So in this chapter comes the twist that I think some of you won't like… So I'm actually really scared…

But anyway, I don't own Kuroshitsuji, I do own my OC and I hope you guys will enjoy this chapter!

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Chapter 19

This night was the most horrible night of my life.

Sitting alone in a creepy and empty house, trapped in my own thoughts, was something that I really did not want to experience right now.

I still couldn't get over the fact that I'd actually kissed him. Even though it was just a split second and most people wouldn't even see that as a kiss, but I did. And I hated myself. Why had I done it in the first place?

Because you think he's attractive, of course. That's the only reason. No feelings. Just because he's handsome.

But the moment I thought that, I could slap myself. Of course that wasn't it! I didn't care how handsome he was, I wouldn't go and kiss a demon only because he was hot.

When were Grell and Madame Red coming home?! I really did not want to stay alone anymore. What was going on? Was Grell behind it? Madame Red? Or were they working together? What if they were? Would they go to jail? What would happen to Ciel if his first legal guardian went to jail? Would Sebastian become his first guardian? That sounded like a terrible idea.

I wasn't sure for how long I'd been staring in the distance when my phone rang.

I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the display to see who would call me this late. I wasn't surprised that it was a number that my phone didn't recognize.

When I picked up the phone, I wasn't sure what to expect. But I sure as hell didn't expect Sebastian to speak in such a polite manner, as if we'd never met before. 'I call to inform you that certain events have come to a close,' he said, his voice sounding so business-like that I immediately wanted to hang up. 'Ciel and I are currently in the hospital, but we'll come home soon. Grell and Madame Red won't return. I thought you wanted to know. Goodnight.' Then he hung up.

I stood still for a few seconds. Then I freaked.

WHAT?!

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I rushed inside the hospital, immediately assuming that they were in the London Central Hospital, since that was the closest one.

I really didn't get why Madame Red had to be picked up, because running I got there in less than ten minutes. I ran over to the desk were a young nurse was sitting. 'I'm sorry,' I said, breathing heavy. 'But is Ciel Phantomhive here?'

She looked up at me with a polite smile. 'You mean the Earl? They brought him in a few minutes ago. Are you family?' she asked.

I nodded, just in case that they didn't let me see him if I wasn't. 'Yes, I'm his niece.' Since Madame Red was kind of my guardian that wasn't even that incorrect.

The smile on the nurses face faded for a second and I thought for a second that she didn't believe me, but then she said: 'Second floor, room 63. But don't worry, sweetheart. He didn't look seriously injured when he arrived.' She pulled a face. 'He had more than enough energy to whine about the employees and the smell in this hospital.'

I thanked her, not sure how to react to the last things she said, and rushed over to the stairs, because I didn't want to wait for the elevator. I looked around and thanked heavens that this hospital had a lot of signs to lead you to the room you needed to be. It took me less than a minute to find the right room.

I didn't even knock on the door. I just rushed in. 'Ciel!' I said when I saw him, but he looked surprisingly okay.

And he didn't look happy to see me. 'What are you doing here?' he asked, not even trying to hide the fact that he really didn't want me to be here.

'Sebastian called, so I got worried,' I said, trying to ignore the butler that was standing in the corner of the room, staring at me with burning eyes.

Ciel sighed and gave Sebastian a quick glare. 'Well, I guess it can't be helped then. But nothing's wrong.'

Then I noticed the bandage on his leg. 'Nothing's wrong?! What happened to your leg?!' I said, rushing over to him to get a better view.

'It's just a small injury,' he said. 'Nothing's wrong. I'll be fine.'

'Actually,' a doctor said as he entered the room. 'We took a look at the pictures. Your muscle has been damaged and even though your leg will heal fine, that muscle is most likely permanently damaged.'

I covered my mouth with my hand, trying to understand what had happened. Who'd injured him? And what would happen to Ciel?

The doctor closed this eyes for a moment. 'He will be fine, but I advise you to acquire a walking stick. Walking can be tricky, especially the first few months.'

Ciel didn't say anything, he just stared out of the window, where the rain had stopped falling.

And for the first time since I'd met him, Ciel looked sincerely heart broken.

But I didn't think that it had anything to do with his leg.

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After the doctor left, I mumbled that I was going to get some water and left the room, wanting to escape the heavy atmosphere that was hanging there.

I sat down just outside the room, not wanting to look for water. Running and not sleeping had taken their toll and I didn't have any energy left. But I also felt the strange desire to cry, which I didn't, since I felt like that would be useless right now.

Some went to sit down beside me. 'Why is it that every time I see you, you seem to be on the edge of crying?'

I looked up, into the violet eyes of Ash Landers. 'Maybe your timing is just bad,' I said, forcing a smile, not entirely sure how to treat this man.

