Hey everyone, chapter 32 is here! I'm sorry I didn't update in a while and I probably won't update tomorrow: I'm at my grandma's house at the moment so yeah.

And WOW, 80 followers? Almost a hundred (bit too optimistic, but that's kind off my thing)! I'm thinking of doing something really special when I reach a hundred, but I'm not sure what to do. Probably update everyone day for a week of something.

Anyway, I don't own Kuroshitsuji, but my OC is all mine.

Enjoy this chapter!

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Chapter 32

Of course Sebastian was quickly at our side to defend his master, ignoring me in the process.

Of course, I thought to myself, I forgot that he wanted me killed.

'Snuff out the unclean!' the people screamed, but they didn't attack me, which was surprising. Almost as if I wasn't a treat to them.

'The Queen!' Ciel said to Sebastian. 'We need to protect the Queen!'

I rolled my eyes. 'Does the Queen looks like she is in danger, Ciel? It's clearly you they're after!'

I noticed that some people started to run away, clearly everyone who wasn't influenced by… yeah, what was it, actually?

I wasn't sure how it was going to prove anything, but I reached towards one of the man men with my hand. The moment I touched the man, he grabbed me and his eyes seem to change back to normal. 'Wha—what just happened?' he asked me.

I had to be honest and tell him that I had absolutely no idea.

Wait… Did I just do that?

Everyone was fighting or defending themselves now. I just stood there and I didn't notice that Sebastian, Ciel and Ash were staring at me until I looked away from the scene. 'What?' I asked Sebastian and Ciel, clearly annoyed. 'We don't have time to stop and stare; we need to find a solution to this!'

'But—it seems as though we've already found it,' Ciel said, grabbing my hand, making me blush, which I hated to admit.

He pulled out my hand and pressed it against someone we was attacking him, making that person stop immediately, turning back to normal the moment he looked at me. 'What's going on?' he asked confused.

Purification, my dear, a clear woman voice said in my head, only you have what it takes to purify this sick souls. It's a poison only you have the antidote to.

And I decided to listen to this voice for once, grabbing everyone I could without getting hurt, but that was easy, seeing how none of the people seemed to make a move towards me. I saw that Sebastian had gone up to defend the Queen from possibly crazy people, but I was too far away now to go there. I also thought that it was pointless to only protect the Queen while she was being protected good enough. No one was protecting the people that seemed so unnecessary.

And then, me and Ash shared a look and I saw a challenge in his eyes. Almost as if he was asking me to surprise him and the Queen. Then I looked at Sebastian, who was also looking at me while fighting the Indian girl from earlier. He opened his mouth in a way that I recognized. It looked like he was singing.

I gave him a look back. What do you suggest? That I start singing? You seriously think that will help?

He nodded. Indeed, I do.

I sighed, gave in. He knew what he was doing most of the time, so trusting him in this situation didn't seem too dangerous. What do you suggest? Taylor Swift?

A vague smile appeared on his face. I never get involved in modern-day pop music.

I sighed again and stared at Ash, who was staring at me now with a look that I started to understand better now. It looked like a father who was disappointed in his daughter.

I opened my mouth and sung the first thing I could think of. I just sang 'ah' in a melody I had never heard before. It didn't even sound like a song. It sounded like a strange movie soundtrack. It sounded too fake.

Sebastian was right, of course, it did indeed work. The moment I opened my mouth and sang was also the moment people froze and started to look normal again. I felt like I was glowing, like I was the sun in this dark scene right now and I felt somewhat proud. Ha! And Ciel said that I was useless! Look at me, saving the Queen!

But then I looked at Ash and the look he gave me made me believe that I hadn't won the game. He looked at me like he was the winner.

And I was the loser that he won from.

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The Funtom Company won, but I'm wasn't sure whether it was just the judges or the Queen's opinion as well. Before she left, Her Majesty asked me if I would have a conversation with her, which I had to say 'yes' to of course. She didn't touch me and didn't even really have a conversation which me. She just looked at me and told Ash to tell me that I was a beautiful little soul who she would love to see again sometime.

