*** This chapter is mainly about the Naotora in the new city. It may seem rushed but I'm just trying to get to the real main story of this, which is chapter 5 ***
When we arrived at our new house, it was a big white modern two story house with a pool in the backyard. It was around four in the afternoon when we reached. I was tired but we had to begin unpacking. We didn't have a whole lot of stuff so we finally finished settling in the home at nine. My room was plain white so I decorated them with stickers and put my guitar and violin on the wall. My piano was located downstairs in the living room. I put glow in the dark stars on the ceiling of my room too. I had a bathroom in my room and a medium sized walk in closet.
Once I finished my room, I went to go take a shower. After that, I went downstairs to help my mom cook dinner. We made some yangnyeom tongdak, also known as seasoned fried chicken in English. When we ate, it was really yummy.
I washed the dishes before going to bed. I got in the covers and wondered what my friends are doing. I really missed them already and I can't believe that I was actually in a new place. I was so not used to it. I thought about Toshiie and how he kissed me. It made me smile and I wished that I could go back one day. I then closed my eyes and went to sleep.
On the first day of my new school, everyone was so different. There were lots of different races. Unlike my old school, there were only a little bit of Asians. I was wearing a lavender sleeveless plaid like shirt only except it doesn't have the patters on it and tucked it under a flowery high waist short with a pair of lavender high top converse. I also waved my hair too. I carried a cute owl shoulder bag and wore a matching necklace with it.
"Have fun on your first day of school, Naotora. Hopefully things are better here," my mom told me and I nodded my head. We said our goodbyes and I came out of the car. I waved goodbye to her and she sis the same before driving off. I looked at the school and there were many people all around. I made my way towards the gate and there were many people waiting to get through. I wondered why it was taking so long.
I waited for literally ten minutes and I seemed like I wasn't going anywhere. I was getting impatient because I needed to find my classes and I wasn't even inside yet. I then got out of line and began climbing on the gates so I can quickly get inside. Many people turned to me.
"Oh shit, an Asian chick be climbing to get through," I heard a Mexican guy saying and they were laughing, "Her body is hella fine. I bet she ugly as hell." They laughed some more as I reached the top. The gate wasn't very high so I just jumped off the gate and landed on my two feet. "Damn, she aint afraid of heights." How dumb of him to keep making comments about me. Oh well, now to find my classes.
I walked inside the school and began searching for my classes. When I was walking, I saw black people everywhere and Mexican people too. Wow, doesn't this school have any Asians? I hardly saw any. While I was walking, I saw two Chinese girls sitting down reading some library books and five guys came to bother them. There were two black guys, a white guy, and two Spanish guys.
"Hey Fifi, you wanna show off some of your tai chi skills to us?" a Spanish guy said to her as she stopped reading her book and turned to him.
"My name is not Fifi, it Phoebe," she replied with a very thick Chinese accent. Many people laughed at her. Why are they laughing? It's not even funny. I didn't understand why but I continued walking.
As I was walking, I took a nice stretch and accidentally hit a light skinned black guy on the back of the head. He quickly turned and with an angry face. I stopped and turned to him.
"Oh my gosh, I am so sorry," I told him, and his angry face turned into a smile.
"It's all good. I'd be mad but since you're pretty, I'll let you off. Damn, your eyes are really nice. So, are you new to this school? I've never seen you before," he replied to me. I nodded my head and smiled. Wow, he just called me pretty, not that I like him or anything.
"Yeah, I'm new to this city. I just moved during the summer," I told him. I looked at my schedule and searched for my first period class, which was dancing. This school was different because it didn't require a core class. There are a lot of classes to choose from but classes given are Science, Math, P.E., and English/History. For my extra classes, I took dancing and guitar. "Well, imma go find my classes."
"Alright, see you whenever. By the way, I'm Jeirome. What's your name?" he asked me.
"My name is Naotora Ii," I told him and he smiled.
"Naotora, that's a nice name. I gotta make sure to remember that," Jeirome said and I smiled. I then began walking off in search of my classes again.
When I was walking, I saw a bit more Asians and most of them were being picked on. I thought the students in the school were really messed up. There were a lot of people being shoved around by the big jock guys so it wasn't just Asian people who were being bullied. Never in my whole life have I seen such meanies before!
Once I found all my classes, I began walking around again. When I turned the corner, I bumped into Jeirome again. He turned to me and smiled.
"Hey, it's you again. Naotora, right?" he asked and I nodded my head and smiled back at him, "So, have you found your classes yet?"
"Yeah, I have. I'm just walking around now," I replied to him. He asked me to hang out with him and his friends so I decided to because he seemed like a really nice guy so far. When we went to his friends, there were three other guys and three girls. They all turned to us when we came. There were two Spanish guys, a white guy, a white girl, a Mexican girl, and a black girl.
"Hey, wassup Jerome? Ooh, damn lil' shawty. Who are you?" the Spanish guy said to me. I just smiled at him.
"This is Naotora. She just moved into this city in the summer," Jeirome told them. They told me their names were Ray, Charlie, Jude, Julianne, Andreiyaa, and Asia.
"Oh my god, your eyes are so beautiful! Are you just wearing contacts on one eye?" Julianne asked me. I wasn't trying to be mean or anything but she seemed like the type of blonde girl who gets confused a lot. I laughed and shook my head.
"No, I was born with it, and thank you. You have pretty eyes too," I replied to her and she smiled when I said that.
"So, are you like Chinese or something?" Andreiyaa asked me and I shook my head.
"I'm twenty five percent Chinese, twenty five percent Japanese, and fifty percent Japanese," I told them and they were amazed.
"Wow, well you're definitely the first mixed Asian we've met. Most of the Asians here are Chinese. There are no Korean people here besides you and there's a bit of Japanese people," Jude told me.
We were talking, getting to know more about each other and they seemed really nice. They told me where they hang out at and to go there at break and lunch. The bell soon rang and we all departed and went to class…
Toshiie, Keiji, Kiyomasa, and Sakon all met up with each other on their first day in high school. There were lots of hot girls, and there were many cute girls too. They were all walking around for fun.
"Dang, these girls are looking fine," Keiji said, smiling and looking at all the girls. They all agreed but Toshiie was thinking about Naotora and who she's doing. He still can't believe there is no more Naotora and the thought of that kinda saddened him.
"Hi," so many girls told him but he ignored them, which made them want to be around Toshiie more. For some reason, there were so many girls following them around school. It seemed like they were already the most popular guys in school. His friends loved the attention but Toshiie didn't care about them. He wasn't interested, as usual.
They finally went to go sit down on a bench and he thought about the last day of school how he kissed her and she was so shy of him.
Toshiie was carrying his guitar because he always played the guitar. This year, he is taking guitar class. He was bored and decided that he was gonna play his guitar for fun. He began playing the song "Crush" by David Archuleta. When he was playing it, so many girls were smiling and watching him play the guitar.
"Oh, he is so dreamy," a girl said, placing her right hand on her forehead and then fainting. When she was on the ground, a guy was walking and accidentally stepped on her stomach as she opened her eyes really wide and stuck out her tongue. Keiji and Sakon began laughing so hard. Kiyomasa tried to be nice and not laugh but hearing his friends laugh made him begin laughing too.
"Ew, what the hell is that?" cried Keiji, laughing so hard. Toshiie wasn't gonna laugh but because his friends kept laughing and the vision of the girl doing that made him laugh. He shook his head because she just embarrassed herself. He stopped playing the guitar because he lost concentration from laughing and he forgot which part he was on.
"So, who were you dedicating that to?" Kiyomasa asked him as he turned to Kiyomasa, wondering why he asked that question. He was just playing it for fun and he wasn't even dedicating it to anyone.
"Nobody, why do you ask?" Toshiie replied to him. Kiyomasa looked at him suspiciously and then began laughing for some reason. He began wondering why he was laughing for a while and then he thinks he knows why. "No, Kiyomasa, it not was dedicated for Naotora." Keiji and Sakon turned to him hella fast.
"What about Naotora? You were dedicating the song to her?" Sakon said, as Toshiie shook his head.
