RyderPOV-

Sometimes, even though you know it's happening, it takes a while for the full weight of the situation to hit you.

For me, that moment came this morning when I finally looked at the picture of the ultrasound.

I'm gonna be a dad. I know Grace was already born, and I am her dad, but Kurt and Blaine are raising her.

Now I'm going to be responsible for a tiny, helpless baby. Babies need to be taken care of, and monitored basically around the clock. And babies cost a lot of money.

Money that we don't have.

Kurt and Blaine said that they would help us, but they are already so busy. In addition to Gracie, their foster kids come to live with them today. And my parents are already helping us with the apartment.

I know I'm not ready, and I knew that the minute that Blair told me she was pregnant. When I told her that I was ready for this, I was trying to convince myself just as much as I was trying to convince her.

''What's with you,'' Penny asks, sitting next to me in tor storage room.

''It really just hit me that I am actually going to be responsible for someone so dependent on me,'' I look at her, noticing her eyes are red ,''What's wrong?''

''Nothing,'' she wipes at her eyes with her sleeve.

''You're a crappy liar. Just tell me,'' I nudge her gently.

''Um… my boyfriend and I broke up,'' she shrugs, ''He's been cheating on me for the past six months, with three different girls. I guess… I guess I'm not good enough for him anymore.''

''Penny don't say that,'' I move some hair from her face ,''You're smart, and beautiful, and nice, and-''

Her lips are on mine then, hands moving to my hair.

And yes, I should push her away but…

I deepen the kiss, completely lost in because, well it's hot.

But the minute her hot, smooth hands move up my shirt, something in my mind clicks.

Blair. My girlfriend, pregnant with our baby.

Shit.

''Crap,'' I pull away, and I guess Penny realizes what just happened too.

''Oh my… damn, Ryder. I'm so, so sorry. It's just… you're the nicest guy to me. I know that's not an excuse but,'' she runs her fingers through her hair ,''that should not have happened. I crossed a line.''

''So did I,'' I admit, pulling my shirt down,'' I guess I have to tell her now-''

''No,'' she looks at me, frantically shaking her head ,''We didn't do anything. It was a simple kiss-''

''I can't lie to her-''

''Then don't mention it. At all. She's insecure enough Ryder. She's pregnant, and her hormones may be out of whack. And she's suffered with her eating disorder on and off again for two years. Don't tell her, okay?'' Penny pressures.

''I can't lie to her, Penny. We've had a bumpy past, and I don't want to lose her.''

''And if you tell her, you will. This was a one time thing, a innocent kiss. It won't happen again. I'm gonna go open up the store,'' she leaves me in the backroom.

The thing is, that kiss was amazing. And not just physically, but… I don't know. I would never hurt Blair by cheating on her.

But this isn't something that I am likely to forget.

''You okay,'' Blair asks, putting up the last dish.

We'd been discussing our days, her day at work and my classes and work, when she told me that she would love the baby no matter what, but wants a baby boy.

No. I've known my girlfriend is pregnant for about seven weeks now, and I don't have the guts to tell her that I just don't know how to do this. That I am not sure I am ready to raise a baby. Oh, and I kissed another girl, something I haven't done in years.

Basically, I cheated on you. And the kiss felt right, and now I'm confused as hell. Because I don't want to lose you, but I did feel something when I kissed her.

I just want to try and handle this like an adult. Without hurting you, or our baby. But I also want to do what's best for myself.

And I don't see how that's at all possible.

''I'm fine. I just… I really love you,'' I smile.

There. Half of the truth.

''I love you, too,'' she leans up on her toes to kiss me ,''And I can not wait until our baby is born.''

Tell her. Tell her you're not ready. That you aren't so sure about this. Tell her you kissed another girl and felt something.

''Me either.''

Okay. That didn't go as planned.

I'll tell her though. Soon.

It's confusing as hell, because I don't want to act like everything is okay. And I don't want to lose you, either. Either way, someone's not going to be happy. Someone will be hurt.

RoryPOV-

''I kind of hope it's a boy and girl. I even have ideas for names,'' I tell Sugar.

We're lounging on our bed, my hand over her stomach.

''I was thinking the same thing,'' she says with a smile, looking down at her stomach in adoration.

''I know it's too early, but I do hope we have more kids after this. Right now, I'm just happy your parents are so okay with this,'' I remind her.

The smile on her face quickly vanishes, and she looks up with sadness in her eyes.

Crap. What did I do?

