This chapter contains mentions of body issues and eating disorders.

BlairPOV-

''What do you think,'' I turn towards my computer, where I'm video chatting with Quinn.

''You look hot,'' she smirks, taking a sip of her tea.

It's mid-January, and Ryder has a job at Kurt's fashion show, where he will be introducing his new maternity line and Sugar will show her few designs from their spring line.

Kurt had hired the photographer that Ryder works for, but he has a wedding to take care of, so he sent Ryder. And Ryder, being Ryder and not wanting to be alone for five hours, begged me to go.

Which is why I'm wearing this black, longsleeved, bodycon dress.

''It looked better in the store,'' I turn back to the mirror, attempting to hide at least some of my cleavage.

''Blair, you look hot. You are fine. Now flaunt it,'' she tells me, ''I have to go, but call me tomorrow, yeah? I'll see you later, gorgeous.''

''Thanks, Quinn. I'll talk to you tomorrow.''

I sign off, setting my computer on the dresser before turning back to the mirror.

Kate had gone with me to get it, saying how well it looked on me. I'd believed her, confidently buying the dress.

Now I wonder where all of that confidence went.

''Stop doing this to yourself,'' I whisper to myself, running my hand down the curve of my hips ,''You're just as pretty as those girls.''

''Hey, beautiful,'' Ryder walks in from the living room, carrying a crying Noah, ''Noah, doesn't mommy look pretty?''

Noah is crying, as he has been for the past hour.

''Maybe I should stay with him,'' I take him from Ryder's arms, surprised when his cries turn to whimpers almost immediately ,''What's wrong?''

He lays his head on my shoulder, whining softly.

''Shh, it's okay. See, this is what happens when you miss your nap. Do you want mama to stay,'' I ask, stroking his black hair.

''I think he's going to sleep,'' Ryder explains ,''And you have to go. Please? Ms. Corcoran has no trouble watching him. He's just cranky form not having a nap. I need you to go. Please?''

Ryder's eyes are begging, and I know Noah is just tired from not having a nap. I also know the real reason that I don't want to go…

And it has everything to do with my own insecurities.

''Yeah,'' I grab his diaper bag ,''I'll take him down the hall, and you get the coats and your camera.''

I guess I can't hide behind my insecurities forever.

And I'm not gonna let them control me.

''You okay,'' Ryder asks as we walk down the hall of the venue, his arm around my waist as he holds his camera equipment on his other side.

''Yeah,'' I shrug ,''Why wouldn't I be?''

''You know you're beautiful, right? I overheard you talking to Quinn. Look,'' he reaches for my hand, ''We haven't had the easiest relationship, but you know I'm right here for you. I… even if we broke up tomorrow, you're always going to be a pretty big part of my life. I mean… we have had two kids together. It doesn't always seem like it, but I do love you.''

And there goes the man that I fell in love with.

''I love you, too,'' I smile, leaning into his hand when he presses the palm to my cheek ,''Come on. Let's go get everything you need set up.''

Ryder and I may not always be on good terms, but there are moments like this that make me glad we never really gave up.

SugarPOV-

''Stop it. Everything is gonna be fine,'' Rory tells me, putting his hands on my hips, ''I'm gonna call Kayleigh and check on the kids.''

Kayleigh has been staying with us for the past few weeks, until she has saved up enough money to get her own apartment. But she's been really helpful, willing to watch the kids during the day since she doesn't have classes until I'm home.

''Alright,'' I nod, noticing Ryder and Blair walking in and rushing over to them.

''Sugar! You look gorgeous,'' she smiles, giving me a hug.

''I feel gorgeous! And you look beautiful, too,'' I look at her dress, ''I love this on you.''

My dress is hot pink and fits perfectly, only adding to the confidence that has been radiating off of me since this morning.

''So no one's gonna say anything about how I look,'' Ryder huffs a bit, jokingly.

''Ryder, you look very handsome. I'm glad you are taking the pictures,'' I mend, smiling when he laughs.

''Thanks, Sugar. I'm gonna go set up, I'll see you two in a while,''' Ryder walks away, leaving me alone with Blair.

''That boy loves you,'' I tell her, looping my arm through hers and walking around, waiting for the room to fill up.

''How could you tell,'' she questions.

