This chapter contains mention of eating disorders.

BlairPOV-

''What's wrong,'' Sugar asks, sitting next to me and Grace while Harmony and Courtney try on their bridesmaids dresses.

Ryder dropped me and Grace off, but he was acting… odd the whole way over. He was acting strange on the phone, after I told him what the doctor said, too.

''Nothing,'' I bounce Grace on my knee.

''You are so transparent. We're best friends, I know you. Now talk to me,'' Sugar presses.

''Ryder has been acting weird ever since I told him. I… what if he thinks it's too much to be with me now? We're gonna have to take things slow for a while… and I know there are girls who would not make him wait.''

''Don't be daft, Blair, Ryder is absolutely crazy about you,'' Sugar gently scolds.

''Why wouldn't he want it to be easier to be with someone,'' I ask ,''He is acting so w-weird. He's gonna break up with me, isn't he?''

Leave me heartbroken, just like I always knew he would.

''Blair, Ryder loves you more than anything. There's a reasonable explanation. Talk to him,'' Sugar whispers as Courtney and Harmony come out of the dressing room.

She is right, I guess, Ryder has been supportive, so maybe he's just taking it all in like I had to.

Either way, I have to know for sure.

Because I guess it'd be better to know how he feels than be blindsided by another earth shattering heartbreak.

KPOV-

''It's just frustrating,'' I admit to Adam.

I'd stopped for coffee on my way home, running into him again.

''Everything's gonna be fine. You have strong kids. And with a dad like you, and Blaine, they'll be fine.''

''That's just the thing,'' I sigh ,''Blaine and I know what we have to do for the kids. It's just not easy to talk when we're on such different schedules. He's on break right now, but my days are super long. And when he goes back, he's gone before I wake up and asleep when I get back The only time we have is on the weekends, and then we're trying to spend as much time with Blair and Rory before they go off to school.''

''But they are staying home, right? You have a good relationship with them,'' he reminds me.

''But they're moving in with their boyfriend and wife, respectively,'' I explain ,''And Blaine and I really need to sit and talk, but it's hard to find the time.''

''You two can make it work,'' Adam gives a small smile ,''He's not stupid enough to let anything come between you two. I know I wouldn't.''

Adam knows there is a fine line between friendliness and flirting, but I trust him not to cross it.

But we're very close to falling over the edge.

''So how did your date with Chandler go,'' I ask, trying to change the subject.

''Alright, I guess,'' Adam shrugs ,''We did get to know eachother better. I did figure out that whenever he gets excited about something he starts yelling.''

''Yeah,'' I laugh ,''But his personality is nice. Contagious, really.''

''It really is. And, perhaps it really against my better judgment, I asked him out for Friday evening,'' Adam admits ,''I figured I may have been a bit too pessimistic on our first date, so we're trying again.''

''That's good,'' I nod, ''You deserve to be happy, Adam. And Chandler is a great guy, as good as you are, once you get to know him. I was scared to give Blaine a chance, but look how well that turned out.''

''I'm honestly just trying not to hurt him by not giving him a chance, but I don't want to go through a break up like that again,'' Adam runs a hand through his blonde hair.

''I was the same with Blaine,'' I put a hand over his ,''You have to try, though. That one bad experience doesn't define love at all.''

Blaine proved that too me.

Adam glances at our hands, then looks up at me with a smile ,''You, Kurt Hummel, are something else. I hope Blaine realizes what he has.''

''I think he does,'' I remove my hand to grab my coffee, smiling at him ,''I'm amazing.''

Adam let's out a laugh, ''Can't say I disagree. Any way, I'd better get going. I'll see you around, Kurt.''

He leaves, and I buy Blaine a coffee since I know it's been a rough day for him. He took Blair to the doctor, and had to take care of Gracie after picking her up from Dani and Santana's apartment.

BPOV-

''Blaine,'' someone shakes me awake ,''Wake up.''

My eyes focus on glasz eyes, and Kurt smiles at me.

''Hey,'' he grins ,''You okay? How's Blair?''

''She's actually handling it better than I did. She went with Sugar, Courtney and Harmony to get their dresses. I think she's trying to distract herself.''

''Could be,'' Kurt agrees, then hands me coffee.

''Thanks. Why didn't you tell me you were stopping for coffee? Maybe I could have brought Grace. She loves the cake,'' I remind him.

