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Thank You to our wonderful beta Joanne Swift. Without you it just wouldn't be the same.
A/N: I sincerely apologize for the long wait. We've just been so busy with real life it isn't funny anymore. We keep on writing everytime we can manage and there are several chapters done already, just waiting to be looked over by our lovely betas. We can't promise regular updating, but we promise this story will be finished! -EyJ-
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Hostage of Love
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Chapter 16
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This Isn't Over
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So i lost my head a while ago
but you seem to have done no better
we set fire in the snow
it ain't over
i'm not done
some do magic
and some do harm
i'm holding on
holding on
i'm holding on to a straw
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"I'm not Done" by Fever Ray
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What happened until now…
Bella marries Edward, but insists on seeing Jacob one last time before driving off into her honeymoon. Jacob, hurt and desperate, is tearing through the woods and finally stopping at the cliffs. Leah goes after him, trying to help him through the pain and the end up having sex. Edward overhears them and "allows" Bella to see Jake one last time, fully knowing what she's going to find.
Bella is shocked when she sees Leah and Jacob. She follows Edward and the border the plane and do to Isle Esme. Bella realizes that she can't let go of Jacob. Edward shows his dark side and tries to persuade Bella to bend to his will. Bella is scared out of her wits and runs from Edward with the help of Rosalie. She files for divorce and not being brave enough, she doesn't call Jacob but writes him a letter, trying to make things up. Jacob never receives the letter.
When Bella returns to Forks to see her father, she runs into Leah and learns that the baby Leah holds in her arms is Jacob's.
What Leah fails to tell Bella is that she's not in a relationship with Jacob but happily in love with Sam Uley, who broke the imprint to Emily Young.
Later that night, Jacob finds Bella on the beach and brings her into his home. The try to talk about things, but their hormones and chemistry gets the better of them. They end up having sex. In the morning, Leah comes, seeking Jake's help with a sick Yuma. Things get out of hand and Bella runs again, accusing Jake of cheating on Leah and giving him no chance to explain himself.
Bella tries to get better and move on without Jake and she's growing strong, but is never able to forget about Jake. Jacob meets rock bottom. He starts drinking and whoring around, totally neglecting his father duties. Finally, Leah gives him an ultimatum - to better himself or to never see his son again. Also, Leah realizes that she's part of the mess Jacob and Bella are in. She calls Bella and apologizes. Both form a friendship and finally plan a plot of how to Bella can win back Jacob.
Almost four years after her fateful wedding day, Bella returns to Forks in preparation of Leah's wedding to Sam. Bella is standing in Leah's kitchen when Jake storms up to the house…
~JB & EYJ~
Bella froze.
Leah put the plate onto the table and stepped in front of Bella, facing the door. She took Bella's hand. "Be strong, Bella. You want him back!"
Bella nodded.
Leah started to count, "One. Two. Three."
The door slammed open.
And there he was.
Jake!
~JB & EYJ~
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Jacob had been restless for hours.
Something was bothering him and he felt even angrier than ever. He hadn't felt this kind of annoyed in a very long time.
Bella's persistent calls over the last couple of months had gotten him upset, and his wolf was pissed every time he was hanging up on Bella. He could care less. He had made fighting the demands of his wolf an awful art form, as well as he had learned to ignore and fight his own needs and wants.
The hairs on the back of his neck were standing up. He was nervous and moody. If he was honest to himself this had been going on for the last couple of days already. "Too damn bad, deal with it!" he sneered at his wolf, at himself, as stubborn as ever.
He had this sick feeling in his gut.
That strange tingling that warned you something was going to happen. He was restless, which got worse with each hour passing. His instincts told him it must be something... territorial.
He had widened the patrols even more when the restlessness started, but there was no trace to be found. If something threatening was looming around LaPush, shouldn't he be able to smell or sense it?
It bothered Jacob that he couldn't place the feeling. It agitated both him and his wolf to the point of aggressiveness.
Ever since she had started calling him, he simultaneously started to have problems sleeping again. Either he could not fall asleep at all, or if he eventually did he would wake-up either rock hard or worse, to plain wetness in his sheets. He would feel his wolf's horniness, his urge to mate, which pissed him off to no end. Was this never going to end?
Only a couple minutes ago, he awoke from one of his dreams of her riding him hard and fast, her fingers massaging her own sweet clit, as she moaned his name over and over again. He rushed into his bathroom where he started angrily whacking off until he spilled his seed straight into the sink.
