Author's Note: Hello guys! Here's chapter 13! I think it's the longest chapter so far hahaha, so bear with me if it's a little too draggy. I had a really hard time writing this chapter; I knew the kind of feeling I wanted to express, but somehow... the words just didn't come easily. So if anything seems disjointed or weird, please forgive me :) Also, there's quite a lot of switching of time periods and perspectives in this chapter, so I hope you don't get confused. I use a line break to separate the past and present, and 'XXX' to separate different perspectives/times within a particular time period.
Alright then, please enjoy this chapter as well! And please leave me any thoughts you have in a review :) I truly appreciate them :)
Disclaimer: Credits to Matsuri Hino, Blackened Wing and TammyTBoneTTB!
PRESENT
'How could he do something like that!? Didn't he stop to think about Kaname-sama's feelings at all!? That selfish bastard!'
Kain sighed, massaging his temples, as if that would reduce the strain on his brain from having spent hours in the same car as his cousin. Ever since the call from Kaname-sama, Aidou had been ranting about the same thing over and over and over again.
'Kain! Don't you care!?' Aidou whirled around to glare at his silent cousin, face red from having gotten so worked up.
He rolled his eyes. Of course he cared. Just because he wasn't throwing a hissy fit and practically frothing at the mouth didn't mean he didn't care. During his cousin's phone conversation with the pureblood, his sensitive ears had picked out the anxiety and melancholy in his voice, even if they were very well-disguised. The fatigue in his quiet voice had been unmistakable, as well. Had he been sleeping at all? Or taking care of himself? Zero would probably glower and berate them for not ensuring that Kaname-sama was well-looked after, especially since he wasn't around to do it himself.
Zero... Kain's eyes darkened slightly. He had to admit, he had not been surprised when Aidou told him about what he had done. It was just like the hunter to sacrifice himself for the welfare and happiness of the people he loved. But didn't he realise that his actions were causing Kaname-sama immense pain now? Did he truly believe that Yuuki could bring him more happiness? Did he not see how the pureblood's eyes lit up like fireworks whenever Zero walked into the room? How the smile that spread across his usually-indifferent face from watching him was as bright as the sun? How his arms would eventually snake around him, just because he could not stop himself from wanting to touch his lover?
Kain sighed again, softly and genuine this time. Why did things have to be so complicated? The couple had finally managed to catch a break after being hit with so many calamities and horrors. Was it too much to ask for them to be able to live out the rest of their lives in blissful peace?
'Oi, earth to Kain?'
The noble glanced up, irritation scrawled all over his face. His idiot blonde cousin was still scowling at him, waiting for an answer. As if his response would change anything.
'The others are already here,' he replied instead, turning his head to gaze out the car window at Night Haven looming up ahead.
Attention successfully diverted away from his cousin, Aidou's eyes bulged as he, too, sensed the presence of the others. 'Oh, crap! They weren't supposed to get here so early! I haven't told Kaname-sama... He's going to kill me!'
The corners of Kain's lips crooked upwards into an amused smile as he watched his cousin twisting his hands in his hair, mussing up his previously well-styled hairstyle. Many things may have changed about Aidou, but he was still as particular about his appearance as he had been back in the Academy.
But apparently, the fear of a pureblood's ire trounced his desire to look good.
Even before the car had fully rolled to a stop, Aidou was flinging the car door open, rushing up to the house.
'Come on, Kain,' he called, when he had reached the porch. 'Hurry up!'
Kain grunted in annoyance as he slowly helped the third passenger out of the car. 'Aren't you forgetting something, Aidou?'
The blonde turned, eyes widening as he realised what – no, who – his cousin was referring to. 'Oh, right, sorry.'
Kouya Misako, the human who had been riding with them, shot Kain a small smile. 'Thank you, dear.'
Slipping his hands around her frail body, the noble gently lifted her up into his arms, cradling her carefully against his chest as he made his way over to Aidou.
'It's no trouble at all, Kouya-san,' he replied, returning her smile.
Aidou turned away from the pair, muttering a soft 'suck up' under his breath as he raised a fist, about to knock at the door...
...which opened right at that second, revealing a disgruntled pureblood.
'Aidou, I do believe I said to bring only Kain and yourself. I definitely don't recall asking you to involve the rest of my inner circle.'
The blonde noble gulped, guiltily averting the pureblood's gaze. It was true, Kaname-sama had not asked that of him, but, well... He had just wanted to make sure the pureblood was safe. If roping everyone else in would ensure a higher chance of success for his plan, Aidou was not about to hesitate, even if Kaname-sama was displeased with his actions.
Well, that had been his thoughts at that time, at least. Now, with the pureblood standing right in front of him, eyeing him this way, it was a little hard to remember his earlier willingness to take whatever punishment Kaname-sama doled out to him.
'I'm sorry, Kaname-sama,' mumbled Aidou dejectedly. Maybe he should not have stuck his nose in where it didn't belong. This was a very personal issue for the pureblood, after all. He probably did not appreciate him spreading word of it so easily.
Kaname sighed softly at the despondent look upon the noble's face. He had not meant for his words to come across as an admonishment, even though it had ticked him off a little when the other vampires had all just shown up at his house without warning. But he did understand Aidou's intentions, nevertheless. The noble had only been doing it for his sake.
'Don't worry about it. I understand.'
Aidou's head shot up at those words, gaping at the pureblood in shock. Kaname gave him a small smile of gratitude, before his attention was captured by the approaching couple.
The pureblood immediately stepped forward, greeting the elderly woman in Kain's arms.
'Kouya-san, I am Kuran Kaname. Thank you very much for agreeing to this.'
Misako gazed up at the young man standing before him. Like most people, she had heard his name multiple times, from his many business dealings all over the world, but she had never had the chance to see how he looked like. Such a handsome boy, she thought with a smile, greeting him in reply, before thanking him as well. He was doing her a favour, as well, after all.