''In that order: you're welcome, I didn't plan on staying, but I ran into Adam. And Grace loves anything sweet,'' Kurt smiles.

''Oh,'' I nod ,''How's Adam doing?''

It's a lot easier to like a guy once you know he's not trying to steal the love of your life.

''He's good. He says 'hi', actually. The date with Chandler didn't go so well, but they're gonna give it another shot.''

''That's good,'' I move so Kurt can sit next to me on the couch, leaning back onto him as he wraps an arm around me, ''They could be good together.''

''That's what I said,'' Kurt responds ,''We'll just have to see where they go. So, other than the obvious, how was your day?''

''Grace actually slept through her nap, and is still sleeping, Ryder wants to propose to Blair, and-''

''What,'' Kurt looks at me in shock ,''Honestly, he wants to propose to her?''

''Yeah,'' I nod, ''In a few months. He doesn't want to get married for a few more years, though.''

''That's sweet, though,'' Kurt beams, and I think I actually fall more in love with him ,''Young love at it's finest.''

''You're cheesy,'' I lean back ,''But I love you for it.''

''I love you, too,'' Kurt kisses me, warm and soft lips fitting perfectly to mine.

Despite what magazines say, photographing Adam and Kurt whenever they're seen together and making up titles and stories that are completely false, I trust Kurt. He'd never do anything to try and hurt me. And Adam is a decent guy. I don't know him too well, but he seems to respect boundaries. And even if he is attracted to Kurt- who could blame him- I doubt he'd act on it.

I have no reason to worry about my relationship, right? So I won't.

''So while we're in California for nationals,'' he begins ,''I'll be meeting up with Elliot. He's going on tour with Tina, and asked me to design his outfit changes.''

''Because you are incredible, and made Tina and Mercedes look more beautiful than they already are, and you keep getting more successful ,'' I tell him.

''You know what? I love you,'' he smiles, ''And I can't wait to finally be alone with you on Friday. I know they say the first year is hardest, but I'm glad we're finding some personal time. Just the two of us, if you still want this.''

''I was initially worried about leaving Blair alone, but she pretty much insists we go,'' I tell him, ''Nick and Jeff promised to keep an eye on her. We… we'll help her get through this. And we'll help Rory.''

''Of course we will help Blair. And Rory, the valedictorian,'' he smiles proudly.

''That's amazing,'' I tell Kurt, just as proud as he is.

With everything going on this year, it is amazing that his grades have approved and not dropped. And now he is graduating at the top of his class.

And the glee club is going well. We leave for Nationals in the second week of May, the week after prom. Our setlist is Begin Again by Taylor Swift, sung by Hunter and Courtney. Then Sugar, Blair, Dottie and Lilly are singing lead on See Me Now by Little Mix, and the seniors are singing, and Harmony and I are working on a duet for her and Rory.

To top it all off, Kurt and I have begun looking into the adoption since we know it will take a while. Personally, I am just glad to be experiencing this with Kurt. He's an amazing man, and he somehow managed to fall in love with ordinary me.

''You're not ordinary,'' his voice breaks the silence ,''And you have a habit of saying things out loud when you are upset.''

''Sorry,'' I blush.

''It's fine, as long as you don't ever call yourself 'ordinary'. You're anything but, Blaine. And I love you,'' he smiles, kissing me.

''You know… Grace will sleep for another hour, and we have about two hours before the kids come back. We could use that time for some alone time before Friday,'' I suggest.

''You are insatiable. You're a teenager,'' Kurt rolls his eyes, but leads me towards the bedroom anyway.

I'm not insatiable. Okay, I am, but I'm in love. Anyone in my shoes, married to Kurt, would be. Who can blame me?

Kurt Hummel, Kurt Anderson-Hummel, is one of the best things that ever happened to me.

And I don't intend on losing someone so important. I won't make that mistake.

Even if someone does try to come between us.

RoryPOV-

''So I got the prom dress, and the bridesmaids dresses, and the flower girl dress,'' Sugar tells me, coming back to her car ,''Well, I took home the prom dress. We have to go back for the others.''

''Great,'' I smile a bit, and she looks at me with her eyes sparkling.

Eyes I get to see for the rest of my life.

''I can't wait. It's only two months away,'' she beams, then looks serious ,''You do want this, right?''

