BPOV-
''I just don't think that we can fully trust him,'' I explain to Kurt, closing the refrigerator, setting the eggs on the counter.
It's the third week of August, and the first day of school for Jacob and Jade. Liam and I start next week, and Grace will go back to daycare when I go back to work.
''I know,'' Kurt cracks an egg into the pan ,''I don't either. He crossed a major line, and he knew what he was doing.''
Kurt cooks the eggs while I get started on the pancakes, ''So why did we forgive him?''
We'd been sitting on the Adam issue for months now, only really talking about it now, after their talk in June.
''Because you can forgive, and not forget. I just don't think it's good to hold onto that kind of negativity. I forgive easily, but I don't necessarily trust everyone I've forgiven,'' I put some pancakes onto a place, avoiding Kurt's gaze.
''We have been married for over a year and a half, and I still don't understand how you can be so loving,'' Kurt smiles, putting the eggs on a plate ,''I don't always understand why you're so easy going about some things, but I guess that's because I can be high strung.''
''We balance each other out,'' I agree, starting to make new pancakes.
''Good thing, too. Because I'm not sure I could do this with just anyone,'' Kurt presses a quick kiss to my lips ,''It's six. We'd better get the kids up.''
''I've got them,'' I put the last batch of pancakes on a plate, and head towards Jade's room.
She's already up, standing in front of her bed and surveying the clothes she has laid out.
''Honey, what are you doing,'' I ask, and she shrugs before looking up at me.
''I'm officially a teenager. I don't want to dress like a little kid anymore,'' she sighs, turning back to her clothes ,''Do you think Blair will take me shopping when she's off again?''
''I'm sure she will,'' I nod ,''For now, breakfast is ready. Can you wake Grace and Liam? I'm gonna go get Jacob.''
''Of course,'' she beams, walking out and to the nursery.
We'd moved everything Kurt needs to his studio, making that room Jacob's room.
''Hey, buddy,'' I gently shake Jacob ,''Jake, wake up.''
The five year old yawns opening his bright eyes ,''Morning, Blaine.''
''Morning, buddy. Breakfast is ready. It's your first day of kindergarten. You don't want to be late, right,'' I ask, and he shrugs ,''Well, Kurt and I made eggs and chocolate chip pancakes.''
''I'm up!,'' Jacob practically bounces out of bed, running towards the kitchen.
''Walk, don't run,'' I call after him.
Liam, Jade, and Grace are already at the table when I get there, chewing on the chocolate chip pancakes.
''Hey, cutie, keep the chocolate on the fork and not your cheeks,'' I kiss Grace's head, wiping her cheeks
Grace seems to be growing faster than she really is. She knows her alphabet pretty well for a two-year-old, and she can recognize basic colors. She's potty trained, and, even though she definitely has her days, Grace is a pretty simple toddler for the most part. She's gotten used to the idea of sharing, and hasn't had as many temper tantrums as she was this time last year.
''First day of school,'' Kurt smiles, ''Are you excited?''
''Very. Eighth graders get to do everything!,'' Jade explains ,''dances, pep rallies...''
''Irritate their older brothers with their energy,'' Liam mutters, gently tugging on his sister's ponytail.
''Hahaha,'' she rolls her eyes, turning to her pancakes, ''You're irritating, too.''
''Alright, you too,'' I smirk before turning to Jacob ,''And you're excited for kindergarten?''
''Mhm,'' he nods ,''I get to learn to read and write.''
''Well. hurry up and eat. You still have to get dressed,'' Kurt reminds them before eating his own breakfast.
''You going to be okay,'' I ask Jade, holding Jacob's hand as he, Kurt and I stand outside of her classroom.
''I'm fine. I'll see you at the end of the day,'' she smiles at us, giving us a hug before going in.
I'd met her teacher before, when I was looking at school's with Blair. I'm not worried; Jade's a smart girl, and I've heard nothing but good things about Mrs. Mitchell, her homeroom, math, and science teacher. ''Okay, buddy,'' Kurt smiles as we walk towards the elementary school ,''We'd better hurry. Class starts in thirty minutes.''
