Chapter 7

The next week was hell still nothing from Lucy, but luckily for me my emotions came back so that meant more crying and anger at myself than finally she said something to me. Levy her best friend is helping me so is gray and Juvia but not much help. I kind of have been pushing them away but I can't let it end like this I just can't, I love her too much to let her go people tell me "she is over me", "she moved on" and more and more bullshit but I can't believe it I don't know why. Than finally she comes to me at the end of school.

"Hey, can I talk to you?"

"Yea."

She pulls me to an empty hallway, I start.

"Lucy please I am so sorry I didn't mean for it to happ-"

She cuts me off she is angry

"Why are you pushing people away?"

"Cause everything reminds me of you I love you so much I can't lose you I love you."

"Well stop you hurt me we can't get back together after that."

"I am sorry please I am so sorry."

"You don't know what I have been through you were the first guy I ever actually loved you fixed me and kept me together but you just dropped me like any other girl you get with have fun with that slut!"

"Lucy wait!"

I grabbed her arm

"OUCH!"

I let go

"Lucy please I love you please."

She doesn't say anything she runs off crying. I stood there watching her run off, I couldn't do anything I lost all my strength to do anything but those words keep playing over and over in my head "we can't get back together"

"FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK!"

I scream at the top of my lungs, I punch a locker with all my strength, it broke I than punch the wall, my hand than fractured I didn't feel it though cause I lost it, I lost the one person who matters the most in my life I can't feel anything. I go to my car get in, I am in tears I drive home still crying like a bitch I am big fucking baby my god but I don't know what to do, I lost my one true love how else would I feel. I get home I just go to my bed cry till I fall asleep. I wake up check my phone.

"What does Levy want."

Come see me please

I do as she says get to her house knock on the door the petit blue haired girl looks at me with her bog eyes through those glasses, she gave me a big hug I hug her back. She tells me to come in and sit down I do so.

"Natsu why have you been ignoring me, Gray, and Juvia?"

"I don't know I'm hurt I always dealt with my problems alone. So who cares I'm fine."

"No you are not fine, you are a mess your knuckles are bleeding you barley show up to school and your eyes I can see there no life in them no joy."

"Whatever enough about me how are you and Gajeel I know you two have been talking for a little anything happen?"

She is now blushing.

"I-I-we are g-going on a date tomorrow."

I laugh because she is so cute when she is embarrassed or flustered.

"Hahahah awwww I can't wait."

"Stop! Don't change the subject I didn't call you over for that."

"Than what did you call me over here for?"

She grabs her phone and shows me a text from Lucy it reads

Levy I need to tell you something I talked with Natsu, you are right he still loves me, but he hurt me today he grabbed my arm…hard it left a mark it still hurts I can't see him anymore but please take care of him he is a monster I can't see him I am scared of him I care about him still so please watch him make sure he doesn't do anything stupid I saw his knuckles they were bleeding make sure he doesn't hurt himself and show this to him if you have to thank you.

He hurt me….Monster…. I am scared of him those are the things that stayed in my head. I know said this before but now I know I lost it all I got up left Levy's house. I get to my house lock all the doors so no one can see me or come in because I know Levy will call Gray and Juvia Maybe even Gajeel. I put Happy in my room and locked my room so I don't hurt him. I stood there in the middle of my house which I put everything I could away so the house was pretty much empty. Then I let it all out.

"I-I-I am a….FUCKING MONSTER SHE IS SCARED OF ME SHE DOSE NOT WANT TO SEE YOU ANYMORE SHE IS GONE AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

I scream, I sob, I yell, for hours till I am back to the middle lying down crying knuckles bleeding and most likely at most broken.

"I'm a monster. I scared her away the one I care about the most is gone I scared her away I lost my will to keep going I don't know what to do besides cry and yell what can I do, PLEASE WHATEVER FUCKING GOD OR WHATEVER ELSE IS UP THERE PLEASE EITHER KILL ME OR GIVE HER BACK TO ME PLEASE SHE IS ALL NEED PLEASE please… please."

I fall asleep.