"What the hell? No I wasn't," he replied to them.
"I bet you were secretly," Keiji told him and he shook his head, "Come on, just say you like her, Toshiie. I'm sure you miss seeing her."
"Yeah, right. I don't like her and I don't miss her," Toshiie lied, hiding away his feelings. Kiyomasa seemed suspicious of something.
"So, how'd you know I was thinking Naotora?" Kiyomasa asked him.
"Because you guys always claim I liked Naotora, which I don't," Toshiie replied.
"Yeah you do!" Keiji shouted and they began laughing so much.
"No I don't," he replied, thinking about her for a while. In his head, he saw her looking at him, smiling and her eyes were twinkling in a very beautiful way. The bell rang and then they all headed into class.
Ina and Okuni barely came to school and met each other. They couldn't believe Naotora won't be with them this year and from then on. They were both sitting down and saw many new faces, which were sixth graders.
"I miss last year, when Naotora was still here, but I'm at least glad you're still here," Ina told Okuni and she agreed.
"Yeah, let's really hope we don't move or anything," Okuni replied and they promised, "Any anyways, Naotora wouldn't have wanted us to be sad she moved."
"Yeah, let's hope this year will go by fast and go by great," Ina replied and then the bell rang for class.
"Come on, let's go to class," Okuni said and they began walking to their first period class together…
It's been a week since school began and Jeirome they have all been very welcoming to me. They showed me around school and everything and even showed me where places are. The one who talks to me the most is Jeirome though. I think he's pretty good looking for a light skinned black guy but I still liked Toshiie much more. I kinda have a feeling that he likes me but I could be wrong too. The outfit I wore today was a Magenta long sleeve shirt with a black short with boots that had shoe laces like sneaker shoes. I also wore long socks that went up halfway up my thighs. I used a brown bag and left my hair curled.
We were at school during morning time just sitting down and hanging out with each other. I was sitting down with the girls and wondered how Ina and Okuni are doing and if they miss me like how I miss them. Jeirome was the last to come and he came to me. He smiled at me and I smiled back.
"Hey, Naotora, listen, can I talk to you for a bit alone?" he asked. I wonder what's up. I nodded my head and got up. The both of us were walking for a bit. "So, how do you like this school?" I thought about it for a bit. I did like it but I hated the bullies.
"I like it but I just hate all the bullying here," I replied to him.
"Oh, you don't like bullies?" he asked me and I nodded my head.
"Yeah, I don't like them. To me, I think they think they are very cool and bullying the weaker people makes them feel powerful. I just don't get it, like what are they trying to prove, you know? Bullying people doesn't prove that you're stronger than them. It just proves how weak they truly are," I replied to him and for a moment there, I think I caught him hesitating. If he hesitated, does that mean he could be a bully too? No, that can't be, because he's been nice. "You're not a bully, are you?" He shook his head and then smiled.
"Nah, I'm not. But well said, Naotora. You know, I think you're a really pretty and unique girl. I've never met someone like you before," Jeirome told me, and I smiled.
"Thanks, I think you're a nice person," I replied and he looked down for a while before looking back at me.
"I really like you, Naotora, more than just a friend," Jeirome confessed to me. I was shocked to hear. Never in my whole life have I ever thought a guy would confess his feelings to me. Wow, he likes me, more than a friend so that means he likes me like a girlfriend, right? But I only like him as a friend. I still have feelings for Toshiie. I wasn't sure how to explain to a friend that I only like him as a friend. I can't believe he's already confessing to me too because it's only been a week since I met him and I still don't know much about him. Before I knew it, he leaned down to kiss me. Oh no, I can't let him do it because if I do, I'm only gonna lead him on and I don't want that. My parents will never allow me to date a black guy too so either way, we can't be together. I turned the other way and he stopped.
"I'm sorry, Jeirome. I only think of you as a friend of mines. I already like someone else," I told him as the bell rang. Jeirome seemed so disappointed. I knew how he felt, because I've been rejected before too. "I'm gonna go to class." I quickly left and went to my first period class, which was P.E. and I went to my number, which was number twenty. I think rejecting him is gonna affect our relationship. I feel bad but I don't want to date someone I'm not in love with.
"Alright, class. Today we will be doing working out in the gym, so go get switched," Mr. Jackson commanded. Everyone walked into the locker room. I didn't like how our lockers were co-ed together but there's nothing I can do. I put my bag in my locker and took my P.E. clothes out. It was a t shirt that has been customized to have the sleeves cut off all the way down to our hips and our shorts were just like volleyball shorts except the guys got regular shorts. I wonder why girls don't have those shorts and instead these really short shorts.
I took off my short and put my shirt away. I then turned and looked up ahead. There was a really dark black guy watching me. He was shaking his head slowly, while licking his lips. Ew, what a pervert! I made a disgusted face and turned around so my back could face him. I quickly wore the shirt. I then took off my short and wore the volleyball short. Most girls kept their shirts out of the short but I tucked my shirt in my short because it was more comfortable for me. The volleyball was like a high waist short for me. I took off my socks and wore a new pair of black socks and put on my running shoe, which was a converse brand. I tied my hair up into a messy bun and used the long bands to help hold my hair in place. Many girls were watching me.
"She thinks she's the most stylish girl ever just because she is the only girl doing that style. What a freaken slut," I heard a girl say as I was leaving the locker room and many girls were laughing. I didn't care what they thought of me because I don't care about them either. I was walking down the mini hill while holding my hands together behind me when I noticed many guys staring at me.
"Shit, she's hot and pretty. She's the best looking Asian girl in our school and quite possibly the best looking girl in school," I heard a guy say.
"She got that body of a stripper though, I'd like to bone it," a black guy said, as his friends laughed. What the heck? What does bone it mean? I reached my number and began stretching because the first thing we always did was run a lap around the basketball courts. I bent my body forward and then I heard more guys talking.
"Oh shit, she makes me horny!" a guy said and I stopped stretching and went to go sit down. I didn't like how they kept making those kinds of comments about me. I heard many girls talking crap about me but I still didn't care.
The teacher came out and we got on our numbers. He was marking down the people who were late. Pretty soon, everyone was here.
"Alright, take a lap around the basketball courts," he said and we all began running. I was only jogging but for some reason, I was beating everyone. A guy came next to me. He was a good looking white guy with blonde hair.
"Hey shawty, wanna race me back to our numbers?" he asked me. I didn't think there would be a problem with it.
"Okay, you're on," I replied, as we both began running faster. We both began running really fast and I stayed next to him to see how fast he could go. It seemed like this was as fast as he can go. "Is this the fastest you can go?"
"Why, can you go faster?" he asked me, panting and I laughed. I then ran off ahead and beat him to our numbers. I beat him by ten seconds but it wasn't my fastest still. When everyone came back, so many girls were talking crap about me.
"She's such a show off. She's hella seeking attention," a girl said. I was so not seeking attention! I was just racing a guy. There's nothing wrong with that. The teacher told us to get in pairs of two. Everyone began partnering up. Many guys began making way to me and I spotted an Asian guy. He was well very well built for a middle school guy. He and I were the only Asians in the class. Maybe we'll get along since we're Asian. I made my way past the guys and walked up to him. He turned to me and I smiled at him.
"Hi, do you wanna be my partner?" I asked cheerfully, as many guys watched.
"You don't wanna be his partner," a guy told me. I wondered why he said that. I shook my head and smiled.
"Sure I do," I replied, smiling.
"You really shouldn't. Jeirome wouldn't like that," another guy said. What's wrong with being his partner anyways? And I'm sure he wouldn't say anything about it because he's a nice guy. I was starting to think that the Asian guy didn't wanna be my partner, not that I really cared or anything. I turned to him.
"So you don't wanna be my partner? It's okay if you don't want to though," I told the Asian guy and he shook his head.
"No, I can be your partner," he replied and I smiled cheerfully.
"Okay then, we're partners," I replied to him, smiling.
"You're making a big mistake," sang a guy to me. I didn't care what he was saying. How the heck am I making a mistake being his partner in class? It was so stupid. I shook my head.