His agitation wouldn't lessen, his wolf was still feeling only slightly satisfied. That motherfucker would not leave him alone.
"Damn," he yelled in front of the mirror, staring at his yellow-ringed eyes. His wolf suggested he go run and finally get Bella, drag her back kicking and screaming if must be, but get her here. It wanted its mate. NOW!
With a final hard glare at his own reflection, Jacob stepped into the shower. "You don't tell me what to do…" he muttered to himself and span the facet to cold simply because he knew how to really piss the wolf off. It was funny how the wolf hated the icy water pelting down on his body.
"Take that," Jake growled, lathering the soap on his washcloth and began washing himself down roughly.
The wolf had its own way making his displeasure known. Snarling, he curled up inside of Jacob, wondering how Bella's hands would feel rubbing soap all over him.
With that, Jacob felt his anger rise once more, deep within the pit of his stomach just thinking about her. "Fuck no," he grumbled angrily. "There is no way on this fucking earth that I will let her do this to me again!" He got out of the shower, cursing loudly while walking back and forth between his bathroom and his bedroom for the umpteenth time.
At last, he decided to simply go for a good and hard run. He had today off and he wasn't scheduled for patrol either. In his current state of mind, with no distractions or anything to do, or anything he wanted to do anyway, the day would be endless and leave him with way too much time to think.
"Huh, I'm going to tire YOU out, not the other way around. Just watch me," he sneered at his wolf, earning an immediate growl back. He phased on the fly and tore into the woods, running as fast as he could. The wind felt good whizzing by his face; he left his head low and his ears back, picking up more and more speed. He pushed himself hard.
After the first couple of hours of continued running, his muscles started burning under the strain, and his haunches started quivering, he finally allowed himself to slow down a little and think. Phasing back human, he contemplated going to Port Angeles to find himself a good fuck. Surely that would help lose some of the aggressive tension, he reasoned.
Strangely, his wolf never even stirred at the thought. "Who would have thought," Jake wondered only half amused. The fucker had always been up for a good fuck before. He must have gotten him tired already. Well, running eight hours straight had always worked like a charm, he thought with grim satisfaction.
Finally crossing back into LaPush territory, he realized the strange prickling in his neck had once again returned. "There it is again," he groaned out and his hand went right back to the back of his neck. He tried to massage away whatever had him on edge. It was not working.
Paying even more attention to his vicinity as he stepped out of the woods, heading home, he spotted a couple of moms entertaining their kids on the nearby playground. This made him aware that seeing Yuma would do the trick. His son always had a way to bring his restless soul to calm down. At that his wolf made a content sigh.
Although he had agreed with Leah to come and see Yuma tomorrow morning, Jacob decided he should go and see his son tonight already.
He walked into his home, building himself a couple of large sandwiches, took a Coke out of his fridge and sat down on his couch to watch some television while he ate.
While the sport channel just announced the upcoming game, he felt that the tingling in his neck got worse by the minute. It was driving him up the walls. His wolf was snarling in his head ...AGAIN... wanting him to phase and find the source of their unease.
With a furious growl, Jacob jumped at his feet. What was it with his wolf these days? "You don't get me to phase if I don't want to," he growled.
However, he couldn't ignore the drive to run any longer!
He pulled on his running shorts and a muscle shirt so as not to give any innocent bypassing lady a heart attack, slung a towel around his neck and fastened his running shoes. He hoped that another hard run would finally give himself and his wolf a sense of peace. He tore out of his house, aiming towards the beach, but he found that he was driven towards his son.
The strange feeling that bothered him all day long intensified.
Suddenly, he was afraid that something might be happening to his son.
He stormed through the woods, crossing the rather short distance between his and Sam's house in under two minutes.
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*~JB & EYJ~*
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He was attacked by the familiar smell of strawberries and cream when he neared Sam's house.
First he thought he was imagining things, but he just clearly heard her speak to Leah. "What the fuck is she doing here," he mumbled as he stalked toward the front door, his wolf all quiet and what... happy? "Well fuck both of you" he thought as he almost took the door off its hinges.
He stopped dead in his tracks. As soon as he entered or rather stormed into Sam and Leah's place, his eyes locked onto Bella's.
"Jake," he heard her say ever so lightly with the sweetest undertone. Her eyes were huge as she held his, and he couldn't help but notice several different emotions in them. Fear, hope, and excitement. His wolf sighed in pleasure.
Jake mentally rolled his eyes at his wolf and then he noticed how Leah had pulled Bella protectively behind her.
