35. Fucked up

This isn't your baby Shane. It's Philip. And there is a chance I am going to be with him. I have feelings for him. He's different from anyone I have ever meet. He takes care of me. Andrea was really going to leave me for this asshole. I could see them together outside his hands all over her. I thought I was going to throw up thinking about it. No way in hell was allowing this to happen. Philip had played his games going through her phone. Well, I could play games too. I drove my car to his house. I knocked loudly on his door.

"Shane, I have been expecting you," Philip smirked opening the door.

"Did you now? Andrea knows the truth about the messages. She knows you kept us apart," I yelled.

"It won't make a difference now," Philip said.

"Yes, it will. Andrea hates lies, and she loves me. You're time with her won't last," I answered.

"If you believed that you wouldn't be here. You'd be with Andrea now. But yet here you are," Philip said.

"I am not scared of you asshole."

"Maybe you should be."

"Like, hell. I could beat you to death," I promised him.

"I love to see you try. And I know why you here," Philip said walking outside.

"Why?"

"You want to tell me that you've have enough. That I need to stay away from Andrea," he answers, in an evil sounding tone.

"Fuck, yeah. It is enough," I said pushing Philip against the brick wall of his house. I can smell alcohol on his breathe. He's been drinking. Has Andrea already ended things with him too? Or is he an alcoholic too?

"I have enough too. I am not afraid to take out a threat," Philip said pushing me onto the ground. The ground is hard, but I am not hurt from the fall. We are two men fighting for what we think should be ours. But no one is backing down.

"You admit. I am a threat to your relationship with Andrea. Because I have know her forever. I grew up with her. I was her first boyfriend. Her first love. And she still loves me. She only with you out of pity," I said walking near him. I grab him and throw him on the grass.

"I was her first fuck. She's having my child. And the minute you two broke up, she was back with me," Philip grinned.

I started punching him in the face over and over. I see blood coming from his nose. Suddenly Philip overpowers me. He throws me down on the grass, and his hands are wrapped around my neck. He is choking me. I am losing air. Would he actually kill me outside in plain sight? I wasn't going to wait, and find out.

"Look, I am tried of these games. Andrea, made her choice. She's mine. That baby is mine. And there is no room for you in her life anymore. You had your chance. It's my turn," He said moving his hand closer on my neck. He let go and went back after him.

"You're unstable, a stalker, and I did a background check on you. I found out at your last job you were fired for sexual harassment. I wonder if I found a Maggie Greene, what would she say about you? What would she tell Andrea?" I said grinning.

"Fucking asshole. I am not losing Andrea or that baby. Especially, not to some cop with a power trip. I know what type of man you are," Philip yelled.

"No. I know what type of man you are. It's not good. Do Andrea a favor and stay away from her. And the baby too," I said heading back to my car.

"You stay away Shane. And keep your mouth shut. Let Andrea decided for herself," Philip said walking after me. I drove away. I knew I had scared him. But I wouldn't have to use the information about Maggie to get Andrea back. No, Andrea would see Philip for who he was without me saying anything.

36. Time

Telling Shane I needed time was hard. But telling Philip would be impossible, I thought as I drove over to his house. My tummy was starting to stick out just a little bit so I decided to wear this white sundress. None of my jeans were going to fit soon, I thought sadly. I unlocked Philip's door with the key he gave me and saw him laying on the sofa. He had been in a fight and even had a black eye.

"What happened?"

"Shane," Philip said as I walked over.

"You two have to stop these childish fights. It's not going impact who I choose," I said taking Philip's hand.

"Your kidding? He came over here with intentions of hurting me. Andrea, this Shane is dangerous. I get that he was your first love, but he is not the person you used to date. He is crazy."

" This coming from the guy who goes through my phone, and follows me around in his car," I said looking into his light brown eyes. Looking in his eyes I see passion and lust. Philip loves me, and loves this baby. He wants a family. To replace the family he lost. Another child to love. He had a daughter name Penny, but he never talks about her.

"I did that to protect you Andrea. This Shane is dangerous. I don't want him around you or our baby," Philip said harshly.

"About that. I know I said we were going to be together now, but things have changed," I said softly.

"What has changed?"

"You lied to me. I know you texted Shane for me. Why would you do that?"

"Because I knew you leave me if I didn't. Tell me it's not true," Philip said his hand touching my face.

"I don't know. I wish you could be honest with me. I do care about. You're easy to be with, and I always have fun when we're together," I said suddenly feeling overcome with desire. Just touch of his hand made me come undone. Get it together, I told myself.

"See let go of the past. Start a life with me," Philip whispered.

"But you can't trust me. How can we have a relationship with no trust? And I don't like the fact you went through my phone."

"I won't do it again. Don't leave me. I can't lose you, Andrea," Philip pleaded with me.

"This isn't about you. Or Shane. This is about me. I have decided who is best for me," I said.

"So what are you planning on doing?"

"I am telling you like I told Shane. I care a lot about you both. I mean I known Shane my whole life, and I have always loved him. He knows me so well. But then there is you. You have brought something in my life I never expected. Everyday with you is an adventure. And the sex is amazing. The relationships are both so different. I don't want to go back and forth. I have to make up my mind and stick with it," I said looking into his eyes.

"So what are you saying?"

"I need a little time," I replied.

"For what?"

"To make up my mind."

"Okay."

"You mean it?"

"Yes. Because honestly you admitted already I am the one you want. Shane's comfortable like a security blanket, but you said so yourself I more fun to be with. Deep down you know it's over with Shane. Once you have had some time to think it over I know you realize I the right one. Shane's not going challenge you like I will. He does not love you like I do. And that's our baby. We're a family," Philip whispered.

"Why did you go through my phone?"

"I didn't want him coming between us," Philip said grabbing me by the arm. He then wraps his arms around me, and I find myself running my fingers through his hair. He grabs my chin, and kisses me forcefully. I find myself getting wet down in my pants.

"How in the hell do you turn me on instantly? What is this power you hold over me?"

"You love me," Philip whispered. Maybe, I did. I wanted him for sure.

"I want you," I admitted.

"I aim to please," Philip said removing his belt. I watched as he unzips them, and removes the rest of his clothes. I lay down on the sofa, and remove my panties. Philip smiles as he walks over to me. He grabs my legs and starts thrusting himself deeply into me. He pushes harder and harder. I look into his light brown eyes that are glowing with possessiveness. He is sending me a message that I am his, and for the moment he is right.

I close my eyes as pushes himself more deeply inside me. He is so forceful, and so in control. I love it. I came over to tell him I needed more time, and this is what happens. What was this power he had over me? Philip moves harder and even faster. I enjoy every movement. He pushes into me one more time as he climaxes.

"Wow," I said laying in his arms.

"You still love that," Philip breathes.

"Yes, too much," I admitted.

"You are going to be so sore," Philip said softly.

"Maybe, a little," I smiled.

"Would you like to get something to eat?"

"Actually, I should probably get going," I said knowing what I said did was wrong. I had given Philip false hope.

"Stay," He begged.

"Allright. It's getting pretty late," I said laying back down on the sofa with him.

"Good girl," He whispered as I fell back into his arms. Had I made my choice now? Was it Philip? Would I ever get a chance to really think this decision out? I had time, I thought closing my eyes.