Hey, everyone! So, I found some time to write today! Yay!

And I bought three books today. Now I'm broke. Again. And sorry for the typos. Again. And sorry for the fact that this chapter is a bit short.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy chapter 33!

I don't own Kuroshitsuji, but I do own my OC.

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Chapter 33

I was happy that I didn't dream that night. I was happy that I somehow managed to keep myself from thinking. But in the morning, my brain started to work again.

Tomorrow me, Sebastian and Ciel would go to a traveling circus to investigate, since there had been mysterious child disappearing in all the cities the circus had visited. Ciel said that we would visit the Undertaker first, but he also said that he didn't feel like taking action today, most certainly because the circus hadn't arrived yet.

I was just making homework when I realised that Christmas-season was already over. How did that happen? I was losing the idea of time. I wasn't even sure if school had already started or not. It didn't seem to be important anymore. I wasn't even sure who was paying for my school now.

Sebastian didn't ignore me more than usual and he didn't act any different. I had to be honest and say that that did bother me, mostly because I was not acting normally. I was acting like a fool, mumbling and stuttering while dropping everything in my hands when I saw or talk to him.

I wasn't sure what that kiss that meant, nor whose fault it had been (and yes, it had definitely been a fault), but I knew now that Sebastian wasn't planning on killing me. Yet. I wasn't sure if I should be relieved or not, though.

'Clarissa?' Mei-Rin said when she came into my room to bring me my lunch. 'Something's bothering you, yes?'

I smiled vaguely and shook my head. 'No, it's nothing, Mei-Rin,' I answered. 'But thanks for asking. It's always nice to find out that someone actually cares.'

'Y-young master cares, too, yes!' she said, clearly believing that.

I did not, though. 'Well, if you say so,' I said, clearly not convinced. Talking with Mei-Rin always seemed pointless. And Finnian and Baldroy weren't bugging me enough, so I hadn't had many conversations with them either. But I did like the three. Not because they were awful at their jobs or because they were always cheerful, but because they had such a strong believe and trust in their master.

Then my eye fell on a magazine that Mei-Rin had brought in with my lunch. 'What's this?' I asked her, frowning.

'Y-young master asked me to bring this to your room,' she said, playing nervously with her hands. 'A-and if that's everything, I will leave for now, yes!' She ran out of the room, clearly avoiding my reaction to whatever the magazine was going to reveal.

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I was now actually thankful for the whole evil curry incident, because the magazine didn't have the picture that was taken of me and Sebastian in it. But there was an article about me.

Ciel Phantomhive's new addition to the Funtom Family? Clarissa Lane calms angry crowd down with her voice.

I almost laugh. Of course that was what it looked like for the normal people. Of course they thought I just calmed those 'angry' people down with my voice. Even I wasn't sure what had happened, but I was pretty sure that that wasn't it.

'It wasn't a trap for Ciel, you know,' the demon said, standing in front of my desk all of the sudden.

I almost screamed, but I managed to control myself. 'What are you doing here?' I asked, sounding only a bit angry. Really not impressive.

Sebastian ignored me. 'You said yesterday that those people had been a trap for Ciel, but I'm pretty sure that it was a test.' He looked at me with burning red eyes. 'A test for you.'

I laughed, not even sure why I was laughing. 'Are you serious? No one is interested in me—'

'Ash is interested in you,' Sebastian interrupted. 'So much that it almost frightens me. And nothing frightens me.'

I pulled up an eyebrow. 'Nothing?' I repeated, not believing him. 'Everyone is scared of something, Sebastian. You are old and wise enough to at least know that.'

'I'm also wise enough to know that the only fear is fear itself.' A small smile appeared on his face. 'And I'm feared by too many to find fear something scary.'

'There you go again, with your wise words that only sound wise until you start to think about what you actually said. I know you're afraid of something, Sebastian. Everyone is scared of something. Even fear itself most fear the moment no one fears him anymore. Even demons have to be scared of the light sometimes. So, what is your fear?'

Now Sebastian pulled up an eyebrow. 'Did you really think it was that easy to make me talk? I won't tell you my weak spots, Clarissa. Even though I don't think you're a danger to me now, I like to keep it that way. Otherwise, I'd have to kill you and that would be a shame.' He put his hands on my desk and leaned forward, breathing his marvellous breath into my face. 'Seeing as though death would ruin that pretty blush on your face.'

I clenched my hands into fists, but didn't look away. I just sat there, waiting for him to move away from me. Which he didn't. Well, I wasn't going to move either. I would show him that I wasn't influenced by his presence at all. I would show him that I had the upper hand here. 'Oh? And I thought you liked to see death. Isn't that kind of a demon-thing? Hugging corpses and all that?'