"I don't think I am," I replied to the guy and the teacher spoke to us again.
"Listen up, head over to the gym and begin working out," Mr. Jackson told us. I didn't know where it was at but I followed where my partner was going. I was walking next to him. He wasn't talking or anything so I decided to start a conversation.
"I'm Naotora Ii, what's your name?" I asked him, trying to be friendly to him.
"I'm Yue Jin," he replied. From his name, he was definitely Chinese, or at least I think he is.
"Oh, that's cool. So, you're Chinese, right?" I continued, and he nodded his head.
"Yeah, I am. What about you?" he replied.
"I'm Chinese too, but I'm also Japanese and Korean," I told him and he was surprised. He seemed like he was a really nice guy, by the way he talks.
We went inside the gym and there were lots of equipment to choose from. I looked at all of them, amazed at the sight. I can't believe that there are so many of them.
"Wow, this is a nice gym," I told him and he nodded his head, agreeing with me. I just smiled and took a deep breath. "So, which one do you wanna do?"
"It doesn't matter. You're the new one, so you choose," he replied. I nodded my head and walked to a treadmill that has two running thing combined on one machine. I have never seen that before. I can't believe they really have a treadmill here. I thought they only have them in high school but I guess I was wrong. I turned back to him. "How about this one?"
"God, I hate her, like she's trying to show off that she's athletic and shit," I heard a girl say but it went inside one ear and out the other. Yue Jin walked to me and got on the left one. I smiled and went to the one on the right. He turned it on and looked at me.
"What level do you want me to put it on?" he asked me and I thought about it. There were ten levels and I didn't want to run too fast or I'll use up all my energy on this and I wanna have a chance to do the other ones too.
"Um, I'm thinking a five, that way we'll still be able to lift weights and do squats and the other ones. Is that alright with you?" I replied to him and he nodded his head. He put it on a five and the machine began. It was going slow at first but then it went faster, making us begin jogging. I needed this exercise so my leg can get stronger because it's been through a lot. We did a lot more work outs and I got to know Yue Jin better and I thought he was a really nice guy.
At lunch, I went to go use the bathroom. When I came out, I decided to take the long way to my friends I hung out with. As I was walking, I saw a really big crowd watching something.
"Ooh! Punch him in the face! Fuck that nigga up!" yelled a black guy, enjoying whatever it was that he was watching. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. People can be so inconsiderate and cruel. I'm glad I don't hang out with those kinds of people. I was gonna leave like how I always do when I see people get bullied but the crowd was really big. It's the biggest crowd I've seen when people watch other people bully. Maybe I should just check it out one time to see what's really going on. I held on to my bag and began walking to the crowd. I wanted to get a close look so I was pushing my way in. when I was among the front people, I am shocked what I see.
I saw Jeirome shove Yue Jin! What is going on? Why is Jeirome bullying? He told me he wasn't one.
"Come on, big boy, let me see what you got," Jeirome said to Yue Jin, shoving him as everyone was laughing.
"I'm not gonna fight you. I didn't come here to start drama or fight anyone," Yue Jin replied, as Jeirome socked his chest. Jeirome was acting like he was boxing with someone. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
"Fight me, you pussy ass cunt! You fucken Asian people are stupid. Go back to where you belong. Come on, fight me!" Jeirome continued and Yue Jin shook his head. You Asian people are stupid? Go back to where you belong? I can't believe he just said that! It really offended me too, because I was Asian as well. I was so mad at him!
"Why are you even contradicting yourself? And didn't you hear me? I told you already. I'm not gonna fight you," Yue Jin replied, as Jeirome laughed and turned the other way. Then he turned back to Yue Jin and punched Yue Jin really hard and he fell down. I gasped and in between them.
"Stop, what are you doing?" I yelled to Jeirome, being so mad at him. Yue Jin's mouth began bleeding.
"Move aside, Naotora, I'm not done with him yet," he replied to me. I just looked at him and shook my head. I'm such a fool, thinking a guy like Jeirome would never bully people. I can see I was wrong big time.
"I can't believe you would do this," I told him, going to Yue Jin. I took out some napkin and carefully wiped away Yue Jin's blood on his mouth. "Are you alright, Yue Jin?"
"Yeah, I'm fine, thanks," he replied. Just then, Jeirome pulls me away from Yue Jin really hard and I hated it.
"Don't fucken help him! You're supposed to be my friend and be on my side!" yelled Jeirome, super pissed because I was helping Yue Jin. I had an angry face and pulled away hard as he let go of my wrist.
"Yeah? Well our friendship ends now. You said you weren't a bully and you knew I didn't like bullies but you did it anyways," I told him and Jerome scoffed.
"So you're ending our friendship because I'm a bully?" Jeirome asked.
"Yes, I am but that's not the only reason why. You disrespected not only Yue Jin, but you also disrespected me as well. You said Asians were stupid and guess what? I'm Asian myself too and you knew that. If they were so stupid like you said, then why did you confess to me in the morning huh?" I questioned him.
"I wasn't even referring to you," replied Jeirome. I thought it was so pathetic of him to even say that.
"Whatever, I'm done here. From now on, we have nothing to do with each other anymore," I replied to him and went off to Yue Jin and helped him up. I gave him another napkin and he took it and wiped his blood. "Come on, you need to go to the nurse's office." I took Yue Jin and began walking off from Jerome and the big crowd. When we were walking, Yue Jin was the first to speak.
"You didn't have to help me out. Those guys are always gonna bother me," Yue Jin told me. So this isn't the first time he was bullied by Jeirome? I can't believe I was friends with a bully! Ugh! They make me so mad!
"I can't stand people who bully! I can't believe Jerome is a bully and for the fact that he LIED to me that he wasn't when he was and better yet he still confesses to me," I told him and he bursted out laughing and tried not to laugh. I turned to him. "I'm serious."
"So you're really not gonna be friends with him anymore?" Yue Jin asked and I nodded my head. We may have hung out for a week, but they aren't exactly the best of friends of mines.
"I don't want any bully friends," I told him. He looked down for a bit and then back at me. I smiled at him.
"I guess I misjudged you. I assumed you were a bully too because you hung out with them but I see now that you're different from them. I'm sorry I judged you by who you hung out with," Yue Jin told me sincerely.
"That's okay," I told him cheerfully, "But now I'm friendless. Oh well, better to be alone than be with bullies."
"I'm friendless too. You can hang with me, that's if you want to but I won't force you to," Yue Jin replied to me.
"Are you okay with me hanging out with you?" I asked and he laughed.
"Yeah, I'm sure. Why wouldn't I be?" he replied and we reached the nurse's office.
The next day, I wore a sky blue t shirt with a shortall and a pair of vans. I used a cute teddy bear backpack and made my hair slightly curled. I slanted my China bangs a bit more to the right.
I went inside the school. I was walking around and I saw Yue Jin walking up ahead. When I saw him, he also saw me too. We both smiled at each other and I walked over to him. He walked over to me too so we met halfway.
"Hi," we both said in unison and then laughed.
"Hey, Naotora," Yue Jin tells me.
"Good morning," I replied to him and we both began walking together and we sat down on a bench together.
"How do you like the school? It's not all that great, huh?" he asked me and I nodded my head. It's actually worse than I thought. There are so many bullies and they pick on so many people. It doesn't even make them look cool either.
"I like the school, but I don't like most of the students because they're bullies," I replied to him and he just smiled. He told me that there are so many bullies and he learned to just ignore them and not give them the reaction they want. He also told me that if people stand up to them or anything, they will enjoy picking on them. "Wow, that's just cruel. At least for bullies, they need their friends there and the person being bullied is all alone."
"Yeah, you're right," he replied to me. I agreed. Yue Jin kind of reminds me of Toshiie. I wonder if he plays guitar. I should ask him.
"Hey, you look like a guy I knew back at my old town. Just wondering, do you know how to play any musical instruments?" I questioned and he just laughed.
"Hm, I'm learning how to play the guitar. We're in the same guitar class, remember?" he replied and I gasped and covered my mouth, surprised he was in my guitar class. I didn't even notice!
