Room mates Chapter nine.
Leeloo-Chan: I am so sorry this is as late as it is, I'm having problems with the internet in my new place, but it seems to be working okay atm allowing me to post this chapter and I have someone coming out to fix it soon. So hopefully I will be able to update more often :P Hope you enjoy this it's mainly un spell checked Ikuto fluff because I was in a rush haha.
*Bold = Speech
*Italics = Thought
Ikuto's POV.
I watched Amu enchanted, it may have been wrong for me to encourage her drunken antics but I honestly couldn't help myself. There was something about her that fascinated me; she was my own little mystery. Each day she would present a new side of herself, but it was never enough to satisfy me, the more I learnt the more I wanted to know.
I smiled gratefully at the clearly intoxicated girl in front of me sipping on yet more champagne glasses and recalled my night; she had looked so beautiful next to me. I tried hard to remember the different people and conversations I had made tonight and yet everything paled in comparison to her smiles and laughter.
I replayed the dance we shared in my head, as I had done all night. The way she clung to my arms and laughed, the way my hand wound itself around her waist possessively and finally the way every inch of me burned to kiss her even now. It was clear even to me that something had changed, but before I could delve deeper into my baffled thoughts I felt the limo slow and was simply grateful that soon there would be several rooms between myself and my inebriated temptation.
After some persuasion Amu finally left the limo stumbling by my side towards our flat. I laughed as I saw her twirling her heels with one finger humming to herself delightfully and decided that for her safety alone it would be both faster and easier to carry her.
I snuck up behind her and in one quick sweep she was in my arms a mass of white fabric and rosy hair, using my free hand I pushed the hair from her face and was greeted by those all too familiar wide gold eyes.
"Ikuuu you're carrying me like a princess." Amu slurred sweetly and beamed up at me.
And there is was again, that burning desire choking my senses.
Clearing my throat loudly I smiled down at her not allowing my eyes to linger too long on her beautiful eyes or worse her lips.
"Time for bed Amu-Chan." I announced as clearly as possible opening the front door.
I called out to anyone in hope that they would appear giving me at least a little more of a motif to behave myself and was greeted with silence. I carried the now giggling girl in my arms into her room and placed her on her bed gently muttering curses at my unaccounted for flatmates.
"I'll leave you to get some sleep Amu; you are going to feel like hell in the morning." I smiled at her gently allowing myself one last look and leaving before I conceded to her.
After closing her bedroom door I practically vaulted to my room and locked mine. I leant heavily against the warped wood sinking gradually to the floor. What the hell was I thinking? I reprimanded myself brutally but no matter how hard I tried I could not get her out of my head.
First things first Ikuto, I thought to myself slipping out of my uncomfortable formal wear and shrugging on a pair of my PJ pants I sat on the edge of my bed with my head in my hands. There was no possible way that I could rationalise any of my actions tonight without some form of at least attraction to her…
I reminisced again and focused on how she looked tonight, the way I felt when she smiled at me and the way I had felt when I almost kissed her and sighed loudly.
"How the hell did this sneak up on me so fast?" I cried out faintly to no one in particular.
Great, I was in love with my room mate and friend, all of these years … all this time no one has ever appealed to me, not even once and now suddenly I find myself in love with her and have no idea where to begin.
My exasperation was disturbed by a timid knock at the door and I hated how my heart leapt knowing it was her. It was almost as if now that I had realised my feelings towards her everything was amplified. A part of me was incredibly tempted to pretend I had gone to sleep but that part crumbled at the sound of her adorable voice,
"Ikuto are you asleep?" She drunkenly slurred through my door.
I sighed loudly heaving the door open, and found a captivating dishevelled mess. Her dress from tonight was still on and her tangled hair was half up, half down. I could not stop the genuine smile that slid across my face slowly and my heart almost beat out of my chest as she blushed back at me in response.
"I need help, can I come in?" She stuttered with her eyes affixed to the floor.
Deep down I knew that it was a risk, I knew that having her anywhere near me feeling the way I did was a terrible idea and yet I couldn't stop myself. I opened the door wide and she stepped into my room gazing around in awe.
"What do you need Amu?" my voice came out a little more lustful than I intended and I looked away from her not wanting to see her response, suddenly finding a patch on my wall incredibly intriguing.
"Um Ikuto, Rima and Utau aren't here and I um… I can't get my dress off." She spun round embarrassed pointing at the corset back to her dress; I couldn't help but exhale sharply.
Of course she needed help taking her dress off, because she obviously wasn't enough of a temptation towards me inebriated and clothed. Breathing in deeply I advanced excruciatingly slowly towards her, my heart beat exploded with anticipation as I felt her petit form shudder before me.
I wanted to curse her for making this harder but it wasn't her fault I had suddenly become a pervert. Taking one of the pale cream ribbons in my hand I tugged gently and watched as the bodice loosened. Much to my surprise I eagerly began unthreading her corset as she held on to the front tightly, giggling every so often nervously.