Kaname then ushered them in, leading them to the living room, where Rima, Takuma, Ruka and Shiki were already seated comfortably on the couches. After Kain gently settled Misako on the couch, he went over to Ruka, squeezing her hand tightly. She had been away on business for the past few weeks, and had only just returned. The two of them had not had much contact during that time, what with the time difference and their own busy schedules. They exchanged happy, relieved smiles as they relaxed against each other on the couch. Accidentally witnessing Kain pressing a kiss on Ruka's cheek, Aidou pulled a face as he pretended to gag.
But secretly, he was glad that they were finally reunited. Kain had been one angsty vampire while Ruka had been away.
XXX
'Everyone,' Kaname called as he stood up, drawing their attention to him. 'I'm sure Aidou has already filled you in on what's been happening thus far.'
Even though Kaname had not really meant anything by that line, the blonde noble still flushed and ducked his head.
'I will not allow Zero to remain in the past this way, even if it's his decision.'
Six vampires stared back, nodding in assent.
Misako coughed softly, the actions racking her thin, frail body. Despite the pain, she lifted her head to gaze up at Kaname, wonderment illuminating her blurry eyes. The absolute love and possessiveness in his voice was clear for all to hear. Even his face, though pinched with exhaustion and worry, was steeled with determination. While she did not fully comprehend the situation, it was clear to her that this dear man was not about to let his lover suffer even the slightest. This Zero did not know how blessed he was, to be so loved like this. Her vision might be poor, but they had seen much over the decades. Humans searched all their lives to find such pure, unconditional love, and most never found it, ending up dying alone, filled with bitterness and regrets. Misako herself had experienced it once, a long time ago. It had been a wonderful memory, one that had unfortunately ended much too quickly. Millions would willingly die in exchange for a few days of the happiness that this Zero had. He was a fool to leave it all behind.
'As all of you are well aware of, I have decided to go after him, to persuade him to return. And the only way I can do that is by having the same spell cast onto me.'
Kaname paused, meeting each of their earnest gazes.
'That is why I need your help.'
Without even a second's hesitation, the nobles nodded their heads in unison, signalling their willingness to aid him.
Slightly taken aback by that incredible demonstration of such utter loyalty towards him, Kaname fell silent, lost in his thoughts. It was amazing, really, that with this group of vampires, he did not have to order or command, or even threaten. All his life, he had grown up giving orders to other vampires. Never a request, never a plea. Just his wishes, muttered in a crisp tone, and they would bow at his feet, eager to obey. After all, they had no choice; it was literally in their blood. And it hadn't been all that long ago when he had viewed this group the same way, as vampires of a lower class than him, vampires who were meant to serve him and fulfil his every wish.
But now... things were so different. He didn't have to ask to know that they would do their best to support him. And not because they feared him, or were obliged to obey. It was because they genuinely wanted to help him, whether it was in his business dealings or in his personal life. They really cared. And the knowledge that he had actual friends who had his back was just plain incredible. Again, Kaname looked at each of them in turn, this time taking the time to examine each vampire carefully.
Rima. Shiki. Ruka. Kain. Aidou. Takuma.
His friends. No, friendship didn't even begin to cover everything that they'd been through together. The joy. The suffering. The good times. The bad.
They were like family.
Kaname mentally kicked himself. This was ridiculous. Why was he getting all teary-eyed? It wasn't like he was never going to see them again, for goodness' sake!
But then a little voice chirped up in the back of his mind. You might not... Not if you die during the spell. Or if Zero refuses to return with you.
Shut up, hissed the pureblood in his mind.
Nevertheless, he found himself having to clear away a teeny lump in his throat before he could speak again.
Gesturing toward Misako, he began again, making certain to use a clear, business-like tone to prevent any of his previous sappy thoughts from showing through.
'Everyone, this is Kouya Misako. She is sixty-six years old this year, and has been diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer. The doctors say that she has three-'
Abruptly, Kaname broke off mid-sentence, horror and self-disgust slowly creeping up his spine. What was he doing? Reciting the details of her condition as casually as if he were speaking about the weather, and in such a cold, indifferent voice, too! This concerned someone's life, and he was discussing her death as if it were nothing more than squashing an ant beneath his shoe. How couldhe be so callous? So heartless?
The other vampires watched, aghast, as their pureblood prince dropped to his knees in front of the old lady, before taking her thin, wrinkly hand gently in his. Contrition and remorse in his eyes, he brought it to his lips, pressing them lightly against her knuckles.
'Forgive me, Kouya-san,' murmured the pureblood quietly, wine eyes gazing beseechingly into hers weary ones.
Aidou stiffened, a perturbed expression on his face, beginning to voice out a protest, but Ruka placed a hand on his shoulder, shaking her head lightly.
Kaname-sama wants to do this. So just leave it be.
Perhaps it was because it was Ruka, the vampire who was as fiercely protective of the pureblood as he was, who was dissuading him, Aidou only hesitated for a second, before nodding tersely, much to everyone's astonishment. He turned back toward the kneeling pureblood, heart swelling in adoration and reverence as he gazed at him.
Kaname-sama. Know that nothing will ever lower the opinion I have of you. I will always support and respect you.
For one nerve-wrecking second, Kaname had feared that the impulsive blonde would jump up from his seat, yelling something about how his 'magnificent Kaname-sama' should not kneel. But much to his relief, Ruka had managed to calm him down. Still, he could practically feel Aidou's focussed gaze boring holes into his figure.
Putting aside the reactions of his inner vampires, Kaname continued to gaze into Misako's eyes, silently entreating her to forgive him for his tactlessness, even though it had been a deplorable mistake.
Misako smiled down at the pureblood, patting his hand gently. His words had not bothered her in the slightest, but his apologetic actions sent a warm rush of happiness bubbling through her. It had been so long since someone, anyone, cared about her feelings. She had almost forgotten what it felt like to have people who bothered about her. And this kind stranger, the one who had promised to relieve her of her suffering and end her painful, miserable life, was doing just that. Was this what it would have been like to have children?
It was a good feeling, she concluded.