The kindergarten is hectic, five and six-year-old's running around while their parents attempt to calm them down and introduce them to the teacher.
''Hello,'' a young woman who looks to be in her mid-twenties begins ,''I'm Ms. Simon. I'll be your son's kindergarten teacher.''
''Hello,'' Kurt beams ,''This is Jacob. Say hi, honey.''
Jacob waves, hiding behind my leg.
''Jacob, I'm really nice. Come on, why don't you help me get the paper for our first activity,'' she asks, reaching for his hand ,''Say goodbye to your dads.''
''Bye, Blaine and Kurt,'' he smiles shyly before following his teacher, holding her hand tightly.
''Bye, honey,'' Kurt says ,''We will see you at three.''
''Don't worry,'' I take Kurt's hand, walking towards the car.
''I know we've barely known them a year, but it feels odd. They're growing up so fast,'' Kurt speaks exactly what I'm thinking.
''Well,'' I begin, squeezing his hands ,''I'm proud of them.''
''Don't get me wrong. I am, too,'' Kurt amends ,''But it seems like they grow up so fast. Grace is turning three, Liam and Jade are teenagers, and Jacob is five. And our two oldest have already moved out.I'd thought they'd be staying with us a few years, but to each their own.''
''We both moved to New York straight out of high school,'' I remind him ,''And they've matured. They know what they're doing, I think.''
''True,'' he sighs ,''We'd better get home. Maybe we can take Liam and Grace somewhere.''
The thing about being a parent is that, as much as they want to grow up and as slowly as it seems to be happening for them, it all seems to be going too fast for you.
Which is why you just enjoy it while you can.
RyderPOV-
''Hey,'' I look up at Blair as she sets the car keys on the counter, ''Where's Noah?''
''He's taking a nap,'' I explain as she walks over to the couch, and I pull her onto my lap ,''So, how was work?''
''It was great. Jake stopped by. He's got a job working at a NYADA owned dance school, and it helps pay for tuition. He talked to the owner, and he said I could work their on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday's, when I'm not at the diner. And it will look good when I apply for NYADA.''
''What about Noah,'' I ask her, and she smiles brighter.
''Ms. Corcoran said she'd watch him at the daycare, for a discount. It's way less than what she charges her Broadway clients,'' Blair tells me, ''Ryder, we really need the money. We're barely making it work.''
That's true. The bills are one thing, but we have a baby to take care of, too. If my parents weren't paying for my classes and helping with the apartment, there's no way we could do this.
''I understand. Look, you have given up a lot, and I think you deserve something that you really want. But when you get stressed out to a certain extend, it doesn't end well,'' I remind her.
I promised Kurt and Blaine I'd take care of her when she can't take care of herself, and I really don't want her to end up in the hospital again.
''If it gets to be too much, I will take care of it. But I have to do this, Ryder. Not just for me, but for Noah. He's our number one responsibility,'' she moves her hair from her face, staring me in the eyes ,''I'm telling you that I'm going to try it, and I want your support. I love you, and I support your dream. I think you should do the same for me.''
''You're right,'' I nod, ''I'm sorry. You know I love you. And I'm obviously going to help with Noah. So, yes, I support you. When do you start?''
''This Saturday,'' she presses a kiss to my lips ,''Thank you. I love you so, so much.''
''I love you, too. And,'' I move some hair from her face when she straddles my waist ,''I know it won't happen for a few years, but I can not wait to marry you.''
''I can't wait to marry you. Now, we haven't kissed without our son crying in months. I say we make the most of this,'' she laughs, bringing her lips to mine again.
None of this has been easy, not that we thought it would be. But Blair's determined, and that makes it even better for me. As lame and overused as it may sound, she makes me stronger. I'd do anything for her and Noah.
This past year hasn't been easy, and I know I didn't make it easier for her. Between Penny, and Noah being born so early, we've had more strain on this relationship than we did in high school.
I'm not worried. If Blair and I would have to break up, we'd reluctantly do it. But I know it won't come to that. Even if only her parents believe in us, it's enough for me.
And I know it's enough for me, too.
Good news for Sugar and Rory in the next chapter!
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