"What the hell is this?" he thundered. "What's she doing here? You all buddy-buddy with her now? What in fuck's name is going on?"
"Watch your language in my house, Black. You better not shout at me. I've told you that before, haven't I?" Leah said composed and slowly moved close to his face, looking him straight in his eyes. All the while, she held Bella's hand, pulling her close to Jake as well.
His jaw set, his body tense, he let his eyes travel from Leah's eyes down to her arm, which was still holding on to Bella, and slowly back up to her face. He purposely avoided looking at Bella, but he felt Bella's eyes on him. He knew that she was staring at him.
Ignoring her gave him a grim satisfaction. How dare she come here? Why didn't he know? How did they manage to keep it from him? Oh, wait!... Wedding preparations his ass... That was the reason why Sam wouldn't patrol with him lately.
"You-" he ground out through his clenched teeth, and then his wolf took a lung full of air. There was nothing he could do about it. She smelled so damn good. Her scent drove him crazy. He clenched his hands to keep himself from reaching out for her.
"You kept this from me." His voice was a dangerous growl. "How long has this been going on?...This...this, you and ...her?" He wildly waved his arms between the two women.
"Jake," Bella said, her voice taking on a protective tone. "It really was my idea-"
"I'm not talking to you!" he bellowed. His head whipped around before he could stop himself. They locked eyes for a brief moment, and he couldn't stop his heart from skipping. Damn, all he tried to forget was now standing right in front of him.
Her eyes were wide and her heart hammering in her chest, but she stood her ground and didn't even flinch.
Fuck, she was so beautiful! His wolf agreed with him immediately. She also seemed stronger and very confident, meeting his grim glare standing up straight and with her head held high. Shit, and his wolf liked that, too. Predictably, his dick started to twitch in his pants. Damn you, back off, he sneered internally.
What a fat fucking mess. He wanted to throw her out of the house and ban her from the reservation and out of his life entirely. At the same time, he trembled with the need to grab her and claim her right on the spot.
Mine, his wolf purred.
She has done nothing but fucked with our head, Jacob retorted silently, as he looked her up and down.
Her hair had grown back. It fell in soft, luscious waves down to the middle of her back. She was curvier than the last time he had seen her; she had filled out in all the right places. Her skin held the faintest hint of gold.
She started to chew on her lower lip. He could smell her nervousness over his scrutinizing stare roll in waves off of her. He cocked his head and crossed his arms over his chest, giving her a cold smile. She finally cast her eyes down and face turned a dark shade of pink. Her breath hitched.
"Jacob, we need to talk about Yuma." Leah's voice broke through his thoughts, which brought him back to the worry he had felt for hours.
"Where is my son? What happened?" he bellowed, reminded of the strange tingling that had accompanied all day. Fuck! He really hated his mood swings.
Strangely enough, he now recognized that the tingling was all gone and his wolf was as content as ever. Confused, he scratched the back of his neck, before asking, a bit calmer but still demanding, "I want to see him at once."
Leah rolled her eyes at him. "Yuma is out back playing with Sam. He is alright. What has gotten into you anyway?"
Bella slipped out of Leah's grasp and went into the living room, leaving them to talk to each other.
Leah crossed her arms in front of her.
"I just want to see him, Leah," Jacob said, taking a deep calming breath. He knew that if he kept on raging, Leah would never let him close to Yuma. That much he had learned. "I'm just going out there real quick to tell him hello." Jacob stated, keeping his eyes earnestly on Leah now. "After I've seen Yuma, you and I are going to talk."
"You'll stay for dinner, and then you'll help me get Yuma ready for bed. After that, we are going to talk. How does that sound?" Leah raised her eyebrow daringly, and Jacob felt his temper flare again.
"Dinner is ready in two," Leah called after him, when he turned around on his heel and left the house, muttering under his breath that he won't have any of this kind of shit. He was irritated, but as soon as he heard Yuma's laughter, his heart melted in an instant.
He felt eyes on him through the window, his hair on his neck standing up in protest, he knew they were watching him. What was this? Some kind of girl conspiracy?
Jacob knew that Sam had overheard the whole conversation inside the house. If you can call it even a conversation, he grimly thought. He was still shocked at this strange relationship. Fuck! Out of all people, Leah had to befriend her? As he clenched his hands, he knew that he would be prying any information he needed to know out of Sam.
He stopped for a moment to take a few deep breaths to collect himself before he was able to put a 'happy face' on for his son. He noticed Sam eyeing him and ...what the hell? He actually had a smirk on his face. Fuck you, too, Sam.