He gave me a smile back. 'No, I think my timing it precisely right,' was his reaction, though it sounded like he was talking about more than just our meeting times. 'So, what happened?' he asked, sounding like a real parent.

Which somehow made the tears escape. As I started crying I felt so ashamed that I covered my face with my hands. 'I don't know. And that's the problem. I don't know anything!' I said, my hands still covering my face.

'Hmm, yes, I do believe that's true,' he said, again sounding like there was more behind the words he said then just what it seemed to mean on the surface. 'But I do believe that that will change the moment that you are willing to change. So, are you willing to change?'

I pulled my hands of my face and looked at him frowning. 'What do you mean by that?' The words didn't sound that impressive since I was still crying, but I felt like it was stopping on its own now, as if someone made them leave.

'What I mean right now is not important,' he said, waving my words away. 'What's important now is… how fare are you willing to go to save Ciel Phantomhive?'

Saving Ciel Phantomhive? I never even thought of that as a possibility. If it was Sebastian I was up against, I could never win. I was only human, after all. 'I'm willing to go as far as to save him, but I already know that I will never be able to,' I told him. Then I realised something strange. 'Wait, how do you know about that?'

A smile that I couldn't trust appeared on the man's face. 'Well, I do believe that there are creatures in this world who can sense a lost soul. But I do think that Ciel Phantomhive has a soul that is not lost yet.' He stood up and offered me is hand. 'Come, there's something I want to show you.'

I let him pull me up and I followed him as we walked down and down stairs, until we reached a place where there were no signs and no directions. It also felt a lot colder here than it had felt on the other floors.

That was the moment I realized that I had just followed a man I barely knew into the cellar of a hospital. 'Wait, what are we doing he-'

Ash had disappeared.

But it wasn't silent here. You could hear the noises of machines buzzing and working, but that wasn't the thing that sounded familiar. That wasn't the thing that made me stand frozen in the corridor, waiting for the moment that I finally dared to move.

'London bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. London bridge is falling down, my fair lady,' a voice that I would never be able to forget sang. I unintentionally brought my hand to the burning mark in my neck, feeling it burn as the memory came back to me.

And there, at the end of the corridor, appeared a familiar face.

Drossel Keinz.

'Build it up with wood and clay, wood and clay, wood and clay. Build it up with wood and clay, my fair Lady.'

He was wearing a hospital uniform, but it didn't look right. He used to always wear hats. Seeing him without a hat was really unnatural.

'Wood and clay will wash away, wash away, wash away. Wood and clay will wash away, my fair lady,' he sang, finally noticing me.

We just stood there, not far away from each other, but also not close. I just stood still in shock and horror and he just stood there, head tilted to the left, looking at me with a curious look in his purple eyes.

Wait… purple?

He just kept looking at me with that look and I had nothing to say, nothing to hear. I didn't want to move, too scared to be attacked again. Too scared to die without accomplishing or understanding anything.

'Clary?' he then said, for once not singing.

I still couldn't react, didn't know how.

Then he said another word: 'Old.'

Old? If this were a different situation, I would have felt insulted. But right now, I was too scared to feel anything.

Then, thank god, a nurse appeared, frowning as she saw me and Drossel standing there. 'Mister Keinz! You are supposed to be sleeping!' she said, grabbing Drossel' arm. She looked at me. 'Did he bother you?'

I finally managed to move, but only to shake my head.

'Why are you here?' she asked.

I suddenly felt like answering with one word was a good idea. 'Lost,' was the only thing I said.

'Ah. Well, you can just go upstairs, I'm sure you'll find your way back,' she said as she started to lead Drossel back to wherever he was supposed to be.

But then he started singing again. And as he sang, I heard a joy in his voice that I couldn't describe not explain. 'Clary, she will fade away, fade away, fade away. Clary, she will fade away, my fair lady.'

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I somehow managed to find my way back to Ciel and Sebastian, who were about to leave the hospital as I got there. I was pretty sure that Ciel had pulled some strings to be able to leave earlier, because the doctor didn't look really happy when Ciel stepped out of bed, almost falling down the moment he stood.

Sebastian immediately pulled out his hands to catch Ciel, but he pushed him away immediately, looking at Sebastian with a look that I didn't understand, but I was pretty sure that I had never seen it before. He seemed scared, but that wasn't the word to describe it. It seemed like it was fear mixed with disgust.

'I'm fine,' he said harsh. 'I can stand on my own.' But as he walked towards the doorway, it was clear to everyone that he couldn't.

I walked up to him, somehow sure that he wouldn't be scared if it was me. It seemed that everyone in the room hadn't noticed me until I did that. 'Don't be silly,' I said as he looked at me with his famous 'leave me alone'-look. 'Here, you can lend my arm,' I said, holding out my arm for him. 'It can be your walking stick until we get you one.'

