listening to his steady heartbeat. Nothing else mattered, this is all that mattered.

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