Weekend is almost over, so I think chapter 12 will be online Friday or something.

Oh, and I won't fill in the blanks that the anime and the manga left blank on purpose. For example: Sebastian's age.

And sorry for the typos, I'm not feeling to well so typos everywhere!

Anyway, I don't own Kuroshitsuji. Enjoy the chapter!

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Chapter 11

'What are you doing?' Ciel asked as he and Sebastian walked towards the door. He was tired of being social, but also annoyed. Sebastian never showed any sort of interest in any human whatsoever.

'She's funny,' was his answer, which wasn't really helpful.

Ciel gave him a disdainful glance. 'Funny? Since when do you even know what that word means?'

Sebastian frowned, but only for a second. Then a small and polite smile appeared on his face. 'I'm sorry, my Lord. I just found young lady Lane incredibly entertaining. If you don't appreciate the interest that I've gained in her, you can simply forbid me to interact with her.'

Ciel thought about that for a moment. 'No. You are allowed to interact with her. When you do you seem more… human.' He grinned at that thought. Sebastian would certainly hate that remark.

But the actual reaction Sebastian gave confused Ciel. 'Is that so?' he said, his voice sounding almost sad.

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The next morning was the worst. I was so tired that I could barely keep my eyes open at school.

And not only that, but I also had a test that I didn't study for because of the whole Elizabeth-thing.

I didn't join Ciel during lunch. I just sat down somewhere in the corridor and ate my lunch, that I made instead of Sebastian, because if he made it I'd have to go to him to collect it and I was desperately trying to avoid the guy.

I wasn't entirely sure why though. I mean, did I do anything wrong? No. But even the thought of speaking to him after I had felt his breath in my ear and his skin under my fingers was too much for me to handle.

'Hey Clarissa,' I heard someone say. 'Why are you sitting on the ground?'

I looked up and saw a classmate of mine, I thought his name was Edward, but I wasn't sure. 'Because I like sitting on the floor,' was my answer and I knew I sounded incredibly unkind.

'Oh. Aha,' was his reaction. 'Why aren't you hanging around with Ciel and his butler?' he asked and I could hear the disgust that everyone seemed to feel when they talked about Ciel and Sebastian.

'Because I'm not Ciel's lap dog. Anything else?' I asked, now being purposely mean.

Edward looked at me for a while and scratched the back of his head. 'No, I don't think so…' But it sounded like a question.

I sighed and gave him my 'you have three seconds to get the fuck out of here'-look, which he then did.

I sighed again. I really needed to work on my social skills.

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After school Ciel had to go to some sort of meeting with his company so Sebastian drove us to the office building of the Funtom Company. Which was an enormous building in the business part of London. Since our school and Ciel's mansion weren't in London, but in one of the smaller cities close to London, I had never seen the building before.

'Wait, am I supposed to come with you?' I asked when Ciel got out of the car after Sebastian had opened up the door for him.

'Of course not,' Ciel said, 'don't be absurd. Sebastian will take you home and then return to my side immediately.' He gave Sebastian a glance. 'Do you understand?'

Sebastian made a small bow. 'Yes, my Lord.' After that he shut the car door in my face and went to sit back in the driver's seat.

Trying to ignore his existence I put on my headphone and listen to songs on my phone. I wasn't really a 'main-stream' girl and didn't really listen to popular music. I usually listened to very old music, music had the teenager of today had already forgotten. Or I listened to death metal since that had absolutely nothing to do with the classic music of the past, so yeah.

'Are you listening to Mozart?' Sebastian asked after a while, though I at first didn't catch it because of the headphones, so he had to repeat himself.

'Oh, gosh,' I said annoyed, already forgotten why I was ignoring him. 'Can you hear my music all the way up there?!'

'Yes,' he said, as if it was obvious. 'Lacrimosa, isn't it?'

'Er, yeah,' I answered. 'How did you now?'

I thought I could hear him chuckle, but I wasn't sure. 'It's God awful.'

I rolled my eyes. 'Way to go, demon, using 'God' and 'awful' in the same sentence.' But that was the moment that I realized this was a very religious song. 'Um, I can stop listening to it, if it bothers you.'

'That was a joke, Clarissa,' he said and I shivered when he used my name. 'The human who can write a song that bothers me doesn't exist.'

'Oh,' I said, disappointed. 'Do demons even have a weakness, or are they just invincible?'

'Very hard to kill, but not invincible,' Sebastian said, to my surprise. I never thought he would tell me that.

'So you can be killed,' I said. 'Not a very smart move to tell me that.'

He chuckled, but answered in a serious manner. 'Well, I wouldn't have told you if I thought you could do me any thing or harm.'

'I could kill Ciel,' I said, surprised by the dark tone I took. 'Then you won't have a soul to steal.'

'I would kill you before you could accomplish anything,' he said as if he was talking about doing the dishes. 'But it's not stealing. We have a contract.'

'And what exactly is that contract?' I asked him as I loosened my seatbelt so that I could climb to the other side of the limousine and stick my face in the small opening that was in the wall between Sebastian and me.

'I help him take revenge and protect him until his revenge his complete. Then I'm allowed to take his soul.' Again, he sounded so light-hearted about it. I mean, he was talking about murdering a child.

'So, if Ciel manager to take revenge... let's say, today, then you would kill him today?' I asked, suddenly scared of Ciel's cruel faith.

