Chapter seventeen! YEEEEEAAAAHHH!

Okay, that was my weirdness for today. Or maybe it wasn't. I'm just happy because I don't have to go to school anymore!

Well, at least for two weeks. After that I have to go back. Blegh.

Anyway, enjoy chapter 17 everyone!

(Still don't own Kuroshitsuji BTW…)

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Chapter 17

That night I dreamed about something that looked more like a memory.

It was me and Drossel and we were sitting by the lake close to my grandmother's house. We used to sit there often, because I never wanted to be inside and he never wanted to do anything active, so we'd always end up at the lake, just throwing stones into the water, looking at the water and talking about stupid stuff.

But in this dream, I wasn't a little girl. I was older and he seemed to be as well. But he wasn't crazy in my dream. He was the Drossel that I'd always knew.

'Drossel, do you know what love is?' I asked as I threw a stone into the water. 'Papa told me he could never love me because all his love went into my mother and because she's gone, his love is gone. Does love work that way?'

Drossel had pulled his legs up and had wrapped his arms around them. He always looked like he was cold, but also always looked like he was scared. 'I think loving someone if caring for someone. Thinking about someone when you do not expect it and wanting them to be happy no matter what. Something like that.'

Now I pulled my legs up too, wrapping my arms around them just like he had. 'Really? I've never experienced anything like that.' I frowned. 'Does that mean that I am a demon who cannot love?'

Drossel shook his head. 'Demons can love. They just choose not to.'

I looked at him, curious about that he meant. 'How do you know that? Does the Bible say that?'

Drossel smiled and looked at the lake as he said: 'I don't know. I haven't read the bible. But I know that demons can love. Because demons are fallen angels and some of them fell because they fell in love with humans.'

I gave him a little push. 'As if angels would ever fall for us!' I said, laughing like the child I was back then.

'Angels are perfect, immortal creatures,' Drossel told me. 'Therefor, perfect and immortal are common and not special. We like beautiful people because their special and they can like us because, from their point of view, we are. I once heard that demons are attracted to flowers because they fade away. Something had fades like they never will interests them.'

I looked at the lake as I said: 'Yeah, but interest is not love.'

'That may be true,' he admitted, but his voice sounded strange. 'But who says that interest can't grow into love?'

As I turned to Drossel to see why his voice sounded so strange I didn't look into Drossel's blue eyes. I looked into Sebastian's devilish red eyes and they glowed and looked like the eyes of a cat, ready to devour me. 'Maybe you should run, Clarissa. We both know that your time is running up. And I won't be here to save you when your clock stops ticking…'

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I woke up seeing two red eyes awfully close to me.

I screamed and rolled back, getting trapped in my blankets as I fell of the bed on the ground. I moaned as I got up, looking at the one to blame.

'Jesus, you sneaky little thing,' I said, looking at the cat as he observed me curiously.

I climbed back on the bed and pet the cat, seeing how he got closer to me, almost trying so hug me it seems. I small smile appeared on my face. 'At least you don't hate me,' I said as I pulled the cat on my lap, which he allowed, to pet him while also sitting comfortable.

I heard the cat purr and it calmed me down and I even closed my eyes for a while, cherishing this quiet and peaceful moment. Softly I started to hum a song and I wasn't even sure what song it was, but it made me feel even more at ease.

'Humming Agnus Dei? You're really trying to piss me off, aren't you?'

For a while, I thought it was the cat who said that. After I while, of course, I realized that that couldn't be possible, so I opened my eyes to look at Sebastian as he stood before my bed. 'Appearing before me this early in the morning?' I said, copying his tone. 'You're really trying to piss me off, aren't you?'

Sebastian didn't react to that, but he did put his hand out to the cat, who immediately run towards his master.

'Jup, you're really trying to piss me off,' I said, surprisingly grumpy and even angry. My sadness from yesterday because Sebastian hadn't saved me had changed into being angry at him. I knew that I really didn't have a reason, he had no obligation to save me, but I still felt betrayed. But most of all annoyed.

'Well, you are all sunshine and rainbows today,' Sebastian said as he pet his cat. 'Do you want to eat some chocolate? Or some medicine?'

It took a while for me to realise what Sebastian was suggesting. 'Very funny, but I'm one of those few girls who doesn't have to worry about stuff like that,' I said as I got out of the bed. 'I can't get pregnant, so everything that comes with that also doesn't count for me.'

