15. Party
"I am ready to see what everyone thinks about you," I smiled at Philip.
"Michonne does not like me," Philip said.
"She'll warm up eventually. And these are my friends form church they will love you," I said as we went inside the party.
"I hope so," He smiled.
"Welcome," Carol Peletier said when got inside the house.
"Carol, this Philip Blake," I said introducing them.
"So Philip, Andrea tells me you're a manger at Wal-Mart. I bet you stay busy all the time," Carol smiled.
"That's an understatement," Philip grinned.
"There are drinks outside if you liked get one," Carol offered.
"Go ahead and I'll meet you outside," I said looking into Philip's brown eyes. He nodded and walked out the back door.
"So what do you think?"
"He is very attractive," Carol admitted.
"I told you, and anything else?"
"Well, he looks a lot order than you. Is he Catholic?"
"No, but no one is talking about anything long term," I said.
"If he is not someone you would marry ,than maybe you shouldn't be dating him," Carol said in a motherly tone.
"So you don't like him, I got it," I said frustrated.
"I just meet him and I can not make any judgments," She said as I walked outside to find Philip.
"I got you a sweet tea," Philip said handing me a paper cup as I walked over.
"You meet Daryl and Beth?"
"Yeah. They seem nice enough," Philip said half smiling.
I could tell he felt out of place.
"We can go back to your house after we eat," I whispered in his ear.
"I hope I can wait until then,"He said pressing his lips on mine.
I could see my friends Dale and Carol staring at us. They were not big fans of personal display of affection.
"We shouldn't kiss in front of everybody like this," I said pulling away.
"You're not embarrassed of me are you?" Philip said in a hurt voice.
"No, it's just these are my church friends. We need to act a certain way in front of them," I said quietly.
"So you act one way with them, and another when we're alone?"
"Let's not do this now. We'll talk when we leave," I said taking Philip's hand.
He said nothing, but nodded silently. We sat down together at one of the tables. Philip made small talk with my friends, but I knew something was wrong. Finally, we were driving back to his house. We got inside, and I kissed his lips.
"You want to go to bed?"
"So it's acceptable to kiss me now? When we are alone, and you want sex."
"I thought we both wanted sex," I said defensively.
"I do want to have sex with you, but I need to know it's more than that," Philip said looking into my eyes.
"How much more are you wanting?"
"I only want you to honest with me. I heard what you said to Carol about us not being together long term," Philip said.
"We have only been dating six weeks let's not get ahead of ourselves," I said attempting to calm Philip down.
"I think you know by now how you feel about me, and I don't think time will change that. Am I someone you could see yourself marrying or not?"
"I am not ready to talk about marriage," I shouted.
"You don't want to have the marriage conservation with me, right? If you only want me as fuck buddy then say so," Philip said grabbing my arm.
"Look, if you want an honest answer you aren't someone I see myself marrying at the moment. Feelings could change, but if you need answer now than no I don't see it happening," I said moving away from him.
"You aren't being truthful with your feelings, Andrea. I know you love me," Philip said as my cell phone started to ring. I was walking over to answer it, but he already had it in his hands opening it.
"Give me my phone," I said.
"Who is Rick?" Philip asked looking at the contact name.
"A friend from high school," I said rolling my eyes.
"Are you fucking him too?"
"I don't know, ask Rick's wife if I am," I said taking my cell phone back.
"Maybe, I am overreacting," Philip whispered.
"You think? The way you are acting fucking crazy now. You're being obsessive," I said moving further away from him.
"Let's go to bed like you wanted," Philip said softly rubbing my back. He knew I had enough and wanted to pretend like it had never happened. His hands felt so good against my back and soft brown eyes looked sorry. I could almost forgive his outburst. Almost.
"I am not in the mood. I think you should take me home instead," I said getting my stuff together.
"Are you breaking up with me?"
We were never a couple, I thought to myself.
"I don't know. I need to go home and think," I said walking out the door.
Philip got his car keys, and unlocked the door. I got inside, and waited for him. Philip got behind the wheel, and started the car.
"You sure this is what you want?"
"Yes, I'll call you later," I said when he pulled up to my apartment. I watched as his blue mustang pull away. Suddenly, I felt lonely. I knew I should let him go. We weren't good for each, I thought. My cell phone was ringing, and it was Philip.
"Please come home with me for the weekend. We can be two adults just having fun," Philip said softly.
"I can do that," I said. I saw Philip turning his car around and pulled back up too. I got back in the car, and took his hand. Philip was like a drug to me, I thought. I needed to end this relationship, but I did not want too. I wanted to have fun like he suggested. Hopefully, that will be enough for him.