'It's alright, dearie. I've already accepted my fate, so don't you worry about hurting my feelings. Now, come on and sit up here next to me,' she urged, motioning to the spot on the couch next to her. 'No need for you to be hurting your knees for an old lady like me. You still have a lover to catch.'
Kaname chuckled softly, the remorse in his eyes slowly changing into tenderness as he obeyed her wishes, settling down next to her. Her hand remained clasped in his. It was cold, and also trembling slightly, he realised. Reaching out for the other hand as well, he enveloped both of them in his larger, warm ones, doing his best to keep them warm.
Misako laughed lightly as she realised his intentions, her pain forgotten for now as a pleasant, fuzzy warmth spread through her, not merely from her captured hands, but also from her heart. Shooting him a grateful smile, she turned towards the rest of their company.
'When I was diagnosed, the doctors said that I had only three months left.' A rueful look flitted across her face. 'That was four months ago.'
Kaname stilled instantly, tensing up as he gazed at her with worried eyes. He hadn't meant for her to take over the recounting, his silence had not been for that...!
As if sensing his anxiety, Misako squeezed his hands lightly. She would've turned to smile at him reassuringly again, if not for the fact that she wasn't sure she could move again without more agony bursting out across her body. Already, she was shaking from having exerted herself so much. She sincerely hoped Kaname did not notice; he seemed like the type to worry too much. And he already had so much on his plate...
Aidou's eyes met hers and she smiled at him, recalling how she had been in the midst of her explanation.
'Aidou here came to see me at the hospital, asking if I would help his master out with something. My life... in exchange for an end to all this pain.' Her smile deepened as her gaze swept the room. 'At those words, I practically begged him to have me.'
The other vampires obligingly cracked smiles, even though amusement was the furthest thing from their minds as they gazed upon the terminally-ill woman speaking of her death so calmly.
'Kouya-san...' murmured Kaname, eyebrows creased in concern. When he had read through Misako's file, all he had been looking out for was the severity of her illness. He had hardly spared a glance at her photograph, or even at her personal details. The honest reason why he had chosen her was because she was suffering the most, and had the lowest life expectancy. He had thought those to be to his advantage, tools that could be used to get her to agree.
But now that she was here in person, such a sweet, old woman, doubts and guilt were swarming him incessantly. How could he even think of using her as a sacrifice? Not only would Zero hate it, he abhorred it as well. Sending such a wondrous, lovely lady into death... how could he?
This time, Misako did force herself to face him, even though her muscles and joints protested wildly. Shush, she commanded them, imploring her limbs to quit their shaking. His voice and tense hands were clear signs of his hesitation and second-guessing. And she didn't want him to change his mind. For the first time in a long time, she had woken up this morning with a smile, knowing that she would never again have to feel the agonising pain tearing at her insides, never again have to lie limply in the dull hospital room, staring at the calendar and slowly counting down the days until she could finally be free.
She couldn't live like that anymore. It needed to end.
'Stop fretting, young one. I want this, or else I would not be here. Don't renege on your word now, or I absolutely won't forgive you,' admonished the old woman, even though she was half-serious. She truly craved, no, needed this relief.
Despite the anguish in his eyes, Kaname nodded solemnly, silently swearing his promise to her. Following his lead, the other vampires nodded as well. Equally pained expressions were in all of their eyes as they regarded the sagely woman.
XXX
Kaname pressed a kiss onto Misako's weathered forehead, before he gazed tenderly into her eyes. The elderly woman was lying on her back on the couch, despite her protests to be moved onto the floor so that it was less of a hassle. Kaname had steadfastly refused. They could draw the symbol on the floor first and move her after she had-.
When it was all-.
...Later.
'Are you sure about this, Kouya-san?'
That question, whispered softly, yet thickly laced with concern, made Misako smile once again. Such a darling, this Kuran Kaname. No one had ever been this gentle with her before, not even the doctors or nurses at the hospital. It made her heart flutter and her mind lighten. Strange. He was making her feel better than any medicine ever had before.
'Yes, dear one. I am certain.'
She paused to cough, harsh coughs that racked her slight frame. Kaname was instantly bending over her in concern, but she waved him off, eyes closing as she rode the attack out.
Hopefully this will be the last, she prayed silently.
When she opened her eyes again, it was to drop straight into beautiful, dark eyes. Extraordinarily deep and mesmerising, they gave her the impression that if she wasn't careful enough, she would find herself drowning in those mysterious fathomless depths. Not that she would mind, really.
What a great sight to gaze upon before one's death, she thought, bliss suffusing not only her hurting body, but also her old, weak heart.
'Thank you for this, Kuran Kaname,' she whispered, voice trembling slightly. It was requiring more and more effort for her to keep her eyes open, so she just let them flutter shut again. 'I sincerely hope you find what you're looking for.'
The pureblood gave a shaky smile, giving her hand a reassuring squeeze, though whether for her or him, he couldn't say. He gazed down upon her again, the small woman barely taking up half the couch, eyes closed in exhaustion, body cold and quivering.
She didn't have long now.
It was time.
Kaname took a deep, shuddering breath, hand still tightly holding onto the other's. He turned his head briefly to look at the other five vampires. They all looked as grim and saddened as he felt.
He returned his gaze to Misako. This elderly woman... he had only met her a half hour ago, yet she had somehow already managed to leave such a profound imprint on his heart.
And not many were able to touch the heart of Kuran Kaname.
He wouldn't forget this. Ever.
Please rest in peace, Kouya Misako.
Then he closed his eyes.
XXX
This was terrible work, thought Aidou. This was one of the few times he wished that he had not been asked by the pureblood to do something.
The blood was oozing out of the pale, paper-thin skin, dripping down leisurely, drop by drop; plop by plop.
It didn't tempt him, of course, that would be unthinkable, but still...
This was the blood of an innocent human.
Normal vampires would hardly blink at the thought, but Aidou and his friends, under Kaname-sama's lead, had gradually become accustomed to living and working amongst humans. At first, it had only been protecting them... But somehow, protection had inadvertently extended into care and consideration.
