Me: I want tea. Does anyone have tea?

Sebastian: Well, I have, but since I don't exist in your world, bringing it to you would be impossible.

Me: DON'T SAY THAT! Now I'm sad.

Clarissa: Aren't you always? I mean, look at what you put me through!

Me: I'm sorry, Clary, but no one in this world things that living with Sebastian is a bad thing…

Clarissa: Yeah, but that's not the only thing that you- … Wait. They don't? What the hell?

Me: They actually really, really love the guy…

Clarissa: What? They know he's a demon, right?

Me: Jup.

Clarissa: Then why the hell do they love him so much?

Sebastian: Because I'm one hell of a butler.

Clarissa: Argh, shut up. This fangirl here doesn't own Sebastian or Kuroshitsuji. But she does own me. Unfortunately.

Me: Enjoy the chapter! (again sorry for the typos... I know I really make a lot of them, but I'l fix that as soon as I have more time...)

XxX

Chapter 12

Ciel called me to his office that evening. He waved with the letter as I walked up to him, standing still in front of his desk, but not sitting down.

'So the government doesn't support you living here with me without your legal guardian,' he said, clearly knowing that I knew this already. 'And since I don't want the police anywhere near my house or my staff, the two options in this letter are accurate. It's up to you what you want. Although I must admit that I do not like the idea of Madam Red and her butler living here.' He pulled a disgusted face. I really didn't understand where it came from.

'Well, the last thing I want to do is trouble you,' I said, knowing that I sounded a bit sarcastic, which made Sebastian, who was standing beside his master, give me a grin.

Ciel also caught my sarcastic tone and narrowed his eyes. 'Madame Red will be in the hospital until morning, but I'll call her as soon as her nightshift has ended. I'll talk to her about you moving in with her.'

I should have been sad that he just gave me up like that. He really didn't seem to care at all, didn't seem to like me. But the only thing I could think of was the fact that he was going to keep his aunt awake after an exhausting nightshift. 'Oh, no, don't do that! You can call her after she has rested.'

Ciel pulled up an eyebrow. 'And why is that? This has haste, you know.'

Did he really not get it? Oh, well, it was Ciel Phantomhive we were talking about. For all I knew he didn't even realise other humans needed their rest and space. 'I get that,' I said, deciding not to go against Ciel. I suddenly felt sad and tired, as if someone had drained my energy from me. But when I looked at Sebastian, it was clear that he had nothing to do with it.

That or his poker face was just perfect enough to fool me.

'You know, Ciel, I'm tired. I leave this matter to you, okay? I'll just go wherever I'm welcome.' After I said that I waved slowly and walked out of the office.

The weird thing was that I started to cry as I walked back to my room. I didn't even know why. It just happened. I really hoped that Finnian, Baldroy or Mei-Rin weren't around to see, because the last thing I wanted was to make someone worried. Worry was an emotion that I couldn't appreciate, no matter what happened. I just always had the feeling that people didn't worry because they cared about you, but because the situation asked for them to be worried, since it was the right thing to do.

'You look awfully pathetic,' I heard Sebastian say before I saw him standing in front of my door.

I sighed. 'I really do not want to deal with you right now,' I told him as I tried to push him aside. Which, of course, didn't do anything. Geez, he was like a rock, he didn't even move an inch.

'Well, that's a shame, considering that I came all the way here for you.' I wasn't sure but I thought he sounded cynical.

'Well, that's a shame,' I said, copying his tone, 'because I'm not talking to you.'

A smirk appeared on his face. 'And yet you are.'

I moaned annoyed and considered walking away, from my own room for god's sake, but I knew that Sebastian would follow me anyway.

Then suddenly the smirk on his face disappeared. 'Where did you get that?' he asked, looking at something in my neck.

I was wearing a ponytail and hadn't realized it. I wore ponytails at home, but never at school or at another place people could see me. Because they would see the scar that was located at the back of my neck.

I quickly undid my ponytail so that my hair would cover the mark. 'Nothing. It was just some stupid thing that happened…'

Sebastian's eyes narrowed. 'When?'