"Oh, you are? I didn't notice you in there," I replied to him, laughing. He laughed too.
"I'm still new at it so I'm not really good yet. We have math, guitar, P.E., and English history together," Yue Jin told me.
"Really? I asked and he nodded his head. I just laughed it off because I seriously didn't know he was in that many of my classes. "I know how to play guitar. I can teach you how to play sometimes, if you like," I told him and he nodded his head.
"Yeah, sure. Thanks, Naotora," he replied to me and I just smiled. Suddenly, Jeirome pops out of nowhere.
"Oh, so the guy you said you like is only this nigga? He is my enemy, which makes him your enemy too. Why are you even hanging out with him? You're supposed to come hang with us," Jeirome said. I shook my head. Did he not remember what I told him yesterday? I told him our friendship was over already.
"I don't even know what you're talking about and anyways, I can hang out with whoever I want. No one should be choosing who I can or can't hang out with. Also, I told you that I no longer have anything to do with you. I don't want to be friends with bullies," I replied to him, crossing my arms and turning the other way. I think this is why my old friends and I don't have any guys that hang out with us. It's because we didn't want the guy to like one of us but we don't feel the same and they are only gonna be hurt in the end. Jerome turned to Yue Jin.
"You fucken bitch ass nigga, why you fucken talking to her, huh? You punk, I'll fight you for her. If I win, you stay away from her and she hangs with me again but if I lose, you can have her," Jeirome sad, grabbing Yue Jin's shirt and pulling him up and punching his face. Yue Jin fell down. I got mad because I am not some kind of competition and I don't tolerate against bullying.
"Stop it, Jeirome!" I shouted angrily and shoved him away from Yue Jin. I went to Yue Jin. "Are you okay, Yue Jin?" I helped him back up and Jerome looked so angry. I didn't like this Jerome at all. He was so not the Jeirome I used to know. "You are so immature. You're gonna fight for me so I'll go to you? What am I? A toy?" I rolled my eyes and took Yue Jin off as the bell rang for first period.
Four quick months passed by and Yue Jin and I are really good friends. Jerome has been bugging us nonstop about the same thing and I think he's just trying to find an excuse to hurt Yue Jin. Many people bug us but we don't give them the reaction they want. It was afterschool and we were walking to his house.
We were partners for our math class and we had to build a bridge and it has to very accurate. Today Yue Jin seemed very happy today. It was also a Friday too. I wonder what's gotten him so happy today.
"You're in a very good mood. What are you happy about?" I questioned him.
"I'm just happy that a very close cousin of mines is coming over," he replied and I was happy for him. I nodded my head. "I haven't seen him for six months."
"That's good, well at least you're gonna see him again," I replied cheerfully as we reached his house. It was a regular one story house that was white.
"We're here. Sorry, it's not the best house but it's something. Come inside," Yue Jin told me, walking to the front door.
"No, it's okay. It's a nice one story house," I replied to him, walking after him. He opened the door and we went inside the house. No one was home and he led me inside his room. It was very neat and clean. "Wow, nice room."
"Thanks," he replied. We took out our stuff to make the bridge. We were trying to finish it today so that the glue can harden by the time its due. We could only use a hundred Popsicle sticks, but she didn't say we could cut them up into shapes or anything and that's what we were planning to do.
We worked on it all the way until night time and we finished. We were both feeling so accomplished and happy.
"I'm gonna go switch my shirt really quick. I'll be right back," Yue Jin tells me and I nodded my head. He takes a shirt and heads out of his room and into the bathroom. When he left, it became all quiet and everything. I got up and decided to look around. I scanned the room slowly and spotted an album sticking out of underneath his bed. I didn't want to be nosy but I just wanted to quickly look what it was. I picked it up and opened it to the first page. It was a picture of a cross with a halo and it had wings too. It was more like tattoo artwork. I thought it was really cool and nice. I found myself looking through them. I got to look at fifteen of them.
"Wow, this is amazing," I told myself.
"Thanks," Yue Jin said from behind as I got scared and flinched, dropping the album. I turned to him and he laughed. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you."
"It's alright. Sorry for being nosy. I was only gonna look at one but then I really liked it so I kept looking at it," I told him, looking down. He walked and picked it up and just smiled.
"It's okay. This is just some tattoo designs I made for my cousin to look at. He's taught me how to do tattoos professionally. When my cousin comes, he's gonna teach me how to do pierces. About the tattoo designs, I was gonna test it out on a piece of raw pork skin, but I've tried and it doesn't work well," he told me, laughing and I joined him in laughing too. I then had an idea. I wonder how I would look with tattoos. It'll be something new for me.
"If you need something better, you can try it on me, if you want," I offered to him and he was surprised. I then laughed about it. "I mean, if it doesn't work well on raw pork skin, you can try the tattoo on me. I wouldn't mind."
"You're not afraid of needles?" Yue Jin asked me and I shook my head. He has no idea what I've been through. It's much worse than needles going in and out of my skin.
"No, I'm not. Trust me, the needles are nothing compared to what happened to me. I've got bullets in myself, large pieces of glass on my thigh like three times I think, and almost died two times," I told him and he was really shocked.
"Damn, that's harsh. But yeah, I'll try it on you. My cousin will be here tomorrow so if you wanna come tomorrow and we'll give it a try. Just wondering, did you want any piercings? I'll ask my cousin to do the pierces," Yue Jin replied and I smiled and nodded my head.
"Yeah, sure. I wouldn't mind. I should probably go home," I told him because it was ten at night. He nodded his head. I called my mom and she came to pick me up. When she came, he walked me outside. "See you tomorrow, Yue Jin." He smiled.
"Yeah, see you tomorrow," he replied. I walked to my mom's car and went inside. She began driving off and I waved goodbye at him and he did the same. I then saw him go back home and my mom took us back home.
The next day came and my mom dropped me off at Yue Jin's house. The garage was open and there was a guy there. I'm assuming that he was Yue Jin's cousin but I didn't see Yue Jin there. I got out of the car and my mom drove off. I made my way to the guy. He turned to me and I smiled at him.
"Hi, is Yue Jin here?" I asked and he smiled.
"Yeah, he went inside to get something. You must be Naotora, right? you're gonna get tested on with his tattoo designs," he said smiling. I nodded my head.
"Yeah, and you must be his cousin," I replied to him.
"I'm Yue Wei," he told me. The door opened and out came Yue Jin. He turned to me and smiled at me and did the same.
"Hey, Naotora, you're here. So, are you ready to some pain?" Yue Jin said, smiling. I laughed.
"Yeah, it can't be that bad," I replied and they had me lay down on one of those seats just like the ones you see at the dentist. Yue Jin handed me the album.
"So which one did you want?" he asked me and I looked through it and I liked a lot of them. I wasn't sure which one I should get. I looked down and then back at him.
"I don't know. I like a lot of them and it's hard for me to choose. Maybe I'll just do eenie meenie meini mo," I told him and he began laughing a lot. His cousin Yue Wei laughed too.
"When I like more than one, I usually just get them all on different places," Yue Wei told me. Is he trying to say I should get them all on different parts of myself? How would I look like covered in tattoos? I probably would look like a bad girl but it's really pretty.
"Okay, I'll do that too," I replied to them. I wanted the nice looking cross one on my top stomach and a really pretty diamond surrounded by flowers and stars on my lower stomach. I told them that and they got the stuff ready. I saw the needle and it looked scary, but I didn't say anything about it.
"This is gonna hurt like hell," Yue Wei told me and I took a deep breath. I had to lift my shirt up for them to do the tattoo. Yue Jin was doing the cross tattoo, and Yue Wei was doing the diamond with flowers and stars.