And now, this... this was just too hard. Even if it was what she wanted. Even if it was inevitable.
Aidou shivered imperceptibly, before he picked up the bowl, joining Kain on the kitchen floor.
XXX
Kaname hoisted the body gently up in his arms, slowly making his way over to the kitchen. The symbol had been carefully drawn out on the floor. He knew he had been asking too much of Aidou and Kain, but there was no other choice. He couldn't do it himself; the spell casters had to do it, mixing in their own blood from time to time.
Carefully, with the utmost gentleness, he lowered her onto the floor, arranging her respectfully. She was already blessedly unconscious, but Kaname wanted to do it right, even if she wasn't aware of it. It was the least he could do, after all.
For a second, he just gazed down upon her, lying there so peacefully. She looked almost as if she were just sleeping. As if she would open her eyes anytime now and smile up at him again.
But of course he knew the truth.
At least pain could no longer touch her now.
PAST
'Crap, crap, crap!'
How had he ended up sleeping for fourhours? And in such an awkward position too. Zero stretched hurriedly, wincing at the ache in his neck. Taking a few seconds to pet Lily goodbye, he quickly strode out of the stables, rubbing his bleary eyes tiredly before casting his gaze around.
It was dark now, the sun long hidden beneath the horizon. If he let his eyes wander on the night sky, he could almost make out the stars starting to peek out from the shroud of night.
Damn it!
He had planned on sticking close to Yuuki, in case tonight was the night. But not only had he missed her during class changeover, she would be almost done with patrolling by now. Picking up his speed, Zero continued on, tuning into his vampire senses as he tried to pinpoint her location. But she wasn't anywhere nearby. Strange, thought Zero. Could she have already returned? It was possible...
Still he searched on, black uniform fading into the darkness of night as he wandered further into the shadows.
PRESENT
Kaname could have locked the door with his mind. Or held the doorknob still so that it would not turn.
But he did not.
He let Zero stomp in, drawn by the unmistakeable scent of blood saturating the air.
Zero's eyes bulged in horror when he saw the bloody masterpiece on the kitchen floor. There was so much blood everywhere, not only on the floor, but some splatters on the couch and across the living room floor as well. Despite the copious amount of pureblood blood he'd had mere hours ago, red bled into his eyes almost immediately after he entered the room. Regardless, he fought down the rising hunger.
He was already on high alert with the smell of blood hanging so thickly in a room full of vampires, but it was only when he saw the old woman laying limply in a bloody circle that his heart stopped, and Bloody Rose was instantly whipped out.
His target... Kuran Kaname.
'Shit, you bloodsucker, what have you done!?'
It wasn't like he didn't already know the answer; he had recognised the Time Switcher Spell's symbol from Aidou's book. However, never in his wildest dreams had he expected Kuran to do such a terrible thing, to take a human life so casually. Of course, that had been the most ridiculous assumption he had ever made. The guy was a vampire. So what if he had sworn to live on blood tablets and work towards coexistence? So what if he treated Yuuki as if she were the most delicate flower on the planet? He was still a heartless, soulless bastard, and Zero had been a fool to think that he had changed at all, just because he had laughed.
Zero ground his teeth, finger twitching on the trigger, gun locked firmly on the pureblood's heart. Kuran didn't even deserve a chance to defend himself. He sure hadn't given that poor, innocent woman the same luxury. The prefect's eyes fell over her form again. She was sopale, chest barely moving at all. Blood was still sluggishly trickling out of a small wound on her wrist. Zero's breathing quickened as he quickly averted his gaze, reeling in horror and revulsion. She was just a weak, old woman. She didn't deserve such brutality! How could he?
Two times now. This was the second time in days that Kaname was staring down the muzzle of an anti-vampire gun, with an irate hunter at the other end. He supposed that this time it was justified though. Zero probably thought that they had murdered a defenceless old woman just for their own means. Kaname's heart constricted as he once again gazed upon Misako's small, pallid face. Was that so very different from the truth, after all?
No,there's no time for doubts now. It's too late to change your mind. Don't let her sacrifice be in vain.
The other vampires in the room had all jumped to their feet, forming a circle around the two of them, tensed and ready to pounce on the Zero-imposter who dared to aim his weapon at their pureblood. Kaname gave a subtle shake of the head, a clear indication he did not want them to interfere. Then he squared his shoulders, regarding the boy in front of him. Even though his hands were shaking slightly, at least he was having no visible difficulty standing upright. That was a relief, he thought. At least he seemed to be in a better condition that before.
'This is not what you think, Zero,' he said crisply. The hunter deserved an explanation, which was why he had let him barge in. But still, he hoped this wouldn't take too long. Misako's breathing was getting quieter and shallower.
Zero's features twisted into a disgusted grimace. 'Oh, is that right? So you're not sacrificing a human to carry out the Time Switcher Spell to chase after your Zero?'
The pureblood grunted impatiently. He should've known, really. There was no way the belligerent and acrimonious hunter would be so easily convinced. But there was not time to deal with his dramatics, even if his resentment and suspicions were not unfounded. For a brief second, Kaname stared intently at Zero as he considered simply knocking him out.
But then, without warning, Aidou sprung forward, shoving an open manila file into Zero's face.
'Here, look, you idiot! She was terminally ill. She agreed to this!So will you just shut up already! We need to do this now!'
Everyone gaped at Aidou in surprise. Even Kaname's eyes widened at the blonde's actions. A small flush crept onto his face, but he resolutely remained standing between the pureblood and the hunter. He had forced himself to bite his tongue even when this Zero was threatening his dearest master's life, but this was just wasting precious time. Misako's weary heart was barely even beating any more, her wound no longer leaking blood. Time was running out!
Zero snarled at the noble's boorishness, almost deciding to just go ahead and pull the trigger, until the words 'stage four cancer' caught his eye. One hand shot out to snatch the document out of Hanabusa's fingers, mistrustful amethyst eyes quickly scanning the words on the pages.