I knew that he wasn't going to let it slide, so I just gave up before even trying and said: 'Well, you remember that friend I told you about?'

'Drossel Keinz, the friend who'd gone cuckoo,' Sebastian said, clearly remembering every single word.

'Yes,' I said, suddenly angry at myself for actually planning to answer the question. 'Well, the night he went 'cuckoo' he kind of… burn marked me.' I shivered as I remembered the incident. 'Wasn't sure why he'd done that, though. He said something about me being clean, or something.'

Sebastian still looked at me with narrowed eyes. 'Can I see?' he asked, for the first time sounding almost hesitant. I wasn't sure if it was the intense way he looked or the fact that he'd asked hesitant that I nodded, but I did. Sebastian approached me slowly, as if he was scared I would run away if he came too close too fast. He gently pushed my hair to the other side to expose the mark. His finger reached towards it, touching it with only the tip of his fingers. His fingers were surprisingly cold against my skin and I shivered a little, but he hold me still, making me incapable of moving.

Then he pulled away and my hair fell back in place. But he didn't step away from me. 'I'm pretty sure that friend of yours could be a lead to Ciel's revenge,' he said to my surprise. I never thought he would tell me things like that.

But the fact that Drossel could have something to do with the death of Ciel's parents seemed improbable to me. 'Drossel has been in the mental institution way longer than Ciel's parents have been dead.'

'That doesn't mean that those two aren't somehow related,' Sebastian said, clearly happy with this development.

I tried to swallow something heavy, but it didn't leave. 'You cannot tell Ciel about my mark. You can't.'

Sebastian pulled up an eyebrow. 'And why not?' he asked, looking amused again.

I shook my head, even though there wasn't really a reason for it. 'Because that mark is a secret that no one should know about. I try to forget every single day.'

He looked at me like that wasn't a real answer, but he didn't say anything about it. Then he said: 'But then why show it to me?'

This question wasn't hard to answer. 'Because if you want something, you get it. Your words, right? I just gave up the struggle.'

Sebastian pulled up an eyebrow. 'Oh? But I like it when you struggle.' His eyes seemed to glow. 'It's highly entertaining.'

'Is that all I'm good for?' I asked, pushing him away from me, which surprisingly worked. 'Entertaining the bored demon butler?'

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him, ignoring my attempts to get away from him. 'Well, maybe. Didn't you just say that I get what I want?' He leaned closer to me and I was surprised that he didn't bow over to my ear like he usually did. He bowed over to my neck, but not the side where the mark was. 'What's your secret worth to you?' he asked, his voice almost just a whisper.

'Everything,' I said, which was stupid and idiotic and possible the riskiest answer I could have given. What if he asked something for it that I couldn't give him?

'Hm,' he said, obviously liking the sound of that. 'I keep it a secret from my master, but in return I want…' He waited.

'What?' I said and I was happy that I sounded as strong as I did.

'Let me feed off on your emotions,' he said.

Okay, that was definitely not the answer I had expected. 'Why ask my permission? You can do that whenever you want, right?'

'Hm, not with you,' he said, his lips now at my ear. I had no idea how they got there. 'You're blocking me out.'

'I didn't even know that was possible,' I said, trying to keep my breath under control.

Sebastian grabbed both of my wrist now and pinned me against the door with a speed I couldn't keep up with. 'Neither did I,' he answered.

That confused me so much that I forgot that I was pinned against a door and seduced, and possible assaulted, by a demon. 'How can you not know?'

'I don't know,' the demon answered, clearly a frown in his voice. 'I don't like not knowing.'

'I don't you it that you don't know it,' I said, trying to distract Sebastian so that his hands would stop moving up and down my arms. He was just touching my arms, but it made me shiver like hell. Gosh, I should really try to escape. But that was the problem. Deep, deep, deep down, I didn't want to escape.

'Hmm,' he said, agreeing with me while his mouth slowly drew back as he straightened himself. 'But do you accept the deal?'

'Well, I think I do,' I said hesitant, 'but I'm not even sure if I can keep my side of the deal.'

An arrogant smile appeared on Sebastian's face. 'Don't worry. I'll make you. But first I have to make Young Master ready for the night. A butler who doesn't even according to schedule is not worth his salt.' After that he winked and disappeared.

