I was actually dozing. I don't normally sleep, but I reckon Sandy probably felt sorry for me, or something, as the day after Christmas, the most relevant day of my life so far, I was asleep on the velvet chair. I woke suddenly when there's a tap on my shoulder. I look up to see Anna standing beside me. Was she always there? I frown.
"She's starting to wake," she tells me with mixed emotions. She looks happy for a split second, before realising what that means. I'd have to break the news to her.
Anna decided yesterday that she isn't going to open any presents until Elsa is awake. And here she is: waking after three days of unconsciousness. Will her memory be healed? Well, if not, at least I can slip quietly away without hurting her. I wonder how much this is going to effect her. I hope it's not a lot, because I really don't want to hurt her.
My heart is beating like a drill against my chest, and it's almost aching. My hands are trembling, and I hold the ends of my sleeves to try and steady them.
Slowly, my eyes wander to Elsa. In the morning light, she looks amaz– I blink. Where did that come out of?
Her hair almost glows as the sun shines down on it, and her long lashes catch the light. Her skin is pale, but is less sickly looking than it did when she first fell asleep. Under her eyes, if you look closely, there's freckles. And I have looked closely enough to see them. My stomach twists at the thought of her lips pressed against mine, and everything blurring around me, and the only thing in that moment was her.
My stomach erupts in butterflies, and I shift uncomfortably in my seat. I shouldn't be thinking about the kiss. It'll just make things harder than they are already going to be. But all I want to do is hold her hand and comfort her until she's okay.
Yesterday, when I took her hand in mine, I guessed that her memories definitely were coming back, as if she didn't believe in me, my hand would've slipped right through hers. I still remember clearly the ache in my chest as she walked right past me, not seeing me. It hurt a lot. She's my friend, and feeling as though I had lost her made me hurt inside.
Not being believed in is a sore point for me, anyway. Elsa not believing in me was a million times worse.
Elsa's eyes flutter open and I stare at her in awe. Even after waking, her eyes sparkle like the sun reflecting off of the ice. They're bea– they look pretty nice. I feel my cheeks growing warm.
Elsa looks at us all and she looks confused. "What are you all doing in my bedroom?" she asks. I can't help but grin. Anna and Kristoff chuckle, and Olaf pats Elsa's arm comfortingly. Something seems to dawn on Elsa, and her eyes widen. "No. Wait. I remember now!" immediately, she looks apologetically at me, but that makes me feel worse than ever. "I'm really sorry, Jack. I don't know what happened."
Anna looks between us uncomfortably. She must be able to tell how nervous I am. My hands are shaking, for crying out loud! "Don't be sorry," I reply quietly. Oh, god. I can't look her straight in the eye. Does she notice that I'm avoiding her gaze? Hopefully she'll just think it's from embarrassment about our kiss the other night on the balcony.
Our kiss– it sounds so weird in my head. I never imagined something like that would ever happen in my life. Anna coughs awkwardly, breaking the lingering silence between us all. "Well, you know... Uh... How're you feeling, Elsa?"
"Tired," she says with a laugh. "Lightheaded, mostly." She shrugs her shoulders.
"Anna, Olaf. I think it's time for lunch," Kristoff says. Man, I feel sick. I can't do this. I can't tell her– but I have no other choice. I can't just leave her with no explanation. "We'll be back soon, Elsa. Um..." He looks uncertainly at me. "Goodbye, Jack." He nods to me with a small smile.
I hear the finality in his voice, and I feel sad. These people are the first I've talked to and I'm leaving them behind. When I met them, I never thought that this would happen so quickly. Now, thinking about it, I'm glad Elsa took a risk and kissed me the other night on the balcony. At least I'll have something to remember, always. How can anyone forget their first kiss?
Anna can't help herself, and wraps her arms around me. I glance to Elsa and she looks at us confused. "Bye, Jack," Anna whispers. "Visit sometime in the future, when it's safe." I nod my head, but I know that wont happen. I don't want to come back and see Elsa, because it'll be hard. What if one day I come back and she's married to Joseph, or something? My blood boils at the thought, and I'm shocked by my anger.
