"No I didn't!" Snowie screamed.
"He told me you kissed him at the party too!" Jon yelled back.
"Well he's an idiot and was pretty fucked up." She said her mad turning into hurt.
The last year hadn't been all uneventful. Jon was now on the full time circuit for HWA and Snowie was just trying to make it as a sixteen year old. So far it had been going fine until Toby had gotten pissed off at her when he'd asked her to a party and she had said no. Jon had been at a match the next town over and she had gone to the party on her own. That had made Toby even worse. Not only had he told most of the entire school she had slept with Randy before he had moved but he had told Jon she'd been so wasted when he brought her home she made out with him for like ten minutes in his car.
"Jon. I didn't." She said weakly. Was it worth the arguing anymore? She didn't know.
Jon had changed over the last year so much it was like she wasn't even looking at the same person. The sweetness was gone replaced by the need to survive. She didn't know if it was the wrestling that had changed him or the fact that just before he became a main stay for HWA as a dark match competitor he had took over Laveron's drug ring. That is when he really became this new hard and almost cruel Jon. She set there on her bed staring at him trying to find her Jon. The guy that was at times her only friend and her rock. The only guy she swore she'd ever love. But it seemed that Jon was gone or hidden from even her.
"Why would he lie, to me of all people?" He ran a hand through his almost shoulder length hair.
"To hurt me. Because I've turned him down so many time in the last year. So why not tell you? It would be the best way to get at me." She stood up and pressed her hand against his solid chest. "Jon I would never cheat on you, especially not with Toby, of all people. I love you, you idiot, bit you've changed so much."
"What does that mean?" He pulled away from her.
"It means I don't know who you are. Hell I don't even think you know you anymore." Was she going to do this?
"I'm Jon. I live in Cincinnati, I'm a Sagittarius and my patients on a good day sucks. See I know me." He said sarcastically.
She turned away, how was he joking right now? Her eyes burned and she blinked back tears. She loved him more than anything. She'd loved him since she was eleven and he was twelve. But she couldn't do this, she couldn't stand back and watch her rock turn into a person she didn't know.
"I think we should break up." She blurted before she could stop herself. She didn't even turn around.
"Excuse me?" He was shocked.
She took a deep breath and turned around. "I think we need to break up. You can still live here and we can still be friends but…"
He interrupted her by turning and walking out the door. She stood there had she really just said the cliché we can still be friends line? She put her head in her hands and shook her head. Moron, she thought. Not only did she just break up with him she had to go all teenage drama queen. She jumped when she heard something crash in the other room, his room.
"Jon?" she banged on the door to be heard over the music that was blaring. "Jon!"
She tried the knob and it gave. She opened the door to a mess his bags were on the bed open with random things thrown in. He was in his closet. She walked over his stereo and turned it down.
"Don't do that." He said standing back up. She stood in front of it and he leaned into her and reached around to turn the volume back up. "I said don't do that."
"Why are you acting like this?" She yelled over the music.
He pushed her out of the way and slammed his fist into the power button on the stereo. She tried not to let her fear show, he had never scared her before not seriously. This side of him was terrifying. He paced away like a caged animal.
"Jon, talk to me."
His laugh came out harsh. "Talk to you? So you can tell me I'm not the same person? That I've changed?"
"No." She said softly. "You obviously know these things already. But I want to know why?"
He stopped and looked at her. "Because maybe I've realized something, okay?"
"That's not an answer you asshole!"
She stormed from the room. God help him if he tried to follow. He didn't though. She heard the front door slam shut. Her breathe caught in her throat and an emptiness that seemed like an old yet forgotten friend crept into her soul. Jon was gone. She knew it before she made herself walk to his room. Knew it before she forced herself to open the door and walk in. He was gone. Simple as that, the bags that had just been on his bed weren't there. Everything else was, he only took what he needed, he'd be back. She forced her mind to believe that, as she let out the sob that had been trying to force its way up her throat since she'd broke up with him.
Hope found her huddled in his old hoodie on his bed. She was asleep but Hope could tell she'd been crying. She shook her daughter gently and seen a tear fall from her lashed. Her sweet girl had cried herself to sleep and she didn't know why.
"Snowie? Honey, wake up." Hope set on the bed.
"Go away." Snow said into the pillow.
"Snow, what happened Baby?" She brushed Snowie's hair back from her face.