''Sugar,'' I begin when she starts to tear up ,''Babe, what's wrong?''

''I don't know what I'm d-doing,'' she whispers, and the tears begin.

''About what? The pregnancy?''

''Yes. We were supposed to wait to have a family. I'm nineteen, Rory. And there's so much I have to do to make sure the baby is okay. We're barely in college, Rory. You're going to be busy all of the time, and I'm going to be doing this on my own-''

''Sugar, you know that's not true-''

''Rory, you are always working, or at school. When the baby is born, you'll get two weeks paternity leave, and then you still have school. H-how am I supposed to manage that without you?''

''Sugar, don't do this. We have until February to get everything together, and-''

''And then what,'' she wipes at her eyes ,''You saw how hard it was for Blair and Ryder, and they're not even raising Grace. Hell, I'm not sure how they're making it through this now.''

''Don't compare us to them. You have to admit that we are a lot more stable than they are.''

''That does not mean we are ready to be parents, Rory,'' Sugar looks at the wall, then at me ,''Are we sure that we're ready for this?''

My head is spinning, the wall is falling down in an awful mess of emotions, and I feel sick to my stomach.

''Y-you don't want the baby,'' I tell her.

It's a statement, not a question. And I can not believe that I did not see this coming.

''I love this baby. I want him or her to be safe and loved. I just don't think we are ready for this, Rory,'' Sugar calmly states ,''We weren't trying to have a baby. It was an accident-

''For the love of… don't call our baby an accident,'' I grit out ,''This maybe an unplanned pregnancy, but don't make it seem like the baby is a mistake.''

''I'm not saying that, Rory,'' she snaps ,''And you know that's not what I meant. I am just saying that we have approximately twenty-three weeks to prepare for this, and I still don't think that's enough time. You know I don't want to… you know. But maybe we could consider adoption-''

''How long have you been thinking about this,'' I ask, finally looking back at her.

''Since I told you about the twins on Friday, and a while before that,'' she admits with a heavy sigh.

Well then.

''Okay. I want to raise this baby, and I know that. You want to consider adoption. We're obviously on two very different sides. And we need to talk about this. Tomorrow, when we can both think clearly,'' I stand up, grabbing my pillow and my blanket on the back of the chair ,''For now, I am sleeping on the couch. Give us some time to think.''

''I think that's for the best,'' she nods, her voice cold and hard whether she intended it to be or not.

''I love you,'' I mumble out, leaving for the living room.

''I love you, too.''

After everything that's been said tonight, that's the only thing I'm sure about.

Because everything else is so uncertain.

KPOV-

''I know it hurts,'' I sigh, holding Grace close as I get her medicine.

Her ear infection came back, and she's been on antibiotics, and she's been crying for the past fifteen minutes.

''Dada,'' she whines, and I wipe some tears from her eyes.

''Shh, I know it hurts,'' I comfort her ,''I'm going to help you.''

She's normally such a happy baby, occasionally grumpy when she's just woken up, or when we're trying to potty train her.

''There, you'll feel much better soon,'' I sigh, and put her medicine back up.

''Mr. Anderson-Hummel,'' someone asks, and I look over to see Jade.

LIam, Jade, and Jacob were moved in yesterday. Jade is in Blair's old roo, Liam taking Rory's, and we managed to get a toddler bed for Jacob and moved him in with Grace. If this becomes more permanent, I can move him into the guest bedroom that doubles as my at home studio, and move my things to the studio.

''Yes, Jade,'' I sleepily smile at her.

''What's wrong with the baby,'' she asks, walking into the kitchen some more as Grace's wailing becomes quiet whimpers.

''Grace has another ear infection,'' I explain as Grace snuggles into me, ''Did you need something?''

''Um, no,'' she runs a hand through her thick, straight, black hair ,''I wanted to say something. About Liam.''

Liam had been distant today, and it worried Blaine and I. But we tried to be understanding, considering the fact that he just lost his parents a while ago, and now he and his siblings have to make the biggest transition of their young lives.

''It's alright. This is all new, he may just be uncomfortable right now,'' I tell her.

''It's not… for what it's worth, he practically raised Jacob and me. Our parents were always working. It's just… it's tough on him, I guess. But we do appreciate this,'' she grins a bit.

''It's fine,'' I smile ,''This is not my first time as a foster parent. It's okay.''

''So what happens from here,'' she asks, and I guess she means the arrangements.