"See you in a little while, Elsa," Anna says, turning to her. Elsa simply smiles at her, but I can still see that she's confused.
Olaf tugs at the bottoms of my worn out pants. I bend down so that I'm level with the snow creature. "You're a pretty cool guy. Before you leave you should suggest that Elsa makes me a lady friend. Or, make me one yourself."
"Before you what?" Elsa exclaims from her bed. I inwardly groan, damning Olaf for speaking so loudly.
I pat the guy on the head, and he follows Anna and Kristoff out of the room. Nervously, I stand back up, barely able to glance Elsa's way. She looks sick again, and I have a feeling as to why. She throws the covers off of herself, and steps out of bed. "Jack, what did Olaf mean when he said you're leaving?" she asks cautiously.
I scratch the back of neck nervously, and finally I look her in the eye. She does look tired. "Sit down, Elsa." I place a hand on her shoulder and carefully and gently put her back onto the bed. She doesn't complain, but she looks worried.
"Jack, tell me!" she demands, her voice a little higher than usual.
"I have to go, El," I tell her. "I'm sorry, but–"
"If this is about kissing you, then I'm sorry," she blurts out. Her cheeks go red, but she doesn't look away from me. I wonder if she can hear my heart beating? It feels like it's going to explode from my chest and rip itself up right in front of my eyes. "Don't go because of that. Forget about it– please, just don't go. I'm sorry." Her lower lip wobbles, and I feel awful.
I take her hand in mine. "It's not because of that," I assure her. "While I'm here, you're in danger, El. There's an evil man after you for your powers. I don't want you to get hurt."
Her eyes close for a second, and then she just stares at our hands locked together. I don't want to let her go, ever. "I think I know the man you're talking about," she mumbles. "I had a dream and he was in it." She shudders at the memory, and all I want to do is wrap her in my arms and reassure her that everything will be alright. But as long as I'm here, there's no guarantee that it will be.
"His name is Pitch Black," I tell her. "He followed me here. This is all my fault. I'm sorry, Elsa. I wish..." I frown. "I wish things could be different." And I don't just mean about the situation with Pitch Black. I mean everything: I wish I hadn't run off when she kissed me, I wish we were both mortal, or both immortal. I wish we could even be friends without any trouble.
Mortals and immortals shouldn't become friends. It sucks beyond belief.
"So do I." She looks up at me, and I'm tempted to kiss her again, just to feel all those emotions and feelings I had gotten when she kissed me. I want to feel the warmness coming from my very core, and I want to remember how her lips feel against mine forever.
I don't even realise I'm leaning forward slowly, until I can clearly see her freckles. I purse my lips, and I pull away quickly. What's wrong with me? Am I trying to make this harder than it already is?
Well, it's already hard... So where's the harm? My hand brushes her cheek, and I notice how watery her eyes have become. They close at my touch (and honestly, I'm quite shocked at my actions– but feelings do crazy stuff to people), and a tear falls down her face.
So, I decide to kiss her, because maybe I act on crazy impulses too, like she does. Also, I just really want to spend all my time with her. I have to leave, I don't want to regret anything.
Her lips are soft, and I find both my hands cupping her cheek. I close my eyes, feeling an ache in my chest. But I ignore it, and I continue to kiss her, not caring that the room around me begins to freeze– is she doing that, or me? I'm not sure. My mind is just wired right now.
She wraps her arms tightly around me, and I'm surprised because this kiss deepens a lot, and with each passing second I'm reluctant to let her go. We break apart for just a second, but we just kiss again. Her lashes brush my cheek, and a shiver runs down my spine. She smells of jasmine, and I feel myself completely lost in the kiss. My breathing becomes rapid, and my chest feels like it's going to explode.
"Please don't go," she whispers, pulling her lips away from mine. I don't open my eyes, because I don't want to see her with tears streaming down her face; I want to remember the feelings for as long as possible.
I rest my forehead against hers, and finally will myself to open them. Under my hands, her cheeks are warm, and I wonder if she's as flustered as I am. Probably.
