Scars
Alana doesn't ask about Margot's scars. At least not out loud. She runs her fingers gently over them as Margot leans into her touch.
It was hard at first, when she was released from the hospital, to fall asleep without the whirring of machinery. It's much easier to fall asleep holding Margot. The scent of vanilla shampoo lingering in her hair, the warmth of her body and her gentle breathing luring her to sleep.
The first time they had done this, it had been in the dark. In many ways it was easier that way: easier to protect themselves from each other and from themselves. It's funny, all things considered, how the first possibly serious relationship Alana ever had was with a serial killer. It's even more so when considering Margot's own attempt at ending her brother's life and Alana's current efforts to help Mason find Hannibal.
The third time they find comfort in one another, the lights stay on. Afterwards, Alana gently kisses Margot's scars. As if she can somehow absolve them with her lips. Alana has her own fair share of scars now too. Although not as many as the bones she's broken.
She's always known that she liked women as well as men, but it has always been easier to ignore those feelings. It can be rather hard to pursue a relationship when you have a Ph.D. in psychiatry and even then it has always been easier for her to find male partners than female ones. Even still Alana's always known, and when she sees Margot for the first time, she feels her heart skip a beat and her palms begin to sweat. Margot is beautiful in a timeless sort of classical way and Alana feels excited and nervous and elated all at once at the prospect of seeing her again and again.
So she continues to enter the Verger estate from the stables. The entrance is easier to find and it seems to be Margot's favorite part of the estate as well. She follows Margot inside and absentmindedly wonders if Will's dogs would like running along the estate grounds.
They don't talk about the past, which is in many ways a blessing. Alana's not sure if it's because she's afraid that she'll start psychoanalyzing Margot or if it's because they're both afraid that their past traumas will destroy their present. And so, Alana doesn't ask about Margot's scars although she knows who gave them to her. And Margot doesn't ask about Alana's even if she knows how she got them.