33. I Want To See You

She almost wished that it wasn't a dream. That her reality wasn't real, that she and the other delinquents weren't trapped inside the enemy's lair or rather the enemy's mountain, and the she and the other kids were back at the camp with the others. She missed everyone and wanted nothing more to just walk out that mountain and head back to camp in order to see them all again. Most of all she wanted to see Bellamy again, hug and kiss him, and never let him go again. However even in her dreams she knew that she had to think about the kids before she could leap into her own selfish desires.

So Clarke opened her eyes, since she was unable to rest in peace and didn't want to dream about the people she longed to see, and sat up in the bed and stared around the room. The room was pitch dark, but she could still see outline of the white walls in the room. Still it didn't matter because the room only reminded her of the last visit in the mountain where they had just started to torture her in order to get the information about the Grounders. She had not been very specific on details about that incident to Bellamy, because she was very ashamed to admit it to him and even more so to herself. Anyways when she had refused to bow down and confess to anything they would at first simply leave her alone in a dark room, where no light could shine, and simply allow her to be alone with her own thoughts, which had at that point started to break. Thoughts about how she had been abandoned by her own people and by the Grounders, and that no one would care if she died alone here on the mountain started to trigger panic and fear. She screamed for what seemed like days, trying to convince herself the voices in her head were wrong or simply asking the voices to stop when it became to much for her. But needless to say, no one came for her despite hearing her heartbreaking screams. She wasn't sure how she had not completely lost her mind after that incident, but she was more than anything grateful that she wasn't a scared shadow of herself and somehow managed to gain control over her mind and body to not lose into the torture she went through. The only thing that had certainly changed with her after that incident was that she was sort of terrified to be left alone in the pitch dark. Although she survived living in her cave and its darkness, she was terrified to be locked up in a room where she couldn't even see what was right in front of her. Which is why she was starting to feel her fear building up from the bottom of her stomach and giving her shivers. She wrapped her arms around her body, trying to calm herself down even though it was not really working. Her eyes were starting to grow wet and it wouldn't take long before tears would be streaming down her face like a scared and defenseless little child. In her last resort to not fall in to her own fear and panic, she began humming the song she had hummed back when she mercy killed Atom in the forest after being exposed to Acid fog. The sound of her voice calmed her down slightly as thoughts on her curly-headed boyfriend came to mind. How she wished his arms were wrapped around her and whispering reassuring words in her ear.

"Bellamy…I want to see you," Her voice was tired and weak, but contained so much desire to just feels him close to her once more. Thinking about him bright both sadness and strength, but that was enough to make resolution to face her fear with the dark. "We will meet again soon."

Then she rested her head once again on the pillow and closed her eyes, while continuing humming her song for a long while. It took a while to adjust to not fall into her fear, breathing evenly and with thoughts of Bellamy, Octavia and the other kids giving her strength. And before she knew it the fear had not disappeared, but it was a lot more bearable than before. Her heart and mind was light as her surroundings disappeared and she returned to the land of dreams and unconsciousness.

Bellamy was looking up at the starry sky, while sitting in front of the fire since he was unable to sleep with all his thoughts going anywhere. He was worried about Clarke and the others that had been taken, but he was also worried about the kids here at the camp and how they were dealing with Ark people down here. The few kids that met up with their parents again were happy, but mostly the kids were little unease with the most of people from the Ark, especially those from the council. The kids had most certainly not forgotten about their stay in the skybox as well the fact they were sent down here as an experiment to see if the ground were survivable or not. No matter how much they tried to reassure that it wasn't an experiment, but a new chance to start over despite their crimes they all knew the truth. The delinquents including Clarke had been sent down here to die and allow the rest of the people on the Ark more oxygen to live.

"I want to see you..." Bellamy whispered to the stars, with hope that his wish would reach his princess.

"You should be asleep," Octavia stated, interrupting his train of thoughts and he turned around to see his sister taking a seat next to him followed by Lincoln, who sat across from them and remained silent as he usually did in his presence. Bellamy was sure it was more due to the fact that the Grounder didn't want to trigger his temper by being overly affectionate in his presence and end up in a fistfight with him. But odd thing was that even though he didn't like the fact that his baby sister had a boyfriend, he accepted Lincoln as a good man who was good towards Octavia and Clarke. So he didn't have any issues with him other than that, and it was a wonder Lincoln didn't hold a grudge against him for torturing him the first time they met, but still he didn't think they were going to be best friends any time soon despite the relationship his sister and his girlfriend had with him.

"So should you," Bellamy answered with soft and gentleness in his voice. "You need your rest after everything that has happened the last few hours."