With the last ribbon untied I announced that my work was done and turned my back so she could retreat from my room in privacy. Instead I watched astounded from the corner of my eye as the now loosened fabric crumpled to the floor, I didn't dare to turn and face her until she spoke.
"Utau told me to wear this under my dress she said that sometimes after these parties' you're either too drunk or too tired to get changed, I guess she was right." She laughed playfully toying with the lacy edges of her new attire.
My skin felt as if it was on fire and my thoughts where barely clean as I gawked at Amu in her night wear, I was going to kill Utau. Amu perched at the end of my bed completely unaware of my depraved stares, too occupied it would seem with trying to make her drunken fingers untangle Utau's elaborate work on her hair.
The fabric of her baby pink nightwear barely stretched to above her knee, the plain pink silk was accompanied by lacy ruffled spaghetti straps that she had just finished sliding back to their rightful place on her shoulders and matching lacy edges. It was innocent and beautiful just like Amu which only made me want her more.
I took my place next to her on the bed and began tracing my fingers through her hair removing the pins, trying desperately to keep my eyes from wandering to her bare legs and savouring the way her hair felt against my skin. She made a purring noise as my fingers removed the last of the pins allowing her waist length hair to fall around her in beautiful magenta curls.
She pulled her hair to one side exposing the nape of her neck and I brushed my fingers along her skin gently making her shiver. There was a war raging inside of me between my head and heart and so before my heart could win I stood up abruptly placing some manner of space between us.
She giggled throwing herself backwards on my black satin sheets, her hair splayed out around her in a halo as she looked over at me with bright aurous eyes.
"I have a secret to tell you." She whispered and I laughed, of course she did.
Trusting my will power enough I sat next to her again and smiled urging her to continue.
"I applied for a new job at a nursery, it's my dream job and I haven't told anyone but you!" She beamed up at me and I felt the warmth flood my face.
I loved it when she shared things about herself, especially things that only I knew.
"Why do you want to work in a nursery Amu?" I asked with perhaps a little too much fascination in my tone. She smiled a gentle smile in return though and placed one finger on her chin as if thinking really hard.
"I adore children; everything about them makes me happy." She gazed back at me with passion and urgency and I felt my heart stop in response, I didn't trust myself with words so I simply smiled instead.
Lost in a sea of thoughts centred on her newest exposure I returned to reality to find that the pinkette in question was slumbering lightly. My mouth ran dry as I looked her over again, she lay on her side, her night dress hitched dangerously high showing nothing but that vast expanse of creamy white skin that I had come to love.
I veered away from dangerous thoughts and allowed my eyes to linger on her sleeping face; her cheeks still a rosy pink from the left over champagne. Standing carefully so as not to wake her I looked closely at the girl I could now honestly say I loved.
She was everything good and innocent in the world, her small willowy frame stretched out across my sheets, Pink cherry blossom against pitch black silk. I ached to hold her, restraining my affection for her had become almost painful and before I could take a breath I was stood over her. I watched her captivated and allowed myself one swift gentle kiss on her forehead before turning to leave.
Leaving my room only lessened my desire and I couldn't hate myself more for taking advantage of her like that when she slept. My lips tingled excitedly and my heart raced, I placed my head in my hands once again to calm myself and then promptly began banging my head against them repeatedly.
How the hell could I fall in love with her this much and not have a clue…
I was in this state when the front door creaked open.
Ikuto's POV (continued)
I lifted my head slowly to glower at whoever had decided to return home now. I didn't want anyone to see me in the state I was in but I didn't exactly have an abundance of places to retreat too, and I definitely was not going to step foot in my room, not with her still there.
In the pitch dark I watched my sister and Kukai's attempt at sneaking through the front door, giggling like small children. I made a loud disapproving cluck with my tongue and was met with irritation.
"Jeez Ikuto turn on a light…" Utau muttered darkly as she switched on the living room lamp.
I flinched as the flood of light washed over me and waited for my eyes to readjust to its brightness, Utau towered above me hand on hips and it was more than clear that she was pissed off but right now all I wanted to do was glare at her. I looked over to my long term room mate and best friend, a light blush covered his face and it was obvious that they had once again rekindled their hellish relationship, Idiots.
"Right then I'm off to bed, see you both in the morning." Kukai's eyes lingered longer than necessary on Utau's and I honestly could not believe that they thought no one knew, idiots!
Utau took her place next to me on the sofa and crossed her hands in her lap, a sign of patience…an unusual trait rarely demonstrated by my sister; however she was the one to break the silence first
"Okay spit it out I haven't got all night, what's bothering you?" a familiar smirk lit her mouth as she spoke to me. I felt the same rage flood through my veins, she knew exactly what was wrong with me, she had always known! But instead of repenting she was proud and a part of me hated her for it.