Oh.
Was it true, then? Cancer... it hurt a lot, didn't it? If the wily vampires had offered her relief from the pain, it was possible she would have leapt at the opportunity. A chance to leave all the suffering behind.
But that still didn't make it right!
Zero's eyes narrowed, denial and rejection clearly written in his eyes. But then, Aidou's expression suddenly softened, causing him to falter, the snide retort on his tongue dissolving.
Not paying him any mind, the noble turned to look back at the woman. 'Don't you see the smile on her face?' His voice was barely a whisper.
Having been distracted by all the blood earlier, Zero had not really noticed her expression, but now that Hanabusa had pointed it out...
Zero sucked in a deep breath. A soft, tender smile rested upon her pale lips, her face the picture of tranquillity, despite the startling pallor. He had never seen anyone look so peaceful, whether alive or dead. Agony and fear were the only expressions he saw on the faces of the vampires he annihilated, and the people around him, well, they were always stressing about something or another. There was always that small crease in their brow, that shadow in their eyes, even in the happy-go-lucky Yuuki and the lunatic Cross. Needless to say, the vampires of the Night Dorm all just appeared as if they were eternally brooding about something – probably blood. Anyway, for a human to look so blissfully happy... it could not have been faked, could it? She had chosen to die with a smile on her face. No one would do that unless they were truly feeling that way. And if that were so, this couldn't be all bad, right? If it eased her pain?
Zero had never had much of an opinion regarding euthanasia, but that smile... it just made all his resentment and fury fizzle away.
Because it looked so much like the one future Zero had on his face, in the photograph that was currently nestling in his pocket.
He was probably being an idiot, letting himself get influenced by the stupid future self whom he had once described as crazy and soft... but the matching expressions of pure happiness on their faces were just so unsettling. Future Zero had been ecstatic to see the pureblood again. Even if Zero could not understand the ludicrosity of his response, the joy from the other had definitely been real. And he had made that kind of an expression. So then, it would mean that this Kouya Misako was probably equally relieved to die as well...?
Zero lowered his gun, but refused to give up his scowl. Okay, so maybe the blonde idiot was telling the truth. Then he took a step backwards, eyes roaming over the symbol on the floor.
Aidou exhaled in relief. He still couldn't really believe that it had worked. Oh, good, finally he had done something useful. Perhaps this could make up for what had happened with the whipped cream. The noble stepped away from Zero, grinning triumphantly at Kain, not noticing that the hunter's features were twisting in incomprehension and suspicion.
Zero's brows furrowed further, his eyes darkening as he examined the floor. It was clear that Kuran was attempting to travel to the past. Probably to meet up with his Zero again, likely to get him to change his mind and return to this future with him.
But... why?
Why was the pureblood so bothered by his future self's decision to remain in the past? Surely he hated the way things had turned out? Been bound to an ex-human, having to take him in as a protégé, and having Yuuki decide to walk a path all on her own – there was no way that Kuran wanted these! Zero may have been spiteful, but he wasn't blind. He saw the way the pureblood looked at her, the way his eyes lit up whenever she was around. Yuuki was everything to him. Yet, despite knowing that there was a chance to stop her from leaving, Kuran was not going to take it? Was he supposed to believe that the pureblood would rather have him than Yuuki? Like hell! That was freaking impossible!
Kaname had not really expected Zero to be at all convinced by Aidou's words. He was almost about to step forward to resolve the situation quickly, until he saw an indecipherable look cross the hunter's face. The next thing he knew, Bloody Rose was out of sight, and Zero was staring intently at him. Contrary to what he had expected, it wasn't disgust or hatred that was reflected in those gorgeous lilac eyes that he loved. No, it was just pure bewilderment.
'Why are you risking so much just for one level D? What game are you playing here?'
Kaname's eyes flashed in anger. 'Don't you dare call him that. Zero is so much more than that.'
Zero felt like he couldn't breathe. Why? Why did the pureblood look so outraged? He was acting as if he actually cared for his Zero. As if they weren't sworn enemies. As if the unintended bond was not the only reason they were together.
From the knowledge that Kuran addressed Zero by name, he had already guessed that the two of them were now on civil terms, at least. But for Kuran to have defended him in such a manner... that wasn't something he had ever imagined. How could that be? There was no way anyone other than Yuuki would concern themselves about him, much less the vampire he had been enemies with for years.
There had to be some other reason the pureblood was doing this. Definitely not just because he couldn't stand to be without the hunter.
Definitely not...
Kaname's heart thumped painfully as he saw the myriad of emotions crossing the prefect's face, before disbelief finally settled in. Did he think it impossible that Kaname genuinely cared about him? Was that how Zero saw himself? Just an ex-human; a mere pawn in the pureblood's chess game? No doubt, that was the Kaname of his time treated him, but after all that the prefect had learnt and seen since his arrival here, surely he had realised that everything had changed? That their present relationship was eons away from how it had been?
That thought gnawed at him. This may not have been hisZero, but this was what he had been like, back before Rido. So consumed by mistrust and self-hatred, not feeling like he was worthy of anyone's love.
It was an unbelievably lonely existence.
Kaname had a sudden urge to take the boy in his arms, to embrace him tightly and murmur reassuring words in his ear until all the pain and desolation behind those eyes vanished.
But of course, this Zero would not take very kindly to that.
Instead, he settled for giving the hunter a soft, tender look, before quietly continuing on.
'Zero means a lot to me. Maybe you'll find that hard to comprehend, but it's the plain truth. And I will not have him suffer alone in the past this way. Not for anything.'
Zero swallowed at the intense expression in the pureblood's dark, smouldering eyes. He still couldn't believe that Kuran would risk his own life just to alleviate his future self's suffering, but... He was going through with this, wasn't he?
The hunter turned away, fists clenching in agitation. A conflicting blend of emotions was roiling up within him, making both his head and heart ache fiercely. Incredulity, disbelief, frustration, anger, and... – much as he hated to admit it – the faint stirrings of hope.