I slowly slid down with my back against the door until I reached the ground. And there I stayed for a very long time.

XxX

I wasn't sure when or where I had fallen asleep, but when I woke up I was in my bed, still in the clothes from the day before.

I looked at the clock at saw that it was only 5 am, but since I wasn't tired anymore, I got out of bed and took a shower. Just as I was dressed and on my way to the kitchen, which I by now knew how to find, I had the feeling someone was looking at me. But I was almost certain that it wasn't Sebastian, because he gave me shivers even when he wasn't even in the room. I think I would know it if it were him.

When I turned around I saw a small, black cat staring at me as if I was the most interesting thing he'd ever seen. 'Hey there,' I said, since I'd always had the strange habit of talking to things that didn't talk back. 'What are you doing in the mansion? I didn't know Ciel had a cat.' I kneeled down on the floor so that I could touch the cat, who made a soft sound before coming closer to me.

'You're so cute,' I said softly, trying to understand why there was a cat I the house.

And then I saw the cat's eyes.

Red. But not the red that you saw in vampire-films and awful horror movies.

'My eye colour is the thing that never changes, no matter which shape or form.'

I immediately pulled my hand back. 'Sebastian?' I said, really hoping that this wasn't him. That he wasn't some sort of shape shifter, because that would be way too confusing for me.

'Yes?' someone behind me said.

I scream a scream of shock and almost landed on the cat as I turned around while still kneeling on the ground. Sebastian stood there, smiling an amused smile and looking at me as if I was crazy.

The cat immediately walked towards him when he appeared and Sebastian pulled him into a hug that only a cat-lover would pull a cat into. 'Isn't he the cutest little thing?' Sebastian said, smiling a smile that I had barely seen before. It was a lovely smile. And I started to believe that it was the only sincere expression he ever had on his face.

'He… he has red eyes,' I said, waiting for an explanation while still sitting on the ground.

Sebastian ignored that question. 'Cats are one of the only things I actually like about the human world.'

'Okay, okay, but that doesn't explain why this cat has red ey-'

'Miss Lane,' Sebastian said, sounding stern for some reason.

'Er, yes?' I asked, suddenly feeling like a student who got caught while cheating on a test.

A smile appeared on his face as he put the cat on his shoulder. 'Don't ask question that I can't answer,' he said.

'Can't or won't?' I asked, not trusting his use of words.

He pulled a face, as if he was the one who got caught this time. 'Won't,' he admitted, but then he seemed to remembering something, because the smile was already back on his face. 'But that doesn't matter now, does it? Right now, you and I still have some unfinished business.'

'Okay, I'm just letting you know that that sounds a bit weird,' I said, trying to avoid the subject of reading my emotion, which was what Sebastian wanted to talk about.

'Don't change the subject,' he said, as if he'd read my mind. 'We have a deal. And since Young Master won't wake up for another hour, I think it's safe to say that this is the proper time to fulfil our contract.'

The word 'contract' made me jump. 'Contract? We never made a contract, did we?' I said, immediately covering my right eye.

He laughed and it sounded absolutely wonderful. Only I knew that I shouldn't think like that. 'Not that kind of contract. You know what I'm talking about, Clarissa. Don't avoid the subject.'

'I'm not avoiding the subject!' I said, putting my arms together. 'I just really don't feel like doing it.'

Sebastian laughed again and pulled me up, pulling harder than necessary so that I would fall against his chest. I looked up at him, annoyed. 'Are you enjoying yourself?'

'Very much so,' he said and the smile on his face was so beautiful that I wish I could take a picture with my phone and make it my wallpaper so I could stare at it every day. Wow, I really started to sound like a creep.

I guess I must have pulled a very strange face as those thoughts went through my head, because Sebastian chuckled. The cat on his shoulder still stared at me with an intense glare. But as I looked into those eyes, I realized that the red colour of those eyes didn't scare or bother me anymore, as if I had accepted the fact that creatures such as demons existed.

Oh, boy. I was slowly going cuckoo myself, wasn't I?