Before I left, Ash said something else. 'I congratulate you with your great accomplishments today, ' he told me, sounding strangely not-nice about it. 'And I have a advise for you. Pay close attention to your heart, Clarissa,' he then said. 'It might be gone before you even know it.' What he meant by that was a question that I couldn't ask, because he and the Queen had to leave before anything could happen. The only thing he did before closing the door, was giving me a letter for Ciel.

Great. Now I was the mailman. Just fantastic. That's all the thanks I get, I guess.

When I re-joined the group, I saw that Soma and Agni clearly had made up, which warmed my heart a little bit. I didn't have any – or if I counted Ciel as one, than 'much' – friends, but seeing such a friendship survive was truly heart-warming to see.

Soma was just talking to Ciel. 'Thank you,' he said as I reached the group. 'If I had never met you, I'd still be an ignorant, selfish brat. Starting today, I'll learn many things and tour all England—no, all the world, until I become a man second to nobody!' He sounded all serious again.

A small smile appeared on his face. He truly seemed to have learned something from Ciel. It was great to know that a wise kid such as Ciel could help other people see the light. Even though I was sure he would never admit it.

I saw that Agni and Sebastian were talking, but I couldn't hear their conversation.

But after a while, the group stood closer to them and we were able to hear what they were saying.

'Nationality is irrelevant,' Sebastian told Agni and I wished I knew the context. 'All places, all times, are essentially the same. And so is human nature.'

All times are the same? I thought. Says the guy who didn't know how to use modern cooking utensils until hours ago! But even though I thought that, I somewhat knew what he meant.

Agni seemed to do so too. 'Yes. Just as the evening sun over the Ganges River and the evening sun over the Thames are equally beautiful.'

Then Soma seemed to tear up a little bit, resulting in him grabbing both me and Ciel and bearing his face into Ciel's shoulder while crying. 'Mina!' he cried. 'Mina! Mina!'

Sad and broken or not, Ciel still did not want anyone to touch him. 'Let me go!' he said annoyed, sounding a bit angry, but not the usual level of anger.

Soma was crying way too hard to hear Ciel and the obviously didn't want to listen, but I didn't mind as much. Being hugged like this, I somehow felt… needed. And that was something That I didn't feel often.

I looked at Agni again, saw how he vaguely smiled. 'I'm very glad we came to England,' he told Sebastian and I was surprised that I could still hear what he was saying even though Soma was still crying in my ear. 'My prince and I both met ideal friends.'

'Friends?' Sebastian asked surprised. I couldn't tell if he was happy to hear that or not. I wish Sebastian was such an open book as Ciel was when it came to little things like this, but he wasn't. Sebastian always remained a mystery to me.

Ciel started to push Soma away now, trying, but Soma was ignoring that all together, letting me go in the process of not letting go of Ciel.

Just as I wanted to laugh I heard Sebastian say: 'You're the first person to ever say something like that to me.' And in that moment, he truly sounded old. And I realised that, if he were anything other than a demon, those words would have been very sad. I also realised that it was the same for me. But for me the fact remained that no one ever said it to me.

Ciel finally managed to push Soma away completely and that was when I realised that I had a letter for Ciel. 'Oh, yeah! Ciel,' I said, grabbing the letter out of the pocket of my jeans. 'The Queen asked me to give this to you.' I handed him the letter.

I was surprised that he opened it right on the spot. I thought that letters from the Queen were supposed to be secret. Well, it wasn't like anyone was here now. The parking lot of the studio was completely empty. Everyone had gone home already. Even the police had vanished after they realised that this case was a lost cause.

'Circus tickets?' he said softly. Then he frowned. 'Three. Three circus tickets.'

I wasn't sure why those three tickets bothered him so much, but they surely did.

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POV change

'Sebastian,' Ciel said as Clarissa was escorted away, since the Queen asked for her. 'Have you figured her out yet?'

'Well, yes and no,' Sebastian answered. He looked over at Agni and Soma, but those two clearly weren't paying attention to what they were saying. 'I'm quite certain now that her purifying skill is similar, if not better, than any angel's purifying skill. But she clearly is human. She could be some sort of hybrid, but that wouldn't explain the level of purification she did today. It also wouldn't explain the constant eye-colour change.'