I could have seen the answer coming, and maybe I did, but it still shocked me to hear Sebastian say the word. 'Yes.'

'Oh God,' I said, putting a hand over my mouth in shock. 'Oh God. You… you've ruined his life!' I screamed and I could see that I made Sebastian jump, which normally would make me feel great, but right now I couldn't care less. 'He's just a kid! A KID!'

'So?' Sebastian said. He turned his head to look at me and still managed to drive perfectly. 'I'm a demon, Clarissa. When will you get that? I couldn't care less about Ciel's life or anyone else's. I get what I want when I want it and on my own conditions. Ciel had a choice, I never asked him to summon me.'

'Summon you?' I asked, still angry. 'Why the hell would Ciel summon you?!'

'Because his heart is filled with hatred,' Sebastian said, not looking at me anymore. 'A dark heart like that can summon the most powerful demons just by existing. But it was Ciel's burning desire for revenge that caught my interest.'

'So you're like the Angel of Vengeance?' I asked, my voice dripping with sarcasm. 'You can't be serious.'

Sebastian was already back to the smiling and amused mood that he seemed to be in most of the time. 'No, I'm not Raguel, but revenge does attract my attention.'

'Who?' I asked, having no idea what he was saying. 'Now you're just making shit up!'

'Actually, I'm not. But a mere human such as yourself wouldn't know that.' He looked back at me again, his eyes glowing with fire. 'If God didn't want us to do what we do, he would get rid of us. But he's not doing anything to stop does. Does that make us evil, the creatures who just behave according to their nature, or does that make the God that all of you seem to worship evil?'

I opened my mouth, but closed it again. I didn't know what to say. I didn't really think he was right, but I had nothing to prove he was wrong either. So I just kept quiet.

Sebastian nodded and turned back to looked at the road. 'That's all I'm saying,' he said, after ignoring me completely for the rest of the ride home.

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When I got home the first thing I noticed was that there was a letter on my desk. It seemed quite official. The red mark on the envelop looked familiar, but I wasn't sure why. I opened the letter and read.

Dear Clarissa,

How is it going? Are you copping with your loss? Is everything okay with Ciel? Does he eat enough vegetables?

I want to apologize for the sudden letter, but I just got a letter from the government and they wanted me to write you into an address, but since you aren't living with me, I wasn't sure what to do.

I've spoken with my lawyer and there are two options that both need a lot of thought and a lot of approval. The first option is for me to change addresses and come to live with you and Ciel. This, for me, is not a very great option since the hospital I work in is in London, where I currently live, and also because Ciel has said numerous times that he doesn't like the idea of me living with him.

The second option is for you to come live with me. Since I never had the chance to have children, I have to tell you honestly that I have no idea how to be a decent guardian, certainly not since Ciel has always been quite independent, but I will do my best to be the best guardian in the world if you come and live with me. I'll make sure that Grell drops you off at school every morning, or maybe we could arrange that Sebastian comes to pick and drop you off every day.

The only reason this doesn't apply on Ciel is because his butler is his second guardian, but my lawyer has told me to not involve Ciel into this since that might cause him to lose his current position in the company and such. He also told me that the butler himself is not completely trustworthy either, so if he were to become your second guardian there will be investigations that can cause Ciel to lose Sebastian, and I don't want that to happen.

I'm very sorry for all the trouble, but please remember that I'm only trying to help.

Greetings and kisses,

Angelina Dalles

(or Anne or Madame Red)

I almost dropped the letter after I was finished reading it. I understand what the letter said, but I just couldn't imagine myself living with that lady and her strange butler.

I sighed and walked towards Ciel's office. This was his concern, not mine. If he knew a way to fix it, he could fix it. But I knew that I couldn't fix it on my own. And somewhere deep down I hoped that Ciel didn't want me to leave. But I knew that that was just wishful thinking.

'What are you doing?' I heard someone ask and I turned around to see Mei-Rin in the office, clearly just planning on cleaning it.

'Oh, I'm sorry. I was just dropping a letter for Ciel,' I explained as I put the letter on his desk above all the other ones he'd received.

'Oh, that's okay, yes!' she said, sounding sort of nervous. 'H-how was school?'

'It was okay, I guess,' I answered, giving her a polite smile. Life couldn't be easy for such a clumsy maid. I still didn't quite understand why Ciel had hired her. Maybe it was out of sympathy, knowing that a maid like her could never get a decent job. If that was true, then that made Ciel even nicer. That kid really was way nicer then everyone thought he was.

Mei-Rin looked at me as if she wanted to ask something, but even before she spoke I got the feeling that I didn't want to hear the question. 'A-are you and S-S-S-Sebastian g-getting along well?' she asked, obviously implying something else.

My polite smile disappeared. 'We get along fine,' I answered, pretending I didn't catch the subtext behind the question.

'H-h-he is quite an attractive man, yes!' she said, trying to get me to answer a question that she didn't ask.

Well, apart from the fact that he isn't exactly a man, she was right, so I said: 'You can call it that, yes.'

'Yes!' she agreed. Then I could see her blush and she bowed suddenly, making me confused. 'I will get going now, yes!' And then she left the room as sudden as she came.

I sighed deep and left the office myself, knowing that I had no farther business there.

The maid was in love with the butler. How typical.

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