Sebastian frowned. 'What?' he asked and I really didn't understand where the sudden serious tone in his voice came from. Was me being sterile such a serious matter to him?

I again felt the weird desire to tell him the truth, whether I was angry at him or not. 'I have a bit of a strange body, I'm often sick. One time when I was fourteen I was in the hospital because I was sick and they didn't know the reason and then during one of the researches they found out that I was sterile. It doesn't really bother me, really.' My words sounded like a waterfall of nonsense, but I wasn't sure how to explain it.

Sebastian's eyebrows rose as he seemed to think of something. Then his face was normal again and an amused smile appeared on his face. 'So that's how it is… how… interesting.'

'Er, sorry?' I asked, not sure about how my condition was 'interesting'. This whole mysterious attitude was starting to freak me out.

He smiled at me. 'No, it's nothing.' But that smile om his face way to innocent to believe.

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When I was finished showering and went to Ciel's office to thank him for taking care of me, Sebastian suddenly appeared at my side. 'Be careful with him, miss Lane. After the newspaper from this morning he's been quite… unbearable.'

I nodded, kind of expected it. 'Because the Jack the Copycat-case isn't closed yet,' I said, because 'thank you' wasn't the only thing I wanted to say to him. He needed to know about my suspicion, even if it meant that his aunt would go to jail.

Sebastian frowned. 'How do you know?' he asked.

I looked at him and I knew that the smile on my face looked forced and sad. 'Because I had a feeling that it wasn't over yet.'

Sebastian actually looked impressed. Ugh, I should take a picture, but my phone was still at Madame Red's house, since I had left it there when we went to the party. I realized that that meant that I would probably miss the newest updates and that I would hear all sorts of stories Monday at school that I didn't know because I didn't have my freaking phone! Argh! Not that I had friends to talk about that stuff, but I hated it when people were talking about someone's death or a wedding that I hadn't heard about. It just annoyed me.

'I don't know what's going on, but you do not seem to be in the best of moods today,' Sebastian said, obviously trying to be nice.

'I want my phone!' I whined.

'That surprising,' Sebastian said, 'since I never see you on your phone.'

Ah. He was right. But that was because if Sebastian was close to me, I had better things to do. Such as listen to Ciel as he threatened me. Or listen to Sebastian as he skilfully seduced me. Or stare at Sebastian when I wasn't paying attention to my own thoughts.

But there was no way that I was going to tell him that.

When I reached Ciel's office, Sebastian was suddenly gone. I swallowed my sudden nerves and knocked on the door.

'Get lost!' I heard him scream, but I rolled my eyes and pushed the door open.

'Getting lost in this house is so two weeks ago,' I told him as he dead-glared me, making me want to roll my eyes again. 'Geez, lady. I just came to thank you for helping me,' I said, trying to which my grumpy and easily annoyed mood into a kind one. Not with any success, but at least I tried.

'Well, you were laying in front of my front door,' he said, staring at the paper as if it was his testament.

'Yes, yes, sorry about that,' I said, suddenly blushing like an idiot.

'It's fine,' he said. 'From now on I will make sure to take excellent care of you.' He looked up. 'You won't be put in such a dangerous situation ever again.'

While he was looking determined at me like that and was saying words that I needed to hear so badly, I started to understand – even if it was just a little bit – why Elizabeth had fallen for this boy. The only problem was that I knew not to trust his words completely. 'And what made you think like that?' I asked, certain that there was something that made him think like that.

'You're under the Queen's surveillance now,' he answered. When I looked at him with the most surprised face I could pull, he sighed and said: 'I bet you didn't even know that she knew you existed.'

'Nope,' I said, still staring surprised into the distance. I wasn't sure what to think of this. The Queen, looking out for me? Why? Suddenly the face of the man in white appeared in my mind and I shook my head. He wasn't the Queen, how did he end up in my thoughts?

Ciel sighed again. 'Was that everything you wanted to tell me?' he asked, back to looking troubled at the paper again.

I swallowed and opened my mouth numerous of times, but every time I closed it again, not sure of how to say it. Then, finally, words came out: 'Well, Ciel… It's about the Copycat-case,' I started, but then I didn't go on, once again unsure.

'What is it?' Ciel asked, not entirely listening since it was clear that he didn't believe that I could find something that he hadn't.

'I think I might have a potential suspect,' I said, trying to find words to say this in a way that my heart wouldn't break, trying to find a way to say it without hurting him.