Sebastian laughed, and again his breath stroke down on my face, making me want to close my eyes and breath his scent in deeply. Why was everything about this demon attractive? He really was a seducer, there was no escape. 'I'm not sure what you've heard about demons, but I'm pretty sure it's wrong.'

Still fighting the urge to breathe in his scent like some strange fangirl-dog, I said: 'Maybe it is. But what're you going to do about that?'

'Hmm,' he said softly, leaning closer to me. Our foreheads were almost touching now and I realised that he was in control; powering over me like a tiger while I was the little monkey who tried to escape.

Okay, did I just call myself a monkey?

'You smell nice,' he said and I wasn't sure if he was teasing me or not. I doubted that Sebastian would ever compliment me seriously, but he did sound sincere.

And those words made me finally close my eyes. Not only because of his scent and sweet words, but also because his face was so beautiful that it hurt. 'You do, too.'

'Clarissa,' he said softly, tempting me to open my eyes again, but I just kept them close, not wanting to look him into the eye. 'I'm hungry.'

This made me frown and I had to keep myself from opening my eyes. 'Hungry? Than feed off of someone. It's not like you cannot.' Well, he couldn't feed off of me. Which was a big, big, plus right now. Whatever I was feeling right now was something I didn't even want to know.

I felt that one hand pushed my hair away from my neck and I felt his breath move from my eyes to my forehead as he spoke. 'Demons lie, Clarissa. It's not a sin for a sinful creature such as me. I'm quite honest about the fact that I will lie when it suits me. I will not lie to my master, but I will lie to every stupid mortal idiot that is trying to 'save' my dinner.'

'So you don't feed off of people's emotions?' I asked, confused now.

He laughed in my ear. 'Never said that I didn't.' Than he pulled away, standing straight again. 'And I was right.'

I frowned. 'Right about what?'

A small smile appeared on his face. 'You do like me quite a bit.'

My eyebrows rose and I almost laughed at him. Then I realised that he was, of course, right. But that didn't mean that I wasn't going to deny it. 'What on earth gave you that ludicrous idea?' I asked him.

'You're pulse elevated,' he told me. 'And I've learned that a human's body gets a different smell whenever they're attracted to someone. A smell that humans can't detect, of course.' The smile on his face was so innocent that I wish I could just disappear. 'It's a smell I'm quite familiar with, though.'

I blushed and looked away, angry. 'And why did you want to know?' I asked him, suddenly so angry that I wished I was strong enough to hurt him. But I knew I wasn't. 'What could you get out of such knowlegde?'

Sebastian waited a while before he answered. 'Because as long as you even feel slightly attracted towards me, I have to upper hand,' he said, turning around, clearly planning to leave the room in human speed. 'Because there's no way I'll ever fall in love with a mere human.' And then he was gone.

I considered throwing my lunch on the ground out of anger, but I was quite hungry and was almost quite certain that either I or Mei-Rin had to clean it up, so I just began to eat.

Damn that damn demon and his seductive skills.

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'It's very convenient that Sir Arthur is out,' Ciel said as he observed me and Sebastian.

Abberline didn't agree with that statement. 'Please, stop!' he said nervously yet determined. 'If the Commissioner finds out—'

'Just make sure he doesn't, then,' Ciel reacted before Abberline could even finish.

I wasn't entirely sure why Ciel had taken me with him to Scotland Yard, but it was clear that I was needed. Sebastian didn't even know how the computer database worked. So if I hadn't come along looking for the documents about the missing children would have been difficult. Though I had to admit that I would've worked faster if Sebastian hadn't stand so close behind me. Seriously, did he have to be this close?

'Listen to me!' Abberline said. He had tried to pull me away from the computer, but Sebastian had kept him away. The moment he realised actions weren't going to work, he had started using words. And he had been talkiong ever since. That didn't help either. 'This is the third floor! How did you get in here?!'

I cracked a smile and gave the open window in the room a quick glance. Abberline really was stupid when it came to stuff like this.

'Well, Clarissa?' Ciel said impatient, ignoring Abberline's question. 'Are you done?'

'Almost done,' I told him, not looking away from the computer screen. 'Okay, so, no bodies have been found that match the missing children's reports,' I told him, after I had searched for the last name in the database.

Ciel didn't look surprised. 'We'll leave after you've printed the data. We might as well borrow the photos.' He walked up to me.

I thought he would say that. Good thing I had copied all the children's profiles into a different file that I could easily print.