'And Ash? He might be a lead in the case. I don't trust the fact that I seem to see him everywhere these days,' Ciel then said, looking at Agni and Soma as he spoke. Those two seemed to like him and his staff just fine now, but he wasn't sure what they would do if they started to suspect anything.

'I rather not investigate Ash Landers too closely if not ordered to, sir,' Sebastian said politely.

Ciel frowned. 'Puh. And why is that?'

A smile that didn't look sincere at all appeared on Sebastian's face. 'As you might have noticed; his eyes are purple. And I've learned to stay out of other people's contracts.'

Then Ciel thought of something that he hadn't thought of before. 'Could it be that Ash is in fact Clarissa's…'

'I managed to test her DNA and no, Ash Landers is not her father. I only found the DNA of her passed away father and mother. Her body is completely human.' He frowned. 'But I'm not sure about her soul, though.'

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I never thought that arriving at the mansion could ever feel so good. I almost ran towards the house, more tired than I had ever been and feeling more powerful than I had every felt. I wondered if demons felt this powerful all the time.

Of course, the house was locked when I reached the door and I had to wait until Ciel had reached the house, which took ages, certainly as he was using his walking stick again. Which did make me happy. But waiting in the cold for someone to open the door wasn't that much fun.

'Clarissa,' Ciel said as he reached me, Sebastian walking next to him. 'Did Ash or the Queen say anything to significance to you?'

I shook my head. 'No, they just thanked me. Well, Ash did say something about my he-' I stopped, for some reason I didn't want to talk about my heart to either Ciel or Sebastian. And certainly not both.

Ciel opened the door and I walked inside, running towards my room with my coat still on. I could almost I feel Sebastian's annoyance and I knew that he would've teased me again one way or the other if I had let him take my coat, so I was happy I escaped.

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Of course, running away from a demon was pretty useless. I was wearing my pyjamas and laying on my bed reading a book I stole from Ciel's library when he came in, looking surprisingly serious.

'Yo, Seb,' I said, trying to pretend like I wasn't influenced by his presence at all. 'What's up?'

He took my words literal, I thought it was to annoy me, but I wasn't quite sure. 'I'm pretty sure the sky is what's up, my Lady,' he answered, walking up to me and standing still next to my bed. I looked at the chair that was standing beside him for a second, confused as of why he did not sit down.

'Funny,' I then said, because I realised that I hadn't reacted to his answer yet. 'You should stop this whole demon-business and go into stand-up comedy.'

Sebastian laughed and finally did sit down on the chair. 'I don't think so,' he told me frankly. 'Some of my humour is a bit dated.'

'That old, huh?' I said, remembering that he did not seem to like to talk about his age. He knew more than enough of my weak spots, so I didn't feel guilty for using his.

Sebastian's face become flat, almost angry, but he didn't say anything. He just looked at me. Then his hand went to my face, touching my cheek as if he was scared I would disappear if he pressed too hard. Then Sebastian finally opened his mouth. 'I really should just kill you, you know.'

Those words were clearly to scare me, but they didn't. I'd known for a very long time that Sebastian wanted me dead. 'Well, sucks for you buddy,' I said, 'because your master ordered you to take care of me, didn't he?'

'Yes,' Sebastian admitted. 'But his orders aren't binding, you know. I just obey them because that's what demons stand for. A meal that was required with a false contract never ends well. For the contractor nor for the demon.'

'Oh,' I said, surprisingly not interested. I didn't want to hear dark stories now. I wanted to read this stupid love roman and go to sleep with pictures of handsome men in my head. Everyone, anyone, but Sebastian.

Sebastian's hand was in my hear now, pulling one strand of hair towards his face. He kissed my hair and said: 'I should just kill you. Right now. No mystery to be solved. No questions to be answered. Just the end and the end only.' He narrowed his eyes. 'But with killing you, there might be a chance that I'm also killing a main clue in young master's revenge. And let's just say that that would literally spoil my dinner.'

'Funny,' I said, wishing that he would just release my hair.