It was then that I began to feel it on my stomach and it did hurt, but it wasn't very painful. It just felt like needles slightly poking my stomach. While they were tatting me, I was deciding where to put the other ones. I wanted the tulips tattoo with a butterfly in the middle and on top it has a ribbon with the words "Dance Love Sing Live" on my chest and there was a nice music symbol that is in the middle of a heart and on half of the heart, it's made up of words "music is the sound of life" and the lines where you put music notes on is behind the picture. I decided to get it on the side of my right neck. There were pretty angel wings and I wanted it on my back. On my right side of my stomach, I wanted the nice cheetah print ad my left side, I wanted my name going down vertically. On my lower back, I wanted a lunar moon that had stars and line shape decorations on it. On my left leg, I wanted a lace like band on the middle of my thighs and on my front right leg, I wanted a dream catcher. On my wrist, I wanted the letters "NIO" which stood for Naotora, Ina, and Okuni.
It took literally from ten in the morning until three to get it all done. I was feeling some pain, but it wasn't as bad. I looked at them from the mirror and it was all red around the tattoos. Wow, it looks really nice! I like how it looks.
"Alright, so are you ready for pierces?" Yue Jin asked me, and I nodded my head, smiling. His cousin Yue Wei took out a big long needle with a pair of scissor like things only except the ends are circled.
"Alright, I'm gonna teach you how to dimple, lip, collar, belly and hip pierce. You're okay with those pierces on you, right?" Yue Wei said to the both of us. I nodded my head. He then smiled. "Alright, I'm teaching you how to do shark bites on the lips. They're all pretty easy to do." Wow, that's a lot of pierces but it'll totally change my look.
Yue Wei was telling Yue Jin what to do for the pierces, using me as an example like when he was talking about pierces, he would point close to that area. He was really good at explaining it to Yue Jin.
"Alright, I think I'm ready for this," Yue Jin told his cousin and his cousin looked at him all weird.
"What are you, nuts? You might mess it up, since it'll be your first try," Yue Wei told Yue Jin and he laughed, "Maybe I should do it all so it'll be safer."
"Then how will I be able to learn?" Yue Jin asked as Yue Wei thought for a bit. He told Yue Jin that he was right so now they were gonna test it out on me. It's a really scary feeling but I have to be brave. I'm sure they'll be careful and not mess up on them. Oh well, even if they do, it's my own fault for volunteering. At least they got the tattoos done really well so I'm sure there's nothing to worry about. They began piercing my dimples and it seriously hurt but I can take the pain. I made a slight impression that it hurt and Yue Jin looked at me.
"Does it hurt?" he asked me and I nodded my head.
"It does but I can manage the pain," I replied, as they were putting a teal diamond pierce in the hole.
"You must be strong. Most girls I've seen always scream really loud or cry," Yue Wei told me and I nodded my head as they got ready to do the other side.
"I managed to escape two deaths, if that's what you mean," I replied and he began laughing along with Yue Jin. I laughed too and then they gave me the other dimple pierce and it hurt too.
Since they were being careful, they finished giving me the pierces at five. They gave me two dimple pierces, shark bite pierces, two collar pierces on each collarbone, a belly pierce, and three hip pierces on each hip. It was painful but I could take the pain.
We were inside his room when I saw a yearbook of the school. Ooh, I wanna look at it!
"Hey Yue Jin, may I look at the yearbook, please?" I asked him and he nodded his head. I smiled and grabbed it. I sat down on the floor criss crossing while Yue Jin and Yue Wei were playing call of duty black ops. I opened the yearbook and began looking at it. I saw Yue Jin's picture and he really looked like Toshiie. I miss seeing Toshiie and Ina and Okuni. I wanna go back so much but as much as I want to, I can't. Hm, I wonder how Jeirome and the others look like. I flipped to the seventh grade section and went searched for their yearbook picture. I found all of them, except for Asia. I wonder why I can't find Asia's picture. Maybe she was new this year too. I flipped it to the next page and I saw a picture of her, only except her name wasn't Asia! Her name was Laquanda. What? She said her name was Asia and that's what everyone calls her. I'm so confused. I decided to ask Yue Jin about it but I waited for them to finish playing first. "Yue Jin, how come Asia's name is Laquanda in this yearbook? Did she switch her name?" Yue Jin began laughing. He shook his head.
"No, that's her real name. She makes everyone call her Asia because she hates her name. Anyone who calls her by her real name will get beat by the guys in her group," Yue Jin told me and my mouth dropped open. Seriously? People get jumped if they call her by her real name? That is so immature! They are such mean people. I can't believe I even hung out with them too!
"That is so cruel! That just makes me dislike them even more," I told him and he just laughed. It was already nine at night and I decided that I should get going now because it was getting pretty late. "I should call my mom to pick me up since it's getting late."
"Yeah, sure," Yue Jin replied to him.
"I can take you home, if you want," Yue Wei offered.
"It's okay. I don't wanna be a burden to you," I replied but he insisted so I accepted his offer. We got in his car and he began driving me home. When reached my house, they were shocked at how big it was.
"Wow, you have a really nice house. You and your parents must be rich," Yue Jin told me and I shook my head and laughed.
"No, we're not really all that rich," I replied and we laughed it off. I got out of the car and thanked them. I got to the front of the house and waited for them to leave. After that, I went inside the house and my parents were eating. "I'm home." I put my bag down and I went to them.
"Come eat," my mom told me as she turned and saw how I looked like. She then gasped and stops eating. Uh oh, maybe I should've asked them for permission first. "Did you get pierces and tattoos at your friends house?" I nodded my head and my dad turns to me, hearing my mom sat tattoo and pierce.
"Do you guys… Like it?" I asked, feeling nervous, clasping my hands together.
"Do I like it?" my mom began, "I love it! Come eat and we'll talk about it." I smiled and felt much better. I went to go sit down and got a plate of food for myself. "Did your friend make sure to be very clean?"
"Yeah, his cousin helped out too. He's a professional tattoo and piercing artist," I replied to her, and she asked me which places. I showed her all of my tattoos and she really liked it, especially the hip pierce ad collar pierce.
"Hun, maybe I should go get it too," my mom told my dad and he shook his head, "Oh come on. Maybe the both of us should get it, yeah?" She was just being sarcastic and we had a good laugh. My dad then got serious with me.
"Naotora, don't go off being bad now that you have those tattoos and pierces, okay? Promise you'll remain sweet and innocent," my dad said and I nodded my head.
"I promise you both that I won't become bad. Besides, I had wonderful parents to teach me right from wrong," I replied and they smiled. We all ate and I washed the dishes, being careful not to make water touch my pierces. I had some things that are covering the tattoos. I had to leave them on. Once I finished, I showered and went to sleep.
On Monday morning, I got up and took off the things covering my tattoo and showered. I decided to wear a short going half an inch before the middle of my thighs. I wore a thin violet loose teen top that was laced in the back. The pair of shoes I wore was Nikes. I braided my hair from the top of my head and down and used a pink long hair band around my forehead area. My bangs were flipped more to the right.
Today I needed to bring my guitar so I used a pink shoulder bag and grabbed my guitar that had my name engraved on it. It was on the wall. It was a lavender electric acoustic guitar. I used the straps for it and wore it on my right shoulder. I put one of the guitar picks in my bag.
When I came to school, everyone was looking at me.
"Damn. She is hella sexy with those tattoos and piercings. I would go holla but she's already Jeirome's," a Spanish guy said and his guy friends agreed.
"She thinks she's so pretty now that she got those tats and piercings. What a freaken whore," a girl told her friends and they walked off.
"I heard that she went to Yue Jin's house and they had sex," a girl said, looking at me disgusted. What the heck? That is so not true! I walked off and pretty soon, the only thing I could hear coming out of everyone's mouth was that I did it with Yue Jin, which I did not. Who would make up such a nasty lie?
I was walking when someone puts their hand on my shoulder. I turned around and it was Yue Jin. From the looks on his face, it seems like he's heard that stupid rumor too.
"Hey," he said to me. I smiled at him.
"Ew look at her talking to him. She only chose him over Jeirome because she likes it big and muscular. Such a freaken slut," a girl walking with her friends said. They were laughing at us and I just rolled my eyes. Oh, so now I'm beginning to get bullied because I no longer hang out with Jeirome them? That is so dumb!
"People are so dumb, making rumors about us. Seriously, how low can they go?" I told Yue Jin and we went to go sit down.