Ciel looked at me if he wanted to protest, but then he took my arm and I felt that he needed it, because the next step he took I felt his weight on my arm. 'Thank you,' he said, so soft that I was almost certain that I'd heard it wrong.

'You're welcome,' I mumbled back, looking back at Sebastian as he looked at me and Ciel with anger and possessiveness in his eyes.

But I knew that that wasn't directed towards me, but towards Ciel. Because why would Sebastian ever want to possess me?

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When we arrived at the Phantomhive mansion, Ciel had fallen asleep. At first I wanted to carry him to his room, knowing that, for some reason, he wouldn't like it if Sebastian was the one to carry him now. But since I was scared that I would drop him on the floor, I let Sebastian carry him. But I didn't leave him alone. I just walked besides them, holding Ciel's hand as if that would accomplish anything. But I felt that he squeezed my hand from time to time and that was more than enough to make me feel useful.

Sebastian didn't bother to change Ciel's clothes, even though he was still wearing hospital clothes. The moment he'd closed the door to Ciel's room, he turned to face me. 'I do believe I got some explaining to do,' he said.

I was actually surprised. 'Oh, so you are actually going to tell me anything? I'm impressed.' I didn't sound as cynical as I'd wanted.

'Madame Red was killed,' Sebastian said, completely ignoring the cynical turn I was trying to take.

'W-what?' I said, because whatever I'd expected, that wasn't it. I covered my mouth with my hands for a few seconds, not sure how to react. 'So she wasn't… Oh gosh. By who?'

'Grell Sutcliffe,' was his answer. 'But Madame Red wasn't innocent either.'

I felt like I'd missed something. 'Are you saying that we were both right? That they were both killing those women, that they were a team?'

'Yes, but the moment Grell lost interest in her, he killed her, to Young Master's grief. Even though he will never admit that.' Sebastian frowned. 'And now, in order for the explanation I give you, I asked one of you.'

I immediately understood what he was talking about, but right now I couldn't bring myself to talk about that. I wasn't sure if I ever would be able to. 'I understand, Sebastian, but right now, I just want to go to bed. I'll explain when I can, okay?'

He frowned, clearly not liking this for an answer. But as I yawned, he seemed to understand that this wasn't only because I really – really – did not want to talk or think about it. 'I understand.' He bowed. 'Goodnight, my Lady.'

But after hearing Drossel sing that song again, the word 'lady' had lost all his charm. Now, that word just creeped me out.

As I walked to the room that was soon probably going to be mine again, since I had lost my home for the second time in less than two months, I noticed that the black cat was following me again. 'You know, cat,' I said, 'I think that you're the only friend I have at the moment.' A gave the cat a sad smile. 'And that's not good, considering that you're probably one of Sebastian's minions.'

The cat just closed his eyes for a short period, walking without problems even though his eyes were closed.

'Well, at least you're not trying to confuse me even more,' I said as I walked into my room, only to see the moon shining through the window.

But then I thought I saw something else, and I rushed towards the window.

And right before it disappeared, I thought I saw someone with long, blood red hair running through the night.

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'What do you mean he disappeared?' Abberline asked the nurse, trying to take notes while also try to stay calm. He was actually pretty freaked out in this creepy cellar. He didn't like going out on his own like this, but all the other police officers were way too busy with the two corpses that were found.

'I mean that he disappeared! He isn't in his room and the camera's do not show anything! It's like he disappeared in thin air!' the nurse said panicking.

'That's not possible! Aren't there any clues?' Abberline asked. 'Strange behaviour or strange occurrences?'

'Well,' the nurse said, suddenly thinking of something. 'Not too long ago, there was this girl here. But she really did seem lost and useless, so I don't think she had anything to do with it.'

'A-a-aha,' Abberline said, writing this down just in case.

'But after that… he always sings London Bridge is falling down, that kind of his thing,' she said. 'But ever since that strange girl appeared, he'd been singing the same strange, non-existing couplet over and over again.'

'Ah, and what did he sing?' Abberline asked, almost certain that this wasn't going to be helpful at all.

The nurse seemed to think about that for a moment. 'I do believe it was something along the lines of 'Clary, she will fade away, fade away, fade away. Clary, she will fade away, my fair lady', I'm actually quite sure. He was singing it the whole night.'

Abberline frowned as he thought of the girl named 'Clarissa' that he'd met yesterday. 'I'm sorry, but I do believe that we'll need to make a composite sketch of the girl you met this evening. Do you mind coming to the office with me?'

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Chapter nineteen has ended! So yeah, that happened. The thing I thought some of you wouldn't like was the walking stick thing. I just wondered as I watched the anime why he had one and so I came up with a reason. Not only because it's a pretty iconic thing he always has with him, but also because there aren't many people these days with walking sticks, so I felt like I had to give him a good reason to have one.