Which he did. But only so he could grab my chin and pull my face towards his. 'What are you, my Lady?' he asked, but the strange tone of respect in his voice made me feel like it was meant to be a compliment.

'I'm just me,' I answered, my voice barely a whisper. 'I'm Clarissa.'

'Hmm, that's not the answer I wanted to hear,' he said, his eyes glowing in the dark room. The only light came from the small light on the table next to my bed.

'Well, I'm sorry my answer was disappointing,' I said, not meaning it at all.

'No, you're not,' Sebastian reacted almost immediately. 'But quite frankly, my dear, I'm pretty sure you don't give a damn.'

That sounded familiar somehow, but I wasn't sure why. But that wasn't the only thing that bothered me. 'Did you just call me 'dear'?'

'Yes,' he said, still holding my chin. 'I did. Do you have a problem with that?'

Yes, I did, but I was pretty sure that if I told him that he would only love to call me that more, so I just shrugged. 'Not really, no. But it does bother me when you use it like that.'

Sebastian pulled up on eyebrow. Damn, that was sexy! I had remind myself that I wasn't allowed to love this demon. Even if I already did. I should just stop. Now. 'Use it like what?' he asked.

I shook my head, trying to make sense while pretending to not feel my heart beating fast in my chest. 'Like you don't mean it. We both now you would never call me 'my dear' in any sincere way.' My hands shook, wanted to touch him so badly that it hurt.

The smile on Sebastian's face looked way to tempting for its own good. 'Hmm, maybe that's true.' He leaned forward, one hand in my neck, the other on my cheek now. He talked against my cheek as he said: 'But wouldn't you be bothered by it if it was sincere?'

I didn't answer. My brain and heart were telling me to turn my head slightly, because that would mean that the lips that were now caressing my cheek would end up on my mouth. And I knew that Sebastian wanted me to do exactly that. He wanted me to kiss him, making it impossible for me to blame him, even if it was his fault for tempting me. I tried to fight my reflexes, tried to fight my desire. Tried to fight his amazing seducing skills. But I couldn't. I just couldn't.

I turned my head and his lips met mine.

I was surprised how surprised Sebastian felt under my lips, as if this wasn't the outcome he'd predicted. I started to wonder if it was.

But then Sebastian started to kiss me for real, pulling me closer as if he wanted to pull me out of the bed. I was surprised how different this kiss was, almost as if I was a flower which bloomed in his arms, but was also destroyed the moment it bloomed. This demon was full of a long life of mysteries and destruction. And I never thought such a combination would feel like this.

But then he pushed me off him with a strength that was almost scary. 'No,' he just said. His eyes were glowing hungry now, but it looked different hungry. Not the kind of hungry look he showed Ciel sometimes. 'No.'

I wasn't sure how to look. Or where to look. So I just looked at my hands, waiting for him to leave. When I looked up to see if he was still there, I saw that he was already gone.

And I started to wonder if maybe he hadn't been there to begin with.

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The end! Book of Circus-arc is starting soon! Wooh! I'm exited! I'm not sure if I will do the Book of Muder arc. I'm not sure what I've said before, if I've even said anything about it, but I do like the murder arc and wish I could do it, but if it doesn't fit into the story than it doesn't fit. So yeah.

Okay, today's word is: 'strawberry' (I couldn't think of anything else :s). In Dutch it's 'aardbei' and in Japanese, it's 'ichigo' (bet you all knew that already, but still).

Sliver Moon Fairie: ha ha, thanks! And yeah, I guess that's true.

PyrroLou: Hallo, landgenoot! (okay, it's awkward writing in Dutch while you write in English…) But anyway, thanks! I didn't want Clarissa to be just a witness, I wanted her to be her own thing in the story. And the tv show was a modern-day change that was pretty easy to come up with, ha ha!

Aizawa Maiko: Thank you! I always look forward to writing the next chapter as well! (that sounds like bad English but yeah)

promocat: Thanks! Love writing it as well XD More of that will be in the story from now on, but not much in this chapter :/

Thanks for reading/reviewing and hope to see you next time!

(well, not actually see you, but you know what I mean)