'Oh, really?' he said, clearly not believing me. 'Let' hear it then.'

I closed my eyes for a while and took a deep breath before saying: 'Madame Red.'

Ciel didn't look up, but froze. 'What did you say?' he asked, sounding strangely aware.

'Madame Red had been acting kind of strange,' I said, not sure how to explain it. 'And Grell always goes to pick her up in the middle of the night, but they don't return 'till morning. I just think that that's really suspicious.'

'I do believe I agree with her on the point that Grell is a very suspicious matter,' Sebastian said, suddenly appearing behind me, making me jump. His word choice was a bit strange.

'Ah, is that so?' Ciel asked. 'Then we will follow her tonight. Sebastian, find out when her night shift ends and make sure to have everything ready by then. We will follow Grell when he goes to pick her up, but I'll need to know the time her shift's over to see if she is also a suspect.'

'Yes, my Lord,' Sebastian said, after that he left the room normally, for some reason.

'What, you believe your butler but not me?' I asked, sounding really offended.

Ciel laughed. 'Well, of course. A demon butler with extreme good senses is much better at deducing than a high school girl with a lot of family problem, right?'

'Family problems? I don't know what you're talking about. I don't have family problems. I don't even have a fam-'

'Ash Landers,' Ciel interrupted me. He strangled his hands together as he leaned back in his chair. 'Friend of yours?'

'Apparently,' I answered, scratching the back of my head. 'But, in all honesty, I have no idea. I didn't even know he existed until yesterday.'

'Strange,' Ciel said. 'Because according to the documents Sebastian collected for me, he is your legal guardian and has been your second guardian ever since your birth,' he said, grabbing something from his desk and waving with it.

I didn't even bother to take it from him to conform his words. I believed him. I just wasn't sure how I was supposed to react to it. 'Maybe he's a friend of the family? I've already told you that I've no idea.'

'Never said you did,' Ciel said, sighing. 'Though I do think that you might me connected to everything somehow, even more than I thought you were.'

Suddenly, I felt a strange pain in my heart and I recognized it immediately. I had it before, not often, like twice a year. But everything I got a rush of pain it become worse. This time I wasn't even able to stay standing.

Ciel frowned. 'Clarissa?'

I waved with one hand at him while my other hand was against the place where my hearts was beating in my chest. 'It's fine, it's fine. It will be over in a minute.'

Then Ciel seemed to realise what it was. 'Ah. You're had this before during PE, correct?' he asked. 'And I believe you once had it during a history lesson as well.'

The pain was almost gone by now. 'Correct,' I said. But the memory stayed there.

When I stood up straight again, Ciel frowned his eyebrow again. 'Clarissa… You might want to look into a mirror for a bit…'

'Sorry?' I asked, immediately touching my hair.

Ciel touched his eye-patch, probably without even knowing that he did. 'Your eyes… they… they've become purple.'

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'Ah, it really is terrible to find your most wonderful creation hanging around such a unclean human and his graceless creature. I know that it is for the greater good, but it still pisses me off,' the man said as he walked through the empty corridors of the hospital. 'It's a good thing that I remember where I put you,' he mumbled as he walked into the restricted section of the hospital.

No one stopped him. Of course, they weren't even aware that he was there. A smile appeared on his face, a smile so devilish that it would scare even the cats. Everything was going according to plan. It was time to bring out his first trick, to try and cleanse the boy and get rid of the demon. Whether it was one way or another, he would get read of the creatures who make pure humans unclean.

He opened a locked door without unlocking it and walked into a room where there were only wires and machines, all to keep one, insane little human alive. The machines made incredible loud noises, but it didn't annoy the man, because the chaotic noise reminded him of chaos. And he loved chaos.

The man walked over to the bed, leaned over the human that was laying on the bed and smiled. 'Time for you to wake up,' he said with his angelic voice. 'Drossel Keinz.'

And then the human on the bed opened his purple eyes.

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I love writing confusing stuff. But at least now you know: EYE COLOUR IS IMPORTANT! I noticed that Ash and Angela had purple eyes, as well as Drossel, who was sort of possessed by an angel, so I thought that eye colour must have something to do with what you are. That's just a theory of me, though.

This chapter for a bit short, sorry! It wasn't the shortest one, though. I'm trying not to beat that record :)

There is some pretty fun stuff coming up and also an idea that I like but I think some of you might hate (please don't hate me when you find out what it is!).

Anyway, thank you for reading and reviewing, love you all! Until next time!