"I'm sorry, El," I reply. She closes her eyes tightly, and her hands take mine, but she pulls them away from her face. She stands, and I stand too. The space around us is frozen, and I still wonder which one of us caused it, or maybe it was both of us.
"Then go," she says angrily. I blink in surprise.
"El–"
"I mean it. If you're going, then why delay any longer?" She walks around me, heading to the door. I go to grab her hand, but she pulls it away, looking purposely away from me. "Just... Please, just leave, Jack." Her voice cracks, and I long to comfort her.
But I'll just make things worse. I always ruin everything. "Goodbye, Elsa." She doesn't say anything. The ice grows more, so I step back, and then I'm walking to the balcony door. I take one last look at Elsa, even if I can't see her face. She stands straight, her head held high. But I see her hands shaking, and I know she's feeling too emotional right now.
With a sigh of regret, I exit the castle, and I jump over the ledge. I allow the wind to carry me, and I fly for awhile, until I feel too empty inside, so I land. And I land on the ledge where Elsa and I sat watching the dreams together. I've never experienced that with anyone else, and watching her face light up when she saw them made me feel great. And when she touched me, and told me she was my friend now, I feel a wave of emotions crash down on me. Mostly, though, I was surprised, and captivated by the warmth her touch brought me.
Right now, sitting alone, staring down at Arendelle, I just feel hopeless. I just hope that this will be enough to bring danger away from Elsa.
With a final look to the castle, I leave. I can't return here for a long time. How long will I be able to fight my longing? I shake my head. I'll have no choice but to fight it. This is for Elsa. I just wish she wasn't angry at me. I wish she could understand– I don't want to hurt her. I just want her to be safe.
Hours later, as the sun begins to set, my lips still tingle, and when I close my eyes, I can still remember clearly how her lips felt against mine.
I'm just torturing myself.
I need to forget her. I can't go back, and thinking about the kiss won't help.
It's only been a few hours since I've seen her, but already I miss her like crazy. I already feel the loneliness I felt before I met Elsa creeping back up on me.
Soon, I just feel empty inside. And in supposed to be the fun immortal– I scoff. I just feel drained, and I want to return to sleep again. It felt nice to close my eyes and forget the world, even just for a little while.
I just hope Pitch'll be desperate enough to follow me. He's always wanted me by his side, and I really hope his wish is big enough to follow me away from Elsa. If not, I'll return and freeze Pitch from the inside out, and watch him suffer. I purse my lips, shocked by my hatred for him. He's evil though, and I don't do evil. After all, I'm the good, fun immortal.
Honestly though, I just want to find Pitch and punch him in the face for taking away the only person I've ever cared about.
VeryBerry96: I HATE PITCH TOO ADSKJHASKD D: Same here! I love him in ROTG! :D Ahhh.. We shal l get though this together! When do you finish up? IN Ireland we finish up in May but our exams are in June for nearly the whole month! :| Is it the same in Scotland? Thank you!
Quillstrike: Ahaha, that's a lot of reveiws! Don't be sorry! They made my day! :D I'm happy you like the story :) Ha, you're welcome! Thank YOU for reading this/commenting! :) Fluff is the best! I apologize to your heart xD I haven't entirely decided if he's evil or not yet! I just added him for fun, but I'm starting to think more about his character, ya know?:) Ya. I was like.. She needs to 'let her hair down, or something', as Jack says xD Of course something bad is gonna happen- I'm all about that ;) School's the worst! :/ And now i have to spend an extra two hours there because I'm doing after school study! :| I don't mind because my Christmas results were just AWFUL D: Ya... College. Woo.. -_- Have fun tomorrow :P Nah, I'll say a prayer or something, even though I'm agnostic xD
Jelsa Fan:Same! Thank you! :D ya, I love adding drama to stories xD It's fun :D I'm glad you like it :D
Loraine109: A quiz? I'd probably lose, even though it's MY story :L I'm terrible at quizzes! xD Sounds fun, though! Thank you!
