Chapter 13
Cassie's POV:
I can't cope with this anymore. Nick versus Adam? I don't know who I'll choose, my rational side is straining towards Nick, but everything else is straining towards Adam. Don't get me wrong, I adore Nick, but right now, something in me has changed and it's making the irrational, unthinking part of me want and miss Adam. Should I be worried? Everything in the rational, thinking part of me screamed yes, but I don't feel any different. I knew when I chose Nick over Adam that my feelings wouldn't change about him, but I didn't know I'd feel this way. I'm just so confused with life, I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Nick and I are meant to be moving in together today or tomorrow and I don't even know if I still love him the way I did, how can a few hours change so much. I looked over to where Nick was sitting in Diana's living room, he turned to me, his dark eyes lightening when they landed on me. Can I ever truly love him as much as he loves me? 48 hours ago, I'd have answered definitely, now I'm not so sure.
Diana's POV:
It hurt me, as I watched Cassie thinking deeply, some internal war raging in her head, Nick sitting close beside her, happily oblivious to Cassie's mood changes. I walked into the kitchen, worrying about my best friend and her life. I ran a hand through my golden hair. What was happening to Cassie? I knew the answer and I was going to talk to everyone tonight, leaving out my concerns about Cassie until she'd left the room, I didn't want her to know I pitied her, it would upset her. Nick followed me out into the kitchen. "How is she?" He asked me, voicing his concerns about our conversation last night. I let out a weak chuckle, "How do you think she is, Nick? She's thinking about going back to Adam, even though she knows it's wrong, something's pulling her back to him." I told him and I saw the pain in his dark eyes and scrawled across his face. "What do you mean?" He spoke through clenched teeth, pain and anger was obvious in his face.
"Nick, I'm so sorry, I mean, something's taken over her, she doesn't know what she wants anymore. She knows she's definitely in love with you and nothing is going to change with that, but the demon I found – which I think is the source of the problems here – is affecting her, it's mixing up her feelings and making everything go wrong in her head, she doesn't know what she wants anymore." Nick sighed.
"How can we help her?"
"We need to figure out more about this demon, which is about emotions, I think, it twists and intensifies them, like, look at Faye and Adam, what was a simple jealousy escalated to a hatred, which escalated to an innocent person dying and Cassie almost dying, too." He nodded, "Now, look at Cassie, what was love for Adam, turned into a like, which didn't really change anything, except for now she loved you, too, then, when Adam's jealousy turned to hatred, her love for him dwindled and after everything happened, that turned to pity, then downright hatred, now she's completed the circle and she's back to love again. She doesn't know what she's doing, Nick! She doesn't know what she wants, and we can't choose for her, we can just do whatever we can to get rid of this demon and hope that it'll make everything better." He nodded, but I could see the pain evident in his dark eyes, "it'll be okay, Nick, I promise you, you'll get her back, she loves you. I know she does." He nodded, pain still obvious in his eyes, but he turned away and skulked off, I got the feeling that if he lost Cassie again he was going to completely detach himself from the group.
Nick's POV:
I can't lose Cassie. Not again and especially not to Golden Boy. If Diana's right and this is just a demon, everything should go away and get better soon, Cass and I will be together the way we were just days ago, just yesterday, even. Today she's been so detached, I knew something was wrong as soon as I walked into the door, a raging battle has been going on within that pretty little head of hers, I've just played ignorant to it and pretended I haven't noticed anything, it's gotten me through the day. Diana has called another meeting tonight, in the hopes that we'll get everything sorted out with this demon, whatever it is. I just hope I can get my Cassie back.
"Nick?" A soft voice pulled me out of my reverie, I looked up and instantly noticed Diana's long blonde hair, cascading down past her waist.
"What's up?"
"Everyone's here. Come on, we need to pull you out of your thoughts and you need to get involved," she pulled me up from my laying position on the couch and Cassie sat timidly by my feet, Diana sat next to me and addressed the group. "I may or may not have an idea about what the problem is." Cheers and squeals erupted from around the room and Cassie hugged her, I pulled Cassie onto my lap and she looked a little uncomfortable but stayed there, regardless.
"Guys, I think it's a demon that we're after. I think it's a demon that feeds on emotions, but particularly negative ones." She shot a pointed glance at Cassie and I. I don't know how to feel anymore. Should I be fighting for Cassie? Maybe she wasn't mine in the first place… Maybe she always belonged to Adam. Pain welled up inside my chest, but I fought hard to keep it from showing on my face. If I lose Cassie, I'm going to lose her like a man, not like some snivelling excuse for a human being. My earlier determination dwindled, how am I supposed to fight for something that might not have been mine in the first place?
A/N:
The prodigal writer returns, right? So, I am the worst writer in the world. I'm sorry, it's been like a year since I last updated and I'm so sorry and I feel horrible but I've had a hell of a year and I've barely had time for anything. I'm so sorry and this isn't the best chapter for my first chapter back and I have serious, like serious writer's block so that's not helping but I'm trying. Oh, and for anyone that's interested I might just start a gossip girl (Tv series) oneshot story. Maybe, what do you think?
Okay, I seriously love all of you for sticking with me through this.
I love you.
See you soon (I hope)