''I won't lie, I am scared. But, yes, I want this. I love you, Sugar Motta,'' I move some hair from her face.

''Sugar Motta-Hummel, soon enough,'' she corrects me ,''I'm really glad we're doing this now.''

''So am I. If we know we want it, why wait, right?''

''Exactly,'' she looks at me ,''I don't know why people are trying to talk us out of this. I know some people should not get married so young, but we are ready. Right?''

''Y-you're not having second thoughts, right,'' I raise an eyebrow,

''What? No of course not,'' she looks offended ,''I know that I love you, and want to spend the rest of my life with you. And I want to start now, no matter how terrifying this may be.''

Took the words right out of my mouth.

''I… I know my dad and Blaine make it seem easy, but they have been through so much already this year and have no choice but to lean on each other. My biggest fear is that one day you will think I messed this up.'

''Rory,'' she looks out of the window ,''I am watching my parents' marriage disintegrate. Courtney said that she and Joe barely have time to talk anymore, but want to make it work. And Blair is so insecure because of what Kate did to her that she is scared of losing a guy who she means the world to. In fact, I'm pretty sure Ryder would propose now if he could. And I was so afraid, am so afraid, of love sometimes. But with you… I know I'm safe. And you're safe with me.''

She brings her lips to mine then, and if I needed any further confirmation that I made the right choice by proposing to her, this is it.

And I promise that I will not make her regret it.

RyderPOV-

The silence fills the car as Blair and I sit in the parking lot of the restaurant, waiting for the others.

''So… are you gonna tell me what's going on,'' I ask, and she looks out of the window.

''I'm fine,'' Blair insists, staring out at the rain.

''Right,'' I nod ,''You know I don't believe this. Do you want me to take you home? We don't have to do this. I can take you home, if you want to be alone after today-''

''Do you love me?''

''Of course I do, Blair,'' I ask slightly offended ,''And you love mr, right?''

Please say that you do, or today was pointless.

''I love you, Ryder. How much do you love me though? Enough to tell me the truth,'' she questions, still not looking at me.

''Yes.''

''When you're in California, I know girls flirt with you,'' she looks at her hands resting in her lap, ''And I know this isn't good for me while I'm trying to recover, but do they ever offer you… anything? And I need the truth.''

It's clear what she means, but I was hoping we could avoid the subject.

'''Yes,'' I admit, since she's already told me she's turned down any advances like I have.

''Do you… do you ever want to… with them?''

''Blair, no,'' I sigh, ''Look at me.''

She looks exhausted, her green eyes filled with tears.

''Do you trust me,'' I ask, and continue when she nods ,''Then don't think that they matter to me. You are the best girl for me. I didn't even understand what love was until I met you.''

''You're so lame,'' she laughs a bit, and at least she's not crying ,''But I appreciate it. I love you, too.''

''So here's what is going to happen,'' I tell her, taking her hand ,''I am transferring to NYU. I can look at apartments with you, and we can agree on one with my parents. You'll be working at the Spotlight Diner, and then you can apply for NYADA's dance program, like you want. And whether you want to be on the radio or Broadway, I'll be there for you like you are there for me. I am one hundred percent sure that I love you, and I want to spend my life with you.''

''I love you, and I want to spend my life with you, too,'' she leans over and kisses me ,''And thank you for waiting for me. In more ways than one. I… I don't really like the way I look right now, and I'm afraid that you're going to see what I see. And most of the times I realize how stupid that sounds, and I can stop myself from feeling so insecure. I honestly don't know what I'd do without you.''

''I'd be lost without you,'' I move some hair from her face ,''We may not be perfect, but we're perfect together.''

Which is why I need to be your husband, and need you as my wife.

Right now, I just need a real promise that you want the same thing I do. The marriage, the kids… everything.

My mind screams at me to do it now. The ring is in the glove compartment after all, and she's right here, and we're alone…

''Blair-''

''Oh, Jake and Marley are here,'' she looks as his car pulls up ,''Sorry, what were you saying.''

Ask her. Just ask her.

''I was just saying that we should go in.''

Idiot.

''Right,'' she unbuckles her seatbelt, calm as ever but I could kick myself for being so afraid.

I can ask her soon, though. Maybe before I leave.

Hopefully I won't regret this.

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