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chapter 30

Clary slowly woke to the gentleness of Sebastian's fingers running through her hair and down her back.

She sleepily opened her eyes and looked up and met his soft gaze, "How long have you been awake?"

He smiled at her, "Not long."

She narrowed her eyes, "How long?"

He chuckled, "An hour but I don't care, I like watching you sleep."

She slightly blushed and nuzzled into his chest and sighed peacefully. This felt right but then her mind flashed back to last night and her eyes started to water, she wanted him so bad but her heart wouldn't allow it.

Sebastian leaned down and kissed her forehead lightly, "Hey none of that now, we're going to get through this… together." She looked up at him and smiled weakly. He gently brushed the back of his hand across her cheek; she leaned into his warm touch. She then felt his warm lips brush against hers. She closed her eyes and enjoyed this moment. She then heard a crunch and looked up, Sebastian was eating a cookie. She smiled at how childish he smiled when he noticed him eating the cookie.

She raised an eyebrow at him, "Give me one."

He smiled and brought the plate over. She sat up and he sat up as well, he placed the plate in between them and started eating another. Clary picked one up, took a bite and little moan escaped her, "I've missed these so much!" He smiled at the Clary he knew and loved. They ended up talking about how she had moved in with Magnus and that he had looked after her and seemed to be the only one that didn't judge her for not getting rid of the baby. She seemed so comfortable talking about it with him. He told her about the different ways that he tried to find her and how he even had members of The Circle looking for her and how for the first two months even Jacinta had come to help him but had to go back home because of some personal issues, he didn't know what but just that it was something bad and caused her a lot of distress. Clary thought she should probably check in on her and see how she is. They finished the plate of cookies and Clary pouted, she was feeling more and more like herself ever second she was with Sebastian.

He sighed humorously, "Do you want some more."

She smiled childishly and nodded.

He stood up and took her hand, "Come on then."

He dragged her out the door and then started walking down the glass steps and into the kitchen holding each other's hand. Clary sat down on a stool at the bench while Sebastian opened the cupboard. Clary's jaw dropped as she saw what looked like 30 packets of the cookies.

He picked a box up, turned around and smiled at her expression. He shut the cupboard and sat down next to her. He opened the packet and placed a cookie in between his teeth, she grinned and bit the exposed part of the cookie. He ate his part as she munched on hers. Their eyes locked and desire started running through them. Clary leaned forward, as she swallowed her cookie. He swallowed his; the sexual tension was unbearable. Clary leaned even closer, her hand sliding up his leg;a shiver of pleasure went through him. She placed a soft kiss on his neck and started sucking on his pulse. He tilted his head back and a little groan escaped his lips, she smiled against his neck. He ran his hand up her thigh causing her body to shiver but her shoulders stiffened and her heart tightened.

She yanked back in her seat and looked down in shame, "I'm sorry. I-I shouldn't have… I-I can't."

She looked up into Sebastian's calm eyes, "Hey, it's ok. You need to trust me though if we're going to get through this."

She opened her mouth to say that she does trust him but no words came out because she knew deep down that when he touched her all she felt was the emptiness that was left inside her. She leaned over and nuzzled into the nook of his neck, "I know… I'm sorry."

He wrapped his warm, strong arms around her and whispered soothingly in her ear, "It's ok…But do you want to trust me." She nodded against his neck. "Then let me help you trust me."

She looked at him slightly confused. He smiled weakly and intertwined their fingers together. He led her back up to her room.

He kissed her gently before telling her "Wait here."

She was still slightly confused as he exited the room. She went over and sat on the bed waiting for him, 'What is he doing?' she thought just before he re-entered the room holding a large black box, she knew that box, it was the box they kept their… restraints in. Her shoulders tensed as she noticed it.

He noticed her tension and told her, "It's ok. You have to trust me." His voice was so calm that Clary relaxed.

He placed the box at the end of the bed and then sat down next to her. He brushed a few loose strands of her fiery hair off her face, caressing her cheek gently. She couldn't help but lean into his warm touch. He leaned forward and brushed his lips gently against hers. She went to lean into the kiss but he pulled away before she got the chance.

His voice was calm, "Take you clothes off."

She was slightly hesitant at first but then she stood up and slowly took her shirt off and then slowly slid her pyjama shorts down along with her green panties. She stood almost calmly in front of him completely naked but her eyes said that she was confused and slightly panicking. Sebastian stood up and pulled his shirt off as he walked over to her and kissed her gently. She ran her hands across his muscular chest and wrapped them around him, feeling his strong shoulders. He cupped her cheeks in his hands, never breaking form the gentle kiss. He slowly moved her over to the bed and gently laid her down on the bed. He kissed her forehead and moved off her and over to the box. Her heart started racing as he pulled out ropes that were so familiar to her.