"But you have dealt with most of with, taking care of the kids, dealing with the people from the Ark and planning a rescue mission to retrieve Clarke and the others," Octavia argued. "You are more in need to sleep than I do. After that whole incident with you and Abby, you need it even more. "

Bellamy shook his head, too tired to continue the argument. Thinking back on the incident that happened between him and Abby when she heard his nickname for Clarke brought him even more bad feelings towards the councilwoman. Abby had gone of the handle by hearing the nickname and accused him for being the horrible person she thought he was because of his attempt to kill Jaha and being the uncontrollable and unpredictable leader of the 100. The fought like cat and dog, yelling and screaming at each other, and they would have probably tried to resolve the matter with physical means if it hadn't been for Marcus, Octavia and Lincoln holding them back for one another before anything could have happened. Needless to say, Bellamy wished that Clarke were here right now because she knew more how to deal with her mother and the Arkians than he did at the moment.

"Look, Bell, you are of no use to anyone if you are at the brick of consciousness," Octavia warned. She placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder before she continued her reasoning. "If Clarke was here she would have lectured you about what happens with the lack of sleep and etc. So do us all a favor and go and get some rest. You are going to need it in the morning since you are heading towards the mountain to gather information."

Bellamy sighed heavily. She was right, even if he didn't want to admit it. He needed all the strength he could get if he was going to retrieve Clarke and the rest of the delinquents. Still he had to wonder about one thing, when did his baby sister who he had practically raised himself get so smart and wise beyond her years? Was it the influence of the ground or survival instinct?

"Fine," Bellamy groaned in response. He looked up once again at the starry sky, thinking about Clarke before he stood up and began heading back to his tent. Although he wasn't sure how much sleep he was going to get now that his Princess was not in his arms were she belonged and where he could keep her safe and sound.

The guards came and retrieved him and Jasper next morning from their room and placed them once again in the empty white meeting room where they had spent yesterday. Clarke was there shortly after they settled down and a little after little the rest of the delinquents were gathered in the room. Everyone hugged one another, pleased to see that they were all alive and well at least for now. They all quieted down before Clarke came forth with her idea to get everyone out of the Mountain Men's grasp.

"They have cameras monitoring everything that is going on inside except for two places, the bathrooms and research areas," Clarke explained. She continued giving the reason how she knew was because she had noticed them before and remembered where they were placed from the last time she had been trapped inside. Monty wondered if it was such a good idea to plan this while they were watching them planning their escape, but Clarke reassured them all that it seemed like the monitoring didn't cover audio, so they couldn't hear what they were saying to each other at least for now. She wasn't going to take the chance for long that they wouldn't figure out how to get audio on those cameras, so they needed to act quickly. "But there is another place where they don't have cameras or anyone monitoring and that is the sewers. It is also the only other entrance in and out of the mountain, but there is only one problem other than getting past the guards. The drainage water and waste matter flows out of the mountain down a waterfall and the leads further down somewhere, the problem is that you don't have much experience swimming, which can cause complications that pose as a threat to surviving."

Monty understood what she was saying. They have been living on a spaceship all their life, so swimming was not one of the abilities the Sky people possessed, but otherwise it was a great plan. To bad that there were to many problems in the plan and they only had one try to make it work if they got the chance to do so.

"What is so wrong about staying here?" Jasper asked frustrated. He didn't "I mean we don't have to worry about survival anymore and they don't want to hurt us. Can't we just stay here?"

Hearing those words brought both sadness and fury in Clarke's eyes, something that any of them had ever seen before, but Clarke quickly tried to hide her suppressed emotions by turning her head away.

"Don't trust them," Clarke almost whispered in hidden anger. "Don't believe those pretty words they are giving you, because no matter how pretty and wonderful as its sounds it is still not true."

"How would you know?" Jasper exclaimed in anger. Monty wanted nothing more to pull his friend and brother away before he was doing something stupid. However before he had the chance to intervene Clarke replied coldly, "Because I know perfectly well how much their words mean in real life, seeing as I was tortured by them when they found out I was the inside-man for the Grounders a year ago. And besides Jasper, it was them who pierced that spear through your chest the day you first arrived here on the ground. You should consider how much their words are worth after they tried to kill you without any reason to do so."

Jasper looked frankly shocked over hearing the truth, his mouth was gaping like flies could fly in and stay there. Monty wasn't sure what to say or do, and neither did Jasper for that matter, but once they got out of the shock and wanted to ask her more about it Clarke changed the subject back to the plan. Although the heaviness of the former topic still hung on their shoulders, which left them conflicted in what they were going to do after learning that harsh truth.

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Thanks again for the response I have been receiving. First of all, this is sort of like a filler chapter but it contains a little from the main story. And I thought that it might be a good idea to express how Clarke's traumatic experience had an affect in her life despite everything. Hope I managed to do a good job.

And second of all, I'm not going to post the next chapter on Sunday as I normally would with my writing pattern, due to the fact that I will be busy working this weekend as well try and write some for my other works. However I will try to post the chapter on Monday, so stay tuned till then.

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