There you have it. The fifth chapter for this story. I know I had a wide gap for a while, but I will try to update once a week. (I know this is in the same week but who cares. It's on time) Enjoy!

~MKK

Chapter 5

Kid Flash POV

I don't like sleeping a night.

I have begun to develop nightmares of the mission and I don't enjoy reliving it every night with the same amount of explicit detail and extra twisted moments of my conscience trying to make my life even more miserable. But being awake isn't any better, because that just means that I have to face the cruel reminder of reality. I would always wake up in cold sweat and feel like my heart had just been ripped out. Tonight was not the exception; in fact, it was the worst by far, because it just showed me the worst thing it had ever. The truth.

I could feel myself floating in what had felt like water, before I was suddenly put in the environment of a battle field that seemed all too familiar. But what made my skin crawl and my heart freeze was the fact that it was just like how it was before. I couldn't move; I was just frozen in place. I tried to call out to my teammates, but they just continued to fight like I was never there. It made my guilt become worse when the scene showed with robin fighting against someone. I was glad that there was no recondition of the person we were fighting, or I would have just died there and then from the shock of reliving it. I let my thoughts wonder and found myself back at the battle field and just let it all happen. I couldn't take it anymore so I just let all of my worries take over me and fell into dark bliss.

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Flash Back

I was there with the team in the area before we were ambushed. Aqualad was discussing our plan of action, and right when we finished and Mrs. Martian was about to link us all, we were ambushed. I could vaguely remember what happened to everyone else, but Robin stood out from everyone. I looked to him first and saw that there were four people on him that he was fighting hard to get passed, but couldn't. I felt someone grab my arms and when I looked back, to my surprise I saw that it was Simon. I knew that he was still alive, but we didn't keep any tabs on him because he had just jumped off the radar, but I didn't let this falter my actions. I was about to attack him, but I couldn't feel my arms or legs. I felt a sensation of cold dread run down my spine as he laughed hysterically.

He forced my body to look towards my friends and made me watch what was happening to them as they were all gradually beat to the ground. But the thing that made my heart stop was the loud shriek that tore through the air. I looked towards the source of the sound and saw Robin on the ground with a large boulder on top of the bottom half of his body. But the thing that got to me the most was the fact that there was blood all over the area near his legs. I could just barely hear the sound of Superboy yelling curses and the sound of Artemis screaming at the attackers to stop, but none of it really made sense. I couldn't do anything because I was still I Simon's hold, but it made me look like I was just standing there doing nothing as Robin was bleeding out.

I don't remember how long we were there for before reinforcements came, and the whole time, Simon was literally just talking about his plans for us. I would have laughed at his stupidity, but I couldn't because there was the change of one of my teammates bleeding to death over my head, and so it was more and anxiety than humor. I could see Martian Man hunter with Black Canary and Batman who had come to help us after receiving a distress signal to them by someone on our team (later to be found that it was Aqualad who had sent it). I could see how hurt everyone was, but out of us all, Robin was the one who was worse for wear. I swore under my breath as Mrs. Martian and Martian Man Hunter lifted the boulder that was on top of Robin.

Everyone was in a panic because at that point he had passed out from mass blood loss. We had all rushed to the cave and watched Dick being carried to the infirmary by Batman. I could feel the tension that was in the room as Black Canary had offered to counsel every one of the events of the mission. Aqualad had told her about what had happened because he knew that no one else would talk about it. I could hear Mrs. Martian in the other side of the room silently crying and Artemis next to her just simply hugging her slightly. There was a crash next to us, so we all looked towards the noise and saw Superboy storming out of the room with a dent left in the wall. I didn't want to be there, but I needed to know how Robin was going to be after the emergency operation on his legs. But at the same time, I was too afraid to know the truth of what happened to his legs.

After five long and tense hours, we heard Batman come out of the operation room with his usual poker face. He didn't say anything other than, "We'll just have to wait for him to wake up on his own."

-0-

I felt my eyes snap open with tears in them and sat up at an almost back breaking speed. I was breathing fast like it had almost run an entire country at my top spend and then ran back. I could feel my heart beating at an inhuman speed and my chest felt like it was on fire. I shifted over to the edge of my bed and dug my head into my hands. I looked over the side table and glanced at my clock. It was four twenty-six in the morning.

I could feel myself shiver at the cold feeling on my skin from the sweat that was starting to cool me down. I reflected back on my nightmare and had the sudden feeling to check up on Dick. I knew it was a foolish thing to do especially since I had just seen him a few hour ago, but I just wanted to make sure.

I wandered down the halls and could feel the shadows of the hallways creep onto my skin as I tried to walk faster away from the darkness that seemed to watch my every move. I stopped when I reached his door and put my hand on the knob. I turned to it test if it was locked, but to my surprise, it wasn't. I pushed open the door and peeked inside to see Dick lying peaceful on his bed with the wheel chair situated right next to it. I was about to leave after seeing if he was okay, but heard a small voice call out to me.

"I know you are there Wally, don't try to hide because you make it too obvious." I stopped. I turned my back and saw him slowly using his arms to shift into an upright position and looked at me.

If I said he looked tired, that would have been an understatement. Dick looked beyond exhausted, and had dark bags under his eyes.

"Hey Dick. How are you doing?" I tried to smile, but it came out more like and awkward smirk and just decided to drop it after he gave me a weird look. "Yeah I know, I'll just leave. I'm sorry I disturbed you sleep.

"Wally wait. Please just come here and stop looking away." I squeezed my fists. Not in anger, but in shame. I couldn't look at him after what it was that I had done to him.

'Don't you understand Dick? I can't look at you because every time I do, it just shows me how much of a mess up I am and how much you had to pay for it.' I didn't say that for the sake of his pride, but I wanted to say it so he would understand that he wouldn't want me to be there. But still for his sake, I turned around and walked to the spot next to his bed, but still avoided his eyes.

"Wally I need you to look at me." He put his hand on my cheek and turned my head towards him. I looked to the side, but then met his gaze. My heart had skipped a beat as I looked at his face. He was literally inches away from my face, and allowed me to get a good look at him.

His eyes were a light blue that seemed to have a small shine to it that just seemed to make his face seem all too innocent. But I knew that he would never be innocent. He never was. I opened my mouth to ask what it was he wanted, but he moved the hand over from my cheek to my mouth.

"Just stay here with me if it makes you feel any better. Okay?" I didn't know if I should have accepted the answer, but his eyes were pleading me to, so I just nodded and sat down on the floor and leaned against the side table that was there. It wasn't comfortable, but I still stayed there for his sake. "Wally, come here. It probably isn't comfortable laying there and you are going to make me feel guilty man." He smiles softly and motions for his bed as he shifts over to the other side.

I was about to say that it was okay, but I smiled and shook my head. "Okay you big baby, if it makes you feel any better I will." I returned with a smile of my own.

I stood up and laid down on the other side of the bed to him and faced the ceiling. I don't know how Dick feels about this, but I feel happy with him this close to me.

This officially the beginning of their relationship beginning to change. If you have any suggestions on how to make the story any better, please feel free to mention something. Please follow and review :]