Could it be true? Someone truly cared about him...?
Almost immediately, self-disgust surged up within him. Why was he even feeling like this? Why should Kuran Kaname's concern for him inspire anything other than revulsion? He was a fool! A stupid, gutless idiot! Was he that pathetic? Was he so desperate for any form of warmth that even the pureblood would suffice? He was truly despicable.
Seconds dragged out, a thick silence hanging in the air. Kaname sighed softly. The hunter's warring emotions were clearly reflected in his eyes, and they revealed how Zero was getting increasingly distressed, despite the pureblood's attempts to convince him of the truth.
He had hoped that perhaps he could get Zero to understand why he was doing this, but it would appear as though that were impossible. There really was no more time to waste. Any longer now, and Misako would be...
'I apologise for this, Zero.'
Zero looked up, eyebrows creasing in puzzlement, but before he could utter a single word, he felt Kaname penetrating his mind, filling it with a supreme wave of lethargy and commanding his body to fall asleep. His eyes widened in horror as he fought the invasion, but it wasn't long before his eyes were closing against his will, body slackening and crumpling.
Kuran...!
Kaname stepped forward to catch the hunter, but another pair of arms suddenly shot out, supporting the unconscious boy against his chest.
'I'll take him.'
'Yagari...' began Kaname hesitantly. Trying to stop Yagari from entering the room would have only made things worse, so he had let him in as well, despite the possible troublesome ramifications and delay. Would he, too, try to shoot him for hurting a human? Kaname groaned inwardly. He clearly needed to learn to stop allowing hunters in.
The old hunter eyed the pureblood pensively, throwing Zero over his shoulder. 'I heard everything.'
Then, much to Kaname's surprise and relief, he turned to walk away, drawling out a, 'I definitely don't approve of this, but...'
He glanced back briefly.
'Get my idiot student back.'
The corners of Kaname's lips turned upwards in a small smile.
'Yes, sir.'
XXX
One of the armchairs from the living room had been placed inside the kitchen, and that was where Kaname was currently seated, watching mutely as his inner circle vampires formed a circle around Misako and the symbol, shades at the ready.
Except Aidou, who was standing near Kaname, frowning down at the spell book as he confirmed that everything was in place.
'Aidou.'
The blonde jumped at the pureblood's voice, almost dropping the heavy tome in his hands.
'Yes, Kaname-sama? Did I miss something out?'
Kaname chuckled at his stricken expression. 'No, Aidou, everything's perfect. I just have one more favour to ask of you.'
'Anything, Kaname-sama!'
'After I leave, will you and the others stay on? Someone needs to watch over past Kaname and Zero to make sure they don't do anything foolish, or find out the truth about Yuuki.'
Aidou nodded immediately. Struck by a rare streak of foresight, he had guessed that Kaname-sama would make such a request. He and Kain's luggage were sitting in the boot of their car. The rest of the nobles had also agreed to remain at Night Haven. Everyone was going to remain here until Kaname-sama returned with Zero.
A brief smile crossed the pureblood's face, before it became sombre again.
'Also, past Zero seems to be unusually weak, perhaps the result of having the spell cast on him.' Here Kaname paused, regarding the blonde quietly. His next words were murmured in the faintest of whispers, such that the other vampires would not be able to hear him unless they were intent on listening in.
'I have stored some of my blood in the fridge, and I hope that you will give them to him when the need arises.'
Aidou's eyes widened in shock. So that was why the pureblood had appeared so pale tonight, because he had bled himself. But this... this was bad! It meant that Kaname-sama's strength was now compromised!
By deciding to use a dying human as sacrifice, they had already been gambling with the pureblood's life. But now, with the pureblood himself weakened as well, there was an even greater risk in casting the spell. What if... what if something went wrong?
'Kaname-sama! This isn't safe! If that's the case, even if six vampires-'
'Seven.'
Aidou yelped in surprise when Seiren suddenly appeared next to him, nodding calmly at him as if she had not just materialised from thin air.
'Geez! You scared the hell out of me!'
Seiren's only response was a brief flash of amusement across her eyes, before she made her way over to the other vampires, joining in the circle. Aidou scowled at her retreating back, his worry for the pureblood forgotten for the moment.
'Thank you for the concern, but I will be fine.'
Aidou's head snapped back around at his voice. 'Kaname-sama...!'
Kaname gave a small smile, before placing a hand on Aidou's shoulder. Such a loyal friend, always so worried for him. He was truly blessed to be surrounded by these vampires, thought Kaname.
'Thank you, Aidou.'
The blonde faltered, the gratitude in the pureblood's eyes and tone suffusing his heart with wonder and happiness. He was by no means placated, but just like what Ruka had said earlier, this was what Kaname-sama wanted. He would rather risk his life for Zero than live on without him. And who was Aidou to persuade him otherwise?
A silent growl built up within the noble. Zero was so going to get frozen in ice once he came back. How dare he cause Kaname-sama such trouble and worry? Stupid, pig-headed hunter!
XXX
Within seconds, the circle of seven was complete. Seven voices merged into one as they recited the words of the spell, each of them gazing at the pureblood.
Go safely, Kaname-sama, was the unspoken sentiment in each of their hearts. Go, and bring Zero home.
Kaname stared back at all of them, heart swelling in gratitude and warmth. His syndeo. His friends. Vampires that were so dear to him. Words could not express how thankful he was to have their ever-lasting support and respect, but he hoped they knew anyway.
As his vision started to waver, Kaname smiled. It was a genuine smile, one that touched the corners of his eyes. Perhaps the feelings he could not vocalise in words could be communicated through that simple action. Perhaps they would hear his heart's whispers. With his body slackening in the chair, head spinning wildly, he could only hope.
Thank you all for everything.
If I don't return...
Please be well.
And then everything went dark.
PAST
Zero sighed in contentment, kicking his legs up and down leisurely, watching the ripples streak through the dark waters and spread further and further away. Above him, the not-quite-full moon beamed down at him, delightfully illuminating the handsome hunter in her soft, glittering glow.