"Look who is here, little man," Sam announced with a huge smile, which disgustingly spread across his entire face.
"Dadda," Yuma squealed and waved his arms at him.
Jacob crossed the yard with two big strides, and picked his son up, tossing him high into the air. Yuma was laughing hard and then he wrapped his pudgy little arms tight around his father's neck, before lying his head onto his shoulder in the most loving way ever.
Jake's heart swelled with pure love and joy, when he heard Yuma call out, "Dadda, my Dadda." He kissed his cheek and nuzzled him.
"Someone is happy to see you," Sam said, interrupting their special moment.
Jake's eyes snapped open and caught Sam's eyes. He felt himself tense immediately, whereas his wolf was content with Yuma tugging at his hair. His wolf was more than content at the moment, Jacob realized, frustrated. He had his son near and the woman he wanted.
"You better enlighten me, Sam, like yesterday," he said in a very low voice that bordered close to an Alpha command. Sam better not try to fool him.
Sam nodded and winked at him to follow him into the woods for a walk.
As they watched Yuma run and scramble through the forest, Sam told him how Leah had started to call Bella several months ago, when Jacob was in danger of hitting rock bottom again. She had been at a loss about him and figured it was time to clear the air between she and Bella.
"Leah needed to get it off her chest that you guys are not together, and that she was wrong back then to make her think so," Sam explained, defending Leah.
Jacob helped Yuma climb up a boulder. "And you never even thought about telling me any of it? What the FUCK, Sam? How on earth were you able to even hide that from me?" he hissed. He could not believe it. Had he been that much out of it? What else had he missed? Was his pack all right?
Did his pack get that good in hiding their thoughts from him? Did they even know? Sure, Leah did not phase since Yuma and, if he were honest with himself, he didn't care to dig through Sam's mind. Not that they were on the same patrol schedules often. Fact was, he very rarely was phased at the same time as Sam.
His own mind had been filled with his constant trying to find distractions. First he had tried to numb his feelings with alcohol-that had not worked out well for him. He was glad that Leah had made him see that he needed to stop, for his son's sake and his own. Later, when he had tried to release his physical pressure, he sought out women-it was just as futile. At last, he had gotten into running, pushing himself to his limits in an attempt to clear his mind and heart.
None of it made any difference to him, nor were any of those women able to even remotely make him forget, and now she was here. His mood dropped even further down the drain. He hated that he couldn't get over her, hated that he couldn't get past the hurt and feeling of rejection. What good could possibly come out of it, he thought. She was just going to hurt him again, he was sure. This time though, this time he wouldn't allow any of it, he vowed to himself. His wolf immediately rumbled in protest. Oh, shut the hell up already.
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"It's not any of your business Jacob," Sam said, giving him a scolding glare, and brought him out of his reverie. "This was between Leah and Bella."
Sam moved before the boulder, waiting for Yuma to jump into his arms. "It's not that you particularly asked about Bella either, right? It's always you that leaves the room when Charlie or Sue mention her around you."
Yuma jumped and wrapped his arms around Sam's neck. "Pappy," he babbled excitedly. "Ella fwiend. Ella play with Yuma."
Jacob frowned hearing that. His thoughts ran a thousand miles. "Why did she really come here?" he ground out finally. "What did Leah and Bella plan? They are plotting something... I'm not stupid, man!"
Sam put Yuma back on the ground, noticing that the boy wanted to continue playing and showing off in front of his daddy and his pappy. Yuma instantly ran further down the path. His cheerful laughter couldn't break the tension between the two men.
"I'll tell you this," Sam said while they were following Yuma. "Leah and I are getting married in a couple of weeks. I hope you didn't forget about that."
Jacob snorted and rolled his eyes. "I did not forget about your wedding, man. I told you that I will help in any way that I can, and I meant that. You guys deserve a break and you will get it, all right?"
Sam nodded and added pointedly, "Then you will also remember that we are going to be extremely busy. We need as much help as we can get right now. Leah has so much preparations to do still, as she is insisting to make all of her own decorations, and planning out all of the food, and please, let's not forget the most important part. We are planning to go away for our honeymoon."
Jacob simply stared at Sam, as he slowly realized the gravity of what Sam said.
"Okay, look, Jake..." Sam said in a slightly softer tone. "I am holding you to your word, 'cause come hell or high water, Leah and I are going away and we don't want to be worried about this little guy."