"What are you trying to pull, I was fine before. I didn't ask you to do this. I didn't need you to do this!" My words tumbled out accompanied by all of my frustration, I felt broken.
Utau placed a gentle hand on my shoulder and sighed,
"It was un-avoidable; you have been in love with her from the very beginning you were just far too stubborn to accept it." She smiled at me proudly as if falling in love was some great achievement and all I could do in response was sink further into the depths of my chair.
"Someone like her could never love me." I barely whispered to the room, but Utau seemed to hear. She tapped my head lightly and thrust a finger into my face.
"She already is you idiot! But you know her! she is dense and she isn't exactly what you would call experienced in the affairs of the heart." She nudged me earning a small smile quickly followed by an exasperated sigh.
"So what then dear sister would you have me do? I can't push myself on her now she is vulnerable I won't take advantage again" I pushed my head further into my hands clawing at my azure locks and gritting my teeth against the memories of how much I wanted her.
"Again, What the hell do you mean again?" Utau shrieked, so I reacted quickly muffling her raucous mouth with one of my hands.
"You will wake the whole house, banshee. I promise to tell you if you can keep that mouth of yours closed." Taking Utau's fervent nodding as a sign of agreement I continued.
"It was nothing really…honestly. It's just… well it's your fault. She fell asleep in my room and I could not stop myself, I kissed her on the head. I swear I have no control around her, oh God this is going to kill me, why her!" My sister seemed to take joy in my stuttered account of torture until she fully registered what I had said
"Whoa wait my fault! How is any of this my fault?" She feigned an innocent smile which I saw straight through of course.
"You forget who you are talking to Utau, I know for a fact that you planned everything tonight, you knew we would be alone in the flat and you picked out everything on purpose." She blinked her eyes at me with fake confusion, no doubt attempting to add yet more injury to insult and so I continued
"The corset dress that she would have never been able to undo on her own? The night-wear underneath… I could go on but I'm not going too, you have had your fun…there is no need to relive it." I fiercely glared at her, my infuriation slowly returning.
"Okay okay you got me, but you both needed a push! I wanted you to realise that she is special to you instead of hiding behind your stubbornness and you have to admit, I have great taste. She looked…delicious!"
She slyly winked at me knowing that she had me cornered and I looked away ashamed, just thinking about Amu made me react like some love struck teen, Utau was never going to let me hear the end of this but I still had one ace left.
"It's true Utau your plan was a raving success, but what kind of brother would I be if I didn't return the favour." I let my comfortable arrogant smirk take its place on my face as she watched me with uncertainty, but seeming to come to a trusting conclusion she smiled and said
"You don't need to thank me, I just want to see you happy! Of course I need a new pair of heels… if you are feeling generous." I almost felt guilty for what I was about to say, but the images of Amu in her night-wear that even now still pleasantly haunted my mind, served as a reminder that I was in this mess partly because of my sister and that she deserved some kind of pay back.
"I can think of a better way. I'm giving you time off so that you can work out what this really is between you and Kukai, and before you try and deny it don't…I've known for years! And don't bring up Him either… This is between you two now so Work. It. Out."
I stood swiftly with the intention of leaving to find a new place to sleep; instead I felt frail hands clutch themselves to the end of my shirt. I looked down at my baby sister and took my seat back next to her, I hated that she was so concerned with my happiness but would never consider her own.
"Ikuto, you know we can't be together so why even try?" In that moment she looked more vulnerable and frail than she ever had, I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her close.
"You can't demand my happiness and yet expect me to continue watching you two torture yourselves. You belong together, and if you love him Utau…and I know you do. Then you will do the right thing and be with him."
I guess I had one thing to be grateful of, thanks to my newly found feelings for Amu I finally understood what it was like to want someone and not think you could have them. I ruffled Utau's hair and she smiled up at me.
"I'll do it Ikuto."
Utau spoke with the determination and stubbornness of a Tsukiyomi and I knew that now her mind was set she would not give up for anything and I couldn't think of two people that deserved it more.
Tonight felt bittersweet, on the positive side I finally knew and accepted my feelings for Amu and I had convinced Utau that her relationship with Kukai was worth everything. However I knew that my road with Amu would have to be a long and patient one and that Utau's journey was going to be just as hard if not harder.
I smiled as I watched my sisters figure retreat into Kukai's room and then sighed. I was going to have to build up some kind of tolerance and control to be around Amu… So I may as well begin now. With heavy feet I shuffled my way to where my slumbering pinkette lay and readied myself for the possible months of torture to come.
But as I watched her toss and turn between my sheets, a small mass of cream and pink, I swore that I would strive to be whatever she needed me to be.
Leeloo-Chan: I know there are mistakes, but I hope you enjoyed the Ikuto fluff and I will try to update more often, Review me please :)