It was July now and I was due in just under a month, my bump had really grown since my graduation and I know looked about 7months pregnant. The burn in my throat was worse in this pregnancy, and I was craving blood so much. Carlisle thought it was because we found out earlier in this pregnancy but who knows. It was a really warm summer in forks this year, this was great for me, Jacob and jett as we could spend more time outside but not so good for my family who couldn't if they didn't want to sparkle. Jett was getting a lot better on his bike too, Jacob had been teaching him and he was getting his stabilisers took off today, which he was very happy about. We were sat on the front of the house, because it was to hard for jett to peddle on the grass, I was sat on the swing on the decking reading a book while Jacob helped jett with his bike.

"Okay buddy let's try this then" Jacob stood jetts bike back up once the stabilisers where off.

"Jake he needs his helmet on" I called over and Jacob smiled at me and picked jetts helmet off the floor and put it on his head and fastened it on.

"Climb on then jett" jett climbed on the bike and Jacob kept hold of the bike while he started peddling.

"Look at me moma" jett called as he cycled around the driveway.

"I see you baby, well done" jett smiled.

"Don't let go dad" he said and Jacob laughed.

"I won't don't worry" Jacob kept hold for a few more moments till jett had the hang of it and let go.

"Jett look your doing it on your own" Jacob said and jett looked over to see Jacob standing near the porch step, he smiled then lost his balance and fell off the bike. My mother instinct jumped in immediately and I ran over to jett where Jacob was already seeing to him. Jett started crying and I kneeled down next to him.

"Did you hurt yourself?" Jett nodded and pointed at his knee, I rolled up his pants leg and his leg was all cut and bleeding. I froze. Jett was crying even more when he seen the blood but I couldn't move, I could smell the blood it was so sweet and fresh, it was obvious jett wasn't full human but his blood still smelled good. Jacob grabbed my arms and held me back and I was shaking my head.

"I've got to go" I stood up and started walking away from the house. I could hear jett crying and shouting of me but I couldn't I was crying myself now, and I could still smell his blood I was sickened by myself. I half walk half ran to the big house. When I got there I burst in and see my mom and ran over to her and burst out crying, she ran her fingers through my hair and tried to sooth me.

"Nessie baby what's wrong" I just cried more, I couldn't get the words out.

"Renesmee" dad said once he'd came downstairs. He was over to us in seconds and tried to stop me from crying too but I couldn't.

"Bella drop your shield" dad instructed and in a few seconds I heard him sigh.

"What is it?" Mom asked.

"Jett fell off his bike, cut open his knee, Nessie smelled the blood and well you know" mom stopped stroking my hair and forced me to sit up.

"Nessie you didn't hurt him did you?" Mom saying that made me cry more.

"Of course she didn't hurt him Bella" dad said defending me.

"Only because Jacob pulled me away, I don't know what happened to me! I almost drank from my son" I screamed and dad pulled me into his chest and soothed me.

"You didn't though Nessie, you would never hurt him" I eventually stopped crying and looked around to see my whole family stood there watching me.

"Jake called" Rosalie said and I looked at her.

"He said jetts fine, he wants his moma apparently" I nodded and wiped my eyes.

"Is jake mad?" She shook her head quickly.

"No he just hopes your okay" I nodded and looked over to the window.

"What time is it" I was shocked to see blackness outside.

"About 8" dad said and I nodded emotionless.

"You cried for 6hours Nessie" mom told me and I nodded again.

"I'm just going to go freshen up before I go home" mom nodded and I walked over to the stairs and up to Alice's bathroom, I ran my Hand over my bump and sighed. When I looked in the mirror my eyes where puffy and my face looked flusters and my hair was everywhere. I washed my face with cold water but it didn't really make much of a difference and went back downstairs.

"Do you want us to come with you ness?" Mom asked, obviously not trusting me to contain my thirst.

"No. No I'll be ok" she nodded and kissed my cheek before I left. On the walk back to the house my brain was on over drive I was trying to think how I would explain this to jett, why his mom ran off when he was crying for her. And Jacob what if he really was mad at me, I did almost drink his sons blood, I mean I'd be mad if I was him. When I reached the house I took a deep breath and walked over to the door, jetts bike was on the porch but I tired to ignore It and walked inside. It was so quiet, I could hear the TV on low in the living room so I headed in there. I pushed the door open and walked in. Jacob was just sat on the couch looking over at me, I didn't make any move to go closer to him though.

"I'm sorry" I squeaked and he shook his head.

"Nessie, I know you can't help it, I'm not mad at you" I nodded and looked to the ground.

"You've been crying" he said and I nodded again.

"What does jett think?" I asked

"He just thinks the baby made you sick, he wants to see you though"

"Where is he?"

"In bed" I nodded and walked out of the room and upstairs. When I went in jetts room he was sat up in bed. He had a single bed now as he was far too big for his crib now.

"Hey why aren't you asleep?" I asked and he shrugged.

"I wanted to see you, and I heard you coming home" I smiled and sat on his bed.

"Are you ok moma" I smiled and nodded.

"I'm fine baby boy, are you okay?" Jett nodded.

"Yep dad said I was a brave boy" I smiled.

"I'm so sorry baby I shouldn't of left" jett shook his head and patted my stomach.

"The baby made you sick, it's ok" my heart melted a little when he said that and I pulled him onto my lap and kissed his head.

"I love you my baby boy"

"I love you too moma" I cuddled jett till he fell asleep and I rested him down and crawled in behind him, I pulled him to me and cuddled him again till I also fell to sleep. I only woke up when the door was opened and the hallway light filled the room and see Jacob standing there smiling.

"Do you want to stay here tonight?" He asked and I nodded.

"Okay ill see you in the morning" I nodded again.

"I love you Renesmee" I smiled.

"I know jake, I love you too" he closed the door again and I rested my head back down and kissed jetts head and fell asleep again.