"Just don't care what they're trying to say. Remember, if you give them the reaction they want, they'll do it even more," Yue Jin told me. I nodded my head and calmed myself down. I just won't give them the reaction they want. They can say all sorts of lies and they can laugh about it but in the end, it's us who will be laughing.
"Hey, Naotora, how would you like to give us free sex too? I'm craving for some," a black guy said. I continued talking to Yue Jin, as if I didn't hear him. I was telling him about the guitars and what each string represented. "Fucken slut, do you think you're too good to be having sex with non Asian guys?" I still didn't care and continued talking to Yue Jin. Because I wouldn't reply, they finally left.
"Wow, I can't believe it worked," I told Yue Jin, laughing. He laughed too. The bell rang and we went to the P.E. area. When we did, everyone was staring hard like an eagle. We both walked to our numbers.
"Those two over there had sex on Friday when she went to his house. There was no one home too," a girl told one of her friends and they laughed, "I know. I knew she was a slut or something because no girl can be that pretty and be a good girl."
"Yeah," her friend replied and they both walked off to their own teachers. I have never ever been bullied before and I hated the fact that I had a gut feeling like I was gonna begin getting bullied. It is good that I was able to ignore that one guy, but I don't think I can continue it because I know I will snap one day and I don't want that.
When we were all switching, girls kept making bad comments about me, saying how I was such a slut and a hoe and a whore because my body and legs are curvy. I was doing my best to ignore. While the girls were making bad comments about me, guys were making perverted comments about me.
"Shit, her body always makes me horny. She should help please us too, not just that Yue Jin guy," a very cute Spanish guy said to his friends, making his way over to me when my shirt was off. "Hey, you wanna have sex with me too? I'm pretty big myself." I turned around and was about to put my shirt on until he grabbed onto my waist and I hated it. I used my right hand and pushed him away.
"Don't touch me," I told him. I quickly put on my shirt and tucked it in my shorts. I didn't mean to say it out loud but it just came out. Yue Jin turned to us and the Spanish guy smiled. He grabbed onto my waist again and held me against the locker and he pressed his body against mines. I tried to push him away but he didn't let. "Let go of me!" He then turned to Yue Jin.
"Hey, Yue Jin, mind if I borrow her tonight?" he said and his friends were laughing. I was trying to make him let go of me. Yue Jin put his shirt on and walked over to us.
"Let her go," Yue Jin said as many people gathered.
"Ooh, he's finally manning up!" a black guy shouted, smiling with joy.
"Oh yeah? What if I don't? You too pussy to do anything about it," he replied. I was getting mad because he wouldn't let go of me, not to mention that he was pushing in my hip pierce in. I finally pushed him hard and he backed up.
"Don't ever touch me again," I told him with attitude and he just laughed. He was gonna do it again, but then Yue Jin got in front of me. Mr. Jackson then came and got in between us.
"What's going on here?" Mr. Jackson said and everyone rushed away. The Spanish guy was just laughing.
"Nothing, we're just having a little conversation," he replied and went off. Mr. Jackson turned to us. Yeah right, you liar. I bet you were trying to start a fight with Yue Jin using me as bait. What a dumb guy.
"You two alright?" he asked and we nodded our heads. We both walked out of the locker room and people continued blabbering about us and we didn't care because it wasn't even true. People can keep talking crap because it's not gonna get them anywhere. It's only gonna make them go to hell when they die.
"Some people are so disrespectful and rude," I told Yue Jin and he agreed with me. Usually if something like this was to break out in my old school, Ina would be the one standing up for me but now she's not here and I need to learn how to take care of myself. I miss you guys a lot. I wish you guys were here with me.
When it was lunch time, Yue Jin and I met up with each other and we were sitting down on the benches. We were just talking for fun, ignoring all the people who were talking smack about us. Yue Jin then told me he was gonna use the restroom really quick and he'll be right back. I just smiled and nodded my head. He then left and I was all alone. A few guys came to me.
'Hey, mama, would you like to get gang banged?" a black guy asked me. I was just looking down, ignoring him. "You ignoring me?" Again, I didn't say anything to him. He then slid his hand on my thighs and I moved his hand away. They began laughing. "Oh, you don't like it? Stop pretending. Everyone knows you had sex with Yue Jin."
"Don't touch me," I told him, getting up and starting to walk away. Another black guy then held my waist from behind and pulled me to his stomach. I tried to make him let go of me. "Stop! Let go of me, you pervert!"
"Stop trying to act like you're all innocent. I know you like it big and hard," he told me, and rubbed my stomach and I tried to make him stop.
"Stop doing that, you sicko! Let go of me before I get really angry!" I yelled and he didn't care. He just laughed it off.
"Get mad! I wanna see what you do. Are you gonna strap me to a bed and rape me hella hard? Because I would love it," he told me in my ear and my anger surpassed my limit. I shouldered his face hard and he let go of me.
"Ooh, Johnny!" his friends said, laughing so hard. His nose began bleeding. He wiped it away with a napkin.
"Oh hell no! This slutty ass is gonna get it!" he said to his friends, going to me. He grabbed my shoulders and tried to push me to the locker but I grabbed his shirt and turned over so he would hit the locker. I used force when he went against the locker. His friends were laughing so hard. Many people stopped to watch. "You little bitch!" He tried moving but I kept moving him right back to the locker.
"Ooh, Johnny. You gonna let this little slut beat you?" one of his friends shouted. That Johnny guy isn't all that strong for me. His strength is nothing compared to the guys I've fought. He was trying so hard to move me over but he couldn't.
"Listen up, Johnny boy, you better not touch my ever again!" I told him, looking at him in his eyes with such hatred. I finally let him go and began walking off, leaving everyone to watch me leave. They were all just laughing.
"Dude! How the heck do you lose to a girl like her?" I heard one of his friends say. The Johnny guy was just laughing too.
"Chill out, man. I was just playing with her. It's not like a girl can be stronger than a guy. I'll show her wassup," he replied to his friends. Damn, people here are such liars. Well, he better not touch me like that again or I'll seriously hit him.
People continued to talk smack about us and people have even begun shoving me around for fun. I was gonna do something about it, but Yue Jin tells me not to, and because I knew my parents would be disappointed in me for fighting. I just ignored them, like what everyone else does. I hated not doing anything about it because it made me feel like I couldn't do anything about it. My anger has been kept inside for three whole months and I could feel that I was gonna explode anytime now. It was so hard to keep the anger and hatred inside. I have tried to call Ina and Okuni to talk to them but it seems like they switched their numbers because it was no longer in service. Because of the anger I feel right now, it's making me think that they switched it on purpose and they never liked me in the first place and that they replaced me with someone else.I knew they would never do that and that it wasn't true but somehow I still feel this way. It hurts a lot and it's affecting me emotionally. I guess this is how bullying affects people mentally too. I wanted to tell my parents about it but I couldn't let them know that I was being because it would hurt them and Yue Jin was my only friend there and I didn't want to leave him behind to deal with all that drama because I know he wouldn't do that to me either.
I was in my home, watching some television when the doorbell rang. I went to go open it and there was a letter on the ground. I opened it and read it "GO FUCKEN KILL YOURSELF, YOU STUPID BITCH ASS HOE! YOU'RE NOT WANTED IN THIS LIFE! NOBODY EVEN LIKES YOU IN THE SCHOOL SO WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?! I crinkled the paper up and slammed the door shut. Why is this even happening to me? How did I even let this happen to me? I can feel tears making way and I tried hard not to cry. I went to the backyard and lit the paper on fire. Tears were coming out of my eyes. I crossed my arms and sighed. My phone suddenly buzzed and I looked at it. It was from an anonymous number and it was a meme of me. It wrote "Horny? Hit me up at 1-800-freesex" Gosh, people can be so cruel! I deleted the text and went back inside once the fire died. I went up to my room and cried because I couldn't hold on anymore. I felt helpless and the pain wasn't going away. I never imagined how horrible life can really get. Living this way really changed the way I viewed life itself. I hate it right now and wished it would end but I couldn't end it. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore and fell asleep.