He was lying on his back in the grass, head supported by clasped hands. The legs of his pants had been carelessly bunched up, everything from knee down submerged in the cool, glassy waters of the lake.
Zero had been intent on finding Yuuki, he really had been. Until he had passed by the lake, that is. Then everything had just fallen away.
The dark, still waters glimmered an enchanting tint of silver under the moonlight, drawing his undivided attention and snatching the breath right out of his lungs. With no breeze in the air, even the trees surrounding the edges of the lake were silent, like shadowy wardens guarding the peace and sanctity of the area. Without his realising it, his feet had led him right up to the edge of the lake, the reflection of the moon on the surface like a blinding beacon he could not ignore.
Perhaps he had still been tired. Or his defences were low. Whatever the reason was, it had not taken him long to flop down on the grass, practically ripping off his shoes and socks as he dipped his legs in.
The initial chill of the waters on his skin had not been unfamiliar. He could still recall wading into this same, welcoming embrace, clothes and all, with the sole purpose of ending his pathetic, miserable existence. The moon had been bigger then, as if maliciously seeking to reveal his cowardice. As if cruelly shining a spotlight on him, grinning as it announced to the whole world how weak Kiryuu Zero really was.
With a jolt, he realised the parallelism of the situations, then and now. In both cases, he had chosen to leave the pureblood, not leaving him any say whatsoever in the matter. Hoping that things would all somehow turn out for the better, he had just gone ahead, not once looking back.
So many years had passed since the night Zero had tried to commit suicide, yet here he was again, at the very same spot, making the same selfish decision he had then. It felt like he had just gone full circle, coming right back here.
At least this time he wasn't running away, thought Zero wryly as he gazed intently up at the moon, as if trying to convince it of his sincere intentions. This time, he was doing it for both Yuuki and Kaname's happiness. A chance to start anew, to prevent any and all calamities that would have befallen them otherwise.
Kaname, I hope you'll be happy. I miss you, though... So much...
He sighed despondently at the thought of his lover, pale fingers reaching up to rub at his neck absentmindedly. The knot in his muscles from his earlier sleeping position was stubbornly refusing to leave, creating a maddening ache in his neck. Wasn't vampire healing supposed to take care of stuff like this?
His forlorn gaze drifted back over the lake, reliving how Kaname had pulled him out of his would-be watery grave all those years ago. Not only had he saved his life, he had also done his utmost best to make it a blissful one, one that Zero would never want to throw away again.
Zero's lips curled up into a little smile. Even if the Kaname that he loved ceased to exist, the memories that remained, both within his heart and in his necklace, would stay with him forever. Kaname would always be with him, sitting comfortably in his heart.
His eyes fluttered shut, the smile on his face growing wider even as a tear slipped out from the corner of one eye.
Kaname... I will always love you.
XXX
'Kaname-sama! Are you all right?'
Kaname opened his eyes groggily, resisting the urge to groan. It felt as though someone had just hit him over the head with a huge sack of bricks. Not that anyone would ever have dared to do that, of course. Blinking several times to clear his blurry vision, he shifted upright in his seat, frowning as he glanced around him.
Takuma was the one addressing him, staring at him with a deep crease between his brows. Behind him, the rest of his inner class vampires were on the edges of their seats, shooting horrified and anxious looks his way. If not for Yagari's 'all you bloodsuckers, remain in your seats', they would have been by his side in an instant. Even so, he could see Aidou practically bouncing on his chair, deliberating whether or not to simply ignore their sensei and go to his pureblood.
'Kaname-sama? You suddenly fell unconscious. Are you feeling all right?' Takuma peered worriedly at him, frown deepening. 'You look a little pale.'
The pureblood blinked at him mutely, dazed mind still trying to process this weirdly familiar situation. The room they were in was unmistakeably a Cross Academy classroom, even if he had not been inside one in ages. Yagari was standing at the front, staring at him irritably, ever-present cigarette rolling between his lips. The hand resting on his gun was the only outward indication of his wariness.
And then, finally, the haze in Kaname's mind cleared, and it finally hit him.
The spell had worked! He was back in the past, obviously in the midst of a lesson. Dimly, he wondered how his past self was taking to waking up in a foreign place, but he quickly shoved that thought out of his mind. That was unimportant.
What was, was that Kaname had succeeded in getting here. To where he was. Where Zero was.
At that thought, his heart rate sky-rocketed, heart pulsating so wildly that it as if like there was a woodpecker inside his chest, pounding relentlessly in an attempt to get out. He was so excited that it hurt. His senses were tingling in anticipation, hands trembling slightly.
Despite his heart and soul clamouring to communicate with Zero right away, he held himself back, gritting his teeth as he forced himself not to overwhelm the bond with his love and relief. Kaname wanted to reunite with him properly, to see his face fill with disbelief and amazement, to embrace him tightly. And so, all he allowed himself was a gentle brush against their bond, just the barest of touches, enough for the pureblood to feel him, but unobtrusive enough that Zero would not be alerted to his presence.
Oh, god.
He was so, so close.
Zero...!
Without further delay, he pushed his chair back, getting swiftly to his feet. He couldn't wait any longer. He neededZero in his arms now. Not even the end of the world could stop him from heading to his lover's side. Even if millions of hunters stood between him and Zero, he would simply run through them, heedless of all the bullets penetrating his flesh. Even if he ended up losing the use of all his limbs, he would use his teeth to slowly drag himself there, inch by inch, pull by pull.
In short, nothing was going to get in his way.
'Kuran? What's up with you?'
Kaname turned towards the old hunter, only just managing to mask his irrepressible emotions behind a placid expression. 'Sensei, my apologises for the interruption, but I am feeling slightly unwell. I would like to excuse myself from the rest of my classes tonight.'
Without even waiting to hear his reply, Kaname nodded at his vampires, a signal for them to stay, before he vanished out the window.