He crawled back over to her, placing the ropes next to her, he leaned down and kissed her softly and whispered, "Trust me Clary. Remember how this was your favourite." A little shiver went through her as she felt his warm breath against her ear and thought of how he was right it was her favourite way. He locked eyes with her and slowly moved his hands down her arms, intertwining their fingers and bringing her hands above her head. He held them there with one hand and with the other he picked up one of the ropes and tied her wrists together. It felt agonizingly slow but he wanted it like that, to make sure she was slowly beginning to trust him. He kissed her neck softly as he tied her hands; to his pleasure a little moan escaped her lips. He locked eyes with her again just before he trailed kisses down her body, a little shiver went through her as he kissed her lower stomach but to her surprise he moved over to her thighs and down her legs. He reached mid calve and then looked back up at her and locked eyes with her, she had been watching him as he nurtured her body. They locked eyes as her reached over to the ropes again he slowly spread her legs and tied the ropes around each ankle, tying them to the end of the bed.

He moved back up to her and just before he kissed her he told her once again, "Trust me Clary."

She slightly nodded and he kissed her gently, this time slowly prying her lips open and sliding his tongue in, gently exploring her warm mouth, memorizing every moment. Clary's body ached for him but her heart was still closed up but with every touch it slowly started to unlock. She was desperate to run her fingers through his soft hair and hold him close but she knew that this was probably the best way for her to let him in. He started trailing kisses down her neck and started softly sucking on her pulse, she tilted her head back allowing him more access, lightly biting on her bottom lip and another little moan escaped, Sebastian couldn't hold back his small smile.

He whispered against her neck as his hand slid down her body, "Trust me Clary." He ran his hand across her front causing a little whimper of need escape her but the images and feeling of emptiness hit her again and she stuttered out, "I-I-I can't."

He didn't move his hand but kept it in the same spot he moved up to her lips and brushed his against hers, "Trust me Clary."

She squeezed her eyes shut, forcing the tears away but failing as a tear rolled down her cheek. Sebastian's heart slightly broke as he kissed away the tear, his voice still calm, "Trust me Clary."

She slowly shook her head, "I-I-I can't… I'm… I'm sorry."

He leaned down, his breath sending shivers through her body, "shh, shh, you need to trust me Clary. You CAN trust me. I love you Clary." He was looking deep into her eyes, "I love you Clary. You can trust me." He brushed his lips against hers, "Trust me Clary."

He ran his hand across her front once again, never unlocking his gaze from Clary's. He ran his hand across the front one more time, which got the reaction he had hoped for, another little moan escaped her. The corner of his mouth twitched up. He kissed her gently as he slowly slid his fingers inside her warm folds, finding her small hidden bud and started teasing it softly. She moaned even more and gently moved her hips against his hand, she threw her head back and bit her bottom lip as he rolled it in between two fingers. He smiled at her reaction and started sucking on her pulse. He started trailing hot pecks down her stomach and towards her heat. He looked up at her and they locked eyes, his eyes asking for reassurance and she answered his silent question with a small nod. He smiled and slowly swirled his tongue around her bud. He heard another moan come from the beautiful redhead. God how he missed her sounds! He reached up and gently caressed her cheek; she leaned into his hand and moaned again.

She mumbled out, "Sebastian, please…" he wasn't completely sure if she was asking him to stop or to continue.

So he moved up and kissed her once again, "Do you trust me?"

She was still a little uncertain, "Y-Y… n-n… Yes… maybe."

He kissed her again and then looked deeply into her eyes, "Do you trust me?"

Her heart finally opened up and everything felt right, her voice was steady, "Yes."

He smiled and kissed her while positioning himself. He lifted her thigh as much as he could considering she was tied up. He slowly entered her heat, she moaned at his penetration. He slowly pushed himself all the way inside her.

She bit his bottom lip as he pressed against her spot and moaned, "Move."

He grinned and started thrusting inside her, her moans became louder and more often, his breaths became shorter and sharper. As he hit her spot she let out a little scream, he had almost forgotten that she was a screamer. He grinned and pounded into her harder and harder, smashing against her spot just right and causing her tiny screams to become even louder and more intense. She felt herself start to tighten, her thighs started to quiver and she felt herself contract around his giant. Her juices flowed out of her like a river. Immediately meeting her release was Sebastian's hot juices exploding inside her hot panted and collapsed on top of her, his hot breath against her neck sending more tingles through her.

He lifted his head and kissed her lovingly, mumbling against their kiss, "I love you."

Clary couldn't help but smile, "I love you too," She then whispered in his ear, "Thank you for helping me learn to trust you… I trust you Sebastian."

He smiled and started untying her legs and hands, as she was released of her restraints she leaned her head against his warm chest. He wrapped his arms around her and held her against him. He kissed herhead softly and started running his fingers through her hair. She felt her eyes start to droop and her body drift off into slumber.

Everything felt right, everything felt perfect…

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Ps. Thought I should let you know that I've written two different endings for this story do it will 'techniqually' be 40 chapters not 39!

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