On Monday, Yue Jin didn't come to school. I wondered why he didn't come. I was walking around for fun when someone shoved me to the lockers. I smacked into the locker hard and fell down. I turned to that person with such hate. It was my old friends, only except it was the girls only. They began laughing at me.
"Oh poor you, Naotora. Are you regretting not hanging out with us? Because if you are, you can tell us," Julianne said to me and they began laughing so much. I don't regret not hanging out with them. I chose the right path but there are some obstacles in my way.
"No, I don't regret. I'm glad I don't hang out with you guys anymore," I told them, "You guys are just a bunch of low life's who bully people like you ain't got nothing better to do." Laquanda then got do mad at me for saying that.
"What did you just say? You little shit!" she yelled at me and kicked my stomach. I wasn't wearing my pierces for the time being because I didn't want them pulling it out, causing an infection or anything. She got on top of me and began hitting my mouth so it could bleed, which it did. I was just trying to block myself from getting hit. After thirty seconds, Andrea and Julianne pulled her away. "You dumb bitch! You just got your ass beat by me! What are you gonna do?" I got up. It didn't even hurt that much because I have a lot of muscle and I was strong. My lip was bleeding and smiled.
"What am I gonna do? I'm gonna call you Laquanda," I replied and she was so freaken angry. She came to me and began hitting me again and I was just blocking myself from getting hit.
"Bitch, don't fucken call me Laquanda!" she screamed while hitting my face. I think she was trying to mess my face up but too bad. A teacher began coming and Andrea pulled Laquanda away.
"Asia, stop, the teachers coming," Andrea said and Laquanda let go of me as her wallet fell down but she didn't see they began walking off. I picked it up.
"Hey Laquanda, you dropped your wallet," I told her and she turned with such an angry face. I threw it to her and it smacked her face as she tried to come to me again but Andrea and Julianne pulled her back. I'm not gonna let those bullies bring me down. They wanna try and crack me? I'll show them who's gonna crack first. I began walking off into class.
It was around five when there was a knock on the door. Ugh, who is it this time? I'm so sick of those letters already. I walked to the door and opened it, expecting it to be a letter or something but instead it was Yue Jin. I was surprised.
"Oh, Yue Jin, hi," I said to him and he smiled.
"Hey, Naotora. Um, listen, I have to tell you something," Yue Jin replied. I turned and his Cousin Yue Wei's car was there. I figured he was gonna tell me something quickly before going back in the car.
"Yeah, what's up?" I replied as he looked down and sighed.
"I told my cousin what's been happening and he doesn't want that for me so he came here yesterday and I'm gonna leave with him," he told me and I was shocked. What? He's leaving with his cousin? What happened to just ignoring the bullies?
"You're moving in with your cousin? Why is that?" I asked him.
"I didn't want to, but he's forcing me. I just came here to say goodbye. He's waiting for me so I have to go now," Yue Jin replied to me and I felt like I wanted to cry. I nodded my head, understanding but now I'm gonna be all alone with those drama. It's as though he passed his bullying on to me and now he's free while I'm dealing with it.
"Okay, I hope you have a better life, unlike mines," I replied to him, giving him a hug. He hugged me back and the bar beeped once, as a sign to hurry it up. We stopped hugging and he left to the car as it drove off. I sighed. Now what am I gonna do? I'm so stuck all alone with bullying. I gotta hold on to the piece of strength I still have.
At school, I was walking and a guy pushed me unexpectedly. I fell down on the cement. I turned to him and it was Jeirome. I gave him lots of attitude and he turned the other way.
"That's for calling Asia Laquanda," Jeirome told me. She told him to come push me? That is so stupid! So if people call her by her original name, she's gonna tell her guys to come beat them up? Someone like her would do such a thing.
"So you pushed me because I called her by her real name?" I asked him, getting up.
"She hates that name so nobody should be calling her that," Jeirome replied to me. It made me laugh out loud.
"They can call her that and she can think her name's Asia all she wants, but in reality it's Laquanda," I told him, "Anyway, why didn't you beat me up or shove me hard? I'm sure Laquanda would've wanted that."
"Keep calling her that when she's around and the beating will start. This is just a warning for you not to ever call her that again," Jeirome told me and I thought it was so stupid.
"The beating will start? It's already begun. I'm gonna let you know right now. Whatever stunt you bullies try to pull on me isn't gonna bring me down. You bullies won't break my smile no matter how hard you try. Yeah, sure, call me those bad things and abuse me all you want. I don't care. You guys may laugh about it, but deep inside you guys are only laughing your way to hell. Don't expect god to show you mercy once its judgment time for you people," I replied to him and walked off.
It is finally in December now and I was home, just thinking about how hard life has been and how I need to stay strong. I really miss Ina and Okuni. I wonder if they miss me too. I really wish I can go back. Everything would be so much better for me. Tears began to come down my face when the door opened and it was my parents. I quickly wiped away the tears. They turned and saw me.
"Hi, honey," she began as she saw that my eyes were watery, "What's wrong?" I wiped the tears away and laughed. I shook my head.
"Nothing, I just miss Ina and Okuni," I replied and the mom gave me a hug. I hugged her back and it felt great to be in my mom's arms because I feel protected and safe. I hugged her really tight and I wanted to burst into tears from all the bullying.
"Well, I have good news for you, Naotora. Tomorrow, we're going back for the weekends so maybe you can hang out with your friends or go to the mall," my mom replied, as I got so happy and excited.
"Really?" I asked happily and my parents nodded their heads. They told me to pack some clothes because we were leaving soon. I then smiled and nodded my head. I rushed upstairs and packed a few clothes using a purple Nike sports bag. I came back downstairs. Finally, I'm gonna get to see my friends again! What if they already have a new friend? No, I seriously doubt they would replace me. We've been friends for a very long time so I shouldn't think too much and just be happy I will get to see them again. We finally left and began heading to my old city.
We left at ten at night and arrived at ten in the morning. We went to a hotel and got two rooms, one for me and one for my parents. What should I wear today to surprise them? I went to go take a shower and then came out. I decided to wear a black and blue striped t shirt shirt with a pair of style ripped denim skinny jean with brown ankle boots and a brown leather jacket. I was wearing a black and blue shoulder bag. I let my hair wavy today and slanted my bangs to the left and put back on my pierces.
My parents were waiting for me when I came out of the room. We went in our car and they began driving to Ina's house. Once we arrived, I got out and went to their door. I pressed on the doorbell and pretty soon, Ina's dad opened the door. Oh, I'm so excited!
"Hi, is Ina home?" I asked him and he shook his head.
"No, she went to hang out with her friends," he replied and I was so disappointed. Aww man, out of any other day, it had to be today when I came back into town. Oh well, maybe Okuni might be home.
"Oh, okay. Thanks anyways," I replied and he just smiled. I walked off back to my parents car and told them that Ina wasn't home. They then headed over to Okuni's house and her parents were outside, just about to head off somewhere. I came out of the car and went to them. "Hi, is Okuni home?" They turned to me and shook their heads. What? Are they hanging out together? That totally sucks. I'm in town and there's no one to hang out with.
"No, she went to hang out with her friend," Okuni's mom replied. I thanked them anyways and went into the car, disappointed. I told my parents that Okuni wasn't home either.
"Well do you want to come with us to the old house? Some people are coming to see it," my dad asked me.
"Can you guys take me to the mall until you guys are finished?" I asked and they nodded their heads. My dad drove us to the mall. In about fifteen minutes, we reached the mall. "Call me when you guys are done, okay?"
"Hold on, Naotora," my dad said, taking out his wallet. He took out one of his credit cards and handed it to me. Wow, this is the first time he's done that. Maybe he feels bad for moving me away from my friends. I took the credit card.
"Thank you, dad," I told him, giving him a hug. I just smiled and I hugged my mom too. "I love you guys a lot." They told me they loved me too and I got out of the car and began walking inside the mall as they drove off.
How I missed this mall so much! I thought about how my friends and I come here to shop. I began walking around shopping for gifts for my friends. I literally spent an hour now finding the perfect gift for Ina and Okuni for Christmas. I decided I was gonna drop it off later on. I even got something for Toshiie too for Christmas, which I wasn't even sure if I was gonna see him or not. I was walking up ahead towards the food court on the fifth story area.