Snowie sighed and set up. She told her mother the story, every word brutally stabbing at her heart. She swore if she had to recant it one more time her heart wouldn't be able to stand it. She wanted to say that he left most of his things but after she had looked around last night he had only left things he never used.
"Oh Baby. I'm sorry I wasn't here."
"It's okay, mom. I mean really I just want to be left alone anyways." She looked at the bed side clock. "It's time for me to go to school anyways."
"I'll drive you. It's freezing out. Go get dressed and I'll make you a quick breakfast."
Hope and Snowie were guiet on the ride to the school. Hope didn't know what to say to a girl who had not only lost a boyfriend but a best friend at the same time and Snowie couldn't form words past thanks and welcome. She was lost in her little world. Where there had been Jon's smile as her sun and his eyes as her blue skies there was only dark and sad now. She told her mom bye and took one more look at herself in the mirror she could pass the red rabbit eyes off as allergies.
"What the hell happened?" Janie and Hanna were at her side before she had stepped onto the curb.
"I don't want to talk about it. Just suffice it to say Jon and I are no longer together." She bit back the tears. "And that's it."
"What? I need details. He wouldn't tell me anything last night." Hanna whined.
"And why would he? Some things you don't need to know, Hanna." She knew she shouldn't be so harsh with her friends but she didn't want to talk about anything.
Snowie walked away before they could say anything else. She seen Lisa by her locker the trashy hoebag smiled like she knew everything. Snowie barely resisted slapping her into next week. A note fell out of her locker. She opened it hoping it was from Jon at the same time hoping it wasn't. It read 'I'm sorry I'm a total asshole. I know I'm no good for you. I'll try my best to stay away. J.' She slammed her locker door and ran to the bathroom. She spent first period in a stuffy stall trying to breathe and not throw up.
"Snowie?" Hanna asked stepping into the bathroom. "Snowie?"
"What, Hanna?"
Hanna sighed and set in front of the stall door. "You missed class I thought you should know Jon changed his schedule."
"Figures." She threw the note under the door. "This was the reason I missed."
After reading it Hanna muttered, "That asshate."
"Not his fault, really. I'm the one that made him feel that way. Hanna I didn't mean too." She broke down.
Hanna wiggled herself under the stall door. "Ugh, I'm getting too fat and old for that." She joked and grabbed Snowie hugging her. "Will you tell me what happened, please? I'm not prying I just want to know so I can help my friends. You're hurting and Jon isn't himself."
"That's what I said." Snowie once again recanted her story feeling the knife twist in the pit of her stomach.
"I noticed he'd changed a lot but I thought it was just one of those guy things. I can't believe he was almost violent." The bell rang. "Let's get you cleaned up."
They were sitting in class Snowie was staring at the board in a dead stare. She was lost in her thoughts when she smelled his cologne. She knew she had to be dreaming. She looked up and he took his seat next to her.
"I thought you changed your schedule?" She whispered.
He shrugged. "Couldn't this one and she won't let me change seats, sorry. But I won't talk to you I promise." His voice almost cracked.
"That's not what I…"
"Good morning class." Mrs. Hammin walked into the room.
Snowie wrote 'That's not what I wanted. Please don't leave me totally' and passed it to him. He wrote back 'then why did you break up with me?' She sighed and tried to force back the tears but one fell onto their note. Shit! She decided to give up. 'Never mind.'
The day couldn't have ended any faster. Her mom was still at work so she had to walk home alone. Great, she thought, alone that's the way it should be I'm such a bitch. She heard a car behind her, it honked.
"Snowie get in." Jon pulled up beside her.
"No Jon. I'm fine."
"Damn it!" He jumped out and scooped her up shoving her in the cab. "You'll get sick walking in that light of a jacket."
"What do you care?"
"I'm not the one who broke up with you, remember?"
She stared at him. "Yes thank you, I do. Worst night of my life that I want to forget."
"Me too." He mumbled as he pulled away from the curb.
The ride was quiet. Once at her house she got out and said thanks for the ride. He drove off and she looked after him like one of those little dogs that their owner leaves on the side of the road. She went inside ten minutes later frozen to the core. She took a shower but when her limbs became too weak to hold her up she crumbled to the floor of the tube. Her tears mixing with the hot water. She finally got up when the water was cold and icy.
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P.S. now don't egg my house yet almost done with the next chapter but it was too much :D