Melanie44: Aw, thank you! I'd check it out, but for some reason your name isn't linked... D: Anyway, that's cool. I bet it's amazing!:D Well done for winning second! :D I shall! Thank you!:)
Smiley: Yay! :D IKR? Jack's an idiot.. -_- oasdhkjasdh TELL YOUR COUSIN I SAID THANK YOU! My site? What site? :) Yay thank you! And your cousin! That's really nice :)
WhiteSheWolf17: ROTG WAS MY FAVOURITE ANIMATION BUT NOW I'M CONFLICTED BETWEEN IT AND FROZEN! Frozen is such an amazing piece of animation! It's probably the best I've ever seen Disney produce... :O Ya! Same here! I mean, I liked Tangled, but I fangirled so much over Frozen! I'll be 17 soon :) AREN'T THEY THOUGH? THEY'RE MY NEW OTP (after Percabeth...) :D Thank you so much! :D
livelaughloveNarnia:*grabs punching gloves too* Let's knock him out together:) aha, sorry xD
JelsaLover: Whoops xD Sorry for the wait:) Aw, yay! Glad you liked it so easily! :')
kagirnai-Eternal:Don't worry! I have stories I haven't worked on for ages either! :L Effort, though!:) Ah, you shall see! :D
DragoWolf: Welp, you found out.. xD Hope it was fine :D Bless you for that! :D
Guest: akdjhasdkj aw, thank you! That made me happy! Visa versa, of course! :')
ELLE555: Yay! I'm glad you think so.. I was kind of like, kasjdhasjkd, when writing it! But I'm glad you liked it :D I hope the end of this chapter explained why- as he's hoping Pitch will be desperate enough to want him on his side that he'll follow him. So, hope that's good enough of a reason to leave... eh. Not really, but *vomits* YOLO? ;D I know! I'm sorry for doing this! xD ... I could do another plot twist and NOT do that. though... Nah, messing! Of course I'll have to get them together again! Aha, I feel evil rn because I know what I'm doing for the next few chapters ;D
Annoyed? Just a little bit, of course. Our government is asjdnskajd. I mean, they're not gonna shut down like certain countries *looking at you, America* but they are messed up. They say we're done with the bail out though, and are slowly coming out of the recession... But, whatever. There's still no jobs for me here after school *sigh*. Ya, where I am is fine. The worst that'll happen is a power cut from the heavy downpour and strong winds. I'm not anywhere near the coast, thankfully! Rivers are flooding their banks, though! And another storm cloud is heading this way and is gonna hit tonight, apparently... I hate this damn weather! :L Oh my god! That'd be so awesome- but I'm a loser. You don't want to know me. I'm just a nerd and will just fangirl a lot. :L I don't know what prep school is. we don't have those in Ireland (or Europe, I think). Man, my grades just went downhill this year. I was put on medication THE WEEK BEFORE MY CHRISTMAS EXAMS AND THESE PILLS MAKE ME DROWSY SO I WAS AKSJDHASKJ DURING THE EXAMS AND of course, I also didn't study because I really don't care about school. But I'm trying to do better for myself, so Imma start studying :D Aw, don't sweat it. :) Oh, jeez! I'll light a candle for you! D: AJKDH!¬ I have to do my CAO before January 21st, and then I have to make myself a CV for a job, and then I have to start building up my portfolio for the animation course! And then I have to practice my fiddle like crazy and practice speaking Irish outloud because I have my music practicals and Irish Orals for my Leaving Cert in March! D: akjsdhaskjd too much to do!
Sikipereclosha: Gracias! Estoy utilizando el traductor de google, así que lo siento por el mal espanol. De todos modos, gracias por la revisión!:) Debe ser horrible para leer algo en un idioma que no es su primer idioma! D: Gracias!
Hey! :D So, tomorrow is my last day of freedom and I still have to do my English essay, and my two Irish letters! I finished my biology! :D But, I'm a procrastinator ! D: Bar my face, it's one of my biggest flaws! :L
Anyway...
FOR THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS I'LL BE DOING TIME JUMPS- Like, I'll be skipping... weeks, months, etc. We shall see how long I decide when I'm touching up! :)
Please let me know what ye think!
Disclaimer: I do not own, nor do I claim to, ROTG & Frozen.
All rights go to Dreamworks and Disney!
Thanks! :D