"Wow, this is so nice! Thank you, Okuni and Ina!" I heard someone say and my heart began beating. I stopped walking. Did I hear right? Did I just hear someone say Ina and Okuni? Are they here with someone else? Have I really been replaced? Maybe it's best if I don't look. No, I shouldn't. Before I knew it, I turned and there they were, with another girl. They were group hugging each other. I felt like my heart just dropped. "You guys are my best friends!"
"You're our best friend too," they both replied and I wanted to cry. Wow, I can't believe I came into town just to find out the truth of what's been happening in town. We did that too when we were small. I really have been replaced by a new girl. I should have expected it. I took a deep breath and began walking off to the food court area. I held in my tears and I wouldn't force it out. I was just sitting down, resting my feet. I was breathing calmly but deep inside, I needed to burst. I wasn't jealous of the new girl or anything. I was just really sad that my friends now have a new best friend and they remind me of our friendship.
"Yeah, it's a Christmas sale so I'm gonna buy hella lot of clothes," I heard a familiar voice say. Oh my gosh, is it who I think it is? My heart begins pounding as I turned and my eyes widened. It's Toshiie! I haven't seen him since he kissed me on the last day of school. I began feeling butterflies in my tummy just thinking about it. Why do I keep feeling this way? I wonder if he kissed me because he liked me or because of something else? No, it's probably something else. Toshiie and his friends began walking more towards my direction. They were close by me now when someone was shouting.
"Hi Toshiie!" a girl said, running to hug Toshiie. Toshiie turned to the girl and smiled. Wow, I thought he doesn't talk to girls. A lot really has changed since I moved. He never did that to any girl before. Does he like her? He probably does and that is why he smiled at her.
"Hey, Nissa," Toshiie replied to her as she gave him a hug on the neck. Um, are they dating or something? I thought only couples do that to each other. He gave a hug too. It was then that I began to feel a bit jealous. Then, she kissed him on the lip! Oh my gosh, she just kissed him! He didn't even pull away either. Is he kissing her back? I can't tell. My eyes widened and I found myself just looking, ready to fall apart and shatter into pieces that can never be put back together. My heart began pounding really loud and began to hurt like I wasn't gonna live to see tomorrow. I felt like the piece of strength I was holding on to for many months fell out of my hands and disappeared. I felt like the world was spinning and the pain I was feeling in my heart wouldn't go away. Why did he have to kiss me and make me think there may have been hope for us? Instead, he kisses another girl. Why? I hate it so much! I don't ever wanna come back here anymore! I wanted to leave the mall right now. As a matter of fact, I wanted to go back home. Many tears came out of my eyes and I was trying so hard not to cry out loud. I used my hands to cover my mouth. I saw the girl leaving. I got out of the seat and began walking fast out of the door but while I was walking, someone bumps into me from the side and I fell down, accidentally letting go of the bag. I turned and it was Toshiie.
Kiyomasa pushed Toshiie for fun but he accidentally hit a girl and she fell down. He turned to her and she turned to him. Her eyes were so sparkly. She has a brown eye and a blue eye.
"Oh shit, I'm sorry," he said to her. He noticed she was crying her eyes out. She then got up and ran to the stairs, leaving her shopping bag. She began running down the stairs. "Okay? That was weird. She left her bags." He walked to it and picked it up. He went back to them.
"See if she bought some panties or something," Keiji suggested, laughing and the rest did too. He just laughed and looked inside. The bag was from the new store called "Swag on" and customers can have their stuff in gift bags. There were three of them.
"It's three gift bags," Toshiie replied.
"See who it's for. Maybe we can see if we know who the gifts are for and we can give it to them and say a girl dropped it," Sakon suggested and he thought it was a good idea. He took out one of the gifts and checked to see who it was for. To his surprise, it was for Ina.
"This one is for the chick Ina but it doesn't say who it's from. It just says 'me, one of your best friends. NIO forever,'" Toshiie said and they gathered around to look. He thought that the gift for Ina was just by chance that he stumbled across it. When he took out the other gift, it was for Okuni. It was from the same thing. "This one's for Okuni." He took out the last bag and read who it's for. He got confused when he read who that one was for.
"Who's that one for?" Keiji asked.
"That's odd. It says this one is for me," he told them as they checked and it really was for him. He checked to see who it was from. It just wrote, "Troublesome sixth grader" He then realized the girl's eyes were exactly like Naotora's and he began to think it was her. He quickly got up and looked down the floors below the fifth floor to see if he can see her. It hasn't been that long since she ran down. he saw someone running on the second floor. He quickly began going too.
"Dude, where you going?" Kiyomasa yelled as Toshiie went to the elevator.
"I think Naotora's here. Tell Ina and Okuni them," Toshiie said as the elevator closed. The rest of the guys just looked at each other, wondering why he was like that. They turned and saw Okuni and Ina together.
"Hey Ina, you guys come over here. We have something urgent to tell you," Sakon yelled out to them. They turned and began walking to them.
"This better be important," Ina said.
"What's NIO?" Kiyomasa asked them as Ina and Okuni looked at each other.
"NIO stands for Naotora, Ina, and Okuni. How do you guys even know? Only the three of us were supposed to know it," Ina said, looking at them suspicious. They pointed to the gift bags. "What about them?"
"Well, Toshiie bumped into a girl who dropped this bag. She left those behind and the gifts were for you, Okuni and Toshiie. It says his gift is from 'Troublesome sixth grader' and how Toshiie calls her that and she was in sixth grade last year too so Toshiie thinks it was Naotora," Keiji explained to the girls and they looked at the gift and saw they were telling the truth.
"This is Naotora's handwriting," Okuni said. They put the bags away.
"Well where is she?" Ina asked, looking around, realizing that Toshiie wasn't there and her mouth dropped open, "Where's Toshiie? Don't tell me he kidnapped her again."
"What do you mean again? He never kidnapped her but may I just say it was kinda nice hearing that again. Anyways, Toshiie went to look for her. When he bumped into her, she was already crying. I don't know why though but she ran off," Kiyomasa told Ina and Okuni. They began to look for her around the mall too.
When Toshiie reached the second floor, he saw her going down the stairs. He quickly got back in the elevator and went to the first floor. He wondered what she was doing there and if she moved back or if she was just visiting. He also wondered why she was crying. Could she have seen Nissa kiss him? Could it have been a different reason? He wanted to know.
He got out of the elevator and he saw her running out of the mall. He quickly went to the door and ran out too. She was running up ahead and he ran to try and catch up with her. She turned the corner and in ten seconds, he turned the corner too but she wasn't in sight anymore. He stopped running and was just panting. He looked around and he couldn't find her anymore. Toshiie thought that she was such a fast runner for a girl. His heart began beating in a way he has never felt before. Why was he feeling that way? Could it have been because he feels a sense of guilt of kissing her and then a girl kissed him? Those questions swirled in his head as he walked back towards the mall…
I knew that Toshiie was following me but I didn't wanna seem him. There was a small space after I turned the corner so I went through it and didn't make a sound. People don't realize it's there because they don't pay attention to it. Toshiie was in front of it but his back was facing it. I covered my mouth and tears were still coming down.
I waited a minute there before coming out to make sure he really did leave, which he did. I wiped away my tears and tried to calm myself down, which I managed to do after struggling for another hour. I stopped crying because I ran out of tears but the pain in my heart still hurt. I began walking to my old house because I was sure my parents were still there showing the people around the house. Well, we really aren't meant for each other. Maybe it's always been like that. Maybe Toshiie kissed me just to tease me because he knows I liked him. It wasn't what I thought it was. It's okay though. He's got a girlfriend so I'm gonna seriously force myself to not like him anymore. Maybe I'm really not wanted in this life after all. Even though I don't have any friends, at least I still have my parents to love me. I won't live for friends. I'll live for my parents. I'll figure out everything on my own and deal with my own problems myself. That's what the future holds for me.