''Well, we're transferring you to Darren Everett Junior High, and Liam to Darren Everett High School. They're closer than Chris Colfer High School, and they are on the same campus. And we're enrolling Jacob into pre-school,'' I explain.

''A new school,'' she bites her lip, ''I-I'm not good at stuff like making new friends. The other kids think I'm weird.''

''There's nothing wrong with you. Look, you've been through a lot. You all have. I don't expect you to just warm up to us right away, but you can trust us. No matter how temporary, or permanent, this turns out to be, Blaine and I are here for you.''

''I… I know,'' she nods ,''I knew you were nice when we first met.''

''Thank you,'' I tell her as we walk towards the nursery ,''Speaking of which, we'll need to get you guys some clothes for school. My daughter, Blair, will take you on Saturday, Rory will take Liam, and Blaine and I will take Jacob. Now, get some sleep. We have a long day tomorrow.''

''Alight,'' she yawns ,''Good night, Mr. Anderson-Hummel.

'Good night. And, Jade,'' I begin, and wait for her to face me ,''You can call us Kurt and Blaine.''

The grin she gives me is enough for me to feel reassured that, yes, we're doing something right.

BPOV-

''Thanks for getting Grace, Kurt. She okay,'' I try to ask Kurt, but it comes out as a yawn.

''Yes. I gave her the medicine, and watched her until she fell asleep. I checked on Jade, Liam, and Jacob. And they are all fast asleep,'' Kurt crawls into bed then, moving closer to me ,''They've been through a lot. This can't be easy for them.''

''I get that,'' I agree ,''We'll just have to make them as comfortable as possible. I don't have glee tomorrow, and you're working from home. So maybe we can take them out to dinner.''

''That sounds nice,'' Kurt sighs happily, moving the sheets to cover both of us ,''And we'll get to know them better. And maybe Rory and Blair can come.''

''Maybe,'' I nod, lying my head on his shoulder ,''I love you. And they seem like amazing kids. I'm glad to be doing this.''

''I am, too,'' I feel him nod as he wraps an arm around me ,''They're our responsibility, temporarily I suppose. But, while they are here, we can do what we can. Now, you have work tomorrow. So get some sleep. I love you.''

''I love you, too.''

Things are finally looking up. We have twenty kids in glee, which is incredible. Amber, Dottie, Jason, Mike, James, and Danny all came back, and we got a lot of freshmen and sophomores with amazing talents.

Kurt and I will hear back about the possibility of adopting the baby any day, and we're caring for three kids.

Carole and Burt are flying in next week, wanting to spend time with Grace before my parents come for her birthday, and meet Jade, Liam and Jacob.

And I've actually started repairing my relationship with my dad. It's never going to be as perfect as Kurt and Burt's relationship. However, I would like to mend it before it becomes as bad as it was for years. Absolutely no contact, insecurities… I don't want that again. I don't want that kind of negativity around my family, and not around myself. Kurt spend so long trying to make me believe in myself, and I will not let my dad ruin that with his scathing remarks. He can be in my life if he wants, but I will not force it again.

After all, if being with Kurt proved anything, it is that the best things in life can not be forced. They just happen, and, despite moments of unpleasantness, they are oh so comfortable.

I'm learning to live my life without regret. If I could somehow go back in time and maybe listen to my own advice, I wouldn't have let my parents get to me. I would have accepted that… this is me, and this is all I can be. And the people who really matter accept it. Cooper, Kurt, and our families? They've accepted me from the beginning, flaws and all. The way I try to accept everyone, finally given back to me.

It may have taken a long time, but it was so worth the wait. Life isn't easy, and it will never be completely free of complications. Sometimes my insecurities do get the best in me, and I worry that Kurt will find in Adam something extraordinarily remarkable that he can not find in me. Sometimes I worry that I'm not as good as a teacher, as good as a parent, as I want to be.

But for every moment of doubt, and every moment that I spent hurting, there was a moment where I'm perfectly content. Like now, when Kurt and I have gotten back into the easy flow that our lives took on before we got married.

This year has really, really tested us. But we've come out on the other side, stronger than ever. We're working to make this relationship work, embracing the bad moments as well as the good.

It may not last forever, but I'll enjoy this while it lasts.

Because we both know how quickly things can turn around.

I know that this chapter was heavy, but it ties into the larger scale of things. And what do you think? Ryder being afraid to talk about the baby, Sugar and Blair possibly considering putting the baby up for adoption, Kurt and Blaine caring for three more kids?

Disclaimer- glee belongs to Fox and Ryan Murphy.