XXX
Zero rubbed irritably at his neck. It was still throbbing uncomfortably, even though so much time had already passed. Shouldn't it have healed by now?
All of a sudden, he frowned, brows knitting together in confusion.
Was that... had he just felt something against his mind? It had felt almost like... like Kaname... but... no, it couldn't be. He was just getting so swept up in his memories that he was even starting to imagine things.
Laying back on the grass again, he let himself sink into his sea of memories again, a smile upon his lips.
XXX
His blood... why was the scent of his blood in the air?
Worry flooded into his senses, his initial excitement dampening as it was overcome by fear for his lover.
Did something happen between past Kaname and Zero?
Kaname picked up his speed, heart hammering wildly as panic began to seep in. The scent of Zero's blood was getting stronger the closer he got to him. Zero was all alone in the forest, Yuuki nowhere near. Add to that Zero's blood being spilt...
God, no. Please, Zero, please be fine!
The pureblood whizzed through the trees, just a blur shooting through the dark shadows, urgency driving him forward, not even caring if someone witnessed his blatant demonstration of his vampiric powers.
And then, abruptly, he pulled up short, one hand pressing flat against the trunk of an old oak tree to stop his momentum from throwing him forward.
Zero...!
The hunter was lying quietly on the grass, his legs sifting through the waters of the lake as if he were doing a slowed-down version of a flutter kick, the languid motions creating small waves which tumbled against the grassy edges of the lake. The moonlight shimmering down cast a soft, silvery sheen on his pale skin and hair, like the gentle caress of a lover as he trailed his fingertips down his perfect body. A peaceful smile lingered on his lips, transforming his face into a breath-taking masterpiece.
Kaname exhaled softly, the relief at finding his lover safe and sound quickly being replaced by love and adoration. Unable to peel his eyes away from the glorious sight before him, he stepped forward slowly, footsteps muted by the grass.
As he approached, Zero started to stir, body tensing up slightly even though his eyes remained firmly shut, as if he were refusing to leave whatever visions and dreams playing out behind his eyelids. That did not deter him, however. Nothing would.
He continued moving closer, keeping his steps measured and small, despite the overwhelming urge to rush over there and gather the unguarded hunter into his arms.
'What are you doing out of class, Kuran?'
Kaname inhaled sharply at the sound of his lover's voice. Though annoyance laced his words, it was still Zero's voice. One that had haunted him constantly over the past few days, even in dreams. His heart soared to the heavens, singing with giddy happiness. To be able to be so close to him again, to hear that dulcet voice again... he was suddenly struck with an irrepressible urge to pinch himself, to make sure this wasn't just another dream, that he wasn't going to wake up alone in his study once again.
Forcing that urge back down, he stopped where he was, just ten footsteps away from his lover. No more waiting. No more silence. He needed Zero now.
'Zero... Turn around.'
XXX
As the pureblood had continued to approach him, Zero had reluctantly gotten up into a sitting position, his eyes staring down at the lake waters. Why was Kuran out of class now? Could it be that Yuuki had once again approached him regarding her past? Was that what he was here to tell him about?
With each of Kaname's footsteps, feelings of intense longing and love had assaulted his senses, spinning him wildly out of control. Was this because he didn't want to see Yuuki agree to become the pureblood's lover, knowing that there would never be a place there for him? That he would only ever be watching silently from the outside?
The emotions had grown stronger and stronger as seconds of silence had passed, the pulsating in his neck now unbearably frustrating. His hand had automatically gone up to knead his neck muscles, as if that would assuage the incessant throbbing.
And then the vampire behind him had spoken.
His name, murmured in an entreating, raspy whisper.
Zero's heart immediately started pounding in his chest, his hands staring to quiver as everything that he had been experiencing all began to make sense. Like pieces of a puzzle, everything fell into place, revealing the full picture that he had been so blind to.
Feeling as if he were stuck in slow motion, he turned, breath hitching in his throat.
Yearning, disbelieving amethyst orbs instantly locked eyes with the pureblood standing behind him.
'...K-kaname...?'
Finally! They're reunited :) Happy times ahead :) Well, mostly, at least.
I hope past Zero wasn't abit OOC here. I don't know if I managed to express what I wanted to, which is him feeling somewhat happy-ish that he's not quite as alone as he's always been, but also very pissed at himself for feeling that. Eh, it's so confusing lol.
Replies to my dear reviewers:
kanamexzero fan: Hello :) Well, Zero didn't quite return to Kaname; Kaname went to him instead. Which is just as awesome :) As long as they're together :) Oh, I didn't really have time to write about more interactions between past Kaname and present Zero in this chapter. They'll probably not be meeting again, though. I think. But at least past Kaname's feelings have really changed quite a bit, from how it was before present Zero arrived in the past. Thank you so much for your review and I hope you enjoyed this chapter too :):)
BlackAbyss: Oh, I've seen one before too! They're super adorable! Hahah sneaky little squirrel! Oh, haha, that sounds like everyone really dotes on you :) Oh, wow, I really admire your way of thinking. Most people don't realize how superficial material things are, and that the happiness they bring won't last forever. Your outlook on life is really amazing :) I feel inspired to be a better person now, so thank you :) Thank you for enjoying the previous chapter, and also for your support and reviews! Hope this chapter was enjoyable for you :)
Guest: Hi there! Thank you so much for taking the time to leave a review, I really appreciate it :) Hope you like his chapter :)
starryskies: Oh wow, such awesome compliments, thank you so much! :) HAHAHAH I can totally understand that, so thank you so much for giving this fanfic a chance despite your initial hesitation. I'm really glad you enjoy Switched, and that it didn't disappoint you! *sighs in relief* Thank you so much for the compliments, and for taking the time to leave such a sweet, detailed review. I read your review in the morning and it just brightened up the rest of my day :) Thank you again and I hope you enjoyed this chapter :):)
Thanks to everyone who read, reviewed, favourited and followed! It's really late now so I'm too bushed to type anything more. THANK YOU :)