'You can't do that!' Abberline said, waving his hands like an idiot.

'If you get found out, just say that I was here,' Ciel said, clearly only saying that to shut him up.

Abberline wasn't that stupid, though. 'That'd get me in even more trouble!' he screamed, sounding truly scared.

I laughed as I clicked on the 'print' option. You think? I thought sarcastically, almost saying it out loud.

Ciel was looking at the screen now, pointing Sebastian in the direction of the printer, where pages full of data was coming out now. 'Listen… Hmm, Underline, isn't it?'

I held in a laugh. Nope, that wasn't it. And I bet Ciel knew that that wasn't it. Maybe he just liekd to tease the poor guy. Even though Ciel did not seem like that kind of boy, he was sort of raised by a demon, so it wouldn't be surprising.

'It's Abberline!' Abberline corrected upset.

Sebastian handed Ciel the information while he spoke. 'You've been a great help. We appreciate your cooperation.' While he looked at the files in his hands, Sebastian walked up to Abberline and handed him something. Money, I guessed.

That was something that Abberline didn't appreciate. He grabbed Sebastian's hand. 'I'm not for sale!' he told him. 'I just want to do whatever it takes to bring those children home!'

Ciel tapped on my shoulder to tell me to stand up, which I did. Ciel walked passed Abberline, towards the door, as he said: '"Whatever it takes," eh? Very flexible of you – you have a bright future ahead of you.' Sebastian followed Ciel and I came last, walking slightly faster to now fall behind. 'Hurry and get yourself promoted, Abberline.'

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'So they're still being treated as missing persons,' I said as we sat in the car, Sebastian driving.

'By respectable society, perhaps,' Ciel said, 'but someone in the underworld may have already disposed of them.'

I'd been with Ciel long enough to know what that meant. 'So we will be visiting the Undertaker again?'

'Indeed,' Ciel answered. 'I'd really rather not, but needs must.'

I laughed. 'Yeah, he is a strange fellow, that man. And I really have no idea how old he is. He looked sort of old… but then again he doesn't have wrinkles…'

Ciel lay his walking stick on his lap and crossed his arms. 'I wouldn't dwell on that man all too much.'

I shrugged. 'Why not? It's not like I have that much to think about these days.'

Ciel sighed. 'You have, though.'

I looked at him confused.

He rolled his eye. 'Ash Landers. Drossel Keinz. Your father. Your mother. Your purple eyes. They are all small mysteries had haven't been solved yet. Not completely, at least.' He frowned. 'And I'm starting to think that your mysteries might be important mysteries for me as well.'

I shivered, but it wasn't the cold weather that caused that.

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'They're nowhere.'

'Huh?' me, Ciel and Sebastian said in unison.

The Undertaker was sitting behind his table, that strange smile on his face and that weird tone in his voice as he spoke. 'None of them were my customers and there aren't any rumours, either.'

'In other words,' Ciel said slowly, 'you don't know a thing about this?'

The Undertaker didn't seem to agree with that. 'I beg to differ,' he said. 'I know that I don't know.'

Well, that sounded needlessly deep. Even though I knew he didn't meant it that way, but it certainly did sound that way.

'True,' Sebastian said, 'if you don't know, that would mean no one in the underworld killed them.'

'If their bodies haven't been found in either circle, they're still alive,' I finally said, putting the last pieces together.

Ciel closed his eyes for a second before he responded. 'If that's the case, I suppose our only choice is to personally investigate that circus.' He grabbed his walking stick, which he had put against the table, and started to walk towards the exit. 'We'll go there straightaway, Sebastian. Undertaker, contact me if you hear anything.'

I guess I should've been hurt because he didn't mention me, but I was way too used to care.

But before we could reach the exit, the Undertaker opened his mouth again. 'My Lord…' he said, making all three of us turn around to look at him. 'Each of us only gets one soul. Be sure to take good care of yours.'

I shivered. The way he said it didn't sound trustworthy at all.

'I know that,' Ciel said, clearly not really listening and not really caring. He walked out of the shop then and Sebastian followed, leaving only me to hear the last words that the Undertaker said.

'Do you really?'

I shivered again. No, I thought, he does not. But can you honestly blame him?

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End of chapter 33! Today's word is 'apple'. Dutch word for apple is 'appel' (looks and sounds pretty much the same, only a bit different) and the Japanese word was 'ringo' I thought.

They are going to the circus! YEAH! I loved the circus-arc in the manga as well as the anime.

Silver Moon Fairie: thanks for finding a song, but the links doesn't work for some reason :(

promocat: Yeah, that's true. But they both don't really have a choice gna gna.