Sam smiled at Yuma's play on a nearby tree. "Look, Jake, you gotta be honest, brother! YOU can't take care of Yuma on your own those three weeks."
Jacob really let that sink in for a moment. He paled visibly; his heart was pounding in his chest.
"It's not that we don't trust you, man," Sam hurried to explain. "We really DO trust you. You're a great father, you know that. Yuma adores you and he needs you. But it's just... You have your job, patrols... your father needs to be taken care of... You simply need help..."
Jacob stared at Sam, his eyes growing bigger and more desperate by the second. "You have got to be kidding me! Tell me it is not true what I am thinking right now," he finally ground out. He lifted his head toward Sam, forcing away tears of anger and frustration. "You can't do that to me."
Sam put his hand on Jacob's shoulder. "Jake, man, calm down. It's time to move forward. It's time to try, just try, okay? You need to resolve whatever it is that is going on between you and Bella. It's beyond time the two of you talk, you owe that to each other, you have been miserable and unhappy for far too long."
"You're the one to talk, Sam!" Jacob yelled, shaking off the older man's hand. "How long did it take you to get your head out of Emily's ass? Don't tell me what I have to resolve and to forget!"
"Be reasonable, Jake. You can't compare-"
"The hell I can!" Jacob spat, towering over Sam and shaking with rage. "You have it all figured out, right? You're the man! Know what? Take your happy ending and shove it up your ass." He stormed off, resentment coursing through his body. Sam really had it all now. He broke the imprint to Emily. He was going to marry the girl he really loved. On top of that, he helped Leah raise Yuma, spending more time with him than his own father. Once again, Jacob cursed the day Bella found he and Leah fucking in the woods.
While he couldn't regret Yuma's existence-his son really was the best thing life had given to him-he wondered if things would have gone differently if Yuma had never been born. If Bella hadn't assumed that he was in a relationship with Leah, would she have stayed with him?
Jacob kneeled down beside Yuma, instantly regretting his negative thinking. "Hey, little man, you can't go in there." He gently stopped his son trying to crawl into a hole that had formed underneath a tree root. He still felt the tremors in his body, but he knew he was in absolute control of his phasing.
Sam caught up with them. He noticed that Jacob was shaking slightly, and his lips pinched to a thin line. Slowly, he felt that he got furious himself. Jacob was just too stubborn, and now his Alpha had gotten himself in a rage again and was close to phasing. "Jake! Jake, stop it! Yuma is here!"
Jacob glared at him coldly. "Thank you so much for your trust in me," he said sardonically. "I would never phase when Yuma is that close!"
Sam sighed, rubbing his face. This shit was wearing him out. "Look, I know you could take care of Yuma by yourself if need be. But really... Be reasonable. You have to go to work. Your boss is going to can your ass if you take that much time off. And Leah will feel so much better when she knows that Yuma will get his cooked meals and clean clothes on his back every day. Leah only meant well, for all involved."
"She needs to stay out of my fucking business, Sam! Why is she not leaving me alone?" Jake hissed, but then Yuma crawled on his back, which helped the shaking to subside a little.
"She cares for you. Hell, we all care for you. We want you happy." Sam leaned against the tree and asked, "We thought it would best if you didn't know. So you could not run away again... Do you realize how hard it was for me to keep this from you?"
"I fucking don't care, Sam." Jacob growled deep from his chest, his fury flaring up all over again.
Frightened by his growl, a rabbit scurried from the hole in the earth and fled in sheer panic. Yuma squeaked and took off after the animal. No matter the tension, it made both men laugh out loud. There was no denying, Yuma clearly had the wolf gene in his blood.
"The few times we were phased together killed me," Sam said quietly as they swiftly followed Yuma. "It was a constant battle of hiding the conversations I had with Leah about this. I should not be put into this position either."
Jacob shrugged. He was still too angry to acknowledge that Sam might have a point.
"That's all I can tell you, and you know what?" Sam asked. "You deserve a break as well. Give it a try, talk to her, and find the fuck out what exactly went down at the time. You need to speak with Leah, but you'll see...it'll be alright. Jake, come on, buddy."
Sam felt bad for his friend, but he also knew that it was time, time for Jake to quit his stubborn attitude. He agreed with Leah completely after he had learned what Bella thought was going on at the time.
Jacob just needed to let it happen naturally, and Sam was sure that it would - eventually.
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A/N: Thank you guys for reading. We hope that you enjoyed this chapter as much as EyJ and I have writing it. We will see how Jake will handle what will be thrown his way in the next few chapters *wink*!
JB & EyJ