This chapter deals with heavy self-esteem issues and bullying.
KPOV-
''Hey,'' I knock on Blair's open door, peeking my head in ,''Dinner is ready.''
''Thanks,'' she mumbles, not looking from the mirror ,''I'm not hungry.''
''Blair, can we talk,'' I close the door when she nods, then sit on her bed and motion for her to join me, ''Sweetheart, what's going on?''
Blaine can't get through to her, she won't talk to Sugar, and we're getting desperate as to why she's closing herself off.
She just shrugs, staring at the patter on her jeans.
''Is it Ryder?''
''We worked it out,'' she shakes her head.
''Blair, honey, you have to tell me.''
She looks up, tears in her eyes.
''I look at everyone….and I think everyone is beautiful. Like… even if there's something you don't like, someone loves you for that. Like how Rory loves Sugar's nose even if she hates it, and how you love d-dad's curls even though he despises them. And then there's me, and Ryder inexplicably loves me and thinks I'm pretty. I…I've gotten so much more confident in the way I look. I at least like my curves now, but… it's one of those days where I wish I looked different.''
''Blair Anderson, you're my daughter. I wouldn't lie to you: you are a gorgeous girl.''
She shakes her head wiping at her eyes.
''All of my friends are pretty. And I know if I could lose this little bit of weight, I'd be like them. That… I like my body, if that's what you think it's about. Like Tina Cohen-Chang. I don't everyday, but I do more than I did this time last year. I just wish I was a little prettier, the makeup doesn't make me feel pretty,'' she looks at the ground ,''I wish mom was still here.''
''You know she's always with you,'' I remind her ,''And she'd be so proud of the smart, strong, talented, beautiful girl you've grown into. And anyone who tells you you're anything but is jealous.''
She looks up, then nods.
''Thanks. I'm… I'm glad you're my dad,'' she smiles a little, and I kiss her head.
''I'm glad you're my daughter. You need to come to me with things like this if you don't think you can talk to your dad. And Mercedes and Tina would love to talk to you. Now, let's go eat,'' I tell her.
I don't know what Blair sees when she looks in the mirror. Her weight is fine, and she's a gorgeous girl. But I do understand insecurity, and so do Tina, Quinn, and Mercedes. They battles with their weight all through high school, and afterwards, but they have more confidence now than ever.
That's what Blaine and I want for Blair. For all of our kids, really. Rory is pretty easy to talk to and work with, he's so open. And we have years before Grace is a teenager.
Teenage girl insecurities? Blaine and I are still trying to work this out.
We're gonna help her get through her insecurities, though. Together.
Just like Blaine and I get through everything that comes our way.
BPOV-
''I know how you feel, but you can't keep getting into fights,'' I tell Rory, putting the bandage on his hand.
''I hate hearing what they say about you and dad,'' he sighs ,''And what they say about Blair.''
''That doesn't mean you have to hit some kid who's too judgmental,'' I remind him.
Apparently someone thought it would be okay to make fun of Rory for being raised by Kurt and myself. We'd told him and Blair to ignore it, because those people just don't know more than their ignorance. Blair usually ignores them, as does Rory.
But his little sister is another story.
Blair is usually so strong. But with her body image issues and everything that has happened the past two years, it's understandable that she gets tired of sticking up for herself.
''He couldn't take a hint,'' he hisses ,''I told him to let go of her arm, and he didn't. Then he said that word, called you two that word, and I told him to leave my family alone. He hit me, and I didn't even get to punch him before the principal saw.''
''Look at me,'' I sit across from him, and he trains sad blue eyes up at me ,''I love you, your dad loves you, and Blair and Grace do, too. Ignore what they say, no matter how hard. But we do appreciate you for sticking up for your sister and us.''
''I love you guys,'' he shrugs ,''You're my family.''
''And, as your family, we'd hate to see you get expelled or suspended during your last semester of your senior year in high school,'' I inform him, and he nods with a sigh.
''Alright,'' he looks at the clock ,''I'll put Grace to sleep tonight since you helped me. Night, love you.''
''Love you, too,'' I smile, turning the light off when we both leave the kitchen.
''How did the talk go,'' Kurt asks, setting his designs aside when I walk into the room.
''It went well,'' I shrug, and he nods.
''They're good kids. And we'll help them ignore what other say,'' he reassures me, then kisses me before sliding under our covers with me.
''We'll get through this. We always do,'' I kiss him, and he smiles a bit ,''Blair's gotten much better. And Rory… he's been through a lot. He knows that he shouldn't fight that kid, but I guess it was self defense. And the other kid got suspended anyway. So you and I, we're gonna be fine, and our kids are gonna be fine. And tomorrow, we're finally gonna have some alone time. It's been too long.''
''Blaine Anderson-Hummel, it has been a week since we left our honeymoon early,'' he scoffs.
''It's been a week since we've been alone, Blaine Anderson-Hummel.''
''And besides, we have to meet Adam tomorrow. We're all going to see that live show, remember,'' he reminds me.
Right.
''Now I remember,'' I nod.
''And, after that, we can get a hotel room. Since you are so insatiable,'' he laughs.
''Only for you,'' I move closer, pressing my lips to the soft, pale skin of Kurt's neck ,''Now, let's have a hot make out session before bed.''
This makes him laugh harder, but he bring his lips to mine and wraps his arms around me.
Tonight, we'll enjoy this. Tomorrow, I'll meet Adam, spend time with him and Kurt, and then later have more alone time with my husband.
I've seen pictures of Adam, and he is attractive. And Kurt gushed about what Adam told him, about how he was someone''s celebrity crush.
As handsome as he is, he couldn't see it. But I do. And so do other man.
I don't worry, because I have Kurt's heart just as completely as he has mine. We're faithful, and we talk everything out. We'll be just fine.
There's not a doubt in my mind that we're gonna get through this together.
Disclaimer- glee belongs to Fox and Ryan Murphy.