' ''The way he looks at you,'' I shrug ,''It's like Kurt and Blaine look at eachother.''

Or the way I sometimes find Rory looking at me, even if I don't always understand.

''Well, we have managed to stay together for four years. I'd say that's progress,'' she laughs a little ,''So, tell me something about these fabulous designs of yours.''

''Kurt let me put a few of my own in, but I mostly just helped with his teen girl line. He wants to expand, which is what the whole maternity wear idea started. It's not much of my own, but it's something.''

''And it's going to be amazing,'' Blair reassures me ,''I'm your sister, would I lie to you?''

''To spare my feelings, yes,'' I smile ,''Come on, I need to make sure that everything is running smoothly behind the scenes.''

''Before you do,'' Rory rushes over ,''The kids are just fine, she's feeding them now. I'm gonna go help Ryder, and you two can go talk about… whatever it is you talk about. I love you, Sugar. This is going to be amazing.''

Rory walks off, and I think I'm actually more in love with him than I've ever been. He's incredible, so supportive of me. And, damn, he loves our kids so much.

I don't know how we got this lucky.

''Come on,'' I take Blair's hand ,''Let's go make sure everything is running smoothly.''

This is actually happening: I'm getting further ahead in my career, little by little. Kurt features my designs, along with some from his interns, and someone may take notice. There will be a few celebrities here, and maybe I could be one of their stylists. Either way, my dream is coming true.

I've worked so hard for it, and I know it couldn't happen without my amazing family.

And Rory will be going back to school in the fall, when the kids can start daycare with Ms. Corcoran. Then he can finish school, and become a teacher, like he wants. Now I see what he means:

Everything really is going to be ours.

KPOV-

''Mr. Anderson-Hummel,'' a young man I recognize from a fashion magazine begins ,''Who are these pretty young girls?''

''My 'dates','' I smile, tightening my grip on Grace as Jade scoots closer.

Blaine is staying home with Jacob, who has a cold, and Liam.

So, I'm here with two of the most important girls in my life.

''And these are your daughters,'' he asks, taking his camera out ,''What are the names?''

''I'm Jade,'' she smiles.

''And this little cutie is my three-year-old, Grace Elizabeth,'' I explain and she waves but stays snuggled up to me.

''Hi!''

''Hi, cutie,'' the man laughs, ''Do you mind if I get a picture?''

''Not at all,'' I shrug.

Jade has never shied away from anything in the months that I have known her. So it is no surprise when she flashes a smile as bright as Blaine's is. And Grace loves getting her picture taken so much. It's amazing to think she's Blair's daughter, not Rachel's. The only surprise is how calm she is now, considering the tantrum she threw earlier after almost missing her nap.

''Thank you,'' the photographer smiles ,''I'm going to go take my seat.''

''I've decided that if you need me to go to anything else with you,'' Jade begins ,'' I'm available.''

''Come on,'' I laugh, leading her and Grace backstage ,''You just love having your picture taken.''

''True,'' she shrugs, unashamed as we walk to where the models are getting dressed.

Everything is going to change next month. Blaine and I will be taking care of four kids, and Jade, Liam, and Jacob will finally get a home with us.

''Kurt!,'' Blair beams, rushing to give me a hug.

And some things never change.

''Because it's not like I didn't see you last week,'' I kiss her head ,''But hello to you, too.''

''Hey,'' she smiles at Jade before taking Gracie from my arms ,''And hello to you, beautiful. Kurt, I think you need to talk to Sugar. She's having a crisis.''

''I'll be right back,'' I leave the three of them to go find Sugar.

''Kurt,'' she looks frantic ,''The lead singer of the band you hired has laryngitis. He can't sing, and they had to cancel. That's a good portion of this whole show gone.''

Shit.

Well, I can't panic in front of Sugar. That will only make things worse.

''Well… what do you suggest we do,'' I question, trying to come up with a solution myself.

''Well,'' she smirks ,''There is a singer in the family. About 5'2, curly black hair?''

I follow her eyes to Blair, then turn back to Sugar with a smile.

'''You are a genius,'' I wrap an arm around her shoulder as we head that way ,''Now we just have to convince her.''

Which probably will not be easy.

''She's good,'' Jade tells me later, when Blair has finished performing, and it is time for the show to start.

It actually didn't take much to convince her to help us out, but the fact that Sugar looked as if she might cry probably sealed the deal.

''She is,'' I nod, shifting Grace to my other knee when Jade lays her head on my shoulder, clapping along with the rest of the audience as Blair finishes her cover of a fast paced song.

''Now the show starts,'' Jade questions.

''Yup,'' move an arm so it's around her shoulder, holding her closer ,''Afterwards I have to stay at the party for a little bit, and then we can go home. And you can both sleep.''

She nods, moving closer as Grace lays her head on my shoulder.

I have no doubt that they will perk up once this show actually gets started.

''Hello,'' Sugar speaks into the microphone , ''And welcome to Kurt Hummel's fashion show. Today, he will be debuting his brand new maternity line, as well as the spring clothing from his Elizabeth line, which features designs from interns as well. Hope you enjoy the show.''

She exits the stage, sending me a smile as she takes a seat next to Rory and Blair.

''Kurt,'' Jade begins, looking up at me, ''I think I wanna be a fashion designer, too.''

''You can be whatever you want,'' I press a kiss to her head ,''Blaine and I are always behind you.''

''I know,'' she grins before turning back to the stage, where one of the models is showing a denim maternity dress that Sugar helped me design.

Sugar has gotten a lot better, I have to say. She's always had an interesting fashion sense, but her drawings are incredible now. She wants to be a stylist and designer, and I know she can do it.

And, in five years, if this is what Jade still wants to do I will help her, too.

Like my dad says, a large part of your own happiness can come from helping others.

''I have to talk to a few people,'' I tell Jade when the show is over, nodding towards the dessert table, ''Go get something, but stay where I can see you.''

Jade nods, rushing towards the table.

''Daddy,'' Grace looks at me, attempting to stand in my lap and wrapping her tiny arms around my neck.

''And how can I help you, Miss Grace,'' I ask, and she presses a kiss my cheek, lying her head on my shoulder.

Obviously, someone's ready to go home. I don't blame her, it is eight, and her bedtime is at eight-thirty.

''I love you,'' she snuggles closer, and I kiss her forehead.

''I love you, too,'' I reassure her.

Blaine was right about one thing: Grace has me wrapped around her little finger, just as much as Jade and Blair both have do.

And Liam and Jacob practically idolize Blaine, and I can see why: when Liam wanted to learn how to box, Blaine was willing to teach him. And Jacob made Blaine promise him that he would teach him how to play baseball as soon as the weather gets warmer.

I never imagined having six kids, four of which who will still be living at home, but I couldn't be happier. I am raising the most wonderful kids with the most amazing man. My career is expanding more and more all of the time, and overall I'm just…

Happy. Something I doubt I could have ever been with Andrew, or even Adam.

To be honest, I mean it when I say that Blaine saved me from myself. I was a wreck, destined to keep falling deeper and deeper into a dark abyss. If I had not met him… I have no idea where I'd be.

That's all behind me, and the past is in the past. Chase, Andrew, Adam… they are so inconsequential. My past may have been darker before Blaine, but I see nothing but good things ahead now.

And I know the best has yet to come.

RyderPOV-

''That's the last of it,'' Blair hands me the last bag of my equipment ,''Ready to go?''

''Excuse me,'' a woman in a grey dress comes over ,''Are you Ryder Lynn?''

''I am,'' I nod, ''May I help you?''

''I am Mrs. Graybeck, I believe we spoke to each other on the phone,'' she continues, clarifying everything.

''Right,'' I smile ,''And this is Blair, my wife. I mean fiancee'.''

''Hello,'' Blair holds out her hand, shaking Mrs. Graybeck's.

''Hello, Ms. Anderson. I am the recruiter from NYADA's dance and vocal program, for students who are interested in pursuing both in their careers. And we want you to join us next year.''

Blair's eyes widen, and she tightens her grip on my hand, ''H-how did you even find out about me?''

''Jacob Puckerman is in the program. He recommended you. I spoke to Mr. Lynn over here, and I am very impressed with you. You've studied dancing since the age of five, and have a beautiful voice as well. Very talented. Your grades must be impeccable, if what Mr. Lynn and Mr. Puckerman said are true. I understand that you suffered from an eating disorder, dealt with a teen pregnancy, and managed to stay in the top half of your class. I, along with the rest of the NYADA family, admire perseverance. Speaking from experience, I know how hard it can be to balance school, trying to recover from an eating disorder, and being a teen mother. At NYADA, you will get the chance to explore different dances, from different cultures, and train with some of the best NYADA has to offer. Your acceptance is not yet guaranteed, I will still need a written essay and application. But we want you, and are willing to help with the cost of tuition, and NYADA has a fantastic day care that is opened to staff and students. Here is my card, please contact me.''

''Thank you so, so much, Mrs. Graybeck,'' Blair beams in excitement, ''I'll send the application in as soon as possible.''

''Don't thank me just yet,'' she laughs lightly ,''Your talent and hard work have got you this far, Jake and Ryder just recognized it. This is a good guy right here. I hope you to hold onto each other. Well, I'd better be leaving. Blair, I hope to be hearing from you soon. It was nice meeting the two of you.'

''Nice meeting you as well,'' Blair tells her before turning to me ,''You and Jake did that for me?''

''You've given up a lot, Blair. And I know things haven't been easy for you, but you haven't completely given up. You're willing to help me reach my dreams, it's about time I help you.''

She looks at the card with Mrs. Graybeck's number, before wrapping her arms around my neck, kissing me.

''What was that for,'' I ask when she pulls away.

''For believing in me, even if I can't always believe in myself,'' she replies, taking my hand as we walk towards the coat check, ''I love you. A lot.''

''I love you, too,'' I wrap an arm around her

It's funny. A few years ago, I couldn't imagine myself with anyone other than Jordan. Every time I thought about moving out on my own or starting a family, it was always with her.

It's funny how life doesn't work out the way you want it to, but instead it turns out the way that you need it to a lot of times.

Jordan and I breaking up may have been the best thing that ever happened to me, because it's the reason that I met Blair. The reason that I am raising a child with the girl of my dreams, and helping her reach her own goals at the same time. It's not easy, and it never will be as easy as I wish it was, to raise a child when we're still barely children ourselves, supporting our family, and trying to make it through school.

But it will all be worth it in the end.

BPOV-

''What is this show even about,'' Liam asks from his chair.

Jacob and Liam are both sick, so I stayed home with them instead of going to the fashion show with Kurt.

''I haven't the slightest idea,'' I admit, holding Jacob closer as we lounge across the couch ,''But Jake likes it.''

''It's funny,'' Jake nods, and I run my hand through his hair before touching his forehead.

''How do you feel,'' I ask him ,''Do you still feel hot?''

Jacob's temperature had risen, so I gave him some medicine and tried to calm him down.

''No,'' he cuddles closer, eyes slipping closed ,''Just tired.''

''Then go to sleep, buddy,'' I pull the blanket around us ,''Don't worry. I've got you.''

I'd do anything to protect my kids.

With a yawn, Jacob lays back down and slowly drifts off to sleep.

''So,'' I speak to Liam quietly ,''Are you feeling any better.''

He shrugs, eyes trained on the television,'' My head is better, this cough and stuffy nose irritate me, but I'm fine.''

''Good,'' I nod towards the kitchen, ''We do have some medicine, though. You can take that if you need to.''

''Thanks. But I think I'm gonna follow Jacob's leave, and take a nap until Kurt, Jade, and Grace get home,'' he leans back in the chair, closing his eyes ,''Goodnight.''

''Goodnight,'' I smile before turning back to the cartoon on the television.

This time next month, Jade, Liam, and Jacob will officially be apart of the Anderson-Hummel family. Kurt and I love them already, of course we'd do anything for them.

And they are so unique, such different personalities. Honestly, it is just nice to have kids around. Even with Grace, the apartment was quiet with Blair and Rory gone. Now, it's just the way Kurt and I want it: alive with the sounds of our family.

It's amazing, really. Chase and I didn't want the same things, but Kurt and I seem to always be on the same page. And he is such a great dad. He loves these kids more than he loves his own life, and I think that's part of the reason that I keep falling for him everyday.

This time next month, I will have officially welcomed three more people into the family. And maybe, when Jade is in college, Kurt and I will adopt again. Maybe not. Maybe we'll move again. Either way, I know a lot of changes are coming our way. I'm not worried, though.

Because change can be such a good thing.

I am thinking they will take the kids skating in the next chapter :)

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