63. He's gone

I am at the hospital waiting for new of how Shane is doing. I feel like I have waited forever. It's only been a few hours. I have called my mom and they are going to bring Emily home early. I look at my cell phone, I think about calling Philip to wait with me. I don't. Because part of me thinks he is responsible. Finally, the doctor walks in.

"Andrea, we have done everything we can. He did not make it," He says calmly.

"No, it is not true. Shane is fine," I said screaming.

He could not be gone. Not Shane. Not my true love. We supposed to start our new life together.

The doctor looks at me shocked, and walks off. I am losing it when, my friend Daryl walks in.

"Andrea, I came as soon as I heard. Everyone from our group will be here soon," Daryl said holding me in his arms.

"No point. He is gone. Someone killed him," I said burying my face in his chest.

"You think it was Philip? I know Shane said Philip threaten his life several times in the past."

"I don't know. He was upset about our move, but surely he didn't," I said taking a deep breath.

"You want me to take you home?"

"No, I can't go back there now," I said touching my tummy.

"You can stay with Beth and I tonight," Daryl said cradling me in his arms.

"Okay. I am going to find the asshole who did this and kill him," I whisper as Daryl helps me to his car. He says nothing, but looks at me forlornly.

64. NEVER

Things were not going as I planned. Killing Shane did not actually send Andrea running into my arms like I thought. She was actually angry when she first saw me.

"You did this, "Andrea said when I came to pick Emily up for my visit.

"Andrea, you know I have been cleared by the police. They are arresting his partner Nick. Shane knew he was selling drugs. Shane was going to report him. That's why Nick killed him," I said trying to calm her down. The second part of the story was true. Of course I was the one who actually killed Shane.

"Well, you wanted him dead. All the terrible things you said about him. I wish I could have all the time back I had with you. It was wasted time. I should have been with Shane. I never loved you," Andrea screamed.

I take her in my arms trying to calm her down, but she starts to hit me in the face. She is literally pushing me across the hall. God, she is tough and pissed.

"Andrea, please," I beg as she moves away from me.

"Philip, what am I supposed to do now? Shane has been dead for two months now, but it's like he is still here. He won't stop haunting me. We had this whole life planned out together. He was not supposed to die. He was twenty-six years old. Nothing wrong with him. He was perfect," Andrea says throwing herself on the floor.

I walk near to Andrea, but she won't let me near her.

"You need to eat something. Get some sleep. Shane wouldn't want you to be this like," I said calmly.

"What do you know about what Shane would want? He should not have went to work that night. I told him something was going to happen, and now he is dead. And it's my fault," Andrea said crying as she lays on the floor.

"No it's not. Look, I want to help you."

"Can you bring Shane back?"

"No."

"Well, that's all I want."

I pick up Emily, and walk near Andrea. Her face is bright red, and her clothes are ripped.

"You still have your daughter to think about," I tell her holding Emily where she could see her.

"Our daughter. And I want you to take care of her for a while. She'll better off with you and Lilly now," Andrea says getting me a bag.

"You packed her stuff?"

" Yeah. There's baby food, clothes, and diapers. Everything she needs," Andrea said handing me the bag.

She looks at me blankly, and realize without Shane I might well have killed her too. Even with Shane dead, I can not have her. And if I can't have her no one can, I thought harshly.

64. Weak

I gave Andrea a few days alone before I came back to check on her . What was I going to do with her? But really how did I expect her to react? I mean I had fantasy that if Shane was gone we would just instantly be a family, but deep down I knew it would not happen that way.

"Andrea," I whispered as I walked in the door. I could not believe it was unlocked.

There Andrea was in wearing one of Shane's tee-shirt holding up his gun. What was she doing with that gun? It didn't take long for me to figure it out. Andrea was going to kill herself.

"You here to stop me?" Andrea asks glaring at me.

"Don't do it," I said attempting to take the gun.

"Why shouldn't I? Shane's gone. This baby has no father now," Andrea said breathing heavy.

"You're pregnant?"

"Yes. I just told Shane the day he died about the baby. He was so pleased. And I can't do this alone. Not without Shane," Andrea said holding the gun.

"If you kill yourself the last part you have of Shane will die too. You don't want to hurt that baby. And you don't want to leave Emily without a mother," I reason with her.

"Well, what am I going to do now? I can't stay here."

"Come home with me," I said gently.

"I'll never love you. My heart belongs to Shane. I'll never love anyone else," Andrea said pointing the gun closer to her head.

"Please you can get through this," I said reaching out for her hand. She looks into my eyes, and drops the gun.

"I can't," She cries falling into my arms suddenly.

"You will be okay. I'll take care of you," I said touching her blonde hair and rubbing her back slowly.

"You are right Philip. I can't kill myself because of the baby. Shane's baby," Andrea said falling into my embrace. She not pushing me off or fighting me this time.

"Shane gave you a reason to live."

"Yes. And you did too. I can't leave Emily alone either. I am sorry for the screaming," Andrea says calming down.

"You're hurting. You can scream and yell all you want around me. I know what it's like to lose your spouse. To have the doctor tell you they did everything they could."

"Thank you. I know I look crazy. Were you serious when you said I could come to your house? I really need to get out for a few days," Andrea said rubbing her face. She is too weak, and needs me. She had not been this vulnerable since our first meeting at the bar. This was how I like Andrea. Helpless and easy to control.

"Of course. Let's go something for you to eat," I said taking her hand.

"You don't have to be so nice to me. I was not always kind to you," Andrea replies giving me her hand.

"I want too. You need someone now," I said calmly.

"If you hadn't gotten here when you did. You saved my life," Andrea says looking into my eyes.

I say nothing, but stare into her dark blue eyes. She is barely walking on her own. She is so fucking weak and that turns me on.

Andrea slowly gets in the car with me, and I know now she is mine again. Her head is resting on my shoulder. I would not have to wait long before I get her in bed again, I think to myself pleased. You won Philip. You are no longer a failure. You did not win fair, but you still won. No one would ever take what is mine again, I thought looking over at Andrea.

AN: That's the end. I hope you found it creepy and dark. Note this the only time Philip has beaten Shane. In Wildfire and Bound to happen Shane wins. The reason is because I believe Shane would beat the Governor with no problem! Anyways hope you loved it! I'll be working on more Shane/Andrea/Governor stories soon!