She was back in her own clothing. It was a relief but a part of her missed the silk pajamas, they were different than what she was used to. Soft, warm, and they smelt like a spring day. Whatever laundry detergent Regina used made her want to roll around in them all day. She might have if Henry hadn't run off. Why did he want to spend the day with Hook? Was he really that desperate for a male role model that he was willing to settle for him? Why not David? He was family after all. Regina was probably thinking along the same lines as the listened to Henry speak.
"I just wanted to see the ocean! Hooks not always acting like a pirate he can be pretty cool. Look what he gave me!"
Henry reached into his pocket to show a compass.
"I learned how to use it and he even let me look through his telescope!"
"But Henry dear you should have asked us first."
"What so are you two teaming up on me now? I wanted you two to get along but I didn't mean for you to gang up on me."
"Kid that's not what's happening here. We were worried .You don't know how dangerous it is out in the sea. Hook and his buddies are drunk half the time..."
"Yes and if you were to get hurt, or something were to happen, we would have no way to reach you or even know. We love you."
He looked between the two of them incredulously. Both of their expressions just pleaded with him to understand, he suddenly did and hung his head.
"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to upset you guys I just really really wanted to go out . I thought if I left a note it be okay."
"I'm happy that you at least let us know...but please next time just understand we are only doing what's best for you." Regina placed a hand on his shoulder and she felt her heart swell with pride. She was so cut out to be a mother. Yeah she was strict but she loved him and maybe she could let loose a little more often. That whole making your bed and keeping your room spotless felt a bit much. She didn't even do that.
"Okay."
"Good now. Go up to your room. I'll call you when lunch is ready. Right now I need to speak with Emma."
He nodded and ran up the stairs, casting Emma a good luck glance. He didn't know though that what she was intending to speak about wasn't about parenting skills. God this was so soon. She just jumped through one hoop to reach another.
"Emma." Regina was looking at her expectedly had she said something?
"Come...let's go sit."
She nodded and swallowed the bitter taste forming in her mouth. Why was she so anxious about this? Regina understood this, she wouldn't push.
They sat down in her study and Regina Poured herself a drink. She tilted her head towards an empty tumbler silently asking if she wanted one as well.
"Please." It came out as a rasp and she internally cringed at the sound.
She watched Regina pour the drinks, smooth and elegantly. She even did a little flick of her wrist as she topped them off. She told herself it definitely wasn't sexy and that the dress currently hugging her hips wasn't making her even more insanely attractive. Watching her had made her momentarily forget what Regina intended to discuss.
"The man who attacked you. Do you know him?" And now she remembered.
"No."
She grabbed the offered drink and took a much larger sip than she originally intended.
"As much as I know you don't want to discuss this Emma, I think it will help to move on..."
She didn't want to remember, but if that meant moving past it she would and Regina was being so understanding. Supportive even...
"Okay."
"Just start from the beginning. " Regina smiled softly at her and somehow it gave her the extra push she needed.
"I was patrolling... " She really didn't want to tell her any more than that but Regina had already seen her at her worst. What more could happen? "He was acting strange, he had his hood up, very jittery so I got out of the squad car to investigate. I had my gun drawn but I wasn't expecting the guy to be waiting for me around the corner. He knocked it out of my hands the moment I turned it."
Soon it all came pouring out and Regina listened. There wouldn't be any judgement from the brunette. She became absorbed in the memory of that night, detailing the encounter as she stared into her glass, watching it unfold within the liquid.
"He anticipated my every move, he had me pinned beneath him...he said things to me...horrible things. They made me angry but I couldn't push him off. Regina I was fighting him off for so long...I couldn't have him do what he wanted to do. " Her voice cracked at the thought and she pulled herself from her glass. The emotions of that night came flooding back to her, surging forth the fear, the shame, and anger. When she blinked back the tears she got a real glimpse of Regina's face.
She looked like she had seen a ghost.
It must have registered that she stopped speaking as Regina suddenly snapped out of the expression.
Her hand started to tremble, and from where she sat she could see how short on air she was. As tightly as Regina gripped the tumbler she couldn't keep a steady grip. It fell to the floor shattering into a dozen pieces, exploding like a bomb in the quiet room.
"I-I must've had too much. Sorry if I startled you."
Regina stood quickly to fetch a broom and rag. The act didn't hide how badly she was affected by her story. It was too painful to watch, one sweep after another her hand a quaking tree limb. There were more important things than a mess on her study floor. Regina hadn't gotten over her own pain, she could see this now and wished she had noticed it sooner. They both needed to move on. She was by her side the instant she felt her chest tightening, and she placed her hand on Regina's arm holding the small hand broom.
"I should have been more thoughtful..." She breathed pulling away the cleaning tool. Regina didn't fight it, she had barely been holding on to the handle as it just fell into her hand. "tell me what happened Regina..."
The brunette blinked and her face cracked once more, turning into an expression full of sorrow. It had her drawing the brunette quickly into her arms. Here Regina felt safe enough to speak.
"Emma I never told anyone...I couldn't but you can. I want to help you. I need to..."
Regina's frame shook against hers, and it was making it hard for her not to breakdown with her. Be strong Emma she reminded herself she needs you just as much as you need her.
"Regina you have already... So much."
"Emma." Regina dragged a hand up along her back to grab desperately at her curls. "King Leopold wasn't a very good man. He put up a good act for the people." Regina shuddered, and now the tears were coming. Hot streams, streaking down her cheeks smudging her mascara and reddening her eyes. This wasn't the Regina that could help her this was the Regina who needed help. She would be the one to help her and return the favor.
"Whenever he wanted it I had to...he would threaten to kill my horses. My magic wasn't what it is today...and as his wife I was obligated. It wasn't gentle...and most of the time-" Regina's breath hitched and she held onto her tighter. "It was like he was attacking me. My protests meant nothing to him...I know how it feels to be so helpless."
"Regina. I'm sorry. I - can't even imagine... you're so strong."
A bitter laugh left her.
"I wasn't strong enough then..."
"But you are now. More than I have been. God Regina you're just so amazing."
"Emma..."
"No. Really. I wish I was at least have as brave and strong as you are...teach me magic Regina. I want to learn."
Regina didn't say anything and she feared she just put Regina in a bad place, like she felt she had to say yes. "You don't have to Regina. I just thought-"
"Yes."
"Yes?'
" Yes I'll teach you." Regina pulled back from their embrace and she let her arms fall to her side. "Just promise me you'll listen."
"I promise I'll listen." She smiled a watery smile at her and Regina returned it.
"I think we'll have enough to go off of for your case..."
She nodded and Regina went back to pour herself a new drink.
"And Emma this little...episode never happened." Regina was ashamed but she had no reason to be. Still because she asked she would.
"What episode?"
Regina whipped around, baffled by her daftness but then she saw the smirk on dancing on her lips.
"Never mind." Regina sipped